Now I finally understand that all good things must come to an end. One day you will part ways with your friends, one day you will be distrusted by the people you trust the most, one day you will feel powerless and life will be boring, but you have to live, just to survive.

I chose a weekend to visit Luo Qiqi at her home. Luo's parents installed a prosthesis for her lower leg, and Luo Qiqi could practice walking with the prosthesis with the help of crutches.
I held Luo Qiqi's favorite doll and stood ten meters away from her. I held up the doll and shouted, "Qiqi, I will only give you the doll if you come to my position."
Luo Qiqi smiled and walked towards me clumsily with the crutches: "Little guy, just wait."
"Don't walk too fast." I hurried over to support Luo Qiqi. "The doctor said that you can only move slowly, one step at a time, in the initial stage of your practice. If you walk too fast, your feet will hurt."
Luo Qiqi was helped by me to sit on the wheelchair. She was a little unwilling, but she said with a hint of meaning: "Nianzi, why are you the only one who came to see me these few days?"
I guessed what Luo Qiqi was thinking and asked, "Do you want to ask Yang Yanxiao?"
"Yeah." Luo Qiqi lowered her head, rubbing her hands and said, "Sometimes my mother pushed me out to relax, and I would see Yang Yanxiao hugging others in and out of the bar. Nianzi, do you think Yang Yanxiao dislikes me?"
In order to comfort Luo Qiqi, I lied to her and said, "Don't overthink it. Yang Yanxiao has put a lot of thought into taking care of you. His methods of effort are different from others, but they are all for your own good."
"But I'd rather he called me more often. "
I rarely see Luo Qiqi like this, insecure and lacking confidence.
I coaxed Luo Qiqi and said, "Do you want me to go out for a walk with you?"
Luo Qiqi raised her head, her eyes sparkling: "Okay!"
With the consent of Luo's parents, I took Luo Qiqi out for a walk around the neighborhood. Luo Qiqi was using a cane, which was very inconvenient, so I carefully protected her from behind and walked very slowly.
When we entered the elevator, there was an old lady and a child of five or six years old riding in the elevator with us.
The boy kept looking at Luo Qiqi, and Luo Qiqi felt a little embarrassed.
After a while, the boy suddenly said to Luo Qiqi: "Sister, did your leg get injured when you beat up the bad guys?"
I answered first: "Sister's leg was injured when she was rescuing her good friend, but it will heal soon."
When the boy heard this, he turned around, hugged his grandmother's legs, and said with a smile: "Sister, you are a great hero!" Then, the boy circled around Luo Qiqi, making strange noises as he spun, "Sun Wukong, show your magical powers and make sister's legs better, make them better! Okay, sister, your legs are better now."
Luo Qiqi's eyes were wet. When the elevator reached the first floor, the boy jumped out and waved back, "Goodbye, sister."
Luo Qiqi nodded to the boy.
"Ms. Luo Qiqi, where would you like to go?" I stood respectfully in front of Luo Qiqi, bowed and smiled.
Luo Qiqi pretended to think and said, "I'm going to have a cup of coffee first, and then take a walk by the lake. I want to listen to Ji Qingnian tell me jokes and play the tiger for me."
"Yes, Xiao Jizi. Master Buddha, please be careful." I nodded and bowed and went over to help Luo Qiqi. Luo Qiqi laughed out loud because of me.
When we reached a coffee shop, I turned around and called out to Luo Qiqi: "Qiqi, do you want to go in and drink, or take it away?"
"Let's pack it up." Luo Qiqi said.
"Okay, wait for me downstairs." I climbed up the stone steps to the coffee shop to buy coffee. I waited in line for three minutes, spent one minute buying coffee, and when I came out, Luo Qiqi was nowhere to be seen.
"Qiqi!" I ran to where Luo Qiqi had just stood and called her, but no one answered. Her legs were inconvenient, so where could she go?
