The days when Su Yunjin was around always passed by very quickly. When he was with him, there were still girls with good conditions who confessed their love to Su Yunjin. Su Yunjin just smiled faintly. Looking at his indifferent expression, I couldn't help but think of Zhou Shiyun, the beautiful, domineering girl who pursued Su Yunjin in every possible way. I haven't seen her for a long time.
Zhou Shiyun suddenly withdrew from the battle for Su Yunjin, which caught me off guard, but I also calmly enjoyed the good time with Su Yunjin after she left. I felt a little guilty, and I told myself that Zhou Shiyun's ability to let go so freely proved that she did not love Su Yunjin, because there was no reason to give up love.
If ten thousand yuan can prove Zhou Shiyun's sincerity to Su Yunjin, if ten thousand yuan can buy the everlasting love between me and Su Yunjin, then I will make a profit.
But I didn’t expect Zhou Shiyun to come to repay the money. She knocked on my door on a cold night.
When I opened the door and saw her, her body was shivering and her face had turned purple. She looked a little disheveled and pitiful.
"Come in, it's warm inside." I moved aside to invite her in, but she didn't come in. Instead, she reached out from her arms, took out a paper bag, and handed it to me.
"Here's three thousand yuan. I'll return it to you first. You count it first." Zhou Shiyun's face was pale, and I could hear her voice trembling when she spoke.
Seeing her shivering from the cold, I couldn't help but ask, "I haven't seen you for a while, what have you been busy with?"
Even though we had become enemies because of Su Yunjin, I still couldn't bear to see her in such a state of disgrace. Seeing that she didn't say anything, I couldn't help but say, "There's no rush to pay back the money. You can use it first."
Zhou Shiyun looked at me, suddenly smiled, and then said to me: "You really like to meddle in other people's business. What does my doing have to do with you? Don't worry, I won't do anything that you rich people would despise."
Zhou Shiyun successfully extinguished the concern that was rising in my heart. I didn't expect that in her eyes, my concern would become so unbearable.
I said to her very seriously: "Zhou Shiyun, you think too much. I don't mean to look down on you. I just think you look a little tired now. I hope you won't be so tired. You don't have to worry about the money you owe me."
After hearing what I said, Zhou Shiyun said, "What I hate most is your appearance as a creditor. It's so hypocritical."
I looked at her, not knowing what to say.
She used to be my best friend. We were very close and could talk about anything, but now we can only confront each other in this way.
But I am most thankful that she is still the same as she is now. Her dislike is always on her face. Even when pursuing Su Yunjin, she was justified. She has never done anything to hurt me secretly. If stealing the best friend's girlfriend is something a villain does, then Zhou Shiyun can be said to be an upright villain.
I cannot forgive her for snatching Su Yunjin away, but I am very grateful that she has always been honest and upright with me.
"Zhou Shiyun, if you are really in trouble, you don't have to pay back the money. I am very happy to help you." Faced with her cold words, I still spoke to her seriously.
Zhou Shiyun obviously didn't expect me to say that. She stared at me blankly with a complicated expression. She was silent for a long time before she said, "You don't have to pretend to be kind. I have plenty of ways to make money. I will return the money to you soon."
Zhou Shiyun looked at me with a complicated expression, but when she spoke, she became the person I hated, sensitive, arrogant, and cold. I watched her back as she turned and left, feeling extremely upset.
It is said that it is easy to change a country, but difficult to change one's nature. Zhou Shiyun is always like this. Watching her turn and leave, her figure submerged in the darkness, I felt empty in my heart.
I thought that after paying back the three thousand yuan, Zhou Shiyun would attack Su Yunjin again. I nervously watched Su Yunjin's whereabouts and pestered him, hoping to occupy all his spare time. But the Zhou Shiyun I was worried about didn't come, and the Su Yunjin I was nervous about was still calm and gentle to me, but distant.
Because I couldn't see any trace of Zhou Shiyun, I became more certain that Zhou Shiyun had given up Su Yunjin. She didn't love Su Yunjin as much as I thought, or she liked Su Yunjin just to compete with me, to prove that she was better than me, or she just fell in love with Su Yunjin's family background, not Su Yunjin as a person.
I found reasons to convince myself over and over again, but even after being convinced, I didn't feel as relieved as I imagined. I was still nervous, afraid that after Zhou Shiyun was gone, a Zhang Shiyun or Wang Shiyun would appear by his side one day.
I hope I am the only one who stays with Su Yunjin for a long time. I hope Su Yunjin can find my goodness and hope that one day I can see the moon after the clouds have cleared. But my expectations were still dashed, and even my vague fantasy about the future was shattered into slag.
If it weren’t for what happened in the studio that day, I might not have realized this and might still be immersed in my love for Su Yunjin.
Accompanying Su Yunjin when I am not in class has become my only extracurricular arrangement. When I proposed to accompany him to the studio to paint, Su Yunjin just glanced at me indifferently, neither agreeing nor refusing. I knew that according to his attitude, it would be okay for me to go.
When I arrived at the studio, he had been sitting there for a long time, but the drawing board in front of him was empty.
"What are you painting? Does it require some planning?" I have no interest in art, but Su Yunjin's daze became a reason for me to pay attention.
