Chapter 7: Some Things Are Unforgettable Xiang Qianlan02
"Qi Beichen, I can't forget Yin Shuitong, I can't accept you. Yes, I can't be heartless. Maybe I have been attracted to you, but that is all in the past. Your love reminds me that I have taken away other people's happiness." I said.
"It's not your fault," he said suddenly.
"It's not my fault?" I said, "Who do you think is responsible for this? Qi Xiaofeng? Some things can never be overcome."
He let go of my shoulders weakly, tears suddenly welling up in his eyes: "I can't get over it..."
"Qi Beichen, we still have a lot of time with others, but it seems that our fate ends here."
I turned around and looked at him, took a few steps, picked up the phone, the screen was broken, and the power button didn't respond after I pressed it several times. I could only get it repaired in the evening.
I didn’t know that things in the world were so coincidental, and I didn’t know that this missed call from a stranger would become my lifelong regret.
"You lied to me, Xiang Qianlan, you lied to me, didn't you?" Qi Beichen kept shaking his head, and his tone had softened.
"Don't come to me again." I took a few steps back and turned to leave.
Sitting in the classroom, students kept looking at me. I felt uneasy and my eyelids kept twitching, and I didn’t know why.
When the get out of class was over, a few girls came around and asked me questions excitedly. They said I was so lucky and that I was famous at such a young age, which was really enviable.
"Big star, you're free to come back?" Hongdou said, "Welcome."
"You mean a big star?" Zhong Ling glanced at me sideways, "I don't know how many men she stepped on to get to the top."
"What are you talking about?" A girl stood up and pushed Zhong Ling. "Are you the sister of Zhong Yuer? Your family just has a few stinky bucks, right? You're just a former celebrity, what's so arrogant about that?"
"Isn't it? If it weren't for Brother Nuo Fan, how could Xiang Qianlan, a vase, get to this position?" Zhong Ling looked at me grimly, "Uncle and auntie won't accept you either. You are so proud now, but wait and see how badly you will fall when the time comes!"
"Hey, Zhong Ling, don't go too far." Another cold voice.
"Sorry, I suddenly remembered that I have something else to do." My voice was neither loud nor soft, just loud enough for people around me to hear, and I turned and walked out the door.
When I reached the office door, I stopped, looked up at the closed door, put my hand on the door handle, and ultimately did not go in.
I shouldn't have come.
I knew that after I got involved with Sun Nuofan and filmed so many commercials, my identity would no longer be just that of a student. I would never have the life of an ordinary student.
Ask Sister Guan to help me with the formalities. I can study on my own. I sent a text message to Sun Nuofan, and he replied to me soon, saying that he would arrange it as soon as possible.
There were a few students standing sparsely at the end of the corridor. When they saw me, they exclaimed in admiration and questioning.
I walked down the stairs quietly, saying nothing, and slowly walked out of the campus.
This winter is unexpectedly not cold, it feels like a summer evening, warm and desolate. A man is sitting on a bench at the school gate, cars on the street pass by him, some dust stains his leather shoes.
"You're here?" I looked at Sun Nuofan, lowered my head and sat beside him, and said without raising my head.
Sun Nuofan frowned slightly in surprise: "Unhappy?" He turned his head and couldn't help laughing softly, "I guessed it a long time ago."
I turned around and glared at him coldly: "Is it funny?"
He grabbed my face and pinched it left and right: "Are you angry? Are you an angry pig?"
"Sun Nuofan!" Is he still the mature and steady man? No, he has never been mature and steady, he is just pretending.
Sun Nuofan smiled and shook his head, ruffling my hair gently. "If you care about what others say, you will never be happy in your life. Just listen to it. Let's go. I'll buy you dessert."
He patted his clothes, stood up, pulled me up, and walked towards the parking lot next to us. My eyes fell on the outside of the bookstore opposite. Qi Beichen and a classmate were holding a few books. He looked at me with a sad and complicated look.
My heart felt as if the tide had just flooded over it, and it was wet.
I was sitting in Sun Nuofan's car. The car sped past on the street. Everything behind me was moving away from me. A corner of the school disappeared among the dark green leaves.
"I can't get through to your phone. Is it turned off?" Sun Nuofan didn't realize my reaction. He drove steadily and asked me.
I took out the phone that was about to fall apart and said, "I accidentally broke it."
"Your car is an antique. Change it to a new one." Sun Nuofan turned the car around, drove quickly forward, and then stopped in front of the shopping mall.
He took me to the mobile phone counter, where Sun Nuofan was picking out a new phone. I went to the repair counter, where a repairman wearing an orange hat took a look at the phone, shook his head at me, and said it couldn't be repaired.
"White, gold, pink, choose one." Sun Nuofan pointed at the brand mobile phones on the counter. I looked at the price and asked the waiter to give me the phone in another counter.
I chose a black phone to pay. When I saw Sun Nuofan reaching into his suit pocket, I smiled and warned him, "I'll do it myself."
Sun Nuofan raised his hands and surrendered with a smile: "OK."