"Qiqi!" I shouted, then grabbed a passerby and asked, "Excuse me, have you seen a girl with a cane?"
"No." Passersby waved at me again and again.
Just when I didn't know what to do, I suddenly saw Luo Qiqi jumping out from the stairs. She looked panicked and seemed to be running away. When she ran to the stairs, she suddenly dropped her crutches and rolled down the stairs.
Luo Qiqi's entire body rolled down from above like a hard stone.
"Qiqi!" I screamed and rushed over. Luo Qiqi fell at my feet, his calves covered in blood.
The scene of the car accident suddenly appeared in front of my eyes. I squatted down and called for help in a hoarse voice: "Please, help me call 120... I beg you..."
Passersby came over and helped me make the call, and I accompanied Luo Qiqi to the hospital again.
If this happens again, I will fall apart.
I looked at the unconscious Luo Qiqi and asked the doctor who had just diagnosed her. The doctor said to me: "It's nothing serious, it's just that the prosthesis is misplaced and the wound is torn. I need to reinstall her prosthesis."
I nodded and sent the doctor out of the ward.
Yang Yanxiao, Ling Haochen, and Mu Shaobai, who rushed over after hearing the news, were all dumbfounded when they saw this scene. Yang Yanxiao looked at the unconscious Luo Qiqi on the hospital bed, grabbed my wrist, dragged me to the hospital stairs, and asked me, "Tell me, what happened? Why did I go out with you and get into trouble again?"
I explained, "I don't know. I just went to buy coffee for Qiqi, and I didn't see her when I came back. I don't know what happened, but she appeared at the place where I bought coffee and fell down."
"I don't know, you know nothing!" Yang Yanxiao pushed me, and Ling Haochen protected me in time behind me.
Yang Yanxiao pointed at my nose and said, "You jinx, if you hadn't done anything, how could Qiqi be injured so badly every time?"
"What did I do?" I felt amused. Has Yang Yanxiao still not figured out who the problem is? I laughed and said, "Yes, I am a jinx. Yang Yanxiao, don't you want to know why Qiqi wants to go out to relax? You know what you did to make Qiqi sad!"
"What did I do?" Yang Yanxiao looked unwilling to give up and waved his hand, "Ling Haochen, Mu Shaobai, get out of the way!"
I said, "You should reflect on yourself. You go in and out of the bar with questionable women every day. Do you know how sad Qiqi is?"
When Yang Yanxiao heard this, his eyes widened and he kicked his feet forward: "I go in and out of the bar to earn money for Qiqi's leg treatment! Did you say something nonsense to Qiqi? Did you say something bad about me and made Qiqi sad?"
I looked at the man in front of me in surprise and said incredulously, "Yang Yanxiao, are you sick?"
"Yes, I am sick." Yang Yan smiled and said, "I will go and explain it to Qiqi and tell her not to believe you."
I grabbed Yang Yanxiao's hand and said, "You can't go in now. She's resting and needs quiet."
"Why do you care so much?"
Yang Yanxiao pushed me away, and I lost my balance and fell down the stairs.
Ling Haochen and Mu Shaobai screamed. My eyes went dark and my body was hurt by the stairs. It was not until I hit the wall hard and felt a sharp pain between my legs that I understood how Luo Qiqi felt.
"Qing Nian!" Ling Haochen rushed down the stairs and slowly helped me up. "How are you? Are you okay?"
I endured the pain and whispered, "It's okay."
Mu Shaobai grabbed Yang Yanxiao's collar and punched him hard several times. Yang Yanxiao fell to the ground, still laughing.
This was the first time Mu Shaobai got so angry. He said coldly, "Yang Yanxiao, you are simply crazy. Do you still have any sense?"
"Reasonable? Hahaha..." Yang Yanxiao laughed sarcastically.
Mu Shaobai looked stern and said, "What are you laughing at!"
