Chapter 9: Rift 2
"Common stomach disease?" He raised his voice and said, "Although the specific test results have not come out yet, according to our previous diagnosis, it is very likely to be stomach cancer."
Gastric cancer?
These two words instantly suffocated me.
Gigi Lai's screaming voice came from the side. She shouted in disbelief, "Impossible! Doctor, are you mistaken? How could my friend have stomach cancer?"
Hearing what Li Zi said, the doctor frowned imperceptibly and said, "How could we be wrong? The test results should be out this afternoon. You should notify your family first, and I will come back this afternoon to tell you the details."
After the young doctor left, the ward fell silent for a moment.
I don’t know how long it took, but Gigi suddenly burst into tears, and her cries touched my heart. She ran over and hugged me, saying, “How could this happen? Why did it become like this?”
This is probably what they call fate. When I feel I am getting close to happiness, it is suddenly pulled so far away.
Gastric cancer, this is something I had never thought about.
I have seldom been sick since I was a child, but I never thought that when I did get sick it would be so serious.
I hugged Gigi Lai who was still crying, and tears gathered in my eyes.
The young doctor came again in the afternoon and brought my medical report, which clearly stated that my condition was terminal.
The world seemed to have become deathly silent at that moment. Gigi Lai only dared to sob quietly out of consideration for my feelings.
I don't know how much time had passed before I closed my eyes, which had already become sore, and said to Gigi Lai, "Please help me contact my dad."
Please forgive me, forgive me for not having the courage to tell him this sad news in person.
Li Zi nodded, and just as she walked to the door, I called her back. I thought for a moment and said, "Don't tell Chen Qiaoluo about this for now. I don't want him to worry."
I know that Gigi Lai has been in contact with Chen Qiaoluo for these years, and told him everything about me. But I don't want him to know this one thing. It's too late for me to participate in his future happiness. So the only thing I can do now is to let him think that I really don't want to be with him, at least he won't have to face the pain of losing me in the future.
I had already experienced that kind of despair when Guyu left, and Chen Qiaoluo is the person I love the most, so how could I bear to see him suffer like this?
Seeing my request, Gigi Lai didn't say anything else, but just kept nodding her head.
That night, Gigi Lai and I lay on the same hospital bed. Neither of us spoke, but I could still feel her shoulders shaking in the middle of the night. I knew she was crying, but I didn't know how to comfort her.
Dad came back early the next morning. His eyes were red because he hadn't slept all night and had been traveling all the way. As soon as he saw me, he hugged me in his arms. He hugged me very tightly, as if he wanted to rub me into his bones and blood.
My nose felt sore and I couldn't help crying again.
Aunt Shen followed him in. When she saw us like this, she stood at the door with tears streaming down her face.
I don’t know how long it was before my dad let me go. He said with a choked voice, “Hello Zhu Yun, you disobedient child. Who told you not to be able to take care of yourself? I’ve only been away for a short time. How did you get yourself into this state? How am I going to live in the future…”
My dad went from being very angry at first to bursting into tears later.
When I saw him like this, I couldn't hold back any more and burst into tears. I sobbed and said incoherently, "Dad, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
Yes, if I were to say who I feel the most sorry for in this world, it would definitely be my dad. He raised me for so many years, and before I had the chance to serve him, he, an old man with gray hair, had to send me off. This is probably the saddest thing in life. I think I must have not known how to cherish myself before, so God has to punish me so badly.
I stayed in the hospital for a week. During this week, Gigi Lai came to see me almost every day, and my father stayed by my side to take care of me. But in just seven days, my father seemed to have aged ten years in an instant.
The hospital is probably the most despairing place in the world, where too many people die every day. The doctor told us that if I had surgery for my disease, the survival rate would be less than 3%, but if I just waited, I could still survive for at least a year.
From this moment on, I knew where my life was going to end, but I suddenly no longer felt afraid.
I told my dad that I wanted to go home and didn't want to stay in the hospital. Although he was a little worried, he finally agreed to my request.
I know he wants to satisfy all my requests while I am alive.
I dropped out of school and would accompany Aunt Shen to buy groceries every day and learn how to cook from her.
When I cooked a meal for my dad for the first time, he cried like a baby at the table. It was then that I realized how ignorant I was before. Not only did I not know how to take care of him, but I also kept causing trouble for him.
Fortunately, this disease has made me understand so much. It has made me realize that the person who loves me the most in this world is always my father.
Dad asked me if I wanted to tell Mom about my illness. I was stunned for a moment and then agreed. In the past two years, I no longer hate her as much as before. We both have our own lives and happiness. As for the things in the past, they seem to have been lost in the long river of time with the wind.
My mother rushed back from abroad the next day. The moment she saw me, she hugged me in her arms.
It was more than ten years before I got this hug again. It was then that I realized that the so-called hatred could never beat the deep affection in our bones. My heart ached and I couldn't help crying.
My mother cried and complained about the unfairness of God. She said that she often thought of me over the years, but she was afraid that I would not forgive her.
I know that my dad has been in contact with her over the years and would tell her about my situation from time to time. But I used to turn a blind eye and pretend I didn't know. Even when my dad tentatively mentioned her to me, I just brushed it off.
Now seeing her like this, I just feel that I was so unfilial in the past.
My mother took a long leave to take care of me, but I didn't think it was necessary. After accompanying her to travel in City A for a few days, I asked her to go back quickly. My future can no longer be changed, and I don't want everyone to be sad with me. This may be the last thing I can do.
After seeing my mother off at the airport, I took a taxi back home alone. At this time, I suddenly wanted to go ice skating, so I called my dad and told him that I would be back later, and then I went directly to Xu Xuan's skating rink.
It seems that every time I come here, there are very few people here. The service desk has been replaced. I pay the fee and change my shoes to slide on the ice by myself. When Xu Xuan appeared, I had been playing by myself for more than half an hour. When I saw him coming, I stopped and smiled, "I thought I might not see you today, but I didn't expect you to show up."
Ever since I found out that there is no cure for my disease, I am too lazy to worry about it anymore. The most important thing is to enjoy life while I am still alive.
Seeing me say this, Xu Xuan also smiled and said jokingly: "I don't know what's going on. I didn't plan to come here, but there was a voice in my heart telling me that I should come and see you. I found you here when I came here. I think this should be the so-called telepathy. Don't you think so? Hello, Zhu Jun."