Chapter 8 As long as he wants me to be with him, I am willing to stay here for him 1
"Yingning, don't worry, I won't let anything happen to you." An Lengxi looked at me and comforted me, but he looked very painful, as if he was injured.
Is he here to save me?
I suddenly felt that this was like a game - a game of saving the princess, where the princess was captured by the devil and then the prince came to save her.
"Yingning... Kaka!" An Lengxi coughed twice and smiled, "Don't worry, they don't dare to do anything to me, otherwise my father won't let them go."
"Yes! But as long as we eat her, we will no longer be bound by hell. Young Master, you should go back!"
The person who was speaking seemed to be their leader. He had hair that was red to purple and was extremely charming.
"I will never leave." An Lengxi said calmly.
Soon, many flames ignited around. An Lengxi was injured but still fighting, but my heart was like a pool of stagnant water, without any ripples.
"An Lengxi, why did you save me? Don't you dislike me?" I looked at him and asked, but at this moment my tone was without any emotion except confusion, like an emotionless puppet.
"Let's not talk about that now..." He answered my questions with great difficulty while fighting with the four "birdmen" present.
If not now, when? Alas, it is really hard to fight four people alone.
What on earth is Shang Yi thinking? With so many people, An Lengxi will definitely fail. How can this game continue?
"Young Master, if you do this again, we will not show mercy!" said the leading man coldly.
"Okay, let me say a few words!" I yelled. The sound must have been quite shocking, at least they all stopped what they were doing.
I looked at An Lengxi and said, "An Lengxi, I don't want to accept your favor."
"This is not a favor..." He looked at me and said calmly.
"If it's not a favor, then what is it? Wouldn't it be good to end it like this?" I showed a desperate expression, "Before this, I thought about giving my heart to Shang Yi after these hundred days are over."
"Why?" An Lengxi frowned, with a hint of sadness in his eyes.
Not only that, even the demons were a little surprised. They looked at me with wide eyes, as if they had forgotten their position.
"Maybe I was wrong from the beginning. I shouldn't have forced you to be with me. All my pain is self-inflicted. Regardless of whether these words are from my original intention or not, I still want to say them. I don't want to be entangled with you anymore." I shook my head and expressed my feelings at the moment.
"No...it's not like that! Yingning, I beg you not to have such strange thoughts..." An Lengxi said and wanted to walk towards me, but was stopped by those demons.
He approached me again and again, but was beaten again and again. The wounds on his body were already very serious, but he still crawled towards me.
Until An Lengxi lost consciousness and lay on the ground, I still didn't feel a trace of pain, but a hot tear rolled down from the corner of my eye.
Now I am like an empty shell, unable to feel heartache and unable to think.
Before I knew it, the ropes on my body were untied and I could move freely, but I was still standing still.
"What did you see?" At this time, Shang Yi's voice brought me back to my senses.
What? I don't understand what he means.
"You can see him clearly and calmly now." After hearing Shang Yi's words, I looked at An Lengxi who was lying on the ground. There was no way for me to stay out of it.
"What's the use of seeing it clearly? I can never get an answer from him." I felt my body shaking. If I didn't find some words to comfort myself, I might burst into tears.
"His feelings for you are no less than yours for him, it's just that he can't respond to you..." Shang Yi gave the answer.
"Why?" I asked.
Shang Yi raised his head and said to me: "Because I love you, I hope you can live well and don't want you to regret it in the future."
Do you regret it? I lowered my head and glanced at An Lengxi on the ground in a trance.
"Yingning, it's not that An Lengxi doesn't like you, but you have never understood him. After what happened just now, you should be able to see clearly his feelings for you." Shang Yi's words were like a brand, deeply engraved in my heart.
My body was shaking a little, and the feeling seemed to come back, and the tears could no longer stop.
He was right. I really didn't understand what An Lengxi was thinking. No matter how hard I tried to figure it out, some things were still uncertain.
An Lengxi, it's not that I shouldn't force you to be with me, but I was afraid of breaking the promise of love, so I didn't fully express my feelings at the beginning. So give me another chance, and I will tell you my true thoughts.
At this time, the unconscious An Lengxi moved, and then climbed up from the ground with some difficulty. He lowered his head, and his messy hair covered his face. I couldn't see what his expression was now.