"I'm laughing at your pity." Yang Yanxiao's expression was distorted, completely different from the one we knew. "Aren't you pitiful? You are here to teach me a lesson with righteousness, but what about you? You are a coward. Mu Shaobai, are you guarding Ji Qingnian like a guardian angel? I tell you, it's useless! She is lying in someone else's arms now, and you have been secretly in love with Ji Qingnian for so long but you didn't dare to say it out loud. Haha, it's useless and shameful!"
I could feel Ling Haochen tightening his grip on my hand, and my heart trembled.
Mu Shaobai likes me?
Mu Shaobai flexed his fingers and punched Yang Yanxiao again, knocking him down. Yang Yanxiao stood up with a crazy smile and said, "Well done, you broke the friendship between us brothers. It was a really good fight!"
"The friendship between us brothers has been severed long ago." Mu Shaobai obviously didn't buy Yang Yanxiao's words.
A sudden pain came from my leg, and I hissed in pain. Ling Haochen picked me up and said, "Let's go see a doctor first."
After saying that, he held me in his arms, climbed up the stairs, and called for a doctor.
When I passed by Mu Shaobai, he turned sideways to me, and the moment his eyes met mine, I was at a loss for what to do.
I suddenly felt sad, is our friendship coming to an end? But the party wasn't over yet, and I didn't want to leave, not at all.
The doctor diagnosed me and said that I just sprained my foot and couldn’t walk for the time being. I could only walk after the redness and swelling of my ankle went down.
Ling Haochen sat next to me and frowned, saying, "Another injured person."
"Do you dislike me?" I asked unhappily.
"How dare I?" Ling Haochen said, "If I dislike you, won't someone else take advantage of me?"
I knew what Ling Haochen meant, and couldn't help but ask, "Are you jealous?"
"Eat you." Ling Haochen glared at me.
I deliberately rolled my eyes at him and then leaned back on the pillow to rest. Suddenly, I saw a corner of a blue shirt flash past the glass window of the ward.
Mu Shaobai...
If he doesn't come in to see me, does that mean there's a gap between us?
Feelings are such annoying things.
I said to Ling Haochen, "Ling Haochen, I'll call my dad and ask him to take care of me. You go back first."
"I don't." Ling Haochen refused.
I said, "If my dad comes, he will kick you out with a stool."
Ling Haochen was a little embarrassed.
I said, "If my dad comes, he will kick you all out."
Ling Haochen pulled my hand, forced me to shake hands, and said, "You are not allowed to let Mu Shaobai come to see you alone."
I knew it!
I replied, "Okay, I promise you."
After I made repeated assurances, Ling Haochen left with peace of mind. I quickly called Ji Dahai and carefully told him about my injury. Surprisingly, Ji Dahai did not blame me, but promised me that he would come to see me immediately.
After hanging up the phone, I quickly felt sleepy because of the medicine on my feet.
When I woke up, Ji Dahai was sitting next to me and dozing off.
"Dad." I called him and slowly sat up.
Ji Dahai woke up immediately. Seeing that I was awake, he ran to the cabinet, opened the thermos, and asked, "Are you awake? Are you hungry? I made some soup for you, corn and pork ribs soup, it's good for your health."
I was surprised and asked, "Dad, you can also make soup?"
Ji Dahai awkwardly served me a bowl of soup and said, "Don't you have to take care of your body? I have to learn how to make soup and cook. Come, try it."
I nodded and was about to reach out to take it, but Ji Dahai suddenly retracted his hand and said, "Let me feed you."
I looked complaining and said, "Dad, I'm not a child."
"But you are a patient." Ji Dahai's reasoning was reasonable. He scooped up a spoonful of soup, blew it around his mouth, and handed it to me. "Here, drink."
I bit the spoon, poured the thick soup into my throat, and praised: "Chef Ji, it tastes good and has a future."
Ji Dahai smiled awkwardly and said, "Stop making fun of your dad."
I smiled at the attentive man in front of me and said, "Dad, you have changed."
