Wednesday, May 16th, cloudy to mostly cloudy
I feel like I am putting together a puzzle of my own world.
But only one of the two most important fragments could be found.
Another piece is missing.
So no matter how hard I try,
Can't put together a complete picture.
There is always a blank in my world...

The sun is shining brightly and you can feel its glare without even looking up.
I was walking to school in a daze with my schoolbag on my back. The alcohol I drank last night still made me dizzy. How did I get home last night?
Did Xu Yi show up later?
I only remember vaguely that I finally fell on a soft object.
Before I even reached the classroom door, the chattering of everyone interrupted my thoughts.
"Why did Cheye do this?"
"I don't know. Could it be that the man is playing tricks again?"
"Maybe, otherwise why would Cheye do this."
…
As soon as I walked into the classroom, everyone suddenly stopped talking and all their eyes fell on me.
What happened? Did I get drunk last night and something happened?
I unconsciously looked towards Cheye's seat...
Huh? No one is here!
Where is Cheye? I walked around quietly searching for Cheye, but he was nowhere to be found on the podium, bookcase, or the last row of seats!
"What are you looking at?" When he was about to reach my seat, Cheye's voice suddenly came to my ears.
"Ah!" I looked up in surprise and saw Che Ye sitting in the seat in front of me with a faint smile on his face.
"You, why are you, why are you sitting here?" I suddenly stuttered.
"I changed my seat back, so I'm here!" Cheye's tone was light, with the corners of his mouth raised, revealing a slight smile.
"You, you mean, you will always sit in front of me in the future?" I looked at Che Ye in disbelief and continued to stutter.
"Yeah! That's right!" Cheye's eyes were unusually bright and he looked like he was in a good mood.
Could it be that this is the effort he was talking about?
The words that Cheye said to me yesterday echoed in my ears...
"No matter what, I won't give up, because I came back for you!"
"You've always been working hard for me before, now it's my turn."
Cheye is serious, but such seriousness is a huge pressure on me, as if a mountain is pressing on me.
While the teacher was lecturing passionately at the podium, I stared at Che Ye's back in front of me without blinking.
Now, Cheye is right in front of me and I can see him just by looking up.
"Hey, Xia, what's going on with this guy Yuan Cheye?" Qianxia next to me lowered her voice and asked me quietly.
"That...that..." I didn't know how to tell Chinatsu that Cheye confessed to me.
Qianxia glanced at me and shrugged: "By the way, Xu Yi came after you got drunk last night, and he sent you back later."
"Ah!" I exclaimed, attracting the attention of the students around me.
"Ah, what? You can't drink much. It's a pity to waste such a good opportunity." Chinatsu supported her chin and smiled at me, "But you look cute when you're drunk!"
Well?
The corners of my mouth couldn't help but twitch: "Qianxia, ​​I didn't say anything I shouldn't have said last night, did I?"
"No. You were already fainted when Xu Yi came. Don't worry, hehe." Qianxia pointed at Cheye in front of me, "You have a lot of troubles. Think about how to solve them."
Hearing Chinatsu say this, I felt a lot more relieved.
But, as for Cheye...I really don't know what to do...
I lay on the desk and saw Cheye's hair shining with golden light in the sunlight.
"Cheye..." I suppressed my beating heart and gently touched Cheye's back with my pen.
Cheye leaned back and turned his head slightly to the back: "What's wrong?"
"Actually, you don't have to deliberately change your seat back."
"Don't you want me to change it back?" Cheye's voice was soft, but it made me nervous. I was afraid that Cheye would misunderstand me.
"No, no, how could that be!" I shook my head like a rattle.
"Ye Xiya!" The teacher's roar came from the podium, "You are absent-minded in class, stand up! What were you shaking your head so hard for just now?"
"I...I..." I stood up, unable to say anything, my face flushed red.
"You are required to solve this equation on the blackboard. If you can't solve it, stand back!" The teacher pointed his pointer at an arithmetic problem with very long numbers.
Such a long string of numbers instantly dazzled my eyes. I don’t know how to calculate this at all!
"What's wrong? Can't you figure it out?" The teacher's disappointed voice came over again, "You can't figure it out, and you're not paying attention in class!"
Alas... I sighed deeply in my heart. Forget it, I'll just stand there as punishment. When I was about to leave my seat, a voice suddenly rang out -
"Teacher, this question involves two formulas that you haven't mentioned yet. Ye Xiya is so stupid that she can't solve this problem at all." Che Ye suddenly stood up, "There should be many students who can't solve it. Teacher, I want to use my method to solve this problem, okay?"