"No, I just haven't figured out how to draw it." Su Yunjin came back to his senses and explained somewhat awkwardly.
"Oh." I looked at the portrait of the girl hanging not far away. Not understanding painting, I didn't understand why there was nothing to think about just because the portrait was there.
"Su Yunjin, that girl is wearing leaves on her head, right? Why is this painting called "The Pearl Girl"? Is it the same as "Mona Lisa", where this girl is called Pearl?" I looked at the simple and quiet girl in the painting with some confusion and asked softly.
Su Yunjin didn't answer me. When I turned to look at him, he seemed to realize something and turned his head back, asking me gently what I said.
I didn't understand why he was distracted, but I asked the same question again.
Su Yunjin's expression was still gentle. He said to me softly, "Did you see the shadow cast by the leaves on the girl's forehead? She is often mistaken for a pearl, so people call her the Pearl Girl."
"So it's a fake. I thought a real rich lady wouldn't have such a poetic and dreamy sense of peaceful beauty." I said unintentionally, but then I realized that Su Yunjin was distracted again, staring at "The Pearl Girl".
Because I had no idea what he was thinking, I could only sit next to him, keep him company, stare blankly at him, and watch him write.
The setting sun outside the window shone through the glass, leaving a soft light on Su Yunjin's face. I looked at his face that looked like a painting, and I felt a sense of happiness in my heart.
Watching the person you love doing what he or she likes , with the sunset outside and the gentle breeze, this may be the full meaning of the “good and peaceful years” described in many books.
Looking at Su Yunjin like this, I couldn't help but have a good feeling in my heart, and this dreamlike feeling soon brought me into sleep.
In the dream, Su Yunjin was still gentle, and he looked at me with a gleam in his eyes. I saw that he was finally moved, and my heart was filled with joy, and I couldn't help but run towards him. When I rushed towards Su Yunjin, I was suddenly startled, and when I opened my eyes, I found that my arms were empty, and there was no one I had been thinking about day and night.
It turned out to be a dream, I fell asleep.
I turned to look at Su Yunjin, who was still concentrating on painting. He looked very unhappy. He stared blankly at the painting in front of him, as if frozen.
This was the first time I saw Su Yunjin with such an expression. I couldn't help but lean over to take a look at the painting he was drawing, but before I could get my head over, he had already grabbed the drawing paper.
"What's wrong? Let me see what you drew."
I reached out to take the painting from Su Yunjin's hand and see what it looked like, because I was very curious about what kind of painting could make Su Yunjin change his expression.
Su Yunjin looked at me and handed it to me. Just as I was about to take it, his hand stopped and changed direction. When I looked up at him, the painting was back in front of him.
He smiled at me somewhat awkwardly and said, "There's nothing to see. It's not well drawn."
"Not good?" I looked at Su Yunjin with some curiosity. I have accompanied Su Yunjin to the studio to paint many times. No matter what the painting looks like, Su Yunjin doesn't mind me looking at it. Sometimes he even tells me where the painting is not good and where it is handled well. But this time, he obviously doesn't want me to see it.
"Well, it's a failure. It's better not to look at it." Su Yunjin explained softly while crumpling up the drawing paper and throwing it into the trash can behind the door.
"Yunjin, how do you determine that this work has failed?"
Su Yunjin's abnormal behavior made me more suspicious. I stared at him, waiting for him to give me a convincing explanation.
I am rarely so aggressive, and the reason I was so abnormal today was because Su Yunjin was even more abnormal.
"You said that what's important for this girl is simplicity and tranquility, but the Pearl Girl I drew is arrogant and cold. She has an ordinary background but her ambitions are high." Su Yunjin's voice was still gentle, but his gentle words fell into my ears, and what emerged in my mind was a familiar figure.
Arrogant and indifferent, of ordinary origin, with lofty ambitions, any of these adjectives can be used to describe Zhou Shiyun.
My heart suddenly sank, and I no longer had the urge to listen to Su Yunjin's words, but I still had to try to hide my panic at this moment. The studio that made me feel so warm just now was like hell at this moment. Staying here, especially in front of Su Yunjin, I felt like I was about to suffocate.
"I'm tired and want to go back. Su Yunjin, can we go back?" I was eager to escape, and even my words to Su Yunjin were pleading.
Su Yunjin looked at me in confusion, and only when he saw that I looked flustered did he nod and say yes.
But as soon as I went downstairs, I stopped and looked at Su Yunjin with some embarrassment.
"What's wrong? Didn't you say you were tired and wanted to go back?" Su Yunjin looked at me in surprise, not understanding why I suddenly stopped when I was running down the stairs as if for my life just now.
"I forgot to take down my water cup. I'll go get it. Wait for me." After saying that, without waiting for Su Yunjin to answer, I turned around and walked towards the studio.
The studio was still as quiet as when I left, and the water cup was quietly lying on the table where I had just slept. The familiar smell of paint here easily evoked my bad memories, so I took the water cup and left, wanting to escape from this place that made me think too much as soon as possible.
But I walked too fast and accidentally kicked the trash can behind the door, and the failed painting that Su Yunjin threw away was on top of the trash can.
It was crumpled into a ball, lying quietly on the trash can, but it seemed to catch my eye provocatively.
