Chapter 7 Depression 04
Returning to the "golden age" again, many things have changed.
For example, I am no longer the same Ai Ye as before.
In the past, Ai Ye could hold down a few part-time jobs, live a quiet life, and be a leaf drifting everywhere without a home.
Now, I no longer have a part-time job and have to work for a run-down bar.
I am no longer a leaf drifting in the wind. I have a direction. In this quaint city, there are many people who I care about and who also care about me.
However, what remains unchanged is that I can never change Ye Zi's fate of dying young.
I don’t know how long it will take before this tiny leaf of mine can no longer fly, falls to the ground, and turns into a handful of dirt.
I just hope that when I leave, I can pave all the roads for everyone, so that I can have no worries.
When I returned to school, Cai Miao and her entrepreneurial team had already finished the semi-finals and ranked very well, making it into the top three. Now only the finals were left, and if they made it, they would be able to represent the school in the National College Student Entrepreneurship Competition.
To celebrate, everyone suggested going out for dinner.
When I heard that we were going to have a dinner party, my temples started to ache as usual.
I really don't want to see the same mood-disrupting episodes again like last time.
However, it is hard to refuse such a kind invitation.
I worked out the specific business plan for the bar, discussed the bar's business situation with Xiaoba, then changed my clothes and went out with Cai Miao and the others.
Chen Yisan, who did not participate in the competition, also went, and it was lively with many people.
I smiled, feeling helpless. God knows I am most afraid of crowds. Too much noise can easily lead to accidents.
When we arrived downstairs at the dormitory, Mo Beibei was already waiting for us there, with Leng Yuting, who looked awkward, standing next to her. It seemed that the two had reconciled.
When I saw Lin Feng behind Leng Yuting, my brain nerves suddenly twitched in pain. Then I saw Leng Zimo walking over not far away and Ji Yusheng busy waving and greeting him, and my head hurt even more.
A bad premonition came over me, and I thought today would be very "lively".
"Brother, why are you here so late!" As soon as Leng Zimo approached, Leng Yuting twisted his arm and complained.
Leng Zimo frowned habitually but did not struggle.
"Um...your name is Leng Yuting, right? We've heard Mo Beibei talk about you. Which department are you from?" An Jia, who couldn't stop talking, asked Leng Yuting curiously.
Leng Yuting raised her eyebrows, took Leng Zimo's arm, and was as proud as a peacock: "Just like my brother, he is from the Computer Department!"
"Brother? Is Senior Leng really your brother?" Even Cai Miao lost his composure.
"What else? Even the last name is the same, how could it be fake? Look at our eyes and noses, are they similar? We were born to the same parents, but we each took one of their names after their divorce!" Leng Yuting said, pointing at her own face, but was interrupted by Leng Zimo's blaming look halfway through her words.
"Why are you saying those things!" Leng Zimo seemed to dislike Leng Yuting talking about family matters in front of outsiders.
No one will like it.
Cai Miao and An Jia were startled by Leng Zimo's sudden cold expression and did not dare to ask any more questions.
Chen Yisan, who was standing aside, had been standing behind An Jia and the others with a stiff expression because she had been scolded by Leng Zimo before.
As for me, because I suddenly saw so many people with complicated relationships appearing at the same time, I temporarily forgot the embarrassment of being kissed on the forehead by Leng Zimo last time.
Including the classmate who later replaced me, there were a total of ten people. Cai Miao, An Jia, Chen Yisan and the classmate whose name I didn’t even remember were walking in the front, followed by Mo Beibei and Leng Yuting who were walking side by side behind them.
Probably wanting to bring Mo Beibei and Lin Feng together, Leng Yuting pulled the red string again and forcibly grabbed Lin Feng's hand and made him walk in a row with them.
What’s funny is that Lin Feng kept turning his head to look for me, but after meeting my indifferent gaze, he looked away hurt, but couldn’t help looking back again.
Finally I smiled at him, without any emotion, just smiling at him like I was treating an ordinary person.
Lin Feng's expression became even uglier than before.
Perhaps, for him, it would be much better if I gave him a resentful or dissatisfied expression than a smile.
Smiling means that I no longer care about him, but he still expects me to care about him.
He still didn't seem to understand what I said that time and was still dragging his feet.
Ji Yusheng walked behind them, with Leng Zimo beside him. I walked side by side with them, but there was a distance of several steps between us.
There are some boundaries that cannot be crossed; once crossed, it is difficult to extricate yourself.
Ji Yusheng tried to get close to me several times. I could sense his restlessness, probably because I asked Xiaoba to go to Li Wei's school to help Li Wei return his phone. He came this time, probably to inquire about Li Wei. But Ji Yusheng still held back, and did not run over to ask me directly. Instead, he rushed to the front row alone, squeezed next to Leng Yuting, and chatted with Leng Yuting intermittently. Later, he seemed to have offended her and was hit on the head by Leng Yuting a few times.
Ji Yusheng is very familiar with Leng Yuting. I looked at the big boy playing with Leng Yuting, and suddenly my eyes felt stinging and my nose felt sore.
The one who was playing with that boy was Li Wei, the Li Wei who was locked up in prison and never saw the light of day, the Li Wei who was afraid that those who cared about her would be sad and wanted me to make up lies to deceive them.
There was a group of people, and it was obviously very lively, but I felt very empty inside.
I can't fit into their world, and in my world, people have already left. First it was Mosquito, then it was Weiwei. When can we return to our world of three again? When they come back, will I still be there to wait for them?
I don’t know when, but I suddenly found myself slowing down and gradually falling behind the cheerful crowd.
The view is so broad, yet everything seems so strange.
Very lonely, almost lonely.
I miss my friends, my Mosquito, my Vivi, and our wonderful past.
The warm fingertips touched my eyelids and gently wiped away the tears that I couldn't help but roll down. One by one, the tears fell on those white and slender hands, sparkling.
I dare not look up at that person, for fear that if I look up, I will never be able to look back. Sometimes it is very simple to make a heart fall, just like the action of wiping tears now, a warm hug with a refreshing breath...
"Ai Ye, don't cry."
A person named Leng Zimo, a simple sentence with a little pity.
I finally couldn't hold back my tears, and I leaned into Leng Zimo's arms, crying in the background without anyone noticing. He just stood there, watching my sadness, and only said, "Ai Ye, don't cry." It was always the same sentence, without asking, without exposing, just such a warm and simple word of comfort.
