Chapter 99: Seduction
I instinctively retracted my hand, not daring to touch the soft parts of her body. Gu Ruoyan took the opportunity to sit on my lap, and her hot and fragrant body nestled in my arms.
I opened my hands and said helplessly: "Manager, don't do this, this...is not appropriate."
Gu Ruoyan buried her head in my neck and said dissatisfiedly: "Why? You just said you would never leave me!"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Not leaving you and being like this, that's... not the same thing! If you do this, I'll... make a mistake."
"Then go ahead and do it! I... am willing to do it, and no one will sue you!" After saying this, Gu Ruoyan was too shy to raise her head. She could only hug me tighter, closing her eyes, as if she wanted me to pick her.
I am conflicted. If I forcefully push her away, it will inevitably hit her again and hurt her heart again. If I continue to be intimate with her, I... I can't say that I can stay calm, but my mind is clear. I can comfort and help her spiritually, but if it develops into a physical relationship, that is not what I want. And things will become more complicated. It will be extremely difficult to get out of it in one piece.
I still have to take precautions against some things, so that Gu Ruoyan won't get entangled and hurt herself. I thought about it and decided to tell her some things.
Just as I was about to speak, I heard Gu Ruoyan in my arms suddenly sigh and whisper, "Actually, I know you don't want to do this. You have someone you like in your heart. You treat me so well just out of gratitude and sympathy, right?"
I was stunned for a moment and said, "Manager..."
Gu Ruoyan finally raised her head, staring at me with resentful eyes, and said, "I know myself that I am a divorced woman, older than you, and I am not worthy of you at all. It's just that Tang Qian you are too good to me, you are too gentle, I can't control myself. Am I ridiculous like this?"
I had no choice but to call again: "Manager..."
Gu Ruoyan put her finger on my lips, signaling me not to say anything. Then she buried her head in my neck and said softly, "Don't worry, I won't monopolize you. I have made up my mind not to marry again in this life. I will never drag you down. If you want to date other girls, go ahead. I won't complain. As long as... as long as you can come to see me occasionally and comfort me, I will be satisfied."
The woman in my arms said those pitiful and pathetic words, which made me feel sad. This poor woman, I really couldn't ignore her. I thought to myself, I must think of a way to make her no longer rely on me to live, to make her regain the joy of life, fall in love with a man who is worthy of her trust, and regain happiness.
I hesitated for a moment, then slowly wrapped my arms around her unusually slender waist, and sighed, "Manager, why are you doing this? You could have had a happier life. You know very well that I can't give you anything!"
Gu Ruoyan felt me hugging her, and a satisfied smile appeared on her face. She turned her head, kissed my neck gently, and murmured, "It's okay, I didn't think of getting anything from you, I just need you to not abandon me and ignore me. If you don't mind my broken body, then... then I am willing to be your mistress, you can do whatever you want to me, just don't leave me!"
I smiled bitterly and said, "Manager! What are you talking about? How can I be worthy of such a good woman like you? How can I treat you as my mistress? How can I do that? Am I still a human being?"
Gu Ruoyan sat up straight from my arms, stared at me and said, "If you don't want to be my mistress, then are you willing to marry me? And take care of me forever?"
I was speechless and lowered my eyes, unable to look at her.
Gu Ruoyan sighed again and said, "Look! You don't want to do it anymore? But I don't mind. I just want to have you for a little while. I will never let anyone know. I will only be your secret lover. As long as you still care about me and give me hope in life, I am willing to give you everything for my whole life."
I couldn't believe that this cold and stern female boss could say such tender words. I felt sad and touched. Although I couldn't give her happiness, it would be too cruel if I didn't give her this hope.
I softened my heart. I will figure out a way to deal with the future later. At least now, I can't hurt her.
I knew I was going to make a big mistake, which might have an immeasurable impact on me in the future, but I was so moved that I didn't care about anything else. I reached out and hugged her tightly again, sighing, "You are so stupid! I will not abandon you, I will take care of you for the rest of my life..."
Gu Ruoyan was so happy that she cried again. She hugged my neck tightly with both hands again and cried softly in my arms. I stroked her hair and hugged her silently. For a moment, I didn't know whether I did it wrong or right.
I don't know how long I was silent, but I came to my senses and said, "Manager, it's almost dawn, you should go to bed. And you're wearing so little, don't catch a cold, go back to bed."
