Chapter 7: Time Never Turns Back 03
There is no Ji Chuan or Shen Xiaoyu in my world anymore, only Yao Yizhou is left. I have lost so much, but life still has to go on.
Yao Yizhou is still with me, he still does those thoughtful little things that make me feel warm, but I can only accept it passively.
My favorite star recently released a new movie, and just when I wanted to watch it, Yao Yizhou had already bought the tickets and handed them to me, making it impossible for me to refuse.
The movie theater was very close to the school, and Yao Yizhou and I were about to walk over. Just as I was excitedly discussing the new movie of this star with Yao Yizhou, I ran into Ji Chuan and Li Jiawei at the school gate. Li Jiawei was holding Ji Chuan's hand intimately, with tenderness and affection in her eyes.
Seeing the two of them, I had the urge to turn around and run away, but when Ji Chuan saw me, his eyes suddenly lit up and he walked straight towards me. Li Jiawei, who was holding Ji Chuan's arm, pulled Ji Chuan with an unhappy look on her face, preventing him from moving forward.
I was quite far away from them, so I couldn't hear what they were saying. I just saw that they seemed to be arguing about something. Ji Chuan suddenly shook off Li Jiawei's arm, leaving her standing there alone, and walked towards me.
Ji Chuan saw Yao Yizhou and I together, but he didn't say hello to Yao Yizhou or exchange a few words with him. Instead, he grabbed my shoulders eagerly and asked in an unquestionable tone: "Wen Ya, why have you been avoiding me recently and not answering my calls?"
Ji Chuan's question made me stunned. I had never received a call from him, and I didn't understand where his question came from. But when he looked into my eyes and asked me so eagerly, I didn't have the courage to look into his eyes. I had to turn my face away from his eyes and sneered, "There is nothing to say between us anymore . You should go accompany your new girlfriend now instead of stopping me and pulling me. By the way, there is something you don't seem to know. Your new girlfriend went to the place where I work to find me some time ago, asking me to help you two. Now I can answer her, it's not my turn to help you two. I hope you can take good care of her and don't let her bother me and disturb my life again."
"When did she come to see you? How come I didn't know?" Ji Chuan looked at me in confusion, then turned to look at Li Jiawei.
Li Jiawei desperately waved at Ji Chuan, as if she was afraid that Ji Chuan would never see her again. Seeing her like that, I couldn't help but snorted coldly and said in a cold tone: "I really have no interest in your family affairs. You'd better stay away from me in the future. I don't want to be called shameless by some people anymore, and spread the photos of me bullying her everywhere to gain sympathy. This world is very small. Don't think that you can pretend that nothing happened after saying something or doing something behind someone's back. There is no such thing as a cheap thing. No one is just for free. I, Wen Ya, am definitely not someone who sits and waits for others to bully me."
Ji Chuan stood there in silence, his eyes full of sadness: "Wen Ya, Li Jiawei is not my girlfriend at all. You know, you are the only girl I like, and I haven't changed at all over the years. Maybe I did something wrong, but I believe you love me. You will definitely forgive me, right, Wen Ya? As for Li Jiawei, I really didn't know that she secretly went to see you. She and I are really just ordinary friends. You must believe me."
Ji Chuan's words suddenly made my heart ache. I never thought that he and I had come to this point, and he still had the nerve to come and say these to me.
I couldn't help but recall the embarrassing things Li Jiawei and her friends said to me in the milk tea shop, and I couldn't help but sneer and said, "Ji Chuan, wake up, are you too arrogant to think that all girls in the world will like you? I tell you, nothing is constant. From the day you and Li Jiawei were so affectionate in front of me, the Wen Ya you knew is dead. She will never come back to life. Just give up on this idea and continue to be affectionate with your new girlfriend."
Ji Chuan's eyes were blank, as if he wanted to defend himself, but he just looked at me, and after a long while he said word by word: "Wen Ya, you have really changed a lot now, as if you have become another person. Is this really you? Or are you pretending to be angry with me? No matter what I did wrong, I apologize to you, okay? If Li Jiawei did something that made you feel uncomfortable, I apologize to you on her behalf. She is actually a very simple girl, and she doesn't have any bad intentions."
