Chapter 8 Are You the Right Person? six
"Xihe, look at me, listen to me!" Xu Yun held my face anxiously and forced me to look at him. His eyes were red, as if they were going to bleed in the next second. "From beginning to end, I am the only murderer in this matter. If someone is going to go to hell, it should be me alone, and it has nothing to do with you. You can dislike me, you can even hate me, but you can't blame yourself like this, and you can't take all the responsibility on yourself. Even if you are really wrong, the suffering you have suffered has already made up for everything. Although I didn't see it with my own eyes, I can imagine how you tortured yourself during the days after Hexue left."
After he finished speaking, he hugged me tightly, then let me go, as if he had made a great decision, took a step back and said: "Xihe, I promise you that I will never see you again from now on. I will use my love for you to punish me for the mistakes I made. I know that these punishments are far from enough, so I will love you with but I will never let myself see you. Then, goodbye, Xihe."
He waved his hands vigorously and slowly backed away, with the corners of his mouth raised desperately. A smile bloomed on his pale face at that moment. That smile was like the warm willow breeze when the sky was full of apricot blossoms.
My eyes suddenly felt sore for no reason, and tears gradually blurred my vision. His figure was like a huge ink dot, which became fainter and fainter under the heavy rain, and slowly disappeared from my sight without a trace.
I remember him walking a long way away and then turning back to ask me something.
He said: "Xihe, if, I mean if, if we didn't know Hexue; if that day, at Mengsha's birthday party, was the first time we knew each other, you were Song Xihe, and I was Xu Yun, then, would you like me? "
When he asked me this, the smile on his face became even more profound, as if he was joking nonchalantly, but I clearly saw the desire in his eyes.
It's not that I didn't hesitate, but in the end, I bit my lip and told him clearly, "No, Xu Yun, even if there's no He Xue, I won't like you."
Maybe, it's better to let him know that he likes someone who doesn't like him than to be in love with each other but never be able to be together!
Outside the pavilion, the wind and rain were blowing, and darkness seemed to come in an instant. The dim street lights in the distance lit up. I looked in the direction where Xu Yun disappeared, and suddenly remembered the situation when Hexue left the dance studio that day , and my heart suddenly ached.
Why do the people around me always leave one after another?