I looked at the piece of paper, feeling even more flustered and curious. I was curious about what the arrogant and indifferent girl Su Yunjin was talking about looked like, who came from an ordinary family but had lofty ambitions.
I still couldn't control my curiosity. To be exact, I was too curious about what the pearl girl who made Su Yunjin change his expression looked like.
I squatted down, picked up the paper from the trash can, and slowly spread it out. The Pearl Girl painted by Su Yunjin appeared in front of me. I have to say that Su Yunjin has a deep foundation in art. Whether it is color or light, it is handled just right, giving people a harmonious aesthetic feeling. Just looking at such a beautiful painting, I can no longer hold back my tears.
How could this be? How could this be? If I could turn back time, I would rather bypass this trash can.
I couldn't hold back my tears, because even though I didn't know much about art, I knew that Su Yunjin had painted the failed painting very well, vividly, and with his own feelings. I could vaguely feel the love surging in his heart when he painted this picture.
But this painting belongs to Su Yunjin's "The Pearl Girl". The Pearl Girl in his mind is different from Corot's. Except for the wreath on her head, everything else is different. The Pearl Girl in his mind is Zhou Shiyun.
The girl in this painting has Zhou Shiyun's eyebrows and eyes, as well as Zhou Shiyun's charm.
But thinking of Su Yunjin's stiff face and his focused and indifferent expression when he looked at the painting, I was even more confused. How could he not know that he liked Zhou Shiyun? But every time I mentioned Zhou Shiyun, he looked indifferent. What did he want? What did he want to do?
I suddenly realized that I didn't know Su Yunjin at all. Su Yunjin, whom I had liked for two years, was just a stranger to me.
I don’t know how I walked down the stairs, and I don’t know what my expression was when I saw Su Yunjin again. I was overwhelmed by a feeling of helplessness that I had never felt before.
"Xiao Di, what's wrong with you?" Su Yunjin noticed my abnormality and asked with concern.
I tried to keep smiling and tell him it was nothing, but when I said this, I felt my heart bleeding.
How could it be nothing? The moment I knew that Su Yunjin liked Zhou Shiyun, I even had trouble breathing. I didn't know how to face him, because in my mind, I would definitely be with Su Yunjin in the future, but now it seems that my future may have nothing to do with Su Yunjin.
"Xiao Di, let me take you home." Su Yunjin said with some concern, perhaps seeing that I was in a state of distraught.
I forced a smile, shook my head gently and said "No".
Su Yunjin is rarely so considerate. If it were in the past, I might have been ecstatic, but today I only feel sadness in my heart.
The care from Su Yunjin that I had been looking forward to for a long time finally fell on me. The funny thing is that when he cared about me, his heart was also somewhere else.
It rained heavily that night, and after that day, the rain in my heart never stopped. I didn't know how to face the future life, because all the days before had Su Yunjin, but in the future without him, my world was empty.
After that day, I took the initiative to stay away from Su Yunjin's life, but he still occupies my heart. When I think of him, I still feel so heartbroken that I can't breathe.
I don't understand why, after working so hard for the past two years and trying to become the kind of person Su Yunjin likes, he fell in love with someone else when I was getting closer and closer to his requirements.
Most of the time, I don’t even dare to think of the name Su Yunjin, because thinking of him will only make me face the painful reality - he no longer belongs to me.
During the two years that I was pestering Su Yunjin, I had thought many times, if Su Yunjin accepted me, how we would live happily together. I went further and further on the road of pursuing Su Yunjin, but I had such thoughts less and less. Perhaps it was because I knew that I was not what Su Yunjin wanted, so I often wondered what would happen to me if he was with someone else. I was not sure what would happen to me, but I was sure that I would be heartbroken. I never thought that he would like Zhou Shiyun, who was once my best friend.
After that fight, Su Mo never mentioned Zhuang Yi in front of me, but the firmness in her words made me know that she would not let go easily. During the time when I was hiding from Su Yunjin, Su Mo often called me, went shopping, or watched movies, but I refused.
"An Xiaodi, what's wrong with you? Are you hiding from me?" Su Mo seemed to have sensed something was wrong with me and said loudly on the other end of the phone.
"Su Mo, I really have something to do. I'll accompany you after I'm done." I explained seriously to Su Mo on the other end of the phone, and she hung up reluctantly.
I was really avoiding Su Mo, because when I thought of Su Mo, I couldn't help but think of Su Yunjin who made me sad, not to mention seeing her. I was afraid that after seeing Su Mo, I would not be able to control the grievance in my heart, and I would pour out all the tears that I had held back for so long.
I stayed away from Su Yunjin, but he remained the same, as if my coming and going would not affect his life. I also secretly observed him in the corner, he was still the gentle and elegant young man, he still smiled and did everything to anyone.
I am just an insignificant existence in Su Yunjin's life, but Su Yunjin tyrannically occupies my heart and affects my life. Su Yunjin can be said to be a polyp in my heart. It will hurt if I cut her off, but she will beat with my heart if I don't.
I don't know how to face Su Yunjin, just like I don't know how to face my future life. If I can choose, I really want to become a hedgehog, shrinking when facing harm, not to defend myself, but to hide and heal silently.
I think time is the best medicine to heal everything. As time goes by, I will forget Su Yunjin, just like time can make people forget the pain.
