Chapter 7 I Want to Be with You 01
"Lin Mobai! It's great that you handed in the paper early! You actually left without saying goodbye! Didn't we agree to eat Korean food together? Didn't you say you would be home tomorrow?"
Lin Mobai was on the bus when he received Zhou Shiqing's call.
At that time, there were not many passengers on the bus, but Zhou Shiqing's angry roar directly focused the attention of all the passengers on the bus on Lin Mobai. As a result, Lin Mobai's face immediately turned red with embarrassment, and then he leaned his head towards the window, half covering his mouth with his hand, and explained in a low voice: "Sorry, Shiqing, um, I will accompany you to eat after school starts."
In fact, Lin Mobai accidentally overheard Zhou Shiqing and He Qingkong talking on the phone, and learned that He Qingkong was also present at the dinner party that Zhou Shiqing had agreed to meet with him, so he left without saying a word.
She still couldn't face He Qingkong's pity. The love she wanted had nothing to do with pity.
"No!" After hearing her explanation and request to postpone the dinner, Zhou Shiqing immediately refused, "You should take a car back immediately!"
"Uh..." Lin Mobai was a little at a loss when she heard Zhou Shiqing's angry order. At this moment, she heard a "beep" sound in her ear. She took down her phone for no reason and saw the reminder on the screen. Then, she found a life-saving straw and immediately said to Zhou Shiqing on the phone, "Shiqing, my phone is out of battery. Well, you have a long way to go back to your hometown. Be careful on the road. Have a safe trip! See you at the beginning of the school..."
Before I could even utter the word "goodbye", my phone automatically turned off.
Lin Mobai let out a long breath and pulled the corners of his mouth helplessly. Then, imagining Zhou Shiqing's furious look because she couldn't dial the phone, she couldn't help but feel apologetic and sighed with frowns. She originally thought of sending a message to Zhou Shiqing to explain after returning home, but then she changed her mind and wanted to escape, so she wanted to cut off all contact with the outside world, especially He Qingkong, by turning off the power of her phone.
Thinking of He Qingkong’s confession that day, my heart still can’t help but be filled with ripples.
However, among those layers of ripples, the surprise only lasted for a moment, and was followed by endless melancholy.
…
However, Lin Mobai did not expect that He Qingkong, who was unable to contact her, would visit the Lin family in person.
That afternoon, she was drawing in her room when she heard a knock on the door. Then Mother Lin opened the door, poked her head in, and said, "Girl, Qingkong is here."
Lin Mobai was startled when he heard this, his heart pounding, but after he recovered, he turned his face away and said, "No."
When her eyes fell on the drawing board, her fingers began to move slowly. Her face was deliberately indifferent, and Lin's mother saw through it at a glance. However, she saw through it but did not expose it. She just sighed lightly, stepped back, closed the door and left.
After the door closed, Lin Mobai couldn't help but move his gaze over to the light brown door.
Although she could not see the scene outside the door , her eyes were fixed on it, as if this glance could penetrate the door and fall directly on He Qingkong.
At the same time, the room was very quiet, even her breathing was extremely light and cautious, as if if her breathing frequency increased, she would not be able to hear He Qingkong's voice outside the room.
But in fact, even if she held her breath, she could only hear intermittent words.
She couldn't form a sentence, couldn't guess what he was thinking, but even though there was a door between them, her heart couldn't calm down for a long time.
It wasn't just her. He Qingkong outside the room was the same. Even though she was chatting with Mother Lin and the others, her heart was still thinking about Lin Mobai in the room.
However, the longing in his heart was ultimately betrayed. Until he said goodbye and left, He Qingkong still hadn't seen Lin Mobai.
But he did not give up. Although he did not force her to come out, nor did he impulsively break into her boudoir, he would come to visit the Lin family for several days in a row. Day after day, He Qingkong not only often accompanied Grandpa Lin to play chess, but also helped Mother Lin with housework, and sometimes stayed at the Lin family for dinner. Although he did not see Lin Mobai during the week-long visit, being in the same room like this was also another kind of companionship. He was also sure that as long as he persisted, he would be able to impress Lin Mobai.
However, what He Qingkong didn't expect was that he was determined to impress Lin Mobai, but ended up impressing Lin Mobai's family.
So, during He Qingkong's next visit, Mother Lin took the initiative to talk about Lin Mobai's situation.
"Zhiyou's departure is a big blow to Mobai." In the kitchen, Mother Lin put down the dishes she was wiping, sighed, and said, "She has never been able to get over the past and has always lived in self-blame. She has endured too much, but we can't do anything to help her. We can only watch her pretend to be strong and put on a forced smile in front of us..."