Ji Dahai lowered his head, like a child trying to prove right or wrong, and asked, "What has happened?"
"Become... kind and humane." I said seriously.
Ji Dahai put down the bowl in his hand and sighed, "Dad wasn't good enough before and didn't take care of the family enough, so your stepmother left us."
I looked at the man in front of me, thought about the white hair he had when he was drunk that night, and whispered, "Dad, I will never leave you."
Ji Dahai raised his head with tears in his eyes.
After two days of rest in the hospital and taking the many supplements Ji Dahai sent me, I was able to get out of bed and walk with a limp. My ward was not far from Luo Qiqi's ward, so I could visit her when I had nothing to do.
I walked to the door of Luo Qiqi's ward like an old man and knocked.
"Who is it?" she asked inside.
I replied, "My fellow patient."
"Come in."
After getting permission, I opened the door and walked in. Luo Qiqi was sitting at the head of the bed peeling an apple. Without even looking up, she said, "Welcome to join the crippled group. I'm your boss, Luo Qiqi."
I sat next to Luo Qiqi and leaned in and said, "Ah..."
Luo Qiqi reluctantly peeled a large piece of apple and stuffed it into my mouth. I chewed it and said, "It's so sweet."
Luo Qiqi glanced down at my leg and asked, "When will it heal?"
I said, "Half a month."
Luo Qiqi sat up straight and said, "I scolded Yang Yanxiao for you."
When I heard Luo Qiqi say this, I knew she was afraid that I would mind.
I said, "Qiqi, Yang Yanxiao went too far because of you. I won't be dissatisfied with you because of him, because I care more about you than Yang Yanxiao. He can do whatever he wants, I don't care."
Luo Qiqi breathed a sigh of relief when she saw that I didn't care, but her expression was still very heavy.
I held Luo Qiqi's hand and asked, "Qiqi, what happened to you yesterday? You suddenly fell down the stone steps. Do you know how scared I was that my heart almost jumped out of my chest?"
Luo Qiqi looked up at the ceiling and said, "Did you notice? There is a dance training class next to the coffee shop."
"Hmm?" I didn't quite understand what Luo Qiqi said.
Luo Qiqi continued, as if yearning for something out of reach: "My dream since childhood was to be an excellent dancer, wearing a beautiful dress and dancing under the spotlight, how beautiful it would be. Although this dream was killed after I cut my hair short, I just don't want to admit it. Nianzi, you don't know that I often practiced secretly at home."
I remained silent.
Luo Qiqi lowered her head and smiled, saying, "In addition to becoming an excellent dancer, I also hope to live a peaceful and interesting life in the future, have a lover who will accompany me for life, and give birth to a lovely daughter. I want to take my lover and daughter to eat the best food in the world, travel to many places, and take pictures together. This way, when we are old, we can look back and it will be very meaningful."
Luo Qiqi's eyes darkened: "But now, everything is gone."
"How could that be?" I endured it, held Luo Qiqi's hand, and said, "Wherever you want to go, I will go with you. I can accompany you to do whatever you want to do."
"Nianzi." Luo Qiqi gently pushed my hand away and said, "My parents are going to take me to the United States."
I was shocked and didn't dare to ask any more questions.
"The day after tomorrow, soon?" Luo Qiqi seemed to be laughing and crying, with a complicated expression.
"I'm going to the bathroom." I pretended to be calm, slowly got up, closed the door, turned my back to the wall, and breathed deeply.
I looked inside through the door and window. Luo Qiqi had her head down, and sparkling liquid was dripping on her hands.
I ran to the bathroom quickly, ignoring the pain in my legs. When I got to the sink, I turned on the faucet and kept rubbing water on my face, trying to hide the tears in my eyes.
But when I looked up at myself in the mirror, I suddenly realized that no matter how hard I tried to hide it , my eye sockets were red and swollen. Some details can't be erased, and some memories can't be forgotten.
