Monday, April 30, sunny
It's not a cake that matters.
But it is his intention;
It's not a gift that matters.
But his smile.
because,
Even though it's just a trivial matter,
But as long as it is his wish,
It will become extremely important.
Because I really want to be best friends with him.

The day of the Yifeng Cultural Festival, circled in red on the calendar, was flying towards us like a rocket.
As the cultural festival is getting closer, everyone is busy making final preparations, and the entire campus is immersed in the festive atmosphere of the cultural festival.
The light sunlight slipped through the gaps between the trees, gently flew through the window, and fell into the empty classroom.
"Chinatsu, do you think anyone will buy the dessert we made?" I looked at the peculiarly shaped dessert in front of me uncertainly.
"Don't worry. With Yuan Cheye as a living signboard, there will definitely be countless crazy girls coming to buy it." Qianxia patted my shoulder with a smile.
"Well, there will definitely be a lot of boys who will buy it for Chinatsu's sake." Looking at the beautiful and lovely Chinatsu in front of me, I felt a lot more at ease.
"Idiot, which boy would like a tomboy? All the boys in the school have heard about the glorious deeds of a certain tomboy!" Che Ye, who was sitting opposite me, broke my fantasy with an unhappy look on his face.
"Who do you say is a tomboy?" Qianxia looked at Cheye with dissatisfaction.
"Whoever always uses Taekwondo to teach others a lesson is the one!"
"you!"
Looking at the two people who started their verbal battle again, I rubbed my temples helplessly. Since we formed a team, such things happen several times a day. Anyway, they just dislike each other.
"Forget it. I don't want to bother with girls." Che Ye ended the battle with an unhappy look on his face.
"Hmph!" Chinatsu uttered a loud sound through her nose.
"Okay, okay, the cultural festival is just two days away, so let's think about what kind of desserts to sell." I played the role of a peacemaker and diverted their attention in time.
"What kind of desserts are popular?" Qianxia thought with her chin propped up, and suddenly slapped the table, "Why don't we just go to the dessert shop! Choose a few popular desserts and make them accordingly?"
"Yeah, that's right!" I nodded quickly in agreement.
"Yes, that's okay." Cheye also agreed with Qianxia's idea for the first time.
The sun hanging in the sky has lost its dazzling golden coat and turned into warm orange.
The shadows of the three of us were stretched out very long by the setting sun. It was such a warm feeling. How nice it would be if it could last forever!
As soon as she walked out of the school gate, a pleasant cell phone ringtone came from Chinatsu's schoolbag.
Qianxia took out her phone and looked at it: "Xia, I have something urgent to do, you and Yuan Cheye should go together!"
"Yeah, okay."
As soon as I finished speaking, Chinatsu answered the phone and quickly walked in another direction. Not far away, I heard her scream——
"Ah! No way...you're really back?"
"Let's go!" Cheye's voice pulled my gaze away from Chinatsu.
Walking on the road, I always quietly looked at Cheye's familiar profile. The faint scent of roses spread in the air, but why does it always feel different from before?
Dessert shop.
I leaned against the window and carefully selected the desserts.
"These desserts are so pretty!" I praised as I picked them out. "If we make desserts of these styles, everyone will definitely like them."
Suddenly, a cake in the corner of the window caught my attention deeply.
There is a layer of light blue cream as the base, and on top of it is a peach heart made of white cream. On the peach heart is a piece of flower-shaped pink chocolate, and on top of it is a very delicate cream dolphin holding a ring in its mouth.
Next to the cake stood a label with the words "Blessings of the Sea" written on it.
"Boss, is this cake called 'Blessing of the Sea'?" I pointed at the cake. "The dolphin on it is so beautiful!"
"Haha, yes, in Greece, dolphins are a symbol of love." The boss looked at me and Cheye and said with a smile, "'Blessing of the Sea' has a story behind it!"
"What's the story?" I couldn't wait to ask the boss, with a look of curiosity.
"Well... the story is about a son of God falling in love with a girl from the mortal world. Because they broke a taboo, the God of Destruction used magic to blind the son of God, and then used trickery to create misunderstandings between the two in an attempt to separate them."
"Did they break up?" I was a little anxious to know the answer.
"Haha, of course not. Because the Elf Queen sympathized with them, she gave the girl a ring and told her that as long as she put the ring on the hand of the Son of God, all misunderstandings would be resolved. However, the God of Destruction snatched the ring and threw it into the sea."
“What a pity…”
Just as I was sighing, the boss continued.
"Just when the two were about to separate forever, a dolphin jumped out of the sea with the ring in its mouth. The son of God regained his sight, and the misunderstanding between the two was finally resolved. They lived happily together afterwards. The dolphin has since become the patron saint of love."
"What a wonderful story." I smiled at the boss and my eyes fell on the cake again.
Why does this story sound so much like the story between Xu Yi and me?
Xu Yi, if I had that ring too, your eyes would get better and maybe we wouldn’t be separated.
Cheye, who had been silent all this time, suddenly pointed at the "Sea Blessing" cake and said to the boss: "Boss, I want this cake!"
I turned my head and looked at Cheye's face. Cheye must have been moved by this story as well.
"Sorry, this cake has been ordered." The boss looked at us apologetically, "In fact, we have many other beautiful cakes in our store."
"No need..." Cheye glanced at me, "Let's quickly decide on the desserts to be made for the cultural festival."
"Yeah, okay."
After a while, several popular desserts we selected were served.
I looked at Cheye while trying the food: "What's wrong? Cheye, why don't you try it?"
"Stupid, try all these desserts. I have something to do, so wait here for me." After saying that, Che Ye stood up and walked towards the dessert shop owner.
Huh? What on earth is going on with Cheye?
Ah! He's not still thinking about the "Blessing of the Sea", is he? Just now, he looked like he really wanted it, so he must have been talking to his boss.
Twenty minutes later.
I had finished all the desserts, but Cheye still hadn't come back.
Where did Cheye go? Didn't he go to see his boss? Why didn't he come back for so long?
I stood up and was about to look for Cheye when I suddenly heard a group of girls screaming excitedly not far away.
"Wow, so handsome..."
"Yeah, it's really handsome. He looks so handsome when he makes the cake."
"I think I'm in love with him!"
"I really want to eat the cake he made!"
…
I walked over curiously towards the source of the sound. Not far away, there was a large group of girls gathered outside the transparent production room. They were all looking at the boy who was making cakes inside with infatuated looks on their faces.
That...that...
How, how could it be...
Che Ye?
I opened my eyes wide, unable to believe what I saw!
The boy who made the cake turned out to be Cheye! How could it be Cheye?
From a distance, he was concentrating on spreading the cream on the cake, his golden hair dancing slightly with his movements. The sunlight fell on him through the glass window, and he looked like a prince in the anime world.
I walked over slowly, my eyes fell on the cake in his hand...
Cheye actually made an identical cake according to the "Blessing of the Sea"! The only difference was that the ring in the dolphin's mouth was now a ring made of chocolate.
Cheye is really amazing. He can make exactly the same cake. It seems that I don’t know much about Cheye!
In fact, from the first day I met him, I always felt that he was a person with many secrets, until I got his exchange diary and then I understood everything.
I don’t know why, but Cheye’s return this time always gives me a strange feeling, but I can’t tell what it is.
"Idiot, here!" While I was still daydreaming, Cheye came out with a packaged cake and handed it to me with an expressionless face.
Well?
"This, this, are you going to give it to me?" I looked at Cheye blankly, unsure of his intention.
"Don't you like this cake very much?" Cheye raised a smile, "If you don't want it, I'll throw it away!"
After saying that, Cheye made a gesture as if to throw the cake, and I hurriedly snatched the cake away.
"Who said I don't want it!" I held the cake in my arms and looked at Cheye happily, "Although I know you also like 'Blessing of the Sea', I won't give it to you!"
"Who said I like it?" Che Ye looked speechless.
"Who just told the boss that they wanted to buy it?"
"Idiot!" A few black lines appeared on Cheye's forehead. He turned around and strode towards the door. "I wanted to buy it for you!"
What? I stood there blankly. Did Cheye want to buy the cake because he saw that I liked it? So, this cake was made by Cheye specially for me?
My heart suddenly felt warm, and I ran to Cheye with the cake in my hand : "Cheye, thank you! I like it very much!"
"Let's go, idiot!" Cheye's tone was still fierce, but I saw the corners of his mouth slightly raised, and there was an unconcealable smile in his brown eyes.
"Yeah!" I nodded happily and followed Cheye out of the dessert shop.
It was already dark, and the street lamps emitted a soft light, gently falling on us.
"Che Ye, why did I never know that you could make such a beautiful cake?" I looked at Che Ye's handsome profile and asked the doubts in my heart.
Cheye paused for a moment, his eyes fixed on the distance: "There are still many things in this world that you don't know, idiot!"
"Well?"
Let's just drop the topic. I don't want to be dragged into it again.
I couldn't help but look down at the cake in my hand again.
Eh? When did the shoelaces come undone? The white shoelaces are dirty from my steps.
When I reached the corner, I put the cake aside and squatted down to tie my shoelaces.
"Idiot, what are you dawdling for?" Cheye, who had already taken several steps, turned around and looked at me.
"My shoelaces are loose, I'll be there right away." I had just tied my shoelaces when, with a shrill car horn, a strong beam of light suddenly appeared in front of me and fell on me in an instant.
My cake!
I subconsciously rushed to pick up the cake on the ground, and the light beam was getting closer and closer to me...
"careful!"
I was pulled by a powerful force and then fell into a warm embrace, an embrace that exuded a faint rose scent.
Time seemed to freeze suddenly, the whole world became quiet, and all sounds disappeared without a trace at this moment, except for the sound of heartbeats.
Cheye looked at me quietly, with a tenderness in his eyes that I had never seen before, a tenderness that seemed to be able to melt anything in the world.
Why...Cheye he...
"Xia...I like you...be my girlfriend."
As he uttered these words, the breeze seemed to freeze, the tiny dust particles and the light of the street lamps stopped moving, and the leaves stopped swaying.
I don't know how long it took--
“Pah—”
Time finally restarted, and the beautiful cake fell to the ground and broke into pieces in an instant. The cream was mixed into a ball and its original appearance could not be seen at all. The dolphin and the ring also disappeared...
"I'm sorry..." I looked at the cake on the ground at a loss, then suddenly jumped out of Cheye's arms.
"Cheye, I'm sorry..." After saying that, I turned around and ran desperately towards home.
There was no sound behind me, as if the time there was still standing still, and only I had left the original time.
I kept running forward, and all the memories of being with Cheye flooded into my mind...
He and I had our first heart-warming encounter in the hospital.
He looked lonely as he looked down at the city from the top of the mountain.
The serious look on his face as he made the courage dumplings for me personally.
…
After such a long time, he finally confessed to me.
But... someone else has already lived in my heart...
Cheye, I'm sorry... I've fallen in love with Xu Yi...

Monday, May 14th, sunny
Is it what I miss every night?
It reached the ears of God,
That's why God sent Xu Yi to me.
The moment I saw him,
I knew my world was finally complete.
Finally the sun is shining, winter is gone and spring is here.

Yifeng’s Cultural Festival is here in the blink of an eye.
There were tiny clouds floating in the clear blue sky, and the sun was shining down from overhead, casting a faint shadow on the ground. A huge banner was hung on the school gate:
I wish the Yifeng Tenth Campus Cultural Festival a smooth success!
The whole school was full of people, and at first glance, it looked like a sea of ​​black.
Yifeng’s ten-year cultural festival was indeed very popular , even students from other schools were attracted.
"Cheye, did you make that dessert?"
"I also want to eat the desserts made by Cheye himself!"
…
Our stall was surrounded by girls. No! It should be said that Cheye was surrounded by girls!
The sunlight fell on Cheye's golden hair, shining as bright as a diamond. His handsome face was filled with a brilliant smile, which made the sunlight pale in comparison.
I looked at Cheye's back, and a complex emotion surged in my heart. Ever since the confession that day, our relationship has become very awkward. In the past few days, we have said no more than ten sentences in total.
Cheye seemed to sense my gaze and turned his head. At this moment, I quickly lowered my head and looked away from him.
But in just half an hour, Chinatsu and I didn't have to do anything, and all the desserts were sold out.
"Being handsome has its advantages!" Qianxia pulled me over with a happy face, "Hey, Xia, why do I always feel that there is something weird between you and Yuan Cheye?"
Well?
I looked up at Qianxia, ​​then quickly lowered my head: "Um... No, that's not it." In fact, I always felt that Cheye's sudden confession to me was just a dream.
"Forget it. Haha. Anyway, I'm not interested in what happens between you and Yuan Cheye." Qianxia said as she packed up her stall.
"Yuan Cheye, the dean is looking for you." The class monitor came over and patted Cheye on the shoulder, "Go quickly, it seems like there's something urgent."
As soon as Cheye left, I felt a lot more relaxed.
Qianxia grabbed me and said, "Forget it, let's not clean it up. It's just a few broken tables and stools, no one will want them!"
"Ah? Then where are we going?" I asked as I was dragged forward by Chinatsu.
"Watching the cultural festival activities!" Chinatsu answered me without turning her head.
Chinatsu and I walked around various food stalls, and in the blink of an eye, several hours had passed by quietly.
After eating and drinking, just as I was about to take a good rest on the grass, Chinatsu suddenly looked at the time, then pulled me up and said, "Let's go, Xia."
"Where are you going? You haven't rested yet!"
"Let's go, the campus band concert is about to start!" Qianxia pulled me and walked towards the school playground.
"Campus band meeting?"
When the word "band" jumped into my ears, the longing that had been buried deep in my heart burst into life like a lit firework.
Xu Yi...are you almost forgetting me?
It's been two whole months and I haven't heard from you.
Are you happy living in the U.S.? Have your eyes been cured?
Xu Yi...
Do you know that I miss you very much...
"Hey, Xia, the band that just performed is from our school! Their singing was so mediocre." Chinatsu bumped my arm, interrupting my thoughts.
"Oh. Really?" I nodded at Chinatsu blankly.
"What are you thinking about? Haha, Xiaya, what are you thinking about?" Qianxia looked at me with a smile on her face, "I remember you told me that Xu Yi is the lead singer of the FLY band, right? Then you must have heard the performance of the FLY band. How is it? Is it much better than Jingsen and the others?"
"Huh?" I looked at Chinatsu in confusion, "Um...I..." Faced with Chinatsu's question, I didn't know how to answer.
Just as I was standing there stupidly, the host's excited voice immediately ignited the enthusiasm of the whole audience: "The next band to bring you a wonderful performance is the most popular Ryonan FLY band! Please scream enthusiastically!"
What? Did I hear that correctly?
The host was talking about the FLY band just now?
FLY?
Is it really FLY?
I stood on tiptoe anxiously to look at the stage. After Xu Yi left, hadn't FLY performed for a long time? How did they suddenly come to Yifeng's cultural festival?
Are Ajie and the other band members here? But Ajie said before that FLY is incomplete without Xu Yi, and an incomplete band cannot return to the stage! Could it be...
My heart was beating so fast that it seemed like it was about to jump out of my throat. An incredible idea was born in my mind -
Is it really...
Is it really him...
The open-air stage had no dazzling lights, only a faint sunlight falling on the stage. In the center of the stage stood a handsome boy, his black hair shone like black jade in the sunlight, his eyes sparkled like diamonds, his mouth was slightly open, and the bright smile on his face made the sunlight pale in comparison...
It’s him…it’s really him…it’s Xu Yi…
It’s really Xu Yi!
I covered my mouth tightly and looked at Xu Yi in disbelief as he started singing passionately on the stage.
All the memories about Xu Yi in my mind suddenly came flooding out, like a tornado, sweeping towards me quickly.
Xu Yi, are you back?
At this moment, the people around me seemed to have disappeared, and I could not see anything except Xu Yi standing on the stage, the person who made me worry about him every day!
I really want to cross this sea of ​​people and rush to Xu Yi.
Xu Yi, are your eyes cured?
Xu Yi... Do you know? During the time you were away, my longing for you has become as natural as breathing.
I bit my lips tightly, held back the tears in my eyes, and tried my best to squeeze towards the stage. Xu Yi, I must tell you how much I miss you!
Everyone was immersed in Xu Yi's singing, only I was constantly pushing forward, trying hard to get to the stage.
"Ouch, don't push!"
"Why are you pushing?"
I could hear other people's complaints constantly. But at this moment, I could no longer hear them, and I also completely ignored the resentment expressed by the eyes of the people around me.
"ah!"
The crowd suddenly became agitated, and a wave of people suddenly rushed outside.
No, don't push me out! I finally squeezed in here!
However, I felt like I was in the ocean. No matter how hard I struggled, I could only flow out with the crowd. Drowned in the sea of ​​people, my mind went blank.
When I came to my senses, I found myself standing at the very outside of the crowd.
Xu Yi, Xu Yi!
I quickly looked up at the stage, and Xu Yi was gone! Even the FLY band was gone!
For a moment, I stood there blankly, unable to see anything. Memories flooded back, as if I had returned to that time again - the white sheets, the empty ward, the hospital filled with the smell of disinfectant...
Xu Yi is missing...
Xu Yi disappeared...
Or did Xu Yi never come back?
Was all this just my illusion?
Xu Yi, have you really come back...
The performance on the stage was still going on, with the noisy crowd and dynamic music, and everyone was responding excitedly. But my heart felt heavy as if a mountain was pressing down on me, and I felt suffocated and couldn't breathe.
Oh, Chinatsu! Where's Chinatsu?
When I came to my senses, I found that Chinatsu was gone too!
"Chinatsu, Chinatsu...where are you?" I shouted Chinatsu's name loudly, but my voice was quickly drowned out by the noisy music.
Forget it, let’s go back to the classroom.
I walked towards the classroom with my head down. I could hear everyone's laughter all around me, but these joyful laughter made me feel sad.
The scene just now kept appearing in my mind...
Xu Yi, you know, I really miss you! I really want to know if you are doing well, and I really want to see you!
I raised my hand to wipe away the tears that overflowed from the corners of my eyes and took a few deep breaths. Ye Xiya, don’t cry. Xu Yi will have better treatment conditions in the United States and will have a better life and future.
You should smile and bless him!
Don’t cry!
However, just when I tried to look up and smile, the familiar figure downstairs in the teaching building made my vision blurred again.
Soft black hair, warm eyes, bright smile...
It’s Xu Yi!
It’s really Xu Yi!
Looking at the familiar eyes and eyebrows in front of me, the longing that had been suppressed for so long suddenly burst out, and tears began to fall desperately before I even opened my mouth.
Xu Yi slowly walked in front of me...
The warm wind of May gently brushed my face, and the sunlight shone through the gaps between the leaves, casting mottled shadows. I felt my heart beating so fast that it seemed to burst out of my chest.
"Xia... I'm sorry!" A pair of familiar and warm hands gently wiped away my tears. So familiar, so warm, I... really... miss you so much...
I shook my head desperately at him, wanting to tell him that I didn't blame him at all, but my tears became even more violent because of this gentle touch...
"Xia, don't cry. I said you look the ugliest when you cry because when you cry, my heart aches..." The familiar voice that had appeared countless times in my dreams sounded in my ears, "Xia, even though I'm gone, I've asked the angels to protect you!"
Looking at Xu Yi's dark eyes full of tenderness, I felt a surge of joy in my heart. I held back my tears and asked, "Xu Yi, are your eyes... okay?"
When Xu Yi heard my question, his smile paused for a moment, then he smiled and nodded at me: "Yes, it's fine now, Xiya, don't worry anymore."
"That's great." I nodded. "Xu Yi... as long as your eyes are healed, nothing else matters. I have never blamed you. No matter what the reason was for you leaving, I believe you must have your own reasons!"
"I don't want to be a burden to Xia, so..."
"Xu Yi...you have never been a burden to me." I interrupted Xu Yi with a sob.
I bit my lips tightly.
Xu Yi, you must not know that after you left, I miss you so much every day. The first thing I think of when I wake up every morning is you, and the last thing I think of before going to bed at night is also you. I really miss you so much!
Xu Yi's eyes were full of heartache. He gently wiped the tears from my face and then held me in his arms.
The faint scent of grass on him finally calmed me down, and the feeling of satisfaction was as wonderful as being in the clouds.
Moreover, Xu Yi could see again.
The haze and self-blame that had been hidden deep in my heart finally dissipated. From Xu Yi's smile, I saw the sunshine falling into my heart bit by bit.
Xu Yi, I believe you really asked the angel to protect me, I believe...
"Fool."
A familiar voice came into my ears and I turned to look behind me.
Standing not far away, Cheye's face was filled with loneliness, his brown eyes had lost their luster, and were dim...
When did he come? How long had he been standing there?
"Idiot, you said sorry because of him, right?" Cheye's voice became so fragile, as if it would quickly dissipate with the slightest touch.
In the sunlight, his golden hair was still as dazzling as ever, but his eyes were getting dimmer and dimmer under the golden hair.
"I..." I stayed where I was, looking at Cheye who looked dejected, and slowly lowered my head, "I'm sorry... Cheye, I'm sorry..."
No one spoke anymore, and the atmosphere suddenly became quiet. Tiny dust particles were floating in the sunlight. I looked at the shadows of the three of us, and my originally happy mood became complicated.
"Yuan Cheye, how...how could it be you?" Xu Yi's surprised voice broke the silence at the moment. His eyes fell directly on Cheye's face with a look of complete disbelief.
"Why couldn't it be me?" There was no emotion in Cheye's voice.
The atmosphere suddenly became quiet again.
I raised my head and wanted to say something, but I didn't know what to say at this moment.
"Idiot..." Suddenly, Cheye looked at me seriously, "No matter what, I won't give up, because I came back for you!"
Cheye's words made my brain go blank as if struck by lightning, and the feeling of guilt spread like a thick fog.
"I..." I opened my mouth to say something, but after uttering a short syllable, nothing came out.
"You have always worked hard for me in the past, now it's my turn." After saying this, Che Ye turned around and left without hesitation.
Just as Xu Yi and I were standing there awkwardly, Qianxia appeared out of nowhere.
"Xia, did I miss a good show just now?" Qianxia smiled and pointed at Cheye's back in the distance.
"Qianxia..." I watched Cheye's back getting smaller and smaller. A faint sense of loneliness spread from his back and lingered in the air...
I lowered my head, feeling as if a heavy stone was pressing down on my heart, heavy and depressing.
"The FLY band is really amazing!" Chinatsu's voice broke the silence.
I came back to my senses and pulled Qianxia to introduce her to Xu Yi: "Xu Yi, this is my new good friend Qianxia."
"Xu Yi, today I finally got to see the FLY band. Haha, they're awesome!" Qianxia looked at Xu Yi happily.
Xu Yi just kept smiling and nodding.
"Xu Yi!" Ajie's voice suddenly came from behind.
Turning around, Ajie ran over to greet me with a smile on his face, then looked at Xu Yi: "Everyone is waiting for you in front, why are you still here?"
"Okay, I'll be there right away." Xu Yi turned and looked at me, "Xia, I'll go first." After saying that, Xu Yi turned around and walked forward with Ajie.
Looking at Xu Yi's back, I suddenly felt panic in my heart.
"Xu Yi..." I shouted at him out of an inexplicable sense of unease. He turned around and looked at me when he heard my voice, but I didn't know what to say.
"Xia, what's wrong?" He looked at me puzzledly, his black hair shining like black jade in the sunlight.
"I..." I looked at him, but lowered my head again.
Qianxia grabbed me and walked to Xu Yi: "After the cultural festival, let's go out for a meal together, just to celebrate your return. Haha, Xu Yi, you won't give me face, right?" Qianxia said to Xu Yi with a smile on her face.
"Okay." Xu Yi's eyes swept across my face and he nodded gently, "Then let's meet at the barbecue restaurant in front of your school at 7 o'clock!"
The moment Xu Yi agreed, all my anxieties seemed to disappear.
Why have I become so anxious and worried?
Watching Xu Yi's gradually disappearing back, an inexplicable feeling surged from the bottom of my heart. But I couldn't tell what it was.
Xu Yi...
You are finally back...
In fact, this is enough.

Tuesday, May 15th Cloudy
For the first time, I felt
Wine really is an amazing thing.
It can dispel inner tension.
Makes people courageous.
But, but I am full of courage,
I didn't wait for the person I wanted to confess to.
Already drunk!

The lively cultural festival is over.
The bustling crowds had disappeared, and the entire campus was empty, with only the low rustling sound of the leaves in the wind.
I looked up at the sky that seemed to have no end, and large patches of light clouds like marshmallows were floating quietly.
"Xia, let's go!"
Chinatsu pulled me towards the school gate.
I followed Chinatsu quietly, passing through the tall teaching building, across the empty playground, turning into a quiet alley, and finally stopped in front of a simply decorated barbecue restaurant.
It was still early, so Chinatsu and I sat down on the window seat. I unconsciously clasped my hands together and stared at the door with wide eyes.
"Xia, it's only six o'clock now, don't wait here." Qianxia had a teasing smile on her face.
"I didn't." My face quickly turned red after hearing what Chinatsu said.
All the longing that had accumulated since Xu Yi left rushed into my throat when I saw him, but I couldn't say anything.
The sound of wind chimes rang out and the shop door was suddenly pushed open.
My eyes seemed to have turned on highlight mode and became bright.
A couple came in, holding hands and smiling sweetly.
My eyes dimmed.
"Xia, Cheye and Xu Yi, what are you going to do?" Qianxia suddenly asked.
The warm steam from the barbecue came between us, and her eyes, which were as beautiful as lake water, were filled with some inexplicable emotions that I couldn't understand.
"I don't want to hurt Che Ye. If it weren't for him, I wouldn't have the courage to undergo ear surgery. Otherwise, maybe you would see a deaf Ye Xiya now!" Che Ye's expression just now emerged in my mind, and the feeling of guilt wrapped around me like a thin thread.
"But the person you like is not him. Even if you don't want to hurt him, he has already been hurt!" Chinatsu raised her voice, "Xia, sometimes your kindness will make you do things that indirectly hurt others. It's better to be direct about emotional matters!"
I looked up at Qianxia seriously: "Do you mean I should confess to Xu Yi?" I was silent for a while, and continued, "Qianxia, ​​do you know? Although the person I like in my heart now is Xu Yi, when I see Cheye's sad look, I will hate myself, hate myself very much..."
"Xia!" Chinatsu suddenly held my hand. "No matter what you do, you should be brave and firm in your heart! Don't worry about hurting anyone. There is no right or wrong in love! Believe me!"
The encouragement in Chinatsu's pure eyes continuously flowed into my body.
My heart suddenly became clear...
I nodded heavily: "Chinatsu, maybe you are right."
"Waiter, bring me a half dozen beers." Qianxia called to the waiter, her eyes full of smiles, "Xia, if you are nervous, drink some wine, then you won't be nervous anymore."
Only then did I realize that my palms had become wet.
Chinatsu opened a bottle of beer and handed it to me: "Here!"
"Ah?" Looking at Qianxia's raised mouth, I took a deep breath, then took the beer and took a big sip.
The chilled beer slid down my throat, and the bitter taste bloomed on the tip of my tongue, spreading to every corner of my body.
"Xia, I'll leave when Xu Yi comes. I don't want to be your light bulb." Qianxia took a sip of wine and murmured, "Haha, I really hope you and Xu Yi can be happy! In this way, I can retire with honor."
Chinatsu and I drank and chatted, and soon we finished the half dozen beers on the table.
I looked up and the light above my head began to shake. The store seemed to be shrouded in fog and became a little hazy.
"Qian... Qianxia, ​​why, Xu Yi... hasn't come yet?" My tongue was a little tied. "Qianxia, ​​I, I... see so many of you!" I shook Qianxia's arm.
"Ye Xiya! You are really useless. You got drunk after drinking just a little." Qianxia slapped my face hard, "Wake up, wake up!"
"Chinatsu, I'm not drunk, I'm not drunk!" I jumped up and grabbed Chinatsu's hand, but my body was shaking violently, "Now, now I can confess loudly!"
"Shia, Shia..." Chinatsu pulled me down to sit down, "Oh my! What the hell is going on here!"
"I...I want to confess loudly now...I want to confess..." I broke free from Qianxia's hand, stood up shakily, and shouted loudly with all my strength, "Xu Yi, I want to be with you! I really want to...I really want to be with you..."
"Bang!"
I just felt a strong sense of dizziness coming over me, and my body suddenly fell backwards...
In a daze, I felt myself falling on something soft. I closed my eyes and it seemed as if the whole world had become quiet.
Xu Yi... Let's be together...
Can we be together...