this moment,
I have to admit that I have lost you.
Since then,
We had to live separately.

The dispute between Xu Yaxin and I over the Crow Band soon reached the company's leaders. They naturally could not tolerate a small employee like me getting into conflict with the daughter of a partner.
I was called to the meeting room, and a group of leaders were on high alert, seemingly ready to collectively criticize me. To my surprise, Lin Chuyu, who was always cold and sarcastic, actually came out to defend me. He brought out various statistics on the popularity of the Crow band to prove that my support for the Crow band was not because I had a personal relationship with the lead singer.
Lin Chuyu not only has a prominent family background, but also has strong working ability. He can make achievements in other companies on his own without relying on his family's resources. Naturally, the company leaders dare not look down on him. So after warning me, they did not punish me too much.
In fact, I often don't understand why the two brothers Lin Chuyu like to work in other people's companies when there is a family business that can be taken over? Is it really just to prove that they have the ability to make a name for themselves? If this is really the case, then I still admire him very much.
"Thank you, Manager Lin." As soon as I walked out of the meeting room, I immediately thanked Lin Chuyu sincerely.
"I heard that you and Lin Chujian parted on bad terms ?" Lin Chuyu didn't care much about the sincerity of my thanks, but instead asked a question that caught me off guard.
"Hmm?" I didn't quite understand what Lin Chuyu wanted to know.
"If you are completely disappointed with Lin Chujian, then you..." Lin Chuyu paused, as if he thought what he was going to say was something very interesting. He smiled playfully and continued, "Do you want to try to be with me?"
I was stunned and stood there, my mind went blank.
I imagined that when I came out of the meeting room, Lin Chuyu would scold me, punish me, ridicule me, or even ignore me. I thought of a hundred possibilities, but I could never imagine that he would actually confess his love to me.
Let's call this sudden statement a confession. My reaction time was very long and I didn't have time to respond.
Lin Chuyu added: "Perhaps, I will be more suitable for you than Lin Chujian."
"Manager Lin, you should just punish me directly! I will do whatever you say." I said in a panic, and suddenly realized that something was wrong, so I quickly added, "Except for me to believe or agree to what you just asked me."
"I have already told you my thoughts. I hope you can consider it seriously!" Lin Chuyu ignored the rejection in my words and left after saying this.
I was left standing there alone, confused like a clown who had been tricked.
Regarding Lin Chuyu, I don't have any dislike for him. On the contrary, I have some admiration for him in work. He is a person who is very strict with work and himself. He can always clearly distinguish between work and feelings and will not be burdened by feelings.
Sister Linda once said that once someone like Manager Lin truly falls in love with someone, he or she will love that person to the core.
I thought, that person is definitely not me.
Even though he has expressed this to me many times, and even though he has made it clear to me today, I still feel it is very unreal, because every time I look at Lin Chuyu, he always looks at me with a playful look, like a hunter looking at prey to be hunted, which makes me feel uneasy.
Despite this, I still told Yi Tian this shocking news. After hearing it, she directly asked me to find her at the Japanese restaurant we often went to on the pedestrian street.
When I arrived at the store, I found that not only Yi Tian was there, but Li Qiuyang was also there.
I felt very sorry for disturbing their date again, so I said, "I don't want to be a third wheel, let's talk next time," and turned around and wanted to leave.
Yi Tian held me tightly, not letting me leave, and pressed me down on the tatami cushion.
"Sister, have you eaten? Do you want me to order something?" Li Qiuyang handed me the menu. When there were no outsiders around, he always called me sister.
"No, I'm not hungry." I waved my hand to refuse.
"Li Ge, did your cold-faced boss really confess to you?" After I sat down, Yi Tian began to confirm with me.
Seeing me nod, she said earnestly: "In fact, you still have Lin Chujian in your heart, I know. But people always have to look forward, and can't always hold on to the past. Lin Chujian and Xu Yaxin are entangled, you should let it go and start your new life, right? Now that there is such a person, you may try to get along with him. If you are compatible, come. If not, then go."
Her serious expression is very much like my mother.
Speaking of my mother, we haven't been in touch for a long time. The last time we chatted on WeChat, she told me that she and her soul mate adopted a little girl. The girl is so cute and can already call me mommy.