When Luo Qiqi was going abroad, I packed myself up early in the morning, wanting to say goodbye to her. But when I arrived at Luo Qiqi's house, no matter how many times I rang the doorbell, no one came to open the door.
A neighbor who heard the noise opened the door and asked me, "Are you looking for this family?"
I nodded.
The neighbor asked in surprise: "Don't you know they went abroad?"
Going abroad? Why so early?
When I heard this, I didn't bother to ask any more questions. I ran out of the community frantically, hailed a car and headed straight for the airport.
Luo Qiqi is really something. Didn't you say the flight was at 12 noon? Why did you leave now?
In the taxi, my cell phone suddenly rang with a text message. I picked it up and instantly felt like the world was about to collapse.
The first time I felt so sad was when I saw the message Ji Ming left for me before he left.
This time it was Luo Qiqi.
"Nianzi, I'm sorry I lied to you. I'm already in the United States now. My flight was at 12 noon yesterday. Forgive me, I was afraid that if you came to see me off, I would cry uncontrollably. Nianzi, don't miss me, and don't be like me. You must be happy. Yang Yanxiao and I have broken up, and my happiness has ended. Don't feel sorry for me, but congratulate me. My new life has begun from now on. Nianzi, you must remember that I, Luo Qiqi, have never blamed you. Knowing you is the luckiest thing that has happened to me in all these years."
I held the phone in my hand and didn't reply to her for a long time. Tears fell on my face in strings. I had no regrets in my heart, just sadness, because just like Luo Qiqi, knowing her was the luckiest thing that happened to me in these years.
"Be happy." I said to myself.
The driver said to me, "Little girl, we're at the airport."
"No need, master, turn around and go home." I said this while looking at the tall terminal outside the car window.
From then on, Luo Qiqi was missing from my life, and I became lonely again.
After going through so many things, I fell behind in my studies, so I studied hard every night.
That night, when I was still fighting, someone suddenly knocked on my window.
I opened the curtain and exclaimed in surprise, "Ling Haochen!"
I quickly opened the window, and Ling Haochen climbed in from outside. I tiptoed over, locked the door, and turned to ask, "Why are you here?"
Ling Haochen sat on my bed, panting heavily, and said, "Ji Qingnian, come here."
I sat over, Ling Haochen put his arm around my shoulders and rested his head on them. I didn't refuse him, and after a while, he raised his head and said to me, "Yang Yanxiao wants to seek revenge, and he has already made a plan."
It was what I expected.
Ling Haochen continued: "I can't persuade him, so I choose to help him."
I should have thought of this earlier.
I asked, "So, are you here to say goodbye to me?"
Ling Haochen nodded: "If anything happens to me, you..."
"You get out." I turned my head and blinked, tears about to fall. I cried too much these days, and my tear glands can already sense my emotions.
"Nian, I owe it to Yang Yanxiao." Ling Haochen said softly.
I stood up and said sternly, "A true brother will not let him do something impulsive! Ling Haochen, do you know what you will lose if you accompany him to do it?"
"I know." Ling Haochen stood up and said.
“You could lose me,” I said.
Ling Haochen was stunned for a moment, then said: "I will do my best to protect you."
I felt a little dizzy for a moment, so I pushed Ling Haochen to the window and said, "Go ahead."
"read……"
"Let's go!" I opened the window and turned my back to Ling Haochen.
Ling Haochen stood behind me for several seconds, then climbed out of the window and jumped down by stepping on the air conditioner unit.
I angrily closed the window, drew the curtains, and sat on the stool to sulk.
What the hell is going on? I know I have to avenge Luo Qiqi, but I'm not planning to fight, right? Do these people have brains? No, I actually expect Yang Yanxiao to have brains?
It's so ridiculous.