I have always wanted to know what I would be like after Su Yunjin left my life. It seems that only time can give me the answer.
When I was at my loneliest, when I was trying hard to avoid Su Yunjin and Su Mo, Bao Kangqi, who had been avoiding me before, called me and asked me what I was busy with recently.
After going through an emotional catastrophe, I was exhausted physically and mentally, and even became weak in speech. I said to Bao Kangqi: "If I just live my ordinary life peacefully, what else can I do?"
I deliberately made my tone relaxed and natural, but Bao Kangqi still heard something unusual. He asked me anxiously on the other end of the phone: "Xiao Di, what's wrong with you? We are friends, don't lie to me."
Bao Kangqi emphasized the word "friend", which made me vaguely remember that he said he would be my friend for life.
"Bao Kangqi, I'm fine, really." I tried to hold back the tears that were about to burst out and explained anxiously.
"An Xiaodi, I want to see you." Bao Kangqi's voice was firm and persistent, and I didn't know how to refuse.
"Bao Kangqi, I..." I refused instinctively, because I didn't know how I should face Bao Kangqi, and I didn't know whether the grievances in my heart would be overwhelming after seeing him.
Since I can't control what happens after I meet him, all I can do is control myself from getting close to him.
Bao Kangqi didn't say anything on the other end of the phone, but I heard his faint sigh when he hung up.
After hanging up the phone, I was still immersed in my own world, thinking about Su Yunjin and the future without Su Yunjin. The more I thought about it, the more wronged I felt, and I couldn't help sobbing.
Just as I was about to wipe the tears from my face with a tissue, Bao Kangqi called again. I didn't want her to hear something unusual in my voice, so I refused to answer the call, but he kept calling. I refused again and again until I couldn't bear it anymore, so I wiped my tears and answered the phone.
"Xiao Di, I'm downstairs at your house, come down quickly."
I was shocked by his words.
"I..." I wanted to refuse. I didn't want Bao Kangqi to see me in such an embarrassing state, but I couldn't find a suitable reason to refuse him.
Bao Kangqi sighed and said, "Xiao Di, come out and let me take a look. Just one look, and I'll leave right away."
The words that could not be refused left me speechless for a moment, and I still didn't dare to go down.
"Xiao Di, you know me well. If you don't come down, I will wait for you here until you come downstairs."
My mind was full of thoughts, but I couldn't find a reasonable reason to refuse him.
"Xiao Di, I just want to see if you are okay. You have to let me feel at ease."
We were silent for a long time, as long as a century, and Bao Kangqi's voice on the other end of the phone suddenly softened.
His words made my heart suddenly soften. When I was hiding away to heal my wounds, he actually missed me so much. It would be a lie to say I wasn't moved.
"Okay, wait for me, I'll change my clothes." I finally couldn't bear to refuse anymore, so I quickly changed my clothes, put on some light makeup to cover up the haggardness on my face, and then went downstairs.
Bao Kangqi looked at me nervously, over and over again, and then asked softly: "Xiao Di, tell me, what happened?"
I looked at Bao Kangqi in confusion, wondering how he could be so sure that something had happened to me.
"Xiao Di, you don't look good at all. You are completely different from the last time I saw you. Did something happen? Why didn't you come to me? Is it solved now?" Bao Kangqi's questions came one after another. I looked at him with a nervous expression and didn't know how to answer for a moment.
"Xiao Di, tell me, what happened?" Seeing that I didn't answer, Bao Kangqi stared at me closely, as if trying to find the answer on my face.
"Bao Kangqi, I'm fine. I just got sick."
I finally found a lame excuse and breathed a sigh of relief. However, I didn't expect Bao Kangqi's expression to become even more serious. He looked at me and asked seriously, "How are you now? Are you completely healed? Which hospital did you go to for the checkup?"
Bao Kangqi had so many questions that it seemed like he had a hundred thousand whys. I shook my head helplessly and told him, "I'm fine now."
If falling in love with Su Yunjin was a serious illness for me, then it was time to recover. But when I thought of Su Yunjin, my heart still hurt so much that I couldn't help but burst into tears.
"Xiao Di, what's wrong with you?" Bao Kangqi looked at me nervously, and he still saw the tears in my eyes.
I quickly explained: "I'm fine, I just suffered a lot when I was sick, and I feel a little wronged when I saw you."
My explanation finally brought a relieved smile to Bao Kangqi's face. He looked at me and said seriously, "This illness has made you thinner."
His words were filled with a hint of heartache, and I felt warm in my ears and heart.
"Xiao Di, do you have time tomorrow?" Bao Kangqi suddenly asked me with a smile. I looked at him puzzled, wondering what his plans were.
"I'll take you to eat delicious food and gain back the weight you've lost." Bao Kangqi said seriously. His serious look almost made me believe that he could really help me gain weight with just one meal.
Seeing his excited face, I nodded and agreed. How could I bear to refuse the request of someone who was so kind to me?
The next morning, before I got up, he was already downstairs of my house and called me anxiously.
"Bao Kangqi, it's still early." I saw that the caller ID showed Bao Kangqi's name, and there was already displeasure in my tone.
