Chapter 7 Depression 01
I was much more sober. I returned to Li Wei's home.
Li Wei's one-year imprisonment must have been a big blow to her mother. Looking at Aunt Li sitting on the ground crying, my nose also felt sore.
"Auntie! Weiwei asked you to divorce Li Guangming and live a good life in the future. A year is not a long time. She has been there for half a month, and a year will pass quickly. Li Wei asked me to take care of you for her. If you are willing, come with me to City A this time! I go to school there, and Li Wei will also go to school there when she graduates. I will rent a room for you first, so you can relax there and I can take care of you. Is that okay?" I walked to Aunt Li's side, squatted down, stroked her back, and said in a calm tone.
Aunt Li looked at me, touched the back of my hand, and kept crying.
"Ai Ye! It's not that Auntie doesn't want to go with you. Auntie doesn't want to stay here either. But Xiaowei is here! If I leave, who will take care of her? I signed the divorce agreement with that heartless man a few days ago. I signed it as soon as Xiaowei was arrested. I thought he locked Xiaowei up to force me to sign the agreement, but I didn't know that he was determined not to want us! You said Xiaowei sued him and he was going to jail. It's okay. Today, I understand everything. I just can't bear to let Xiaowei go! I'm afraid she will have a hard life when she comes out! She has been spoiled since she was a child. When she comes out, she has a criminal record and her family has no money. How can she live in the future? You say that the sins we committed in our previous lives, why should they be retributed to your generation? What did my daughter do wrong? Only we are sorry for her, she has never been sorry for us. Why do you want to lock her up?"
"Auntie, don't get too excited, it's okay, it will be over soon. Weiwei is a good child, God is fair, she is in trouble now, but she will definitely be happy in the future. Don't be too sad, for Li Wei, you have to be well. She is worried about you and asked me to take care of you. If you really care about Li Wei, live a good life and don't be like my mother!"
Seeing my aunt crying hysterically, my tears also came out.
"Ai Ye, you are a good child! Auntie has watched you grow up. You have been more sensible than Xiao Wei since you were a child. When you have time in the future, come back to see her more often. When she is released, you should teach her well. Her father and I were not good parents and did not teach her well, so her temper became like this, but she has a good nature. Don't look down on her for having been in prison in the future, and you should still get along well with her."
"Yes, I will! No matter what she becomes, as long as she still considers me her friend, I will not abandon her."
Apart from my mother and Ai Sheng, Li Wei is the person who has stayed in my life the longest. She has taken root in my life. How can I abandon her!
No matter who you throw away, you can never leave behind Weiwei!
When I was abandoned as a bastard, everyone treated me as a plague god. Only Li Wei was kind to me. How could I bear to abandon her?
Aunt Li and I sat on the floor, crying, laughing, and talking for a long time. We talked about Li Wei, their family, our family, and the friends we grew up with. I don't know how much time had passed, but we both said we were tired, so we leaned against the sofa and fell asleep.
When I woke up, I was the only one lying on the sofa in Li Wei's house, and on the coffee table was a note left by Aunt Li.
She went to see Li Wei and left a prepared breakfast in the pot, asking me to remember to eat it.
I covered my stomach which was aching from hunger and climbed up from the sofa to get something to eat .
As soon as I opened the lid of the pot, I smelled a strong aroma of chicken broth. Looking at the tender chicken broth in the pot, my eyes became blurred. I don’t know if it was the hot steam coming out of the pot that made my eyes blur, or something else.
I carefully served a bowl. The porridge was fragrant and the meat was tender and smooth. After drinking it, my whole stomach felt warm.
A warmth rose up in my body.
A long-lost taste, a breakfast that I haven’t had for five months and seventeen days…
My eyes finally became too sore to open, and my tears fell drop by drop into the porridge, and then all were drunk into my stomach.
I suddenly missed that person very much, suddenly wanted to go home, suddenly wanted to have a bite of the loving breakfast porridge she used to cook for me, suddenly wanted to call "Mom" to her when she was awake.
It turns out that my longing for them has always been there, but I have deliberately suppressed it. However, now, a bowl of porridge has brought out all my longing for family affection, and my heart is so sad and my nostalgia is so overwhelming.
I don’t know how many bowls of porridge I drank. I wiped my swollen eyes, looked up at the ceiling, and stared for a long time.
Finally, I couldn't resist the surging longing in my heart, so I rushed out of Li Wei's house with my bag and walked in one direction without looking back.
Mom, if you were at home now, I wouldn't ask you to do the housework as gently and gracefully as before, waiting for me to come back and giving me a charming smile; nor would I ask you to cook for me, I only ask you to stay at home soberly at this moment, and when I knock on the door, it is you who opens it. I don't need you to say such cheesy words as "I miss you", as long as you don't reach out to drive me away, as long as you don't say "don't go home" to me again, we will live a good life together.
Really, that's all I want.
A simple home, a place with family members, and a long-lost warmth.
