Chapter 8 Dusk 2
When I heard her mention Chen Qiaoluo, my eyes couldn't help but well up. In the mist rising from the teacup, my tears finally fell into the cup drop by drop.
Seeing me like this, Aunt He Pei just sighed and said, "I know you and our A'Luo are good friends, and our A'Luo likes you too. Hello, Yun, I know you are a good girl, and A'Luo has changed a lot since I met you. I don't know what happened between you, but I believe you can definitely solve it."
After listening to Aunt He Pei's words, I couldn't hold back any longer and burst into tears while hugging her.
I think if it weren't for me, Chen Qiaoluo wouldn't have gone to City X alone; if it weren't for me, the mother and son who depended on each other wouldn't have been separated. I'm such an asshole that I didn't trust Chen Qiaoluo that much.
Since I found out about this, I have tried to contact Chen Qiaoluo again several times, but after entering the phone number, I couldn't press the call button.
I don’t know what I’m afraid of. Maybe I’m just afraid to face him, afraid to face my previous distrust of him.
Two years passed in the blink of an eye. During these two years, I still went to the hospital frequently to visit Guyu and Guyu's mother.
Originally the doctor said that Guyu’s mother would not live long, but perhaps because she was worried about Guyu, she has managed to hold on until now.
Guyu's condition still didn't improve. I would tell him what happened to me at school, and I would tell him that Chen Qiaoluo didn't mean to ignore him. Over and over again, it seemed that this was the only way to make me feel better.
I visit Aunt He Pei every other week. Since she changed her job as a cashier, she has become more cheerful, but she still complains to me sadly that Chen Qiaoluo hasn't come back yet.
Yes, it has been two years since he left without saying goodbye, but he has never come back once.
Sometimes I wonder if he still hates me, and what kind of new life he has over there.
Dad decided to take Aunt Shen on a global trip. He quit his job and talked to me about many things the day before he left. He said that I had grown up and could try to walk the next road alone. No matter what, as long as I still needed him, he would come back to me immediately.
I laughed at his pretentiousness, but I was deeply moved. I think this is my dad, a man who truly loves me, cares for me, and spoils me.
My father has been gone for more than a month, and during this period I could receive his video calls anytime and anywhere. Every time I picked up the phone, the scenery behind him was very different. I knew he wanted to tell me in this way that he had never left.
It is already 2013, I have successfully entered my third year of college, and two years have passed since Guyu's accident. In the past two years, Guyu has become a responsibility on my shoulders, a responsibility that I cannot shake off or give up.
I have dreamed of him waking up countless times, but when I woke up, he was still lying on that cold and lonely hospital bed. Sometimes I wonder if that thing hadn't happened, he would have grown up by now. With his grades, his future would have been so bright, but why did he leave so sadly?
I received a call from Guyu's mother in the hospital in early November. She was crying breathlessly on the other end of the phone.
I panicked, and a sense of uneasiness slowly came over me. I didn't dare to urge Guyu's mother, and could only listen to her intermittent words in agony: "Yun is fine, not fine, the doctor just told me that Xiaoyu is in critical condition."
The whole world seemed to be turned off and plunged into darkness at this moment.
I forgot how I got to the hospital. When I stumbled into Guyu's ward, he was no longer there.
A nurse walked past me, and I grabbed her wrist and asked in despair, "Where is the patient in bed 32? Where did he go?"
When I rushed to the operating room, Guyu's mother was already there. She was in a very bad mood, and a nurse was standing beside her to take care of her. When she saw me, she couldn't help but burst into tears. She said, "Yun, what should I do? What should I do?"
I patted the back of her hand comfortingly and said, "It's okay. Everything will be okay."
Yes, Guyu is so good, how could God be willing to take his life so early.
At this moment, time seemed to slow down.
I forgot how much time had passed before the fear in my heart began to consume me bit by bit.
Finally, the red light in the operating room went out, the door opened, and then a group of people walked out.
Guyu's mother almost stumbled over and asked the doctor, "Doctor, how is my son?"
I saw the doctor's eyelids droop slightly, and his anxiety gradually grew at that moment. He took off his mask with his hands and said apologetically: "I'm so sorry, we have tried our best, but the patient's condition is really too bad, please accept my condolences."
As soon as he finished speaking, Guyu's mother fainted because she couldn't accept this fact. Someone rushed over and took her away, leaving me standing there alone.
The wind blew through the hall, and my heart ached so much that I felt like I was dying.
I don’t understand why such a good person like Guyu left this world like this. He should have had a brighter future.
For three days, Guyu's mother was in tears. No matter what I said to her, she seemed to be unable to hear me. The doctor said that if she continued like this, her body would not be able to bear it. Although I was worried, I had no way to help her. The pain of losing a loved one was too much to bear.
I didn't dare to go see Guyu again. I didn't dare to see him lying in the cold morgue. I was afraid that would make me collapse. I felt as if as long as I didn't go, Guyu would not be dead. He just stayed in a place where I couldn't see him, still breathing the air of this world.
I was deceiving myself like this, so much so that when Gigi Lai saw me like this, she wanted to slap me awake. Her tone was full of sorrow, and she said: "Zhu Yun, you can just ruin yourself. You don't take yourself seriously, and I don't want to care about you anymore. But you have to think clearly, does Guyu really want you to be like this? If he saw you like this, I think he would be uneasy in heaven."
I don't know how Guyu will live, I only know that I am living a life worse than death. I have experienced separation in life, but I didn't expect to have to face the separation in death now.
After a week of despair, Guyu's mother finally accepted the fact. She called me over and asked me to take care of Guyu's funeral. She said Guyu had suffered a lot since childhood and now he could finally rest well.
I didn't say anything, just remained silent and sad.
It was a sunny day and Guyu's mother looked very good that day.
This was the first time I had seen Guyu's body in such a long time, and he was so quiet. I told myself not to cry in front of Guyu's body, because I was afraid that he would be worried because of this.
Guyu's mother placed his ashes in the cemetery she had bought. The feng shui of the land was said to be very good, surrounded by lush trees. The man who sold the cemetery said that this place was suitable for the dead to rest in peace and could also bless him to go to heaven.
Guyu's mother and I sat in front of his grave for a long time, and neither of us spoke.
I lowered my head, and many memories of my time with Guyu flashed through my mind. I remembered the first time I confessed to him, the scene when he came to me because of Chen Qiaoluo, and so many scenes, so many that I burst into tears.
When I came out of my memories, it was already dusk and a cold wind was blowing. I glanced at Guyu's mother, and she still maintained the same posture.
The evening breeze in November had already turned cold, and Guyu's mother's health had not been good. Thinking of this, I called her and prepared to leave.
I shouted several times, but she didn't respond. In an instant, fear swept through my body.
I forgot how I walked in front of her, but when I saw her clearly, her face was already blue.
I kept calling her name over and over, but the only response I got was the empty and lonely sound of the wind.
Despair flooded over me like a rising tide, and even breathing became difficult. Just when I thought I was about to die, a pair of hands held up my falling body.
At the moment I fainted, I saw Chen Qiaoluo's eyes full of worry.
When I woke up again, I was surrounded by white walls. I tilted my head and saw Gigi Lai sobbing beside me.