"Xiao Di, you can't gain weight with just one meal, you need at least three meals. Xiao Di, I've already thought about it , let's go have Zhou Ji's soup dumplings for breakfast." Bao Kangqi ignored my complaints and started talking on the other end of the phone. The words "Zhou Ji soup dumplings" successfully dispelled my sleepiness.
"Wait for me, right away." When I decided to get up, Bao Kangqi was on the other end of the phone saying that he was going to Deyue Building to eat Maoxuewang at noon. Hearing what I said, he stopped talking and said excitedly, "Okay, I'll wait for you."
But we never imagined that besides the famous soup dumplings, there was also an acquaintance of Bao Kangqi waiting for us at Zhou Ji.
"Bao Kangqi, who is this? Would you like to introduce yourself?" In Zhouji Soup Dumpling Restaurant, the soup dumplings we ordered had just been served, and before I started eating, a beautiful and flamboyant girl smiled and sat down next to me, opposite Bao Kangqi.
She looked at me scrutinizingly, and the way she looked me up and down made me feel uncomfortable, like an object.
"Ji Ran, the daughter of my father's business partner." Bao Kangqi looked at Ji Ran blankly, then looked at me nervously and introduced her to me.
"Bao Kangqi, who is she?" Seeing that Bao Kangqi did not answer her and was still nervously explaining to me, Ji Ran's expression obviously turned bad. There was a bit more hostility when he looked at me, and when he asked Bao Kangqi, it was more like a question.
"She is my...good friend, An Xiaodi." Bao Kangqi looked at me, hesitated, and explained.
"I've long heard of your name, An Xiaodi." After hearing Bao Kangqi's words, Ji Ran turned to look at me with a smile on her lips, but I could clearly see that her eyes were full of coldness.
"I've heard of your name for a long time." I didn't understand why she was hostile to me, but after hearing her flattering words, I didn't want to be outdone.
"Have you heard of my name too?" My words obviously surprised Ji Ran.
"Lin Luofei said." I tried hard to search the name "Ji Ran" in my mind, but the only thing I could remember was "Miss Ji" that Lin Luofei had mentioned.
"Luo Fei said that. No wonder we are good friends with Kang Qi." Ji Ran said softly, as if he remembered something.
"That's quite a coincidence." I glanced at Bao Kangqi, who looked nervous, and then picked up the soup dumpling in front of me and put it in my mouth. But before I put it in my mouth, Bao Kangqi grabbed my hand and said in a scolding but helpless way: "Don't burn yourself."
Bao Kangqi's voice was so gentle that it made me feel like my heart had stopped beating. I put down the soup dumpling helplessly, but heard Ji Ran's voice again: "Xiao Di, you are too anxious. You put it in your mouth regardless of whether it is yours or not, and you are not afraid of getting burned."
I looked at the fragrant soup dumplings with a sense of grievance, listened to Ji Ran's sarcastic words, and told her unhappily: "I can't help it. Bao Kangqi has already bought them. It would be a waste if I don't eat them."
A nervous look appeared on Bao Kangqi's face again, but after I pretended to be ignorant and responded to Ji Ran, his expression finally relaxed a little.
"Ji Ran, are you here to eat or buy soup dumplings? Hurry up and line up, or you won't get a share."
Bao Kangqi was obviously trying to get Ji Ran to leave. Even an outsider like me could hear his side tone. However, Ji Ran said nonchalantly, "Didn't you already buy them? I don't eat much, so just give me two."
After Ji Ran finished speaking, Bao Kangqi's face froze, but I just stared at the soup dumplings, thinking only about how delicious they were.
Before Bao Kangqi could speak again, Ji Ran had already picked up the soup dumpling on the table and put it into her mouth. After finishing it, she looked at Bao Kangqi calmly. Bao Kangqi looked at her and hesitated to speak several times.
"Xiao Di, you know Lin Luofei, but have you heard of Su Mo?" Ji Ran looked at me curiously.
"We are good friends." I could see that Ji Ran was asking the question even though he knew the answer, but he still answered seriously.
"I heard at Lin Luofei's birthday party a few days ago that the girl named Su Mo is always pestering Zhuang Yi, even though Zhuang Yi and Lin Luofei have been engaged for a long time. She pesters him even though she knows Zhuang Yi is taken. No wonder Lin Luofei is angry. I told Lin Luofei that girls nowadays like to pester taken boys. They are so shameless. I just didn't expect you two are friends." Ji Ran had a sympathetic look on his face when he spoke, as if it was a great misfortune for me to have a friend like Su Mo.
"Ji Ran, you..." Before I could speak, Bao Kangqi's face changed and he warned Ji Ran loudly.
Ji Ran looked aggrieved, looked at me and asked, "You see, Kang Qi was not happy when I mentioned it."
I know exactly what Ji Ran meant. Lin Luofei said a long time ago that Bao Kangqi was going to be engaged to Miss Ji. In Ji Ran's heart, Bao Kangqi was already her boyfriend. How could she allow me to covet him? Even if I didn't mean to, in her heart, I was the third party who destroyed their relationship.
I looked at Bao Kangqi helplessly. He was the one who knew the relationship between us the best. It was never me who pestered him. If I could, I would turn around now and withdraw from Bao Kangqi's world.