Gu Ruoyan hummed, and slowly stood up. She said in a low voice with a little shyness and expectation: "Tang Qian, tonight... don't leave, stay and accompany me!"
My heart moved and I understood what she meant, but I only had respect and pity for her. How could I do such a thing as taking advantage of someone in distress?
I said, "Manager..."
Before I finished speaking, Gu Ruoyan immediately covered my mouth with her hand and said, "I understand. I won't force you. I just want you to hold me while I sleep. It's been a long time. Except for the last time when you held me while I was drunk, I have never slept peacefully in the arms of the man I love. And I didn't feel anything that time, so it doesn't count. You don't know how painful it is for a woman of my age to sleep alone every night! I really want to sleep in your arms, feel your body temperature, your heartbeat, so that I can have a good dream happily. Tang Qian! Don't reject me, I really have no other intentions!"
I turned my head away from her hand and said, "But..."
But my mouth was covered by her again. Gu Ruoyan said, "I know! I've said it before, I'm willing to give everything for you, and you don't have to take responsibility. I know you're young and hot-blooded, and I'm afraid you won't be able to control yourself. If you really want to, I... I... I don't care what you do, it doesn't matter!"
It was really difficult! I knew that if I slept with her, no matter whether I had sex with her or not, I would no longer be able to regard her as just a leader who had done me a favor. She would become my woman. But... in my heart, I loved someone else!
Seeing her expectant eyes, I knew that she really, really wanted me to stay with her, but I was very hesitant. I couldn't sleep in the same bed with her without any objection in my heart.
Gu Ruoyan saw my hesitant expression, her eyes were full of disappointment, but she still did not give up, and said softly: "Just think of it as almsgiving to me, I know you have psychological barriers, you can't do anything to let your girlfriend down. But I really need you, just think of it as pitying me and helping me. Otherwise, you can wait until I fall asleep before leaving, and you don't have to stay here. I promise not to actively seduce you, as long as you can bear it, we can be a pure friendship, you don't have to bear any responsibility, and you don't have to feel guilty, okay? Tang Qian, please!"
I could only smile bitterly, thinking, isn't this considered seducing me? Can a man and a woman lying on the same bed just be a pure friendship? After all, I am a normal man!
I thought about it for a while with a sad face, and said, "Manager, how about this! I will sit by your bed and accompany you until you fall asleep before I leave, what do you think?"
"Just... sit on the edge of the bed?"
"I can only do so much. If I go any further, I'm not a saint and I'll make mistakes!"
Gu Ruoyan lowered her head and remained silent for a while. After a while, she raised her head and said reluctantly, "Okay, but I want you to hold me, otherwise I won't be able to sleep."
I said, "How can I hold you while I'm sitting on the bed?"
Gu Ruoyan jumped off my legs, dragged me by the hand and pulled me onto the bed, saying with a smile, "No matter what! You have to hold me anyway, come on!"
I had no choice but to let her drag me to the bedside and sit down. I thought to myself that I had already hugged her before, so I didn't care about hugging her for a little longer. I just hoped that she would fall asleep quickly so that I could go home early. Oh! It was really early, and it was almost dawn!
As soon as I sat down, Gu Ruoyan leaned over and took off my shoes. I said, "Why are you taking off my shoes? I'm not sleeping here!"
"Your shoes are so dirty, of course you have to take them off, otherwise how are you going to cover yourself with the quilt?"
"Who... who wants to cover the quilt?"
Gu Ruoyan ignored my protests! She forcibly took off my shoes and put both of my feet on the bed. Then she climbed onto the bed with a smile, pulled the quilt over her, and snuggled into my arms.
She straightened the quilt and covered me and her feet. Although I was sitting on the edge of the bed, what was the difference between this and lying on the bed with her ?
I could only smile bitterly. It seems that sometimes women's ways are beyond men's control. Because I had promised her that I would take care of her for the rest of her life, I had no choice but to accept these overly intimate behaviors. But Gu Ruoyan's next behavior surprised me even more.
She leaned into my arms, first pulling the quilt up to her chin, then reached out and grabbed my hands, pulling them over to hug her. Since she was lying down and I was sitting, I hugged her chest instead of her waist.
What's even worse is that she crossed my palms and placed them on her two unusually plump and bulging breasts. Where I touched, it felt soft and full. I was caught off guard and was stunned.
Oh my god! Oh my god! She just promised not to seduce me!
