Chapter 91 Hopeless Love (5)
Love? Love is unforgettable!
Don’t you love me? Love is so painful!
Zhou Cheng struggled repeatedly between love and not love. It was undeniable that he had never loved someone so intensely, nor had he been hurt so deeply by someone. So, how should he answer? He loved Yinyin, to the extent that he could not believe it, but at the same time he also hated Yinyin, hated Yinyin for hurting him so badly, hated Yinyin for being so heartless. But what could all this prove? Yes, nothing could be proved, nothing could be changed, nothing could be proved that he did not love Yinyin, and nothing could change the fact that he still loved Yinyin!
However, Zhou Cheng couldn't say it, couldn't answer Yin Yin's question. He could have seized this opportunity, why couldn't he say it? He still loved Yin Yin, didn't he? Why couldn't he say it? If he didn't say it, he would never have another chance. Why was it like this? Why did he think he wouldn't have another chance? Wasn't it? Didn't Yin Yin reject him like that before? Zhou Cheng was still struggling in his heart, struggling so hard that he didn't know the answer, struggling so hard that he even wanted to avoid it?
Yinyin clearly saw Zhou Cheng struggling, so she smiled bitterly. She knew Zhou Cheng had not forgotten her and even loved her, but Yinyin could not change anything. Even if she saw the pain in Zhou Cheng's heart, she could not comfort him and would even further expand his pain, just like...
"Isn't it good not to be in love? That way you won't feel any more pain. Once the pain is over, you can continue to look for a new relationship. This time, find someone who loves you just as much."
"Are you looking down on me?"
Zhou Cheng simply couldn't stand what Yin Yin said, and his anger seemed to explode at any time; however, even though he noticed Zhou Cheng's anger, Yin Yin remained calm and shook her head gently: "I don't know what position I occupy in your mind, but..."
While saying this, Yin Yin resolutely chose to look Zhou Cheng in the eye, which made Zhou Cheng a little surprised and a little shocked. Being stared at by Yin Yin like this made Zhou Cheng feel a little guilty?
"I'm not the first person you've loved, am I?"
Sure enough, there was no hesitation in Yin Yin's eyes, but Zhou Cheng was so caught up in her words that he unconsciously looked away because he could not refute what Yin Yin said.
"Since I'm not the first, and I don't want to be the last, you can forget your first love, so why bother clinging to me?"
Zhou Cheng suddenly realized whether Yinyin's words had a different meaning from his own. First love? Zhou Cheng knew it was the first person he loved, so should it be Ru Ting? Zhou Cheng hesitated in his heart. He had never thought about this question. Now when Yinyin asked him about it, he had almost completely forgotten Ru Ting, as if she had never appeared. But didn't he love her at the beginning? Love? The feeling was completely different from that for Yinyin. Was it because the feeling was different for different people?
Turning his gaze back to Yin Yin, thinking about Yin Yin's question again, Zhou Cheng smiled faintly, really smiled, Yin Yin saw it clearly, it was a self-mockery with contempt, what did Zhou Cheng think of? Yin Yin suddenly felt uneasy in her heart...
"You are really cruel."
This was Zhou Cheng’s first sentence after he made fun of himself, and just one sentence made Yin Yin’s heart tremble slightly.
"Even if you have forgotten, I can tell you that my feelings for her and you are different. But I also don't deny that I almost lost my mind when she died. Remember, it was just almost. What about you? You have made me lose my mind more than once. Does this explain your position in my heart?"
Yin Yin could see that there was no hesitation or lie in Zhou Cheng's eyes. He obviously didn't come here to know these things. This would only make Yin Yin feel that her guilt was even greater. Yin Yin lowered her head slightly and dared not look Zhou Cheng in the eye again.
"sorry."
"I don't want an apology, you should know that."
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"I know full well that you know what I'm talking about."
"Then can I assume that you don't hate me anymore?"
After a conversation, Zhou Cheng was the first to fall silent. Did he hate her? Zhou Cheng admitted that he hated her, but when did he stop hating her? When did he hate her so much that it broke his heart? What about now? Do you still hate her?
As a result, whether it was love or hate, Zhou Cheng couldn't answer it immediately? Why? Zhou Cheng also felt that he was very strange. Aren't these questions answered without thinking? Why couldn't he answer them?
"Can't you answer? Love or hate, since you can't answer, it proves that you have begun to forget me, right?"
Zhou Cheng was stunned, and tried his best to deny Yin Yin's words in his heart, but why couldn't he say it out loud?
"If that's the case, I think I'll be very happy. At least it's good for both you and me. When you completely forget your feelings for me, you can stand up . Don't go on. You are the king, the ruler of the Great Zhou. The Great Zhou needs you, and the people need you too. I don't believe you will abandon the country for your children's personal feelings. At least you make me think so now. So in my heart you are a responsible ruler, and I'm very happy. Only those who can separate state affairs from their children's personal feelings can be considered qualified rulers. In my opinion, you are one. Maybe this is why everyone has a different fate, and you and I are the same."
Yinyin's words sounded very strange, but there was nothing discordant about them. Why did Zhou Cheng feel so impatient? Rather than being impatient, it would be more accurate to say that he was angry. Why was he angry ? Yinyin's words were not wrong. Zhou Cheng tried hard to suppress the emotion in his body that could explode at any time, because he knew that once it exploded, something he could not predict would happen, and he might lose control...