"Hmm..." The teacher nodded to Cheye approvingly, "Okay then! Let's see if Yuan Cheye has any good ideas for solving the problem!"
I sat in my seat stupidly, watching Che Ye quickly calculating the complicated problem at the podium.
His back makes me feel so warm. It would be great if I could become very good friends with Cheye. Then I wouldn't have to be so embarrassed.
If my world is a puzzle, then Xu Yi and Che Ye are the two most important pieces of the puzzle to me. No matter which piece is missing, the puzzle will be incomplete.
Xu Yi, Che Ye, do you know? One of you is my favorite person, and the other is someone I want to cherish. However, there is a difference between cherishing and liking. Maybe Qianxia is right. Feelings should be more direct!
“Ding Ling Ling——”
The day's classes ended when the school bell rang.
As soon as school was over, everyone rushed out of the classroom quickly, and Cheye also quickly picked up his schoolbag and left.
I sat in my seat and packed my things slowly.
Next to me, Chinatsu was still doing her physics homework.
"Chinatsu, can you accompany me to Lingnan to find Xu Yi?" After everyone had almost left, I packed my schoolbag and turned to look at Chinatsu.
Qianxia was slightly stunned: "Haha, Xiaya, you are finally determined to confess, right?"
I nodded: "Qianxia, ​​maybe what you said is right! The more Cheye sacrifices for me, the more painful it will be in the end, because I have no way to repay him."
"Haha, Xia, you finally got it." Chinatsu put away her homework and walked out of the classroom with me.
The campus of Ryonan was empty, so I pulled Chinatsu straight to the rehearsal room.
Xu Yi, Ajie and the others must still be rehearsing in the rehearsal room.
I took Chinatsu and walked around the campus of Lingnan skillfully. Unconsciously, I became so familiar with Lingnan, all because of Xu Yi!
"Chinatsu, the playground of Lingnan is in front of us. After crossing the playground, we will reach the rehearsal room of Xu Yi and his friends!" I pointed to the front and said to Chinatsu while walking and looking back.
Chinatsu smiled and nodded, but suddenly her smile froze.
"What's wrong?" I turned around in confusion, my eyes widened in surprise. This, this is what's going on...
Two people were standing on the empty playground, one of them had hair as golden and dazzling as the afternoon sun, and the other's hair was as soft and bright as fine black jade.
Cheye? Xu Yi?
How did they get here? How did they get together?
"Chinatsu, what are they doing?" I grabbed Chinatsu's hand, somewhat at a loss, "Why are the two of them together?"
Qianxia stretched out her other hand and patted me gently: "Xia, don't be nervous, you see, there is no conflict between the two of them. Don't worry. Didn't you say before that they know each other? It's normal for friends to meet each other!"
"But..." I always feel uneasy, as if something is wrong.
"There's nothing to worry about. It's normal for friends to meet. Don't we see each other every day?" Chinatsu gave me a big smile.
"Really?" I asked Chinatsu softly.
"Really, don't worry!" Chinatsu said confidently, "Let's go back first." With that, Chinatsu pulled me back.
I didn't say anything else and followed Qianxia, ​​but my eyes were always on Cheye and Xu Yi on the playground.
Two people who are very important to me are now standing face to face.
Are they just meeting as Chinatsu said, just friends?
I don’t know. My heart is a mess and I can’t make sense of anything. I just feel like something is pressing on my chest, very heavy.
"Xia, what's wrong?" Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, Chinatsu turned her head and looked at me.
"call……"
I let out a breath, turned my eyes away from the playground, and turned to walk towards the school gate: "It's okay..."
Standing at the fork in the road, Qianxia looked at me with concern: "Go back and have a good rest, don't think too much!"
"Yeah." I smiled and nodded, not wanting Chinatsu to worry about me.
"See you tomorrow!" Qianxia waved at me, turned and left.
I stood there and watched Chinatsu's figure disappear around the corner and never be seen again.

Thursday, May 17th, sunny
Because I've lost.
That’s why I’m so eager to have it;
Because I have it again,
That’s why I’m afraid of losing again.
So, can you please not leave?
Can you stay with me forever?
But, what should I do?
Can we keep the present time?

When the school bell rang, I was still immersed in my own thoughts and hadn't come to my senses.
Since he came back, Xu Yi has never taken the initiative to look for me. He was not like this before, why did he become like this now?
The scene on the Lingnan playground yesterday came to my mind again.
ah……
What a headache.
When I came to my senses, the classroom was empty, even Chinatsu was gone. I picked up my schoolbag and walked out of the classroom silently.
