Chapter 8 Dusk is Coming 01
Ever since I rejected Ji Chuan's offer to get back together, he has never contacted me again, and I no longer have any expectations of him. After all, lost memories can be relived, but what has happened can never be undone.
Just when I thought everything was over, Li Jiawei found me and wanted to invite me to a coffee shop to chat. But what could I say to her, so I rejected her request at that time.
Li Jiawei was no longer as arrogant as she was in the milk tea shop last time. She lowered her eyebrows and looked submissive, with tears in her eyes. She covered her mouth and sobbed softly, while choking as she explained to me: "Wen Ya, I came to you this time to tell you that nothing has ever happened between Ji Chuan and me. It has always been my wishful thinking. I like him and want to be with him, so I have always been more proactive."
"What do you mean by telling me this now? Do you want me to stay away from Ji Chuan? I'm sorry, Ji Chuan and I are over. We are not even friends now. If you want to come to me to show your ownership, I think you have found the wrong person. Maybe you should notify all single women on the school radio to stay away from Ji Chuan. Maybe only in this way can you prevent trouble before it happens."
After I finished speaking, I couldn't help but snort coldly and looked at Li Jiawei expressionlessly. She didn't seem to take my words to heart. Her eyes just gradually dimmed , and then she said with a bitter face: "No, Wen Ya, I just know now that the person Ji Chuan really likes is you. Do you know that he is so sad that he can only numb himself with alcohol every day? I beg you, okay? Please forgive Ji Chuan, don't let him be so sad anymore. It really hurts my heart to see him so sad. I wish I could feel the pain for him, but I am not you, and I can never replace you."
I shook my head and sneered, "Li Jiawei, you are wrong. My position is not irreplaceable. Didn't you replace it before? Isn't it a bit contradictory to say this now? I know the current situation, unlike some people. I will never do such a wicked and heartless thing. Just rest assured and be with your Ji Chuan. I wish you happiness."
"Wen Ya, I know that what I said to you before was a bit excessive, but this time I sincerely ask you to have pity on Ji Chuan and persuade him to stop torturing himself like this. Now only your words can be listened to by him." Li Jiawei's tears fell as she spoke, and she looked like she was extremely sad.
"We have broken up. What does it matter to me what happens to him?"
Li Jiawei originally wanted to say something else, but when she saw me say that, she just lowered her head and said nothing. I didn't want to waste time with her like this, so I turned around and continued walking forward with my head held high.
I was not sad at all, and I did not feel that I had to forgive Ji Chuan after listening to Li Jiawei's request.
Not long after, word spread around the school that Ji Chuan had publicly denied his relationship with Li Jiawei. Gossipers even described the situation vividly, saying that Li Jiawei cried and begged Ji Chuan to be with her, but Ji Chuan pushed her away without even turning his head.
I don’t know how exaggerated the rumors are, nor do I know whether what is circulating in the school is true or false. The only thing I know is that these rumors about Ji Chuan have nothing to do with me anymore.
With the complete end of my relationship with Ji Chuan, I no longer have any ties, and I have also bid farewell to the memory that I always can't help but think of.
Maybe this is a new beginning. Maybe in the days to come I will become a better person and meet someone who is more suitable for me.
Yao Yizhou is still by my side like a flower protector. We are getting more and more in tune with each other. He always takes care of things that I want before me. There is less and less communication between him and me. As the days go by, everything Yao Yizhou does for me is more and more in line with my wishes. When I am still thinking about what to do, he has already done it. It really makes me feel relaxed.
We go to school together and go home together. Yao Yizhou would send me home every day, buy breakfast for me as before, take notes for me in class, mark the key points for me before the exam, review with me, go to the library with me, and buy me all the food I want to eat. These ordinary and simple little things make me feel extremely warm.
In fact, I really can't deny that the reason I rejected Yao Yizhou is because I feel I can't afford to lose him again. But when I really accepted Yao Yizhou in my heart, I couldn't say a word of rejection anymore. I could only acquiesce to everything happening naturally and let everything happen naturally.
As my homework was very tight, Yao Yizhou stopped going to the milk tea shop, and I also quit my job there. Besides going to school, I spent more and more time at home. What surprised me the most was that after I was depressed for a long time and did some incomprehensible and absurd things, my relationship with my father gradually eased. When I was with him at home, I never confronted him. Sometimes, my father would even ask me a few questions with an unnatural expression when I came home or had dinner, and he would say a few words of concern.
Gradually, I felt the changes in my father and his sincerity towards me. Perhaps he was not as prickly as I had imagined, and he did not hate me as much as I had imagined.
Family love is really strange. When you try every means to get closer to someone, you become more afraid of losing them, and you often try every means to declare your ownership to others. Over time, such family love turns into mutual harm. But family love is often just a word of comfort or a word of concern, which can erase all the barriers.
My resentment towards my father gradually dissolved and faded away in these seemingly small and simple words of concern. Perhaps the breakup with Ji Chuan was an opportunity that taught me to let go and stop being obsessed.
I spent more and more time at home, and had more and more free time. Soon I found that Wen Shaoye seemed to be avoiding me all the time. Basically, except for meal time, he was almost never with me. I didn't know why he was avoiding me so deliberately, and then I remembered that he had let Ji Chuan in not long ago, and I immediately made up my mind to find out the truth about this matter.
At dinner time, Wen Shaoye was about to leave after dinner, but I quickly stood up, grabbed his arm, and dragged him to the kitchen.
"Wen Shaoye, why are you always avoiding me recently? Did you do something bad?"
I frowned and asked Wen Shaoye in a cold tone, but he looked impatient and tried to break free from my hand. Seeing him like this, I immediately grabbed his arm tightly.
Wen Shaoye seemed reluctant to my questioning. He turned his head and said unhappily, "It's none of your business what I do!"
I was surprised by Wen Shaoye's high attitude, but I didn't want to argue with him at home. After all, I didn't know what had happened. I could only be patient and sneer at his words: "Wen Shaoye, it's not that I want to control you, I'm just warning you, don't let me catch you doing anything shameful!"
It seemed that my words frightened Wen Shaoye, he took a few steps back, broke free from my hand and ran away. I didn't chase him, and I didn't tell my father and that woman about Wen Shaoye's strange behavior.
However, my warning seemed to have some effect. In the following period of time, Wen Shaoye seemed to have returned to normal and no longer avoided me. However, he suddenly became silent and taciturn, and rarely talked to his family. He always lowered his head to eat silently, and after eating, he sat in the living room to watch TV, his eyes were dull, and I didn't know what he was thinking about, which made people unpredictable.
I noticed the change in Wen Shaoye, but I didn't take it to heart. I just thought it was the beginning of his rebellious period and I didn't bother to ask about his affairs.
Many times later, whenever I thought of this incident, I always felt remorseful , and thought countless times in my heart that if I had cared more about him at that time, those heartbreaking things would not have happened. However, time is always cruel. It will not give us the opportunity to reverse the past, but only teach us what is reality and what is cruel.