As Mother Lin spoke, she recalled the pain that Lin Mobai had experienced at the beginning of the accident.
Although four years have passed, as a mother, every time she thought of Lin Mobai's breakdown and crying, she felt extremely distressed, and her tears couldn't help but blur her vision.
Especially the scene when she saw Lin Mobai in the police station after she had been missing for a whole night.
Every time she thought of it, she felt as if her heart was being cut by a knife.
She remembered that day when she arrived at the police station with a trepidation in her heart, she saw Lin Mobai under the guidance of the police. At that time, Lin Mobai was pale, dazed, trembling all over and curled up in a corner. Seeing her like this, mother Lin felt distressed and immediately rushed over to hug her, but the frightened Lin Mobai seemed to not even recognize his own mother, struggling and crying in her arms. The panicked and frightened "no" became the most painful in mother Lin's heart.
In the silence, He Qingkong seemed to notice the sob in Mother Lin's voice, so he quickly patted Mother Lin's back and comforted her: "Auntie, don't worry, I will definitely help Xiaobai get over the past and get out of the grief."
"I know you will." Mother Lin took a deep breath, put away her sadness, and smiled gently.
"Actually, Auntie, have you ever heard Xiaobai talk about..." He subconsciously asked about that past, but then, He Qingkong looked at Mother Lin, and suddenly stopped talking because he was concerned about her sadness.
Only by knowing that past could he better help Lin Mobai, but he also knew that this was not an easy topic.
Although I have already learned the whole incident from my grandfather, he was just a bystander after all. He had never heard Lin Mobai's confession, and he had never been to the scene in person. He only knew a little about the accident that happened that year. Therefore, apart from Lin Mobai, the person who knew the details of the accident best should be Lin's mother.
"You want to know the details of the accident that day, right?" Noticing that He Qingkong was hesitant to speak, Mother Lin took a deep breath and confessed, "In fact, we also want to know the details of the accident that day. Although my girl was with Zhiyou on the day of the accident and was the only eyewitness at the scene, she suffered from temporary amnesia after that day."
"Temporary amnesia?"
"Well, the doctor said that because she was overly scared and sad about what happened that day, her brain subconsciously chose to erase that memory. After the accident, she rested in the hospital for two full months. She had nightmares every day, saying that she dreamed of Zhiyou, but every time she woke up, she couldn't remember anything in the dream. The doctor said that this was most likely a fragment of memory erased by her subconscious mind, because she subconsciously wanted to forget, but she couldn't forget because the blow was too great, so the memory turned into a dream, and because she subconsciously didn't want to remember, she wouldn't remember anything she saw in the dream after waking up."
"Xiao Bai must have been in a lot of pain at that time..."
"Yes, she cries and makes a fuss every day, and her emotions fluctuate constantly. She can't calm down at all. And..."
"And what?"
"And after the accident, Mo Bai suffered from severe fear of darkness and claustrophobia. She couldn't stay in a dark environment, and even had to keep the lights on when she slept at night."
"Phobia of darkness...claustrophobia..."
"Well, she rested in the hospital for two months, and returned home and to school only after her condition improved. However, because she suffered from temporary amnesia, she could not remember the process of Zhiyou's murder, nor could she recognize the murderer. She only knew that she did not step forward to save Zhiyou, so...so after she came back, she did not receive the care and comfort from her friends, and was even blamed by them..."
After hearing what Mother Lin said, He Qingkong couldn't help but clench his fists.
When he thought of the so-called good friends, he immediately thought of Lu Yanqi and Shi Xujun. He couldn't imagine how much pain Lin Mobai had felt during that time, so the resentment he felt in his heart because of the blind accusations of his two good friends became even stronger.
"In fact, I didn't want her to have contact with you at first." Mother Lin didn't notice He Qingkong's anger and continued to talk. "But no matter how much we objected, Mo Bai still insisted on applying for F University, just because Yanqi and Xujun both applied for that university. She always wanted to save that friendship, but..."
"She has always cared about them." He Qingkong took a deep breath and concealed his intense anger.
"Yes." Mother Lin sighed, "You five were really close before, but I didn't expect..."
"It will definitely be the same as before." Feeling the helplessness and sadness in Mother Lin's tone, He Qingkong said with certainty. Then, as if he remembered something, he said to her seriously, "Auntie, there is something I want to confess to you."
"Hmm?" Mother Lin was shocked by the seriousness on his face and couldn't help but look at him with pursed lips.
"I like Xiaobai."
"What?"
"It's true. I really like Xiaobai. I want to be with her. I want to give her a happy, warm and beautiful life. So, auntie, I really hope you can help me."