"Of course not!" Li Qiuyang shouted excitedly, realizing that her tone was a bit bad, and explained, "Although I hate Lin Chujian, you also said that my sister has Lin Chujian in her heart. Since she still likes him, why should she go against her true feelings and be with another person? There is no way she can be happy that way."
"Is it happiness to always have Lin Chujian in your heart and forever indulge in a relationship that makes you sad?" Yi Tian retorted.
"That's better than being with someone you don't love and suffering each other. My sister doesn't have a boyfriend, so I can always be with her and protect her and won't let her be bullied. She doesn't have to force herself to start a new relationship just to forget someone, or pretend to be nice to someone she doesn't love." Li Qiuyang couldn't help but raise his voice again.
When he talks about me, he always gets more excited than usual.
I was about to open my mouth to persuade her, but Yi Tian shouted, "Do you mean that I deliberately made Li Ge unhappy?"
"That's not what I meant. I just hope she can follow her heart and no one should force her to do anything."
"Am I forcing Li Ge?" Yi Tian's tone softened, and she looked at Li Qiuyang with disbelief in her eyes, "Li Qiuyang, are you blaming me?"
When Li Qiuyang heard this, he lowered his head and said nothing.
"Why are you arguing for no reason? There's no need to quarrel over such a trivial matter as mine! Just say less and continue eating." I couldn't help but persuade them.
Yi Tian didn't listen to my words at all. She just looked at Li Qiuyang with a serious and questioning look, and asked him word by word: "Li Qiuyang, what kind of person am I in your heart?"
Seeing the atmosphere getting more and more tense, I pulled Li Qiuyang's clothes, wanting to ask him to talk properly and not let Yi Tian get angry. Who knew that Li Qiuyang, the young man, could not control his anger and shouted, "What kind of person are you in my heart? Yi Tian, ​​I didn't expect you to be so casual about love!"
When Yi Tian heard this, the expression on her face immediately fell.
I couldn't help but glare at Li Qiuyang: "Hey, Li Qiuyang, stop talking nonsense! Apologize to Yi Tian right now."
"Sister!" Li Qiuyang's tone softened as she faced me, "I can't accept her forcing you to like someone you have no feelings for at all."
Li Qiuyang seemed to have completely forgotten that Yi Tian was her girlfriend, and she completely stood on my side to question Yi Tian.
"Yi Tian is caring about me. Don't blame her without knowing right from wrong!" Seeing Yi Tian with a disappointed and sad face, I got a little anxious and growled at Li Qiuyang.
"I don't know the difference? I think you two are confused! Forget it, you guys eat, I have something to do and I'll leave first!" Li Qiuyang seemed to be really angry. He never lost his temper with me, but he retorted to me and then got up and left.
“Hey, Li Qiuyang!” I wanted to call him, but his figure quickly disappeared at the door. I cursed helplessly , “What a bastard!”
Turning around, I saw Yi Tian remained silent. Even after Li Qiuyang left, she didn't say a word. I quickly comforted her, "Yi Tian, ​​Li Qiuyang's words were just angry words. Don't take them to heart."
Yi Tian smiled bitterly and said, "Li Ge, Li Qiuyang's concern for you sometimes even makes me jealous."
"Yi Tian..." I didn't know what to say, so I just reached out and hugged Yi Tian.
Yi Tian gently pushed me away, took a deep breath, and showed me her usual carefree smile: "It's okay, I just didn't know that in his heart I was a person who treated love casually. Now I know, I understand!"
"Yi Tian, ​​Li Qiuyang speaks without thinking. He was so angry. He must care about your attitude. I will have a good talk with him." I couldn't help but explain a few words for Li Qiuyang.
Yi Tian shook her head, indicating that it was not necessary, and said that the matter between her and Li Qiuyang should be resolved by themselves. The more people involved in emotional matters, the more complicated it becomes.
Looking at Yi Tian's depressed look in love, I have to admit that fate is a cruel thing and it changes everyone without making a sound.
While Yi Tian and I were trapped in love, Zhou Yao and Lu Yan's love was going smoothly. Yi Tian joked that one of the three of us would always have a happy relationship, so it wouldn't be a complete failure. It was very comforting to think about it.