The noisy campus became quiet, the shadows were stretched very long by the setting sun, and the sound of shoes rubbing against the ground became unusually clear.
Huh? What is that?
My eyes fell on a red notice on the bulletin board. When was it posted there?
At the top of the announcement was written in black letters "Campus Band Competition Announcement", and below were the specific details of the competition. Xu Yi's handsome face couldn't help but appear in my mind.
Did Xu Yi come back because of this band competition? Otherwise, why would he appear with the FLY band at the Yifeng 10th Anniversary Cultural Festival?
Xu Yi's dream is to make the FLY band famous throughout Asia. If he works hard, he will surely be able to realize his dream...
"Xia, you're here, I've been looking for you everywhere!" I turned around and saw Chinatsu walking towards me with a smile, holding something in her right hand.
"I thought you left first, so..."
"Didn't I ask you to wait for me in the classroom?" Chixia looked at me in confusion, and frowned before I could answer. "You were not in a daze again, so you didn't hear me! Forget it, forget it, I'm used to it. Eat the chestnut cake!" Chixia said as she handed me the thing in her right hand.
"Thank you, Chinatsu, you're the best!" I happily took the chestnut cake from Chinatsu's hand.
"Xia, I have something to do today and can't go back with you." Chinatsu looked at me apologetically.
"Well, it's okay." I smiled at Chinatsu.
I stood on the side of the road and looked up to see the setting sun in the sky painting the surrounding clouds a warm orange color. The entire sky was shades of orange, just like orange-red ink spilled on rice paper, and the entire paper was covered in orange-red.
The chestnut cake that Chinatsu gave me emitted bursts of fragrance in the air, which spread from my nose to my nerves and finally directly reached the depths of my brain, turning into a key that opened a door that had been closed for a long time.
"Hmm, what is this? It smells really good."
"This—is—chestnut—cake!"
“Is it made of chestnuts?”
"Why are you staring at me like that?"
"No, there are flies on the cake."
"ah!"
"Hey, I was just kidding."
"Why did you take my chestnut cake..."
"Did you order this cake?"
"no."
"Are you paying?"
"No. But... you said you wanted to treat us."
"It's up to the host to decide. There are so many other pastries. You can choose something else."
"Welcome!" The voice in my ear interrupted my thoughts. I looked up and found myself at the dim sum restaurant where I first met Xu Yi.
I unconsciously turned my head to look at the seat where Xu Yi and I had sat before. At that moment, I was completely stunned, and my eyes fell straight on that seat in disbelief. There was a boy sitting in that familiar seat, with black hair emitting a soft and bright glow and handsome features, like a beautiful boy who walked out of a comic book.
He looked intently at the chestnut cake in front of him, not knowing what he was thinking about. The corners of his mouth slowly lifted up, the arc becoming bigger and bigger, and the smile in his eyes was overflowing, emitting a shining light.
Suddenly, the light in his eyes dimmed again, and his whole body seemed to be surrounded by a lonely halo.
I stood there in a daze. What happened to Xu Yi?
Why did he have such a sad look on his face?
Xu Yi, did God hear the voice in my heart and let you appear here?
"Miss, Miss, are you okay?" Seeing that I was standing there, the waiter patted my shoulder politely.
Her voice made the other customers in the store look at me.
The moment Xu Yi saw me, he was stunned for a moment, then smiled at me gently.
I slowly walked up to Xu Yi and said, "Haha, Xu Yi, why didn't you eat the chestnut cake you ordered?"
"Because..." Xu Yi smiled and said gently, "I wanted to try to summon Xiaya with chestnut cake, but I didn't expect that Xiaya was summoned by me!"
My heart suddenly became so soft...
"Hmph, that chestnut cake is mine!" I snatched the chestnut cake from Xu Yi in a very ungraceful manner and ate it in big mouthfuls.
"Xia, eat slowly, don't choke." Xu Yi smiled and ordered a large cup of milk tea for me.
Looking into Xu Yi's eyes, I couldn't help asking, "Xu Yi, are your eyes really completely healed? Is there a chance of recurrence? Did the doctor tell me what I should pay special attention to in the future?"
When Xu Yi heard my question, his smile paused for a moment, a complicated look flashed in his eyes, then he smiled and nodded and said, "Yes, the doctor said it's completely healed, it won't recur in the future, and there's no need to pay special attention to anything. So I saw a lot of chestnut cake crumbs at the corners of a girl's mouth!"
"Ah? Where?"
I hurriedly wiped my hand towards my mouth, and sure enough, there were a lot of crumbs.
"You are always so confused!" Xu Yi said helplessly, reaching out his hand to gently wipe away the chestnut cake crumbs left on the corner of my mouth.
Xu Yi's fingers were slightly cold, but they felt like a source of fire, making my face feel hot.
I lowered my head in embarrassment.
Xu Yi's brilliant smile and gentle expression intertwined together, hitting my heart directly, and I could even hear his rapid heartbeat.
The sunlight outside the window suddenly became extremely soft, and the seat by the window seemed to be cast under a spell by the sunlight, making people feel warm in their hearts.
"Xu Yi..." I raised my head and looked at Xu Yi, determined to confess to him here, "I have something to tell you."
"Haha, I just happen to have something to say to Xiaya!" Xu Yi smiled faintly.
"Then you speak first. In the past, you always gave in to me in everything. This time, it's my turn to let you speak first!" I smiled sweetly at Xu Yi.
Xu Yi looked at me quietly, his gentle eyes as deep as the sea, with a smile on his face that I couldn't understand: "Xia, do you know about the campus band competition?"
"I know!" Xu Yi's words reminded me of the announcement I saw at school before.
Xu Yi suddenly looked away from me and said, "I came back this time to participate in this competition with FLY Band. If FLY Band can win the championship of the campus band competition this year, we will get a contract with a well-known Asian record company. I remember Xia told me to work hard to realize my dream, so I don't want to miss this opportunity. I hope that through my own efforts, FLY Band can become popular throughout Asia!"
My heart suddenly felt like it was thrown into the dark deep sea, slowly sinking to the bottom...
I tried to breathe hard, but the air around me seemed to be sucked away in an instant, and my brain went blank...
I lowered my eyes and tried hard to raise the corners of my mouth, afraid that Xu Yi would see through the sadness in my heart.
"Xia Ya, since Che Ye is back, I think I should leave too. In fact, I am the one who shouldn't show up. Haha, but I believe Che Ye will take good care of Xia Ya and make Xia Ya happy!"
I raised my head and watched Xu Yi's mouth opening and closing, but I couldn't hear any sound.
Xu Yi... Do you know, do you know how much I like you, how much I miss you, and how much I hope to be with you?
But I swallowed all the words back.
"Xia, what do you want to tell me?" Xu Yi looked at me with a slight smile on his face.
"No, nothing... Hehe, I just want to tell you that I made a very good new friend - Chinatsu..." I tried to make my smile look bright, "Xu Yi, I believe that the FLY band will be popular all over Asia! You must work hard!"
"Well, I'll try my best!" Xu Yi gently rubbed my hair, "Hurry up and finish the chestnut cake, otherwise it won't taste good when it gets cold."
"Hmm." I picked up the chestnut cake and stuffed it into my mouth in a daze.
The fragrant chestnut cake actually produces a bitter taste in the mouth.
Is the chestnut cake spoiled? Otherwise, why is it so bitter?
But this was clearly freshly made and was still steaming when it was served.
"Xu Yi, I forgot that I had an appointment with Qian Xia tonight. I want to go first." I held back the tears that were about to burst out. I couldn't cry. I must not cry. Xu Yi said that I looked the ugliest when I cried.
"Oh, okay."
Xu Yi didn't say anything else, stood up and walked to the cashier to pay.
I picked up the milk tea on the table that I hadn't even taken a sip of, stood up and walked quickly towards the door.
Ye Xiya, don’t cry!
Even if I want to cry, I have to cry in a place where Xu Yi can't see me...
"Bang!"
"Ah! You have no eyes!" A sharp voice broke my thoughts.
Because I was distracted, I bumped into a long-haired girl who just pushed the door open, and most of the milk tea in my hand spilled on her clothes.
"Sorry, sorry!" I took out a tissue and prepared to help her wipe the milk tea stains while apologizing.
"Get out of the way and don't touch me. I'm so dirty!" The girl screamed and shook off my hand.
"What's wrong?" A boy pushed the door open and walked in, putting his arm around the girl's waist and asked.
Wellson!
How could it be Jingsen? And who is this girl?
Their actions are as intimate as those of a couple, what about Vivi?
"This bitch spilled milk tea on me! Honey, what should I do?" The girl pouted and acted coquettishly at the boy in front of her, but it looked weird with the overly bright makeup on her face.
"Ye Xiya!" After hearing what the girl said, Jing Sen turned his head and looked at me with squinted eyes, "You dare to throw milk tea at her?"
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." I apologized quietly.
"You didn't mean it? How could you not mean it? You clearly saw me come in, and you deliberately walked straight towards me and then poured the milk tea on me!" The girl's shrill voice almost pierced my eardrums.
"Really, I really didn't mean it." I defended anxiously.
"Hmph! I'd be surprised if you didn't do it on purpose! Don't you know what the use of having a pair of eyes is? Are they just for decoration?" The sarcastic words spit out from the mouth painted red.
"Enough! She's already apologized!" Xu Yi quickly walked to my side with anger in his tone.
Xu Yi must have remembered that incident, the one that had been bothering him since Valentine's Day!
Although the scene was different and Weiwei was not there, the same plot quickly made his anger burn.
"Xu Yi, it's okay." I tugged at the corner of Xu Yi's clothes, signaling him not to be angry.
"Is an apology enough? Can I slap you in the face and then say 'sorry' to you?" Jing Sen reached out to push the hair on his forehead back, raised his chin, and glanced at Xu Yi with deep disdain.
"Don't be such a troublemaker! Get out of the way!" Xu Yi's face became increasingly worse, with fire burning in his eyes.
"Oh, what's wrong? Blind lead singer, are your eyes okay? Even if your eyes are okay, you're still a second-rate lead singer of a band!" Jing Sen said, and the fierceness on his face suddenly turned into sarcasm, "It's true that a second-rate band is matched with a second-rate lead singer, and a second-rate lead singer is matched with a shameless bitch!"
"Just say that again!" Xu Yi clenched his fists until they creaked.
"I said Ye Xiya is a bitch!" Jing Sen said fiercely with gritted teeth.
Xu Yi raised his fist and hit Jing Sen hard in the face: "No one can insult Xiya!"
Jing Sen, who was completely unprepared, was knocked back a few steps by Xu Yi, with blood oozing from the corners of his mouth.
"Honey, honey, what's wrong with you?" The girl held Jingsen in panic.
Jing Sen shook off her hand, wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth, and stared at Xu Yi fiercely: "Okay! Okay!" Then he rushed over and wanted to throw Xu Yi to the ground.
"Bang!"
There was a loud noise of a heavy object hitting the ground.
Xu Yi kicked Jing Sen to the ground, then took the opportunity to sit on Jing Sen and punched him hard.
"Ah!" The girl screamed at a high pitch.
"Xu Yi! Stop fighting!" I rushed to Xu Yi and pulled his clothes, "Forget it, okay?"
"Xia, I will never allow anyone to insult you!"
"Xu Yi..."
I watched Xu Yi and Jing Sen fighting each other, and my eyes became blurry...
Suddenly I felt as if Xu Yi had never left me, and had always been by my side protecting me. The years without Xu Yi seemed like just a dream. When I woke up, Xu Yi was always there...
My heart felt so warm, as if it was filled with sunshine, or Xu Yi's smile that was like sunshine...
“Crackle…”
“Bang, bang, bang…”
The sound of them wrestling against each other and hitting the tables, chairs and the ground kept ringing in my ears. They were fighting each other like wolves, hitting each other mercilessly.
"Enough! Stop hitting me! Stop it!" I stopped them at the top of my voice.
But the two of them didn't stop at all and continued fighting, completely ignoring my existence.
"Your hands are for playing instruments, not for fighting! Have you forgotten the music you love?" I shouted at the top of my lungs, tears streaming down my face. "Do you all want to be disqualified from the competition?"
Silence, silence, as if the pause button was suddenly pressed...
They suddenly stopped fighting and stood in silence, with guilty looks on their red and swollen faces.
Watching this scene, I secretly breathed a sigh of relief. They finally stopped fighting. Fortunately, in their hearts, music is still the most important thing.
"Xu Yi, are you okay?" I looked at the scars all over Xu Yi's body and couldn't help but feel heartbroken.
"I'm fine, Xiaya, don't worry." Xu Yi's anger had subsided.
"Really?" I couldn't help but ask again. Looking at Xu Yi's disheveled appearance, I always felt worried.
"Well, don't worry!" Xu Yi gently pulled me, "Let's go."
I followed Xu Yi out of the dim sum restaurant, and it was already completely dark.
Xu Yi, who had been silent all this time, suddenly stretched out his arms and said with a smile: "I haven't fought for a long time, it's really a bit tiring!"
"Xu Yi, if you get hurt because of me, I will hate myself to death." I looked at him seriously.
"No." Xu Yi smiled at me embarrassedly, then looked into the distance, "No matter what, I will not allow anyone to bully Xia!"
Xu Yi...thank you!
Because of Xu Yi’s words, I felt like my whole heart was soaking in a hot spring, warm, and there was warm water flowing slowly around me.
Xu Yi's figure was enveloped by the orange light of the street lamp... At this moment, it seemed as if the whole world had disappeared, and all I could see was Xu Yi's warm figure...