But I was still unwilling to be provoked by Ji Ran like this. There was a hint of sarcasm on my face, and I started thinking about how to retort.
Bao Kangqi saw that I was unhappy, and his face became more impatient. When Lin Luofei was still staring at me and waiting for me to give her an answer , Bao Kangqi couldn't help but said: "Ji Ran, you are wrong, I like An Xiaodi, and I am the one who pesters her."
Ji Ran was stunned. She obviously didn't expect Bao Kangqi to speak at this time, and she didn't expect Bao Kangqi to say such words.
She stared at Bao Kangqi blankly, her eyes full of confusion.
"Ji Ran, I think you have misunderstood some things. The engagement our parents talked about was just a joke. I can't marry a girl I don't like. The person I like is An Xiaodi, and the only one I really want to marry is An Xiaodi." Bao Kangqi said righteously, and at the end, he looked at me affectionately.
Ji Ran looked at Bao Kangqi, a bitter smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she stood up. She was calm just now, but now she seemed to be shaky like a leaf in the autumn wind, as if she could fall down at any time, but she still smiled with difficulty and said to Bao Kangqi: "Bao Kangqi, you think too much, I am just talking about the facts. Su Mo is indeed chasing Zhuang Yi, and Zhuang Yi has already been engaged to Lin Luofei."
She repeated the fact that Lin Luofei and Zhuang Yi were engaged, as if to find strength to support herself. After she finished speaking, she politely said goodbye and left.
Her back looked lonely and desolate, completely different from her arrogant appearance just now.
Looking at Ji Ran's departing back, Bao Kangqi suddenly let out a long sigh of relief, and then pretended to be relaxed and said to me: "Finally, this problem has been solved."
I looked at Bao Kangqi coldly, and didn't say anything for a long time, just eating the soup dumplings in front of me. Bao Kangqi looked at me in confusion, not understanding why my mood had changed.
"Xiao Di, what's wrong with you?" he asked with concern, his eyes full of worry.
I ate my soup dumplings quietly, and after a long while I looked up at the figure that had already gone away, and said, "Is this an unprovoked disaster?"
Bao Kangqi was stunned, looking at me helplessly, and didn't speak for a long time. His silence made me more angry.
I finished my breakfast and stood up and left without waiting for Bao Kangqi to finish. I just wanted to stay away from this disaster Bao Kangqi.
I myself did not understand why I was in a bad mood, I just felt that Bao Kangqi was very annoying at this time. Seeing me leave, Bao Kangqi became even more anxious, he quickly caught up with me, followed behind me, and whispered my name.
"Xiao Di, there's really nothing between Ji Ran and me. I don't like her, and I've always liked you." Bao Kangqi explained behind me, but I felt aggrieved when I thought about the hostility and insults I received without doing anything.
"Xiao Di, I have only liked you as a girl, I swear to God." Seeing that I didn't say anything, Bao Kangqi became even more anxious.
"Liar, you once told me that you fell in love with a girl's back and could never forget it." I suddenly remembered what Bao Kangqi said when he comforted me a long time ago, and shouted at him unhappily.
Bao Kangqi was stunned, and the words he wanted to say were stuck in his throat. He chased me, and after a long time, he slowly said behind me: "Xiao Di, that back view is yours. You bandaged the wound on my leg and then turned around and left. All I remember is your back view."
I couldn't help but be stunned, looking at Bao Kangqi, he said that I bandaged his wound and left. I knew he liked me from that day on, but I didn't know that he only remembered my back. When I was thinking about it before, I thought he liked other girls.
Maybe because I was once loved by Bao Kangqi, I felt a little happy and my pace slowed down. Bao Kangqi still followed me and said over and over again: "Xiao Di, believe me, I only liked you, please don't ignore me."
"Xiao Di, believe me, I will only like you in the future." Bao Kangqi said this over and over again behind me. I didn't realize what he was saying. In fact, I had already let it go in my heart, but I just didn't want to talk to him, or I didn't know how to talk to him.
"An Xiaodi, do you believe me or not?" Bao Kangqi suddenly shouted. He rarely called my name so solemnly. He had been calling me "Xiao Di Xiao Di" since the first day he met me.
When I heard Bao Kangqi calling my name, I couldn't help but turn around and look at him.
He looked at me and asked, "An Xiaodi, do you believe me or not?"
I don't know how to answer. What should I believe and what should I not believe? What is his relationship with Ji Ran? No matter what happens to them, it has nothing to do with me. I am very clear about this.
"Xiao Di, answer me." Bao Kangqi said to me seriously.
I didn't know how to answer, so I just looked at him. Unexpectedly, he pointed at the river beside him and said, "An Xiaodi, this river water is the best proof of my heart."
His sudden words stunned me, and before I could understand how the river water could prove his heart, he jumped into the river.
It was late autumn and the river water was icy cold, but Bao Kangqi jumped in without a care.
It would be a lie to say I wasn't shocked. I stared blankly at the river surface which had instantly returned to calm, and heard more and more people shouting by the river: "Someone has fallen into the water, help! Help!"
Compared to the chaotic sounds around me, my world was silent and I couldn't understand what was happening in front of my eyes.
But in just a moment, Bao Kangqi's face flashed through my mind - the doting smile, the flattering look, the helpless sigh, and the determined look when he asked me whether I believed in him.