Zhou Yao didn't say much about Yi Tian's words, and her expression remained indifferent.
Yi Tian told me privately that she felt Zhou Yao had changed a lot, but she didn't quite understand what was going on. Thinking of my competition with Zhou Yao at work and her subsequent change in attitude, I could probably guess that it was because of work that alienated us, but when I told Yi Tian, ​​she couldn't understand it at all.
She said that she was probably happier than my parents to see my career flourish, because this way she could rely on me to make money to support her.
Yi Tian’s shameless look made me feel very sad.
But the things that bother me always outweigh the things that make me feel happy.
Ever since Lin Chuyu told me to try to be with him, he seemed like a different person. He started to treat me nicely, as if to tell the world that he was pursuing me.
I always thought that Lin Chuyu was a person who clearly distinguished between public and private affairs, but now it seems that I still don’t understand him.
The debate project is being urgently prepared. Although I had a conflict with Xu Yaxin because of the live band and was scolded by my leader, I still have to follow up on the subsequent work.
Now, almost every time I go to the recording site, Lin Chuyu will ask me to go with him in his car. Since it is a work-related matter, it is difficult for me to refuse. I can only avoid it if possible.
However, there are always times when it cannot be avoided. When Lin Chuyu and I got out of the car, I happened to run into Xu Yaxin who looked at me coldly.
"Hey, Li Ge, you have a special car to pick me up? That's awesome." That day, as usual, Lin Chuyu took me to the scene. As soon as I got out of the car, Xu Yaxin stopped me and started to mock me.
I always felt that she was obviously mocking me, but her eyes always intentionally or unintentionally drifted towards Lin Chuyu who had a cold expression on his face.
"This shows that our Manager Lin cares about his subordinates and doesn't want to let a busy me waste time on the road." I smiled and answered easily. Facing Xu Yaxin, I am no longer like a fighting cock, defending myself everywhere. I looked up at Lin Chuyu and said, "Manager Lin, you go back first. Thank you for sending me off today."
Lin Chuyu nodded and left without saying anything more.
In fact, there were already all kinds of rumors at the scene, and everyone was privately speculating about the relationship between Lin Chuyu and me, but due to face, they didn't bring it up to discuss it.
I think Xu Yaxin also knows this.
Mistresses are really strange creatures. They will use any means to snatch your lover, but after you have a new suitor, they still can't help being jealous and want to tear you apart a hundred times.
You've already received it, right? Why do you still act as if others owe you something?
These are things I will never understand.
Xu Yaxin's deliberate attempt to pick a fight with me certainly wouldn't end with a simple sarcasm.
After the program started recording, there was a part of the lyrics that she just couldn't pronounce smoothly. She called "cut" seven or eight times. The director didn't get annoyed yet, but Miss Xu did. She shouted on the stage: "Who wrote this line of lyrics? Can't you write it in a more readable way? Are you deliberately making it difficult for me by making it so difficult to pronounce?"
Of course, I didn't write the script, but the stack of manuscripts was thrown at my face, which was closest to Xu Yaxin. The touch was not light or heavy, but it was indeed extremely humiliating.
For a moment, the director and the crew were in chaos. They were afraid that I would rush up and slap Xu Yaxin twice, and then the two women would fight wildly.
I don't.
I calmly squatted down and picked up the manuscript page by page, handed it to the girl who wrote the script, and told her softly: "The host hopes that the script will be more colloquial. She won't understand if it's too difficult."
Only the two of us could hear this sentence. The girl looked at me with some gratitude and nodded.
I don't know what she was thanking me for? Was it because I got hit and she got rid of the disaster? Or was it simply because I smiled at her?
People's affection and hatred always come so inexplicably.
It's not that I don't want to argue with Xu Yaxin, nor do I want to make trouble with her, I just know that I can't. In this place, the investors are the sky, I can't break the sky, I can only endure it.
Sister Linda said, this is growing up, growing up with humiliation.
In the long life, people have to deal with some things they don’t want to face in order to survive. Only by staying calm can they move forward courageously.
Reality is cruel, but we can only face it with a smile.
