Chapter 7 I Want to Be with You 02
After a detailed discussion with Lin's mother, He Qingkong kept thinking, if he hadn't left four years ago, would everything be different? He also knew that there were no "ifs" in this world, but he couldn't help imagining those ifs again and again because he felt sorry for Lin Mobai.
After a long time, he, who had repeatedly lost to Grandpa Lin on the chessboard due to his absent-mindedness, finally stood up and said goodbye.
Before leaving, he came to Lin Mobai's door as he did before.
After raising his hand and knocking on the door, he still said: "Xiaobai, I'm going home..."
He wanted to say more than just this one sentence, but he had waited all these days and didn't mind waiting one more day. Because, there were some things he only wanted to say to her, no matter if she doubted or rejected him, he just wanted to face her and gently confide all the longings accumulated in his heart.
When his gentle voice slowly floated into the room, Lin Mo, who was painting with his brush, suddenly stopped.
A thick door has never been able to stop her longing.
A simple word from him, whether a greeting or a farewell, could easily touch all her nerves.
Even though she had never responded to him, and was indifferent to , every time, her heart couldn't stop pounding, and her mind was full of his face. Those uncontrollable thoughts never diminished even a little bit because of her suppression. Instead, they grew like stubborn weeds. The more she suppressed them, the more rampant they became.
Thinking of this, Lin Mobai closed his eyes and shook his head violently, as if he wanted to clear all the thoughts of He Qingkong from his mind and focus on the drawing again.
However, the moment he opened his eyes, He Qingkong's face vaguely appeared in the sketch of the real object on the drawing.
So, Lin Mobai lost his mind again.
It was not until He Qingkong's footsteps sounded and slowly faded away that Lin Mobai breathed a sigh of relief, shook his head again, and let the paintbrush move gently on the draft.
After leaving the Lin family, standing downstairs in the community, He Qingkong paused in silence and looked up at a window.
That was the window of Lin Mobai's room. At this moment, the window was covered by curtains, and the figure he hoped for did not appear in his reluctant sight.
Then, after a disappointed sigh, He Qingkong walked out of the community.
It was approaching the Spring Festival, and the streets were filled with a festive and joyful atmosphere. All kinds of bright red decorations and songs celebrating the New Year washed away the cold and bleak winter.
However, along the way, He Qingkong failed to smile even in this festive atmosphere.
He kept frowning with a serious expression, as if his mind was still on the Lin family and on the door of Lin Mobai's room.
“Clear sky!”
It was not until he heard someone calling his name that He Qingkong suddenly came back to his senses. He turned his head and saw Shi Xujun. After a little surprise, he naturally raised a warm smile and replied, "What a coincidence, Xujun."
It was indeed a coincidence, and because of the word "coincident" he said, Shi Xujun smiled.
"Yes, I haven't seen you for a long time. I didn't expect to meet you here. What have you been busy with recently? It's winter vacation, and you haven't come to find Yanqi and me to get together." In her words, she deliberately mentioned Lu Yanqi to hide the fact that she was thinking about him day and night but didn't dare to take the initiative to make an appointment to meet.
"Excuse me." They were already walking side by side, but after only two steps, He Qingkong gentlemanly let Shi Xujun move to his left to avoid being bumped into by passers-by on the road. "I'm busy with some very important things recently."
"Is it very important?" His gentleness instantly warmed her heart, but she did not reveal it at all. She just grasped the key words in his words and asked lightly.
"Yes." He Qingkong smiled unabashedly, "It concerns my life's happiness!"
After hearing his words, Shi Xujun's face immediately showed confusion.
When she tilted her head and looked up at He Qingkong, she instantly remembered what He Qingkong had said before - "I like Xiaobai, is that okay?" So, her doubts were instantly dispelled, replaced by the gloom that hovered in the sky before a storm.
My heart suddenly fell into a cold and bottomless abyss.
There was a faint smile on his face in her eyes. Even though his smile was not ostentatious, his whole body was like the sun stationed beside her, burning her eyes in an instant.
How could such an outstanding person like Lin Mobai?
How could it be Lin Mobai?
Obviously, I am slightly better than Lin Mobai and more compatible with him, right?
The unwilling heart roared in the left atrium, and Shi Xujun felt that the pain in her atrium was getting more and more intense, and even her eyes were hurting. So, she subconsciously withdrew her gaze, lowered her head, clenched her teeth tightly, and held the bag with even more force.
After taking several careful deep breaths, Shi Xujun raised his head and pretended to be nonchalant and asked, "By the way, Qingkong, I heard... I heard that there will be a New Year celebration in the Plum Garden tomorrow. It seems to be quite lively. How about we go and take a look together?"
The former reserve suddenly disappeared after she found out that he had someone in his heart .
Shi Xujun took a deep breath, and after taking the initiative to invite her, her heart was pounding so fast that it seemed to want to break free from the restraints of her body.
However, after being stunned for two seconds, He Qingkong did not feel the same anticipation and excitement about the trip as before. Instead, he subconsciously thought of Lin Mobai, and then thought of the Plum Garden as the most frequented dating place for couples. Then, he frowned and asked with some embarrassment, "Just the two of us?"
"Yeah, yeah. Why are you so disrespectful?" Shi Xujun said jokingly, trying hard to suppress his nervousness.
"Well, sorry!" He Qingkong immediately gave a rejection answer, "Although we are good friends, it is still easy to be misunderstood if you go to a place like Plum Garden alone with the opposite sex. What's more, I have someone I like. This... is not good. Well, if Xu Jun really wants to go, it's better to invite the person you like."
As he finished his words, the noisy and lively sounds around him seemed to be drained away in an instant, and the world was empty with only the awkward .
She had thought about being rejected due to her uneasy heart, but Shi Xujun had never thought that the reason would be Lin Mobai.
Sadness was like a rapidly growing and climbing vine, clinging to every corner of the ventricular wall. Before she even noticed it, it broke through the atrium wall in an instant and bound her entire body.
So, she couldn't help but stop and stared at He Qingkong blankly, her eyes revealing her grievances.
However, even though her grievance was so obvious, He Qingkong still knew nothing about it. He only regarded her silence as a sign of loss of soul and asked, "Xu Jun? What's wrong?"
"No... I'm fine." When He Qingkong's worried voice filled his ears, Shi Xujun swallowed the sudden bitterness and sadness, and asked hesitantly, "Qingkong, the person you like... you really like..."
I wanted a more precise answer, but I still didn't dare to say the three words "Lin Mobai".
He Qingkong was unaware of her sadness. When he thought of Lin Mobai, a smile appeared unconsciously on the corner of his mouth.
Then, he scratched his hair and admitted shyly, "Well, it was Xiaobai I mentioned last time."
His voice was soft and warm, but at this moment, Shi Xujun only felt a gust of cold wind blowing on her face, pouring into her heart, making her heart ache.
At this moment, Shi Xujun finally believed that her first love had been stranded in this bleak winter before it even had a chance to begin.
He finally realized his first love, but her first love that she had hidden for so long had already withered.
Although he was unintentional, he could not escape cruelty. Like an executioner, he ruthlessly cut off her love.
