Chapter 9: A Stunning Encounter Four
Perhaps sensing that the atmosphere between Hua Ziyin and I was a bit weird, Xu Yun looked at me, her thin lips moved, but she never said a word.
He silently placed the cooked porridge on the coffee table in front of the sofa, then took his coat and walked towards the door. The moment his slender fingers touched the door handle, he turned around and softly said to Hua Ziyin, "I'll go first." But his eyes were looking straight at me.
I could see the loneliness in his eyes, but I ended up trying to avoid it by pretending to look at my phone.
I lowered my head, feeling that every second seemed like a year, as if a long century had passed, before I heard his light sigh, and then the sound of the door closing gently. My heart suddenly tightened. This kind of situation always gave me a slight illusion, as if he was not closing the door, but his own heart.
Hua Ziyin lowered her head to drink her porridge without even raising her eyelids, and said in a muffled voice: "He's gone."
"Oh." I answered blankly, "Did you call him here on purpose? You knew I would come with Xiaoyuan."
"Yes, test whether you really like him as you say." He looked at me, "Why? You don't want to pursue him?"
"Yes. Of course I'm going to chase him." I got up to pack my phone and bag, deliberately delaying time. I estimated that Xu Yun was almost far away, so I said goodbye to Xiaoyuan.
I walked out of the apartment building slowly. I don't know when it started to drizzle again. Dusk fell and the street lights in the distance lit up. I walked out of the community and turned to the nearest bus stop. I saw Xu Yun standing next to the platform.
He must have been waiting for me, but he hesitated the moment he saw me.
Finally, he took two steps forward and said to me, "I'm sorry, Xihe, I swore that I would never see you again. I know that you will think of Hexue when you see me, I'm sorry..." He lowered his head when he said this, like a child who had made a mistake.
My heart suddenly ached: "It's okay, I know you didn't mean it."
"No!" He suddenly looked up at me, his eyes full of guilt and sadness, "I did it on purpose, Xihe. When Hua Ziyin called me, I guessed that you might come. But I lied to myself and said that it wouldn't be such a coincidence, maybe we would miss each other's time. In fact, I have always been looking forward to running into you, to seeing you again. It's all my fault for being too selfish and putting you in this difficult situation. Don't worry, I will never let myself meet you again in the future."
I was stunned, and my heart ached slightly because of his frankness, because he loved someone as humbly as Hexue.
He suddenly came over and hugged me tightly, then stepped back and said, "Well, this time, it's really goodbye, Xihe."
After he finished speaking, he turned around and walked away quickly as if escaping.
Almost involuntarily, I took a step forward, wanting to chase after him.
The moment I turned sideways, I saw Hua Ziyin not far away.
He stood in the orange light of a street lamp in the distance, with a tree of white tung flowers quietly blooming beside him. The raindrops became denser at this time, and the tung flowers on the tree moved with the wind, and the shadows of the flowers fell deeply and lightly on his handsome eyebrows.
For a moment, I felt that Hua Ziyin, who was looking at me from afar, seemed transparent, as if she would disappear in the night wind if I touched her.
He just looked at me with empty eyes through the rain, the open umbrella in his hand fell to the ground, the rain kept flowing down his hair and chin, but he didn't care, as if he had been standing there for a century, as if he had already turned into a sculpture.
Maybe my expression was too weird, he came to his senses, walked over quickly, put the umbrella over my head, and yelled at me with red eyes: "Song Xihe, why are you so stupid? Song Xihe..."
I was stunned. His eyes seemed to be spitting fire, but the anger was clearly not directed at me, but more at himself.
After a roar, he seemed to have suddenly had all his strength sucked out of him. His voice got stuck in his throat, and he sobbed like a trapped animal: "After that incident, you forced yourself to eat like crazy, and gained 50 kilograms in just a few months; you changed your name and lived as Hexue; you traveled thousands of miles to City C, trying every means to fulfill Hexue's wish; you tortured yourself in various ways... I only then realized that you approached Xu Yun in order to fulfill Hexue's dream. It turned out that I was wrong. You were not pretending to like Xu Yun, you really liked Xu Yun, right? Song Xihe, do you know how stupid you are? You have punished yourself enough, and now you want to punish yourself and stay away from the person you like because of Hexue? Well, let me tell you..." He stopped and took a deep breath, as if he had made a huge decision, "I tell you, you chose the wrong person for your design, and you hated the wrong person. Because the person Hexue likes is not Xu Yun, but me."