The next day, I kept thinking about this matter. The more I thought about it, the more uneasy I felt. I was afraid that Ling Haochen would get angry and help Yang Yanxiao to fight. Who is Yang Yanxiao? If anyone bullies Luo Qiqi, he will definitely beat him to death!
As soon as I got out of school, I hurried to Uncle Hua's house. When Uncle Hua saw me coming to see him, he politely asked me to come in. I quickly said, "Uncle Hua, no need, just listen to me."
Uncle Hua asked, "Is it related to Achen?"
"Yeah." I nodded and said, "Yesterday Ling Haochen said he would help Yang Yanxiao to fight. Yang Yanxiao's strange behavior before made me feel weird. I was afraid something might happen, so you should keep a close eye on Ling Haochen."
"I understand." Uncle Hua said, "It took a lot of effort to get Chen back to school. I won't let him do anything stupid again."
After telling Uncle Hua, I walked towards home half-believing and half-doubting. But my heart was still in knots, and I always felt that things would not be settled so easily.
This incident has kept me from sleeping well.
The next day I went to Ling Haochen's classroom to look for him, but found that he was not in the classroom. I asked a girl sitting behind me if Ling Haochen came to class today, and the girl told me that Ling Haochen had asked for leave today.
asked for leave!
I was like an ant on a hot pot. Suddenly, an idea flashed in my mind and I immediately ran to Mu Shaobai's classroom, but Mu Shaobai also asked for leave. Are these people planning to keep it a secret from me alone?
I subconsciously dialed Mu Shaobai's number, and when the phone rang, I really wanted to slap myself. How should I tell him?
"Hello?" Mu Shaobai answered the phone.
"Hello, uh...Mu Shaobai, I..." I suddenly didn't know how to start.
"Don't worry, I'll take care of everything." Mu Shaobai seemed to have guessed what I wanted to ask, and gave me a reassurance in one sentence, "I know what you want to say, don't worry, everything will be fine, I will protect Haochen well."
I finally breathed a sigh of relief and sat down beside the flower bed.
"Thank you, Shaobai."
Mu Shaobai was silent for a while on the other end of the phone, then said, "I only have one request for you, can we not be so unfamiliar with each other?"
I replied, "Okay."
Only after Mu Shaobai hung up the phone did I calm myself down and go to class.
However, in the afternoon, the bad news reached my ears.
Mu Shaobai asked me to go to the police station. I ran to the police station as soon as I got out of school. Mu Shaobai and Ling Haochen were standing next to the police car. The police brought two people down from the police car, one was Bai Qian, and the other was the uncle who asked for directions on the side of the road last time.
Bai Qian looked back at me, her eyes full of resentment. The policeman pushed her and urged, "Go!"
I walked over to Ling Haochen and asked, "Are you okay?"
Ling Haochen turned his head away and ignored me.
I continued to ask: "Where is Yang Yanxiao?"
Ling Haochen still didn’t tell me.
Mu Shaobai pulled my arm from behind me and said softly, "Qingnian, come here."
I looked at Mu Shaobai, who frowned and said, "Yan Xiao... Yan Xiao was seriously injured in the fight and died on the way to the hospital ."
"What?" I asked subconsciously, "Is it really okay for you to use such words on a teenager?"
Mu Shaobai shook his head, grabbed my shoulders, and said, "You know what? Yan Xiao's eyes were red, and he fought desperately with that group of people. He was alone. When the police and I arrived, he was surrounded by a group of people. Some kicked him, and some beat him with sticks..." Mu Shaobai choked up as he spoke, "Yan Xiao was alone... He was beaten by them like this... He is no longer with us now, do you understand?"
I was stunned. The image of Yang Yanxiao's unruly and cheerful appearance when I first met him and his appearance when he was playing with Luo Qiqi appeared in front of my eyes.
I asked, "Where's Ling Haochen?"
I stumbled to Ling Haochen's side and looked at his uninjured body and face: "Ling Haochen, what about you? Didn't you go? You're not injured, are you?"
