During the National Day holiday, Ling Shanshan came to see me. She said she hadn't had a good time since returning to China, and wanted me to go mountain climbing with her. But Tianjin is not big, and the mountains are not high, so I had to take her to M Mountain, which is a little famous locally.
M Mountain is not high, nor is it steep, so it is easy to climb up. It is a cool autumn season, and it is a holiday, so there are many people climbing the mountain. Ling Shanshan insisted on dragging me to compete with her, saying that the loser must promise the winner something.
Looking at Shanshan, who was half a head shorter than me and thinner, I laughed like a winner and said, "Ling Shanshan, with your small body, one step of mine can take you two steps. You are definitely going to lose!"
Shanshan puffed up her cheeks, took a deep breath, and posed for a start. "Humph, it's still unclear who will lose."
Shanshan ran like a rabbit, and I chased her from behind.
"Haha, what do you think? You underestimated me, didn't you? What should the loser do?" When I climbed to the top of the mountain panting, Shanshan stood with one hand on her waist, smiling at me, and handed me a bottle of water with the other hand.
I didn't expect that Ling Shanshan was a sprinter in the school before, and she was convinced of her defeat. I took a sip of water and asked her, "Tell me, what are your requests?"
Ling Shanshan sat down on the ground and patted the seat next to her: "An An, come and sit here."
"An An, do you still like Brother Xubei now?" I sat down next to her and she looked into my eyes and asked me.
Shanshan didn't make any requests, she just asked this question . I don't know why she mentioned He Xubei, I'm a little unsure.
He Xubei was the first person I liked, although was just a crush. After going through so many things, it would be a lie to say that I didn't like him anymore. But with Yangguang in my heart, I no longer had any other thoughts. Although Yangguang's death was not caused by me, it was because I asked him to deliver a letter to He Xubei, a confession letter to a coward, that caused the accident. I always feel that I am an indirect murderer. I don't even have the courage to apologize to Yangguang's grave.
"Shanshan, what do you mean ?" I asked very carefully. I was afraid that if I asked with the wrong tone I would lose Shanshan as a friend. After all, I don't have many friends.
Shanshan looked at me strangely. Perhaps she noticed my cautiousness. She held my hand and said, "An'an, I have only been in this school for a short time. I don't have any friends here. They all say that I am an exchange student and that I am very good. They also say that brother Xubei and I... Actually, An'an, I told you last time that he and I are really just like the siblings next door!"
I nodded to show that I understood. Shanshan continued.
"An An, I am a dance student. I have been abroad for more than a year as an exchange student. I don't have to take the college entrance examination. Next year I will go abroad to study dance again. Although I haven't known you for a long time, I know you are a good girl. In the eyes of others, you are not afraid of anything, but in fact, I know you are still very timid. You don't even dare to say that you like someone..."
"So Shanshan, what do you want to say?" I was confused by what this kind-hearted girl said. What exactly did she want to express? What was her request?
"An An, all I ask is that you be brave to yourself!"
Be brave with myself? Can I do that now?