Chapter 8: The March to St. John three
The good relationship with An Yixuan made me feel very happy. Every day at home, besides eating, drinking and having fun, I also learned to make small things, such as cross stitch. I embroidered several key chains to give to An Yixuan, but I was afraid that An Yixuan would laugh at me. I also learned to fold a lot of small stars, and wrote a sentence in each star. Although I learned these from TV dramas, I still did it very carefully. I just thought it was too hypocritical and didn't give it to An Yixuan.
I worked so hard to make something for An Yixuan because I knew his birthday was coming soon and I didn’t want to spend money on those tacky birthday gifts. I wanted to make something unique for him so that he would remember me. I also wanted to celebrate his birthday with him every year in the future.
After searching for a long time, I still couldn't find a gift that I really liked. Unfortunately, Taobao wasn't very developed 10 years ago, and as a minor, I couldn't shop online, so I had to go shopping in physical stores. Finally, I found a satisfactory gift, a handmade leather keychain with a cursive English inscription "you are the best" engraved on it. I thought it was very meaningful, so I bought a pair. I plan to give one to An Yixuan on his birthday, and I will keep the other one. One day in the future, I will let him see that I am using the same keychain, hehe... Then I will pretend to be stupid, he is so smart that he will definitely figure it out. We are using a pair of keychains, it must be very romantic!
After choosing the birthday gift, I waited for An Yixuan's call. Considering our current relationship, it was normal for him to inform me of his birthday. Sure enough, he sent me a text message the day before his birthday.
"Would you like to come out and sing together tomorrow afternoon?" His tone was very natural, and he didn't mention his birthday.
I sent him a message asking, "Where are you singing, and who else is going?"
"It's my birthday tomorrow and my classmates want to get together. Do you want to come? It's at Coco KTV." The other party waited for a while before replying.
"Happy birthday, I will definitely go to your birthday party!" I was so happy in my heart. His classmates celebrated his birthday with him and also called me. Does it prove that I have a certain position in his heart?
The next day, I dressed up nicely, wearing a light pink dress and light makeup, looking pretty and lively at my age. Looking in the mirror, I was quite satisfied with my outfit.
With the gift I prepared for An Yixuan, I came to Mai Keke KTV. The noisy music filled my eardrums. Those nostalgic songs were still popular now. I found An Yixuan's private room and opened the door. There were many people I didn't know sitting inside. An Yixuan was sitting next to a girl, and that girl was Yayi who had confessed to him before. My mood was depressed in an instant. An Yixuan quickly stood up to greet me, and my smile was a little awkward.
"This is for you. Happy birthday." I handed the gift to An Yixuan and stood at the door, wondering whether to go in.
"Come in and sit down." An Yixuan pulled me to the sofa at the back and sat down. He held the gift in his ear and shook it, smiling and asking, "What is it?"
"Open it and take a look. It's just a small thing." I secretly looked at Yayi. She was wearing a short skirt and long boots today. She had a charming beauty. She was chatting and smiling with the people around her. I bit my lip, and an uncomfortable feeling filled my heart.
"What's wrong?" An Yixuan patted my shoulder. "Are you feeling unwell?" he asked with concern.
"No, maybe I slept a little late last night." I rubbed my head. "You go and have fun, you don't have to take care of me." I found a comfortable seat on the sofa. I didn't want to disturb his good mood, but I couldn't be happy.
"An Yixuan, why don't you introduce yourself to me?" a male classmate started to make a fuss.
"My friend, Sakiko, stop joking around." An Yixuan pointed at me and said.
I forced a smile and greeted everyone: "Hello."
"An Yixuan, your song is here, it's Mayday's Angel. " A boy said, pointing at the song that popped up on the screen.
An Yixuan excitedly ran over to take the microphone and sing. His voice was very clean, and his tone was melodious and pleasant. He has always been a good singer and he even won first prize in a singing competition in college.
My mind was still on Yayi. I didn't know when they got in touch again. I thought An Yixuan rejected her and the matter was over, but it turned out not to be! In fact, An Yixuan didn't reject her directly that day. What kind of relationship do they have now? I looked at An Yixuan singing happily, with such an intoxicated expression. I suddenly felt a familiar and strange feeling. An Yixuan once said that he was ignorant in high school and dating was just like playing . He hurt many girls, especially Yayi. Will anything change now?
"An Yixuan, tell me the truth, how many girlfriends did you have in high school?" I asked An Yixuan like an interrogator.
An Yixuan raised his hands in surrender: "I was young and didn't understand love at that time. It was all for fun. I did date, but it was all fleeting. I let down a lot of girls. There was nothing I could do about it. Who made me so outstanding in high school!" As he spoke, he actually felt a sense of complacency.
"You are quite proud of yourself, aren't you? You have hurt so many girls, you are such a nuisance!" I pointed at his nose and scolded him with a coquettish smile.
"I'm not proud, but at that time, there were too many girls chasing me, and I also felt that when studying was boring, I needed something interesting to relieve the pressure! The one who impressed me the most was Yayi. She was beautiful and had a good personality. It was a pity to break up with her."
"Then go find her." I blinked and said with a smile, but my smile became colder and colder.
"No, I only love you now." An Yixuan hugged me in his arms, "Why do you girls like to pursue the past so much?"
At that time, I only felt at ease and happy in An Yixuan's arms. I really didn't care about the past. It was enough that he was mine now.
But, I am experiencing all this now, how can I turn a blind eye? My presence did not stop those girls from showing up. Would An Yixuan be with Yayi just because he was bored or to relieve stress?
What is An Yixuan thinking now? Is he still so proud of being pursued by girls? In his eyes, how am I different from those girls who pursued Yayi? The more I think about it, the colder I feel. Am I also one of the girls who was let down? Is he just playing with me? Has he never thought of rejecting Yayi? My face turned paler and paler. Everything he said back then is so similar to what is happening now.
"What's wrong with you? You look very bad." I don't know when An Yixuan finished singing and sat back next to me. He handed me a bottle of drink and asked with concern.
I glanced at him and asked unhappily, "You also called Yayi, are you still in touch?"
"Yai is my classmate. We just happened to have nothing to do today so we came together. What's wrong?" An Yixuan looked at me innocently and said.
" It's nothing, I just didn't know you were still in touch." I was a little angry, but I also knew that I was being unreasonable and I just couldn't control my emotions.
"What's wrong with you? Did Yayi offend you? Why can't I contact her?" An Yixuan asked me with raised eyebrows, as if I had said something wrong.
I pouted and tried to control my emotions and voice: "Nothing, I thought she confessed to you that day and you rejected her so we stopped contacting each other."
"We haven't been in touch much, but she is my classmate after all. We see each other every day. Should I ignore her forever? Some of her friends are here today. We are all classmates. Why are you angry?" An Yixuan asked in confusion.
"You are classmates and I am an outsider. I have no right to be angry. You guys have fun. I'm leaving first." I picked up my bag and prepared to leave.
"Xizi, could you please stop being so unreasonable?" An Yixuan also became angry.
"I'm not being unreasonable. I'm sorry." I lowered my head aggrievedly. "I have something else to do. I want to leave."
"Are you okay? Yayi and I are really just classmates." An Yixuan held my arm and whispered in my ear, "Please don't be upset, okay?"
"I don't want to make trouble with you, really... Maybe it's my own fault. Maybe I didn't sleep well, or maybe it's too noisy here. I feel a little uncomfortable now. I want to go home. Is that okay?" I looked at him and said.
"Then I'll take you out." An Yixuan took my coat and walked with me outside the KTV.
The cold wind blowing in my face made me sober up a lot, but the feeling of heartache was still very strong. I said goodbye to An Yixuan listlessly.
"Be careful on the road and text me when you get home." An Yixuan looked at me, as if he wanted to say something but stopped.
I didn't say anything else, just waved at him, and watched him walk back into the KTV, then I sighed heavily. I dragged my heavy body and walked slowly, not quite knowing where I was going. I just wanted to cry but couldn't, and wanted to ask but didn't have the right to ask. I'm just his friend, what right do I have to question him? If An Yixuan is really a playboy who plays with the world now, should I still jump in? There is still such a long time before we can grow up!