Ling Haochen smiled softly and asked, "Do you support me to help Ah Xiao now?"
I frowned, shook my head quickly, and sobbed, "No... I, I don't want any of you to get hurt. I knew it wouldn't be that simple. I hope you can persuade Yang Yanxiao not to do anything stupid. Qiqi will be very sad on the other side of the ocean..."
Ling Haochen looked indifferent and said, "I don't know anything. I was in a daze and slept all day. If I knew it would be like this, I would definitely try my best to rescue Ah Xiao. I would make those people pay."
Mu Shaobai sighed and said, "Haochen, why don't you understand? Even if you go, the two of you can't beat that group of people."
"That's better than being a coward behind others, right?" Ling Haochen sneered, his brows as cold as frost, looking at Mu Shaobai.
Mu Shaobai shook his head and said, "It's unreasonable."
"I am unreasonable." Ling Haochen said sarcastically, "Now, Luo Qiqi has left us and gone to the United States. Ah Xiao is our mutual friend, but he lost his life because we stood by and watched. Mu Shaobai, how dare you say that I am unreasonable?"
"Blind behavior will inevitably bring about bad consequences. You are familiar with Yang Yanxiao's character. If I didn't stop you..." Mu Shaobai frowned and couldn't finish his words.
Ling Haochen heard the clue and asked, "You won't stop me?"
Seeing this, Mu Shaobai simply confessed everything: "Yes, I stopped you. I put sleeping pills in your drink, so you slept for a whole day."
Ling Haochen stared at Mu Shaobai in a daze, then pounced on him like an angry lion and grabbed Mu Shaobai by the collar: "Mu Shaobai!"
"Haochen!" I was shocked and ran up, but didn't dare to touch Ling Haochen.
"You are so capable, Mu Shaobai!" Ling Haochen gritted his teeth, his eyes wide open with anger.
Mu Shaobai did not fight back, and Ling Haochen grabbed him by the collar, his feet already standing in the air. Mu Shaobai narrowed his eyes and smiled in a heart-wrenching way.
He said, "Ling Haochen, you can disregard your own life, but you can't make the people who care about you sad. There are thousands of ways to restore friendship out of guilt, but yours is too extreme. I don't want Qing Nian's happiness to be ruined because of you."
Ling Haochen slowly loosened his grip on Mu Shaobai's collar, raised his lips, and said, "Tell the truth? It turns out that you care so much about Ji Qingnian that even the friendship between brothers cannot compare to it."
Ling Haochen's words made me feel very uncomfortable. I growled, "Ling Haochen, stop talking!"
Ling Haochen looked at me with an unpleasant expression and asked, "Are you speaking for him?"
I was very confused. Did Ling Haochen's IQ suddenly become negative?
I said, "Yang Yanxiao died unexpectedly. Mu Shaobai feels worse than you do, but he didn't do anything wrong."
"I didn't do anything wrong?" Ling Haochen repeated my words, looking at me like a stranger, "Ji Qingnian, Mu Shaobai just said that it was to prevent your happiness from being ruined, and you started defending him in the next sentence? Okay, if you think Mu Shaobai is better than me and more suitable for you than me, then you can say that I can quit!"
Ling Haochen's words were like a bucket of cold water poured mercilessly over my head. I was so angry that I felt weak all over and didn't have the energy to blame him.
Mu Shaobai rushed forward and pushed Ling Haochen, defending me: "Ling Haochen, this is not what a human being says!"
"Then are you a human?" Ling Haochen roared.
"Shut up!" I fumed.
Ling Haochen looked at me, his eyes seemed to be burning with anger.
I was sad, and before I knew it, tears were rolling down my cheeks. I reached out to wipe them away, forced a smile, and said, "Ling Haochen, if you have a problem with me, it's okay. We can just break up. Aren't you blaming me as well as Mu Shaobai? Let's break up. I'll leave and I won't bother you."