After buying the phone, I installed the SIM card in it and looked at the unfamiliar number on it without paying any attention.
When we first walked into the dessert shop, we alarmed a lot of people because I saw several girls taking pictures of us. Sun Nuofan smiled brightly and he deliberately held my hand, as if he wanted to let the whole world know that we were together.
I felt a little uncomfortable, so I just bought some and packed them up to take back.
After driving for a while, my cell phone rang again. It was the same number. After I answered it, a female voice said impatiently, "Excuse me, is this You Xiangyu's family member? The patient's surgery was ineffective and she died an hour ago. I couldn't get through to your phone all afternoon. The patient was in such a bad condition when she was sent to the hospital, and no one was looking after her. Before she died, she asked us to help her find her daughter. It was quite pitiful..."
That voice was like a spell whispering in my ear. An unspeakable fear crept into my heart. It was as if a black hole had suddenly been smashed into my heart, and I fell straight down...
Dong——Dong——
I stared blankly ahead, Sun Nuofan kept waving in front of me, and all the consciousness in my body woke up. I held the phone, my hands and feet felt cold for no reason, my body felt hot and cold, and my ears were buzzing.
"What did you say? Who did you say? Say it again! Say it again!" I shouted anxiously, and my heart sank.
The female voice coughed, and the sound was very quiet, and it drilled into my ears from a distance: "I said that an emergency patient named You Xiangyu with paralyzed legs was sent here this afternoon. I heard that her home was robbed. She might have had a fight with the criminals and hit her head on the corner of the table. When the neighbors found out about the accident, they called the hospital and started rescue work as soon as she was sent here. We have been trying to contact her family, but the phone has not been connected. Now the person has passed away..."
Perhaps it is a tragedy destined by fate, punishing me for my unforgivable sins.
When Qi Beichen and I were arguing, my mother was on the verge of death. When my cell phone was broken by him, my dying mother was looking for me but the call was not connected. She was never able to say a word to me until her death.
My mother must hate me. Last time she kept talking about how disappointed and sad I made her. What did I do?
The pain almost suffocated me, tears flowed like a faucet that couldn't be turned off, my heart felt like it was stabbing with a dagger, and coldness engulfed my whole body.
The phone slipped from my hand. Sun Nuofan noticed something was wrong with me. He slammed on the brakes and stopped the car on the side of the road.
My thoughts seem to go back to a long time ago, when my mother and I were snuggling in front of a fire in the deep winter. It was much colder than it is now, but no matter how cold it was, my mother would rub my hands to warm them. If she loved me a little less, maybe she would be less disappointed...
"Qianlan! Qianlan!" Someone is calling me.
I sobbed, a harsh and hoarse cry came out of my throat, and I banged my head against the car again and again: "I deserve to die! I deserve to die! I deserve to die!"
"You're crazy!" Sun Nuofan was furious. He used all his strength to hold my body. I pushed him away and continued to hit myself.
"What happened? Don't hurt yourself! Qian Lan!"
Sun Nuofan's face was pale, his eyes were as deep as black holes. He pinched my arm to prevent me from hurting myself, and he looked at me with heartache.
My body suddenly started to shiver with cold.
After a long while, I silently shook my head. No, God would not be so unfair. I have never let my mother have a good life. How could she leave...
Will not……
I closed my eyes, and it felt as if a huge rock weighing thousands of pounds was pressing down on my chest, making it hard to breathe...
Sun Nuofan refused to let me go. He looked at me with pity, waiting for me to speak and wait for my explanation. What could I explain?
I looked at Sun Nuofan with empty eyes. The fog outside the car window was blurry. As long as I didn't think about it, it was fake. He said, "Did something happen at home?"
I nodded desperately and answered in a hoarse voice: "My mother... passed away..."
I was embraced in a warm embrace. Sun Nuofan's shoulders were broad and strong, and there was a faint smell of cigarettes on his body. I never knew that he also smoked.
Without saying a word, he gently rubbed my hair and patted my shoulders. I buried my head in his chest and cried. My back was covered with cold sweat. Silence flowed between us. My mind was blank. As time passed, I was tired of crying and my reason slowly returned.
I sniffed and raised my head from his arms. Sun Nuofan let me go. He opened the car window, took out a pack of cigarettes from the car, took out a cigarette, and smoked it silently.
After a long while, I said, "I want to go home."
"Okay, I'll ask Guan Wan to arrange your time as soon as possible, and I'll also help with my aunt's funeral. It doesn't matter how long you take to be back. I can--"
"unnecessary."
"……What?"
I said, "I'm not going back to the company, and I want to go back alone."
He said, "Your career is booming now, wouldn't it be a shame if you gave up now?"
"Sun Nuofan, can you agree to a request of mine?"
"you say."
"I have done a lot of things wrong. Maybe I shouldn't have listened to your advice and used you to enter this circle. My mother didn't think much of you when she was alive, and she didn't want me to be a star. I don't want her to be gone and I still make her angry."
"you mean……"
"Let's break up."
