Jingyan left, but what happened that day was not closed because there was still no news of Li Ye.
"Li Ye, are you okay coming back? I'm worried about you."
"Li Ye, I always thought you were very smart, but I didn't expect you to be so timid!"
"Li Ye, come back and face your mistakes bravely, okay? Jingyan said she might forgive you..."
"Li Ye, all my friends have left me, all the people I care about have left me, I don't want anything to happen to you... Can you come back?"
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It seems that leaving messages to Li Ye every day has become a habit of mine. The first thing I do when I wake up every day is to open WeChat. But every time my expectations turn into disappointment. After that time he said he didn't want to go to jail, he never replied to me again.
Li Ye's house is a two-story building near the street. It is a private house left over from the renovation of the old city. Li Ye said that he lived very close to Xingfu Community, but I had never been there. I didn't expect that the first time I came here, I was looking for Li Ye who was not here at all.
Looking at the dust on the security door, I knew that no one had been here for a long time. But I really hoped that Li Ye would suddenly jump out from inside, open the door, look at me with his naughty smile, and say, "Yi Ping'an, why are you standing at my door like an idiot?"
After Jingyan’s accident, Li Ye never updated his Weibo again.
I looked through my visitor records on Weibo and found that after I met Li Ye, he would visit my Weibo almost every day, and there would be traces of him in every mood diary.
It turns out that he had known for a long time that I had a crush on He Xubei, and he had been "spying" on my thoughts.
Now, since Jingyan's accident, he has never read my Weibo. But since Li Ye disappeared, my Weibo has added a person named "Lifelong Peace". He is just like Li Ye in the past, he visits my Weibo every day, even many times a day.
I clicked on the Weibo of "一生平安" and found only one Weibo post:
"I'm sorry for her. When she didn't forgive me, I was sorry for her again. I think I can't draw a turtle on her face anymore, and I will never see her again in this life. Will she forget me? It's okay if she forgets me. If I can withdraw from her life, I hope that I will no longer appear in her memory..."
I watched it three times, and a voice in my heart kept saying, "Peaceful life" is Li Ye!
Tears flowed uncontrollably, but I couldn't cry out loud.
I immediately opened WeChat. I wanted to see if Li Ye had updated anything on WeChat.
WeChat reminds me that there is a voice message——
"Yi Ping'an, even though it's useless to say sorry a lot, I still want to say 'I'm sorry'. This is what I have done. It's not that I don't want to come back, but I don't dare to face you. I don't know how to face you. In addition to sorry, I don't know what else to say. I just hope you forget me, forget me, a person who should not appear in your life... Yi Ping'an, I wish you happiness, and forever happiness and peace in a world without Li Ye."
Li Ye's voice was trembling in the voice chat. I wanted to reply to him, but it showed that I had been blocked and deleted by him!
I kept listening to this voice clip, and I finally cried out loud...
Li Ye, maybe it's not your fault! It's me!
You may be a little bit bad, you always like to play tricks on me, you always bully your classmates, but I know you are not a bad person by nature. I shouldn't say that you deliberately let go of He Xubei and let him fall. Why did I only see how dangerous He Xubei was, but didn't see how hard you were trying to save him!
I now realize that I was totally wrong.
I am too cowardly in relationships. If I had told He Xubei that I liked him at the beginning, whether he accepted it or not, at least I would have seen the result. Instead of now when he said he liked me too, it was too late for everything...
But is He Xubei right? If he really likes me, why didn't he say it earlier? Isn't he just a coward in love like me, who doesn't even have the courage to say love!
What about Jingyan? Jingyan, who dares to love and hate, didn't she boldly confess to Li Ye? But what she got was a ruthless rejection.
Maybe we are both right, but we are just too persistent in our feelings.