After listening to Ji Chuan's words, I suddenly felt that I didn't want to stay in this place for a moment, so I turned around and prepared to leave. What I didn't expect was that Ji Chuan grabbed my arm, looked at me with those clear eyes that intoxicated me, and said softly: "Wen Ya, I beg you, give me a chance to explain, listen to me, Li Jiawei and I really have nothing to do with each other, you must believe me, I swear, the person I like most in my life is you, except you, no one has ever entered my heart, not even for a minute or a second."
I shook my head, my heart ached as if it was about to break. Ji Chuan's oath might have meant a lot to me when we were still together, but now that he and I have broken up, his oaths and promises in front of me are completely meaningless to me, and will not change any of my decisions or ideas.
If you miss it, you miss it. If you break up, you break up. What's the point of entangled with each other? It will only deepen the pain of both parties.
"Ji Chuan, please let me go! I have already given you a chance to explain. I asked you when I saw you and Li Jiawei together, but you didn't answer. I even waited for your call for a week, but you didn't contact me or explain to me. Ji Chuan, please let me go. I have already given you a chance to explain, but you didn't cherish it, and you didn't realize that you were wrong. I have already burned all the things you gave me. The past between us has already been burned to ashes. How can there be a chance to start over?"
Ji Chuan's face was pale, but he still held my arm tightly and refused to let go. Yao Yizhou, who had been standing by, walked up, grabbed my arm, and said two words coldly to Ji Chuan: "Let go!"
Ji Chuan looked at Yao Yizhou, then at me, and asked in confusion, "Why?"
Yao Yizhou looked directly into Ji Chuan's eyes and stated his position without hesitation: "Ji Chuan, I am telling you solemnly now that I like Xiaoya and you are not allowed to hurt her again. If you dare to make her heartbroken again, I will never let you go."
Ji Chuan's eyes widened in disbelief, he looked at me and then at Yao Yizhou, his eyes were full of confusion and unwillingness, but even so what. His grip on my arm loosened more and more, I took a step back and broke free from Ji Chuan's restraint.
"Why? Yao Yizhou? We have known each other for such a long time, and you have never told me that you like Wen Ya. Now that Wen Ya and I have a conflict, what do you mean by coming here to interfere?"
As Ji Chuan spoke, he became almost hysterical. He seemed unable to accept the betrayal of his best friend. He looked like a lost soul, with empty eyes.
"Ji Chuan, I liked Wen Ya earlier than you did, and I know her better than you do. No one is more qualified to have her than me. In fact, I really want to thank you. Thank you for giving up such a good girl and giving her to me, giving me the opportunity to pursue her. Don't worry, I will definitely love her more than you do, and care about her more than you do, because in my heart, Wen Ya is the girl I want to cherish for the rest of my life."
After Yao Yizhou finished speaking, he took my arm and dragged me away. I knew he didn't want me to face Ji Chuan again, but I didn't know whether he was afraid that I would be sad or that Ji Chuan and I would get back together. In fact, no matter what happened, there would be no other possibility for Ji Chuan and I. I knew clearly that it was over between him and me, and it was over and it was irreversible. It was over and there was no way to save it.
After Ji Chuan's incident, any movie that was any more exciting lost its appeal. The heroine and hero broke up in the movie, and the scene of the heroine crying on the street touched me instantly. I couldn't stop my tears from falling, like a kite with a broken string, and I couldn't stop them no matter how hard I tried.
Yao Yizhou reached out his hand and held me in his arms, put my head on his shoulder, and whispered in my ear: "Wen Ya, no matter what happens, don't be afraid. I will definitely stay by your side to protect you and not let you get hurt at all."
I closed my eyes, feeling the warmth in Yao Yizhou's arms. My heart was warm and I clutched the corner of his clothes tightly. I always felt that as long as I held on hard, I would not be hurt again. There has never been a time when I felt so safe and warm as I do now.
"Wenya, my parents contacted me a few days ago. They want me to go to France."
Yao Yizhou's voice slowly floated into my ears. I stood up from his arms and looked at him in surprise. Seeing my disappointed expression, Yao Yizhou couldn't help laughing and said, "Xiao Ya, don't worry too much. Although my parents want me to go to France, I have refused because I told them that my favorite girl is here. As long as she is in China, I will never leave China."