I made it to the evening and finally finished today's recording.
As soon as I left the scene, I received a call from Yi Tian. She said that Lu Yan was planning to celebrate his 100-day relationship with Zhou Yao in a high-profile manner and would hold a big banquet in the evening. She asked us to attend as well, and it would be best if we could bring our partners.
When I heard that it was best to bring a companion, I almost spat out a mouthful of blood and yelled at the other end of the phone, "Get him out! A full man doesn't know the hunger of a hungry man, right?"
"I knew you would react like this." Yi Tian laughed so hard on the other end of the phone, "For you, I won't bring anyone with me anymore. I'll just be your companion reluctantly!"
"Come on, just take your Li Qiuyang with you. I don't need any company." Yi Tian and Li Qiuyang had just had a conflict, and it was a rare opportunity to reconcile. I didn't want to ruin their relationship because of me.
But Yi Tian still insisted, saying that she was not willing to compromise this time. Seeing Yi Tian so determined, I had no choice but to give up.
As for Lu Yan...
I don’t remember where I saw this sentence, but those who show off their love in a high-profile manner are often the ones who are most afraid of losing.
There is also a saying that the messages showing affection that are deleted when breaking up are all the water that entered your brain when you were in love.
I don’t know if Lu Yan will ever regret it, but this high-profile display of affection is indeed something that many girls can’t resist.
Not surprisingly, the wealthy Lu Yan booked the presidential suite of a luxury hotel in the city, which was filled with flowers and balloons, each of which had a "Yao" character printed on it.
When Yi Tian and I arrived, Lu Yan and Zhou Yao were already there, and there were a group of friends around us, all of whom we knew, but we didn't have much interaction. After we met, we simply said hello and then we sat next to Zhou Yao.
I didn't want to come originally, after all, I didn't know if I would meet Xu Yaxin and Lin Chujian. If I did, I was afraid that I would not be able to resist and beat up Xu Yaxin. But after Yi Tian knew that not only had I been slapped by Xu Yaxin before, but also had her throw my manuscript in public to humiliate me today, she strongly urged me to come, saying that it was just right to discuss with Zhou Yao how to deal with Xu Yaxin.
When she said this, I could hear Yi Tian gritting her teeth through the phone, but I didn't know whether Zhou Yao would be willing to cooperate with her actions now.
"Come on, Zhou Yao, in fact, today we are here not only to wish you well, but also to discuss with you how to deal with Xu Yaxin. Today, that stinky woman Xu Yaxin actually used the manuscript to smear Li Ge in public. She also slapped Li Ge in your office before. You should know about this, right?" Yi Tian just sat down and pulled Zhou Yao to mutter, "Li Ge is so patient. If I were there, I would definitely beat her to a pulp!"
"There's no way I'd make a scene with the investor's daughter in that situation!" I said, feeling both amused and helpless.
"I know you're thinking about the overall situation, but I don't care about that. If anyone bullies you, I will make her suffer! Don't you agree, Zhou Yao?" Yi Tian pulled Zhou Yao and continued, "They say three cobblers are better than one Zhuge Liang. I don't believe that the three of us can't come up with a good idea today."
Zhou Yao didn't say anything.
Yi Tian continued, "Do you think we should put something in her water? Or we can intercept her halfway, put a sack on her and beat her up."
"Sister, that's against the law," I said.
At that time, we always said that Zhou Yao was our good friend , but we didn’t notice that we often ignored the existence of this good friend.
I admit that we were wrong, but what was even more wrong was that we didn't realize it at the time.
"That's enough!" Zhou Yao, who always spoke softly, suddenly stopped Yi Tian loudly, and the whole audience was stunned. After she said that, she might feel a little embarrassed, and her voice lowered again, "Lu Yan is very happy today, and he is very thoughtful in organizing this celebration for me. I don't want to spoil his fun. Let's talk about Xu Yaxin's matter another day, okay? Have a drink first, you may be thirsty after talking for so long."
Yi Tian wanted to say something, but I pulled her back and stuffed a piece of fruit into her mouth.
But things did not go as planned. As soon as Lin Chujian mentioned the devil, he showed up at the door of the room with Xu Yaxin. As soon as Yi Tian glