Chapter 7 About Him and Him 1
The days passed quickly as Lagoud and I laughed and played.
The day when Lagude was discharged from the hospital came in the blink of an eye.
The doctor said with satisfaction that Lagoud's body had recovered very well, but in order to cure the heart disease, a transplant operation must be performed as soon as possible. I wanted to ask for details, but when Lagoud heard the word heart transplant, his face turned very bad and he stopped me and interrupted the conversation between me and the doctor.
Although there was such a small episode, I didn't care much about it. After all, being discharged from the hospital was a happy event. So the next day after the doctor announced that I could be discharged, I got up early in the morning and dressed up for the first time. I put on my favorite white dress and a beautiful butterfly brooch to show my happiness. Then I went out to pick up Ragud.
"Qiqi!" As soon as I walked out of my neighborhood, a slender figure stopped me.
Nine sands!
I looked at the young man in front of me in surprise, and found that after only a few days' absence, the originally fresh and handsome Jiusha had become so haggard, as if he had just come out of a refugee camp.
"Jiusha?" In my impression, Jiusha has always been a clean boy with beautiful eyes as green as lake water, a faint smile always on his lips, and he likes white shirts with jeans.
The haggard and sloppy young man in front of me is the Jiusha I am familiar with, but at the same time he is not the Jiusha in my memory.
"Qiqi——" Hearing me calling him, Jiusha smiled happily and quickly took two steps closer to me, "Qiqi, you still want to pay attention to me, right?"
Did he think I would ignore him? Was he calling out to me so cautiously just now because of this worry?
But it was true, after such a thrilling assassination, I did have a reason to break up with him, and I thought I would do so. But looking at him so haggard, I still couldn't bear it.
I have liked you for so long, how can I completely ignore you?
"What happened to you?" I couldn't help but ask him, "Why did you become like this?"
"It's okay." Jiusha pulled at his wrinkled shirt embarrassedly. "I haven't slept well these past few days. I looked up many cases of humans transforming into vampires, and investigated your experiences over the past six months..."
"Then what?" I didn't expect it to be because of this reason.
My face started to turn ugly. After all, no one would be happy to hear that they were being investigated.
"Then I realized that I really misunderstood you. I'm sorry, Qiqi, I shouldn't have not believed you." Seeing my cold face, Jiusha became anxious and apologized to me in a panic.
I looked at Jiusha with mixed feelings. After being treated as a monster, hated, and assassinated by him, what meaning did it have to hear him say sorry with guilt now?
Can a simple "I'm sorry" erase all my sadness and sorrow, or make my feelings for him return to what they were before?
What happened happened.
Once it changes, it changes.
Won't come back.
"Qiqi, please forgive me, okay? You don't know, I've been missing you a lot during the past six months when I was abroad. I've been worried about your health, and I'm also afraid that when I come back you'll already have someone else you like. Qiqi--"
My heart moved slightly, I looked up and looked at Jiusha in front of me - someone else I liked? Maybe not before, or if Jiusha hadn't treated me like that, I would never have found out, but - now, maybe I have to admit that he might be right.
Another person I like.
Lagoud's face flashed before my eyes.
"Qiqi, I was thinking of looking for you when I came back, but I ran into you accidentally at the hospital gate, and was shocked to find that you had become a vampire, and you were covered in blood, as if you had just attacked humans. Do you know how shocked and sad I was at that time? Qiqi, I am a vampire hunter, and under the circumstances at the time, I had no choice but to do that." Jiusha explained.
Is that the only option? Even though he didn't see me attacking humans, even though I didn't have the power to hurt any creatures at the time, even though I kept trying to explain to him, he ignored me, just because he was a vampire hunter, so he had to kill me ruthlessly, decisively, and without hesitation?
"So you don't need to apologize to me, right?" I said angrily, "Everything you did was your duty. In that case, why do you need to apologize to me?"
"No, I now know that you are not what I thought, a cruel vampire who mutated into a person who sucks human blood in order to survive. Qiqi, I shouldn't have misunderstood you." Jiusha said anxiously, "I went back to the Hunter School to check, and the information shows that there is a solution for a situation like yours, but so far - there is no perfect solution."
Jiusha looked at me with a strange light in his eyes: "Qiqi, if we work together, there must be a way to turn you back into a human being."
"You think you shouldn't misunderstand me, but you still don't trust me." I shook my head at Jiusha, "Do you think I would believe that someone who doesn't even give me the minimum trust can help me find a way to turn back into a human?"
"Qiqi, no, I..." Jiusha grabbed my hand in panic, wanting to explain, but couldn't come up with a better reason to convince me.
"I'm sorry, if you don't have anything else, I'm leaving." I looked down at my watch. It was getting late. That impatient guy must be waiting for me anxiously at this moment.
"Qiqi--" Jiusha still held my hand, unwilling to let go. "Half a year ago, we agreed that when I came back, you would have something important to tell me. I want to ask, are you still willing to tell me those words now?" Jiusha looked at me and asked sadly.
I looked back at him, quietly, slowly, and I felt that I could sense his sadness at this moment, and that this sadness was infecting me.
My heart began to feel heavy and a little painful.
But, that’s all.
At this moment, I can accompany the young man in front of me to experience the same sadness, but I am no longer able to accompany him to overcome such sadness.
"You don't want to do it anymore, right?" After a long while, Jiusha didn't hear my answer. A bitter smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. As smart as he was, he naturally knew my answer.
"I should have guessed it earlier, but I still didn't want to believe it. But Qiqi, I don't blame you, because I was wrong at the beginning. So - I decided that if you don't want to talk about it anymore, then this time, I will tell you instead."
What do you mean? I looked at him in surprise. Just as I was about to stop him, he had already stepped back, smiled slightly, and said loudly to me: "Student Ai Qiqi, I like you. Please be my girlfriend."
I saw many uncles and aunts in the community who were about to go out. When they heard Jiusha's words, they turned back excitedly. The community has been too quiet recently, and there is not much gossip to talk about. Naturally, no one wants to miss the rare news.
If time could go back to half a year ago, oh no, maybe just a few weeks ago, when I heard Jiusha's confession to me, I would have accepted it with joy, and then I probably would not have had the chance to sort out my feelings for Lagood.
So, at this moment, should I blame Jiusha for confessing too late, or be glad that he confessed late?
No matter what, there is no possibility between him and me anymore.
"I'm sorry, Jiusha, I can't accept you."
"Why? Is it because of my misunderstandings of you? Qiqi, can't you forgive me just once? Or - the person you like is no longer me, but that guy named Lagude?" Jiusha changed his tone and asked me angrily.
"I don't need to explain to you how I feel about Lagude. But I can tell you clearly that the reason I don't want to be with you is because I don't want to be with someone who doesn't trust me. And that day, when you stabbed me with a dagger, I had decided to give up liking you from now on." I said.
"Impossible." Jiusha shouted unwillingly, "Impossible. Ai Qiqi, you can't just say you don't like me and then you stop liking me."
"It's impossible for people to end their relationship just like that, but at least I have decided to start doing so. What's more, I have Ragud by my side, he will always be with me. As long as he is around, I believe it will be very easy to forget you." I said confidently.
"Lagude? There's even less chance of a relationship between you and him." Jiusha laughed at me when he heard what I said, "Qiqi, you don't know that you have already entered the most critical period of mutation, and from what I've observed, your bloodthirstiness is higher than others. If you stay with humans, it will only put them in danger and you in pain."
"What do you mean?" I hated Jiusha's extremely affirmative tone, as if he had already seen me holding Lagude's neck and sucking blood hard.
"Didn't you hear me clearly? Qiqi, there is no possibility for you and Lagude. But if you are with me..."
"No, I won't. I believe in myself. I will never hurt Ragud again." I clenched my fists. "Ragud believes in me so much. I will never let him down."
"Haha, both of you, stop being childish. Bloodsucking is the instinct of the mutated vampires. Who can fight against their instincts? Qiqi, don't blame me for not reminding you. If you continue to get close to that Lagude, he will be killed by you soon. By that time--"
With a "slap", I reached out and slapped Jiusha hard.
How could he say such hurtful words without hesitation? Everything was just his own guess. Why did he sentence me to death with such a confident tone? Moreover, what qualifications did he have to sentence me?
"Don't worry, Lagude and I will be together, happily together for a long, long time." After saying that, I passed by him.