Listening to Yao Yizhou's assurance, I couldn't help but smile slightly and shifted my gaze to the movie screen.
"Why are you always so unreasonable?"
The boy sitting in the front seat watching a movie suddenly shouted to the girl next to him, attracting everyone's attention in the cinema.
When everyone was staring at this girl, she suddenly covered her face and started crying, crying and shouting: "You bad guy, when you were pursuing me before, didn't you say you were willing to tolerate all my shortcomings? Why are you so impatient now when we've only been together for a month? Isn't this too much? I just mentioned my ex-boyfriend, do you have to yell at me like that?"
The boy frowned impatiently and continued to scold the girl next to him: "If you still have him in your heart, go find him as soon as possible. I will never stop you. Don't you pay close attention to what you say every day? Seven out of ten sentences you say every day are about your ex-boyfriend. If your ex-boyfriend is really as good as you say, why did you break up with him? Don't think that just because you chose me, I have to worship you like a queen every day. Do you know what I hate the most? What I hate most is that no matter what I do, you have to compare me with your ex-boyfriend. Do you think such a comparison is really interesting?"
"You said you would always tolerate me, you said you would always treat me well, not to mention when you were pursuing me, I told you that I had not forgotten my ex-boyfriend, you knew it at the time, why are you settling scores with me now, isn't this too much?"
The girl was almost crying as she spoke. I listened to their argument and my heart tightened. I started thinking about how my relationship with Yao Yizhou should continue.
Just like this boy and girl, although it seems that Yao Yizhou is the best choice for me to forget Ji Chuan, but is it the right decision for me to agree to Yao Yizhou at this time? Will he and I quarrel like this boy and girl because I can't forget Ji Chuan?
If Yao Yizhou didn't know Ji Chuan from the beginning, and didn't know his existence, maybe he and I could still try to be together. However, Ji Chuan and Yao Yizhou not only know each other, but are also very good brothers. Yao Yizhou knows everything that Ji Chuan and I have experienced together. I don't know how he really thinks of the relationship between Ji Chuan and me, and I don't know if he will become like that boy after being with me.
How many people can you meet in this world who are willing to love you without any reason? But facing such a person who regards you as the most precious person in the world, can you really be selfishly with him while having another person in your heart?
I am not the kind of person who can ignore everyone's opinion, although many people say that girls must find a boy who treats them well, only in this way can they be happy. Perhaps, love is always a subjective question, and it has no standard answer.
Shen Xiaoyu chose the boy who held her in the palm of his hand. Although I don’t know if this is the right decision for her, I know very clearly that Shen Xiaoyu gave up Yao Yizhou because of me. Maybe she gave up reluctantly, but this was her final choice.
The more I thought about it, the more confused I became. I had to overturn a decision I had already planned to make. My mind was a mess and I didn't know what to do. I was no longer in the mood to watch a movie, even though I had been looking forward to this movie for a long time and even though I had liked this star for a long time.
"Yao Yizhou, I have something to do and want to leave first. I'm really sorry that I can only leave you here alone." I smiled apologetically at Yao Yizhou.
Yao Yizhou was silent for a while and said nothing. I think he must have guessed why I left halfway. As smart as he is, he must know how much the quarrel between the boy and the girl just now touched me.
I originally thought that Yao Yizhou would take me home, and I racked my brains to think of how to reject him more tactfully. But to my relief, Yao Yizhou just nodded and said to me softly: "Xiaoya, be careful on the road. I won't take you home, but I will watch the movie for you."
I smiled, patted Yao Yizhou on the shoulder, and said jokingly, "Watch it carefully and remember what happens later. I'll wait for you to tell me tomorrow."
Yao Yizhou was still smiling. He waved at me and signaled me to leave with peace of mind. Seeing that he didn't say anything else, I slowly left the cinema with my bag on my back.
To be honest, I really don’t know how to face Yao Yizhou. Deep down in my heart, I don’t know when I will be able to forget Ji Chuan.
In the following days, Yao Yizhou didn't bother me much, so I had to use this time to sort out my feelings and think about what I should do.