"Bao Kangqi, please come out quickly, Bao Kangqi..." Looking at the calm river surface, unprecedented panic occupied my heart, making even my voice tremble.
At this moment, my only hope is that Bao Kangqi is well.
"Bao Kangqi, if you don't come out I will leave and never talk to you again." I shouted towards the river, but my tears couldn't help but flow out.
I wiped my tears and looked at the river, not daring even to blink. Tension filled my heart and made me feel at a loss.
"Hurry up and get into the water to save people." Someone next to me shouted loudly. The noisy voices by the river made me feel even more confused.
Just as the people by the river were preparing to go into the water, Bao Kangqi suddenly emerged from the water and looked at me with a smile.
I looked at the person in front of me in surprise. I opened my mouth several times but couldn't say anything. I just looked at him, feeling ecstatic as if I had regained what I had lost.
Just when I was finally calm, Bao Kangqi in the water suddenly sank again. But before I could scream, he reappeared and said to me: "Xiao Di, I am not good at swimming."
"Then come up quickly." I shouted anxiously.
As I was speaking, Bao Kangqi sank into the water again. Someone on the shore shouted, "Go down and save him immediately. It will be too late if you are late."
I looked at Bao Kangqi who had reappeared his head with concern and said, "Wait, I'll come and save you."
After saying that, I was ready to jump into the river, but Bao Kangqi stopped me and said, "No need to come down, Xiao Di, just answer me three questions and I will go up right away. If you don't answer, then no matter if you come down or someone else does, I will not go up."
Bao Kangqi made a request in the water in an almost rogue manner, and I knew that if I didn't agree to it, he would definitely not give up. Looking at his body shivering above the water, I couldn't bear it, so I could only nod and say yes.
Bao Kangqi's face was instantly filled with smiles. He looked at me and asked proudly, "Xiao Di, do you believe me? There is really nothing going on between Ji Ran and me."
In fact, I never doubted that there was something between Bao Kangqi and Ji Ran. If there was something between them, Bao Kangqi would not have said such cold words today. So as soon as Bao Kangqi finished speaking, I solemnly replied to him: "I believe you."
Bao Kangqi's face seemed to be instantly stained with sunshine, and he asked me: "Do you like me or not?"
I looked at Bao Kangqi, not knowing how to answer for a moment. Bao Kangqi had a faint look of loss on his face, and his body, exposed on the surface of the river, was shaky, as if it would sink into the water again at any time.
"Bao Kangqi..." I called his name softly.
He asked me, "Do you like me?"
"I..." I didn't know how to answer. I did like him a little, but not as much as Su Yunjin, so...
Just when I was about to say something, Bao Kangqi sank into the water again. I looked at him and couldn't help shouting, "I like it!"
As soon as I finished speaking, Bao Kangqi showed his head, a triumphant smile bloomed on his face. He looked at me and asked, "Then will you be my girlfriend?"
I didn't expect him to make such a request. I instinctively wanted to refuse, but before I opened my mouth, I saw Bao Kangqi's body floating in the water. I finally gritted my teeth and said, "Okay, I promise to be your girlfriend."
Bao Kangqi was stunned for a moment, but after a moment, he looked at me happily, smiling foolishly, and couldn't close his mouth.
Seeing his excitement, my face turned red and I lowered my head and ignored him. He just looked at me in the river and smiled foolishly, as if a child had got the candy he wanted most.
"Young man, the water is so cold. Your girlfriend has agreed, why don't you come out quickly?" Finally, someone on the river bank couldn't stand it anymore and shouted at Bao Kangqi in the water.
"Come out quickly, quickly." I shyly glanced at the people by the river who were looking at Bao Kangqi and me, wishing I could find a hole to crawl into.
Bao Kangqi still smiled foolishly, swam in front of me, and asked nervously, "Are you worried?"
I looked at his smiling face, glared at him, and said, "You also know that I am worried."
The smile in Bao Kangqi's eyes seemed to be stained with moisture, and it couldn't be melted away. It made me feel uneasy, and I couldn't help asking, "What are you looking at?"
"Look at my girlfriend." Bao Kangqi said in a rogue manner.
If he wasn't still in the water, I would have kicked him.
But the fact that he said the word "girlfriend" so openly still easily touched my heart, and I even lost my previous calmness when looking at him.
"Come out quickly, just in case..." I couldn't help but say when I saw Bao Kangqi still soaking in the water.
Bao Kangqi couldn't help laughing when he saw how nervous I was. He said, "Xiao Di, don't worry. I grew up in a military compound and received all kinds of training. There is basically no difference between being in the water and on the ground."
Bao Kangqi explained to me very proudly, but after he finished he noticed that my facial expression had changed. He looked at me anxiously, looking at a loss.
"Xiao Di, I was wrong. I shouldn't have lied to you." Bao Kangqi's voice changed.
I looked at Bao Kangqi, not knowing what to say. I was indeed angry that he had played a trick on me, but that anger was not enough to make me lose my temper.
Because I know very well that Bao Kangqi's behavior today forced me to see my heart clearly. Although I have always said that I want to be friends with Bao Kangqi, I still care about him and have some likes for him, so I don't blame him.
