Chapter 6: The Dusty Past 1
"I designed the routine, you are so sincere in your love!"
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Winter is finally over, and Shen Chuxue seems to have woken up from hibernation. Every winter, she feels uncomfortable all over, and she loves to sleep. Now that it is warmer, she is finally willing to go out and move around, either with An Yannan in the student union, or with Lin Jianluo and his roommates.
She looked at the people standing on the isolation belt and wanted to laugh but held it back.
Dressed in black, he almost blended into the night. The dim light shone on his ears, and there was a flickering light. Lin Jianluo actually always had pierced ears, but he never wore earrings. Now he wore a black earring that shone in the light. It was the first time Shen Chuxue saw Lin Jianluo like this. She was stunned for a long time before she could say "good-looking".
The man looked around for cars and it took him several minutes to walk to Shen Chuxue's side.
Except for Lin Jianluo, no one has ever understood Shen Chuxue's turmoil. In her turbulent youth, he always held her hand.
"Why are you here so late?" Lin Jianluo asked.
She shook the lunch box in her hand and said, "Auntie at home has made some soup. I won't go out tomorrow, Saturday, so I'll bring some to you now. Drink it quickly. I'll go back after you finish it. It's too late." Lin Jianluo got off work at two or three in the morning. Shen Chuxue came out according to the time. Anyway, she slept in the room at the end of the corridor, so no one knew that Shen Chuxue came out. An Wei didn't care, and Li Qiuhuo didn't notice it.
"Okay, okay."
After drinking the whole lunch box of soup, Lin Jianluo was full and smiled foolishly at Shen Chuxue.
"What are you laughing at?" Shen Chuxue lowered her head to put the things away. When she looked up, she met Lin Jianluo's white teeth and couldn't help but laugh.
"It's okay. I just want to laugh when I see you."
Pulling a handful of Lin Jianluo's clothes, she stood up and walked home. It is worth mentioning that this bar is not far from An's house. It only takes fifteen minutes to walk from the path. This path was discovered by Lin Jianluo. That day, he sent a drunk guest home and found that it was in the direction of An's house.
This is convenient for two people.
Shen Chuxue returned to the An family, washed the lunch box quietly, tidied everything, and then went back to bed. When she looked at the watch, it was already four o'clock in the morning. She stuck out her tongue, quickly covered herself with the quilt and went to sleep.
An Yannan knocked on the door in the morning and found that Shen Chuxue was not awake, so he didn't wait for her and went straight to the library.
After a long sleep, Shen Chuxue opened her eyes and saw that it was already one o'clock in the afternoon. She rubbed her eyes and stretched, feeling a little melancholy that a day had been wasted.
She sat at her desk for a long time before she fully woke up.
"Chuxue, your cell phone fell downstairs and has been ringing. Check it out to see if it's an urgent call." Li Qiuhuo heard the sound in the room and knew that Shen Chuxue had woken up. She knocked on the door and came in, handing the phone to Shen Chuxue.
Shen Chuxue yawned and reached out to take the phone.
Every time she saw her daughter, Li Qiuhe wanted to love her but didn't know how to do it. Shen Chuxue always treated her with a certain distance and distance. Only when she was sick did Shen Chuxue's tone of voice when she called her mother seem more intimate - perhaps it was just because she was sick.
"Unknown number?" Shen Chuxue muttered and called back, "Hello, who is this?"
An Yannan parked the car and smelled the fragrance of food when he entered the house. After being hungry in the library for a day, An Yannan quickly washed his hands and ate. When he was almost done eating, he remembered that Shen Chuxue hadn't come down, so he asked Li Qiuhe if she was still asleep.
An Cenxi replied: "I woke up in the afternoon. I haven't eaten for a day, so I'm not hungry." Her tone was not very good.
Now An Cenxi is getting more and more lazy to pretend, and he can also put on a face that he doesn't like Shen Chuxue in front of Li Qiuhe. Anyway, it's not the first or second time that they have fallen out. Li Qiuhe knows that An Cenxi doesn't really accept this sister. If she is not afraid of Shen Chuxue, what is she afraid of?
"Oh." An Yannan responded and looked upstairs, but Shen Chuxue hadn't appeared yet.
After dinner, he stayed downstairs with An Cenxi and Li Qiuhe for a while, then went upstairs to the door of Shen Chuxue's room and knocked. After a long time, there was no response from inside, so he gently pushed the door open, only to find Shen Chuxue sitting on the carpet with her legs crossed, with chairs and bookcases scattered in front of her, a mess.
Hearing the sound, she turned back.
"I'm back." Her voice was a little hoarse, and the ending was trembling.
The cell phone was placed next to her. She was wearing headphones and hugging her legs. Her feet were white from the cold. Her hands were tangled in the headphone wires. She glanced at An Yannan out of the corner of her eye and said, "Come in and sit down! Oh, sorry, there's no place to sit! Come on, come on, sit in front of me!" She moved to another place generously, patted the blanket in front of her , and raised a lot of dust.
No matter how hard you try to clean the carpet, there will still be dust on it, just like some things, no matter how hard Shen Chuxue tries to avoid them, they will still come back.
She looked at An Yannan who was standing still and smiled.
Shen Chuxue simply unplugged the headphone cable, and suddenly there was a sound in the room. It was a melodious tune, but it was not Kunqu Opera.
"Why don't you sit down?" Shen Chuxue said, patting the space in front of her.
An Yannan suddenly turned and left, but she didn't care. She just sat there, tapping rhythm with her fingers on the carpet.
In less than five minutes, An Yannan came back after changing his clothes, sat cross-legged in front of Shen Chuxue, and asked her if she was hungry.
"Not hungry, not hungry. I'm not hungry at all today. I drank milk when I came back this morning." Shen Chuxue looked up at An Yannan with a strange smile. "In fact, you already knew that I went out to look for Lin Jianluo in the early morning, right? You knew it since the first time, right?"
An Yannan did not refute.
He did know. His sleep quality was not very good, especially he could not sleep without any noise. He would wake up at the slightest noise. That was why he had to choose a room at the end of the corridor opposite Shen Chuxue. Although Shen Chuxue deliberately suppressed the sound of closing the door, An Yannan could still hear it. From the first time, An Yannan knew that Shen Chuxue went out in the middle of the night and even knew the time she would come back.
"I received a phone call today..." She said in a dull and restrained voice. She wanted to continue speaking, but her hands were shaking and she couldn't go on.
"Forget it. I'm going to bed and going out tomorrow." She ended the conversation forcefully.
An Yannan didn't ask any more questions and went downstairs to heat up the milk.
Li Qiuhe and An Cenxi asked why the milk was heated so early today. An Yannan said that he was sleepy and wanted to go to bed as soon as possible, but he brought the milk into Shen Chuxue's room and placed it beside the bed.
She sat on the edge of the bed, looking at the mess on the floor. She had no intention of cleaning up, she just hoped that the night would pass quickly.
Have you ever had this feeling: the more you fear something, the closer it gets to you, until one day, it finally arrives in front of you, leaving you with no way to avoid it, and you can only face it head-on, smiling and saying hello. Because this is your upbringing, you have to tell the world: You will always pay the price for hurting me.