My whole body was shaking and I turned my face away, not daring to look at Ling Haochen.
Don’t promise me, don’t promise me… I shouted in my heart .
"Do you think I can't live without you?" Ling Haochen's voice was cold.
My world collapsed, Ling Haochen took a few steps, slowly turned around and left. Step by step, it was as if he was stepping on me.
I raised my head, the pain in my heart came in waves, and finally I couldn't bear it anymore, so I bent over and covered my chest tightly with my hands.
I never knew before that heartache can really make it hard to breathe.
With one hand on my back, Mu Shaobai slowly squatted beside me. I could see that his face did not look well.
"I'm sorry." I said. I knew that Mu Shaobai was implicated for no reason and I had a great responsibility.
Mu Shaobai didn't say anything. He grabbed my shoulders and helped me up, then said softly, "I'll take you home."
When Mu Shaobai sent me downstairs of the community, he didn't say a word to me and left as if he was possessed.
Mu Shaobai was born in a military family, and he always walked and sat very straight. But now, he lowered his head, and his feet felt as heavy as lead. I looked up at the remaining sunset glow between the tall buildings, and smiled bitterly. Sure enough, did the five of us fall apart?
In the evening, I cooked dinner for Ji Dahai. After he came back, he went to sleep tiredly after eating. I cleaned up the dishes, took a cold shower, and sat in front of the desk in a daze without wiping my wet hair.
The phone screen stayed on all the time, then locked after 20 seconds. I turned it on again and it continued to stay on.
On the screen is Ling Haochen’s contact information. I really want to call him and tell him, I’m sorry, I don’t want to break up, I was just saying that out of anger, can you please forgive me?
But I don't know how to start.
He has already told me that he can live well without me.
I tilted my head back, bit my lower lip, and finally couldn't hold it back anymore. I laid on the table and started crying cautiously.
I don't know how long it was before the vibration of my phone startled me and I jumped up. I picked up the phone in a daze, muttering, "Ling Haochen, Ling Haochen..."
After my eyes adjusted to the brightness of the phone screen, I could see clearly that it was Luo Qiqi.
After I answered the call, I broke down as soon as I opened my mouth: "Qiqi..."
"Nian Zi." Luo Qiqi's voice also sounded a little strange, as if she had just cried.
Yang Yan laughed to death. Ling Haochen or Mu Shaobai should have told Luo Qiqi. I knew it in my heart. I wiped away my tears and tried to smile and said, "Qiqi, I thought you wouldn't call me again."
Luo Qiqi sighed deeply and asked, "Are you crying?"
"I had a nightmare." I lied.
Luo Qiqi said: "Nian Zi, I fell asleep, and I dreamed of Ah Xiao. He was covered in blood, slowly crawling towards me on the ground, and his face..." Luo Qiqi sobbed and continued, "His face was covered with fragments and tears. He asked me why I broke up with him. Nian Zi, do you know how sad I am? If I could, I would rather die than break up with Ah Xiao... But I will become a burden to him in this state!"
"I understand, I understand." I quickly stopped Luo Qiqi from crying and said, "If it weren't for the last resort, how could two people who love each other be willing to go in opposite directions?"
And Ling Haochen is willing to go in the opposite direction from me, is he...
I said, "Qiqi, after Yang Yanxiao is buried in a few days, I will go to see him. Do you have anything to bring with you?"
Luo Qiqi calmed down and said in a hoarse voice: "Tell him that I really want to..." Luo Qiqi paused, swallowed the unfinished words, and said in a cold tone, "I hope he will be a kind, rational, and truth-aware person in his next life, study hard, marry a gentle girl when he grows up, and live a happy life."
I forced back my tears. I felt so sorry for Luo Qiqi on the other end of the phone.
I leaned back in my chair, looked up at the roof, and said, "I'll definitely bring it there."
Luo Qiqi, if time could go back and I could return to that carefree time, I would be willing to lose my life even if you let me do so.