After a long while, I heard his hoarse voice: "So you were testing me."
I can't answer that.
"I didn't know you were such a good actor. Seeing me in such a mess, you were able to remain so calm and collected. I really underestimated you, Bei Yingning!"
An Lengxi then raised his head with a weak smile on his face.
I have to admit that I didn't feel anything at that time. If it weren't for that black pill, I might not have gotten this answer.
"An Lengxi, I love you."
"Your love is really special..." After saying that, he turned around and left resolutely.
I silently said to his back: "Please wait for me, I will prove it to you this time."
After that, An Lengxi never appeared again, so he should have gone back.
The most incredible thing is that, except for Shang Yi and I who still have complete memories, everyone has completely forgotten An Lengxi, as if he had never appeared.
I wondered if Luo Yun and Bai Shanshan would soon . They were my only friends in the world, and as long as they lived happily in the future, nothing else mattered.
The last day of the hundred days finally arrived. Before going to bed that night, I hugged my parents as a farewell to them.
I think after I fall asleep this time I may never wake up again. At that time, my parents will probably be very sad.
But there is nothing that can be done about it. I should have died on the day of the car accident.
This time, I came to the sea of flowers again. The colorful flowers were really beautiful, and the dancing butterflies were also very beautiful. I looked up at the blue sky and found that there were white clouds in heaven.
"Bei Yingning." At this time, the voice of the Emperor of Heaven came from behind.
I turned around and the little boy with golden hair and big eyes was standing behind me. He put his hands behind his back and walked with his head held high like an adult, but he was a little wobbly, as cute as a penguin.
I smiled brightly and said, "Heaven is beautiful."
"This is where you'll live from now on."
Where I live? It's really beautiful, and living here might be a very good choice, but...
I shook my head, smiled bitterly, and said, "I don't want to stay here."
Once you enter heaven, you will be dressed in pure white, symbolizing purity.
Now I have a halo on my head, but my heart is not satisfied.
I walked towards the sea of flowers. Heaven is actually very similar to where humans live. This color tone looks beautiful, but it cannot warm my heart.
No matter what, I still feel a little sad.
Finally, I made up my mind, turned around and said to him: "I want to go back to the human world, I want to find the person I want to find, I owe him a complete confession."
He lowered his head to think for a while, then raised his head and asked, "Don't you regret it?"
"I do not regret."
"If you insist on doing this, I won't stop you, but you must accept the test."
I looked up at his pink face and felt that he was having a bad time, but his serious expression also made me a little scared.
But being afraid doesn't mean I will back down.
"good."
"Take it." He took out a white pill that emitted a faint light from his sleeve.
Alas, why do people in heaven and hell like to make others eat strange things? And I have no idea what this pill will do or what will happen if I take it.
But if this is the only method and way, I can only do as he asks.
My hands trembled unconsciously, but I finally picked up the strange pill.
"You are a messenger from heaven, and he is a devil from hell. He doesn't want you to suffer in hell, so he didn't keep you, and you can choose to go to heaven or hell. But when you are promoted to an angel, you have lost the right to choose. However, there is a treaty of negotiation between heaven and earth..." The tone of the Emperor of Heaven was as calm as the surface of a lake, but it made me feel a little cold.
"You need to pass the test of both me and the Lord of Hell." He seemed to think he had said too much, so he stated the conditions directly. I didn't say anything and continued to remain silent. At this time, he frowned and said, "My test is that you eat this."
I hesitated a little, not because I was afraid of anything, but because I had doubts in my heart.
"If you eat this, you will become extremely ugly. No one will even want to see you, including that young man. If you don't eat it, you will not be able to leave heaven..." His indifferent words were like sharp thorns piercing my heart, making me feel unspeakable pain.
"Are you scared?"
If you say you are not afraid, you are lying. How can you not be afraid?
But I still put the pill into my mouth, and it slid smoothly into my throat as if it had consciousness.
I immediately felt a fresh breath spreading throughout my body, and I felt very comfortable and relaxed all over, but my eyes became sore and tears rolled down my face unconsciously.
The Emperor looked at me, his blue eyes sparkling.
"you……"
"Thank you for your help. No matter what, I am still very grateful to you. I don't have the confidence that he will still like me even if I become ugly, and I don't have the confidence that he will recognize me. But even if we can't be together, I hope to see him again."
After saying that, I smiled at him, not even thinking about what I had become.
If everything is really inevitable, why struggle?
"It's really hard to understand young people's thoughts. Just go away!" I felt helpless when I heard what the little boy in front of me said.
Where to go? I looked up and around, but there was nothing but an endless sea of flowers around me, and I couldn't find a place to go out.
Do I have to find the way to hell by myself? As I was thinking, I suddenly stepped on empty air and fell from the clouds.
After I came to my senses, I was surprised to find myself back in the human world.
The sky above my head is pure and blue, but my heart is silent. I don’t know if it’s because of my state of mind, but I always feel as if I am somewhat out of tune with the world.
How should I get to hell? How can I see An Lengxi? Or should I go find Shang Yi first?
I was walking on the street, and the curious eyes of passers-by were very dazzling. I lowered my head and covered my face, running forward until I hit a billboard and had to stop.
I looked up at the huge billboard, on which was printed a handsome figure - Shang Yi. His face was so beautiful from all angles! Whether from the front or the side, it was breathtaking.
I looked at the words on the billboard and found that today was the day when Shangyi was holding a fan meeting. Since I couldn’t find anything to do right now, I might as well go and take a look.
The performance was so noisy and the screams of countless fans almost drowned me out.
This is my first time attending a fan meeting, and it’s so lively.
My life is too short...
After the cheers, there was beautiful singing. I turned my head and looked at Shang Yi standing in the center of the stage. Suddenly, I felt that I didn’t seem to know him very well. I really didn’t realize that he was so shining and dazzling before.
Twenty minutes later, the fan meeting ended and the crowd gradually dispersed.
I was sitting in the audience and was in a daze. Loneliness and sadness came over me silently. It was so lively just a moment ago, but after the song ended and everyone left, I was filled with sadness.
"you……"
"Shang Yi!" I raised my head and called softly to the person in front of me.
"Is it really you, Yingning?" Seeing Shang Yi's incredible expression, I suddenly thought of something.
"Is it ugly?" I looked at him and asked blankly.
"No, your eyes and hair color are beautiful." Shang Yi looked at me and replied.
I didn't understand what he meant. Hair? I touched the hair that was pinned up by a crystal hairpin on top of my head, and pulled it off. The sparkling hair fell down and scattered randomly on my shoulders and chest.
What color is this? Why is it so strange?
I looked carefully at the strand of hair in my hand. It was a bit like the color of snow, but it was also as silver as moonlight.
Could it be that what the Emperor of Heaven said to me before was false? Did he deliberately say that I would become ugly after taking the pill to test my determination and courage? In fact, after taking the pill, not only did I not become uglier, but I became more radiant than before.
"Why did you come down from heaven? Logically speaking, if you become an angel, you can't just come to the human world casually."
"You know everything! But it doesn't matter, I have decided to look for An Lengxi!"
"Are you looking for An Lengxi?" When Shang Yi heard what I said, his face looked very bad, as if something had happened.
I looked at him in confusion, but his eyes did not stay on me. Instead, he lowered his head, thinking about something.
After a long time, Shang Yi finally said, "Let's go back!"
"What's the meaning?"
"Go back, go back to heaven..."
"Shang Yi, no matter what your reason is for letting me go back, I hope you understand that heaven is not a place where I can leave or stay as I please." The Emperor of Heaven let me go out of mercy, but it does not mean that I can come and go as I please.
Shang Yi thought about it and seemed to think that what I said made sense, so he sighed and said, "I like you too, so why can't I? I can take care of you in place of An Lengxi."
I looked at him, gave him a faint smile, and said nothing.
Shang Yi seemed to understand what I meant, turned around and said calmly: "It's no use for you to look for him, he doesn't remember you at all."
Although I didn't understand what he meant, my heart shuddered and I felt an inexplicable pain welling up in my heart.
"The Lord of Hell erased all his memories, so he doesn't recognize you."
"It doesn't matter. Even if that's the case, I still want to go see him." Although I felt like there was a stone pressing on my heart, I smiled at this moment.