"Xiao Di, how about this? If I don't move my arms and legs, you will punish me by making me lie in the water, choke on the water and drink it, and leave it to fate, okay?" Bao Kangqi asked.
I smiled and looked at Bao Kangqi. I knew he was nervous because he cared about me. I didn't dare to let him toss and turn again. I just whispered, "Come up quickly. The water is so cold."
Bao Kangqi didn't expect me to say that. He couldn't believe his ears and asked me seriously: "What did you say? Let me go up? Okay, I'll go right away. Xiao Di, I'll go right away, right away..."
Bao Kangqi was so excited that he was incoherent. He climbed out of the river, ran to me, and called my name softly with a bit of shyness.
This is the first time I heard someone call my name so gently.
"Go home quickly and change your clothes, or you will catch a cold." Looking at Bao Kangqi who was soaked, I couldn't help but remind him.
"It's too far from home, Xiaodi, please accompany me to buy clothes." Bao Kangqi stared at me with sparkling eyes.
"Xiao Di..."
Bao Kangqi looked at me coquettishly, pulling at his wet clothes aggrievedly. The wind blew and he couldn't help shivering. He looked particularly pitiful.
"Okay." I looked at Bao Kangqi helplessly, and finally agreed to his request.
I don't know why, but I can't bear to see Bao Kangqi looking pitiful. As soon as he looks pitiful, all my persistence will be in vain.
Bao Kangqi disregarded his own image and dragged me to the mall. Along the way, he kept asking me what color clothes I liked him to wear and what style of pants I liked. The answers I gave casually would make him excited.
When Bao Kangqi came out of the fitting room, the salesperson couldn't help but praise him: "This dress really suits you very well, and it really brings out your temperament."
Bao Kangqi smiled at the salesperson and looked at me with questioning eyes.
I shook my head gently, and he said to the salesperson apologetically: "My girlfriend doesn't like this dress. Is there anything else? Can you recommend one?"
Bao Kangqi was gentle and polite. I don’t know what he said to the salesperson afterwards. I only remember that he said I was his girlfriend.
Girlfriend, these three strange words unexpectedly appeared in my life. I had always wanted to be Su Yunjin's girlfriend, but fate had changed, and now it was Bao Kangqi who told outsiders that I was his girlfriend.
"Xiao Di, how do you think I look in this?" Bao Kangqi came out of the fitting room, ran to me, stared at me and asked.
I took a look at him . He was wearing a simple T-shirt on the upper body and jeans and sneakers on the lower body. It was my favorite casual style. But I suddenly realized that the style of clothes I picked for Bao Kangqi was exactly the same as Su Yunjin's.
"Pretty good." I said perfunctorily, then turned my head away, not daring to look at Bao Kangqi's face full of joy.
After I agreed to be Bao Kangqi's girlfriend, Bao Kangqi changed completely. Unlike before when he was cautious, he now walked by my side and talked about this and that excitedly, with a beaming face.
"Bao Kangqi, that's enough. I know you are happy, but if you continue like this, I will suspect that you have turned into a woman. You haven't stopped talking all morning." I finally couldn't help but joked.
Bao Kangqi also realized that he talked too much because he was happy. He smiled awkwardly and said to me softly: "Let's go eat. I'll make you fat and shut me up at the same time."
Still thoughtful and considerate, still full of expectations. Although I wanted to go home, I couldn't bear to refuse.
When he saw me nod, excitement reappeared on his face and he took me to dinner with a smile. Unfortunately, the meal couldn't shut Bao Kangqi up.
My ears were completely quiet after Bao Kangqi sent me home. I breathed a long sigh of relief, thinking to myself that if Bao Kangqi became such a nagging person in the future, my future would be terrible.
My horrible future had not yet arrived, but the horrible reality shattered my imagination of the future, because Bao Kangqi, who had just separated from me for less than ten minutes, called me again. I didn't answer the phone, but he kept calling until I answered.
"Bao Kangqi, from now on I will just call you Aunt Bao. You can speak better than aunts in their forties or fifties." I couldn't help but complain.
Bao Kangqi on the other end of the phone became at a loss. He apologized sincerely: "Xiao Di, I didn't mean it. I was just too happy and didn't know how to express my happiness, so I..."
As I listened to Bao Kangqi's explanation, I was moved again. It is a happy thing to be cared for by someone like this.
Bao Kangqi was still chattering on the other end of the phone. He talked for a long time, all about trivial details of life or things about his friends. I finally couldn't help but interrupt and asked, "Bao Kangqi, what's the matter with you calling me?"
There was silence on the other end of the phone, and then Bao Kangqi said apologetically: "Xiao Di, I'm sorry, I..."
"Bao Kangqi, if you have anything to say, just tell me directly." I knew he was too excited.
"Xiao Di, there's nothing wrong. I just want to tell you that it's great that you can be my girlfriend." Bao Kangqi's tone was very serious when he said the last two words.
"Bao Kangqi, I understand." I said softly and hung up the phone.
It's great to have me as your girlfriend, and it's also a happy thing to have you as my boyfriend. Although I don't like you as much as I like Su Yunjin, you like me more than Su Yunjin.
So, thank you, Bao Kangqi.
Thank you for your likes, thank you for your love which gave me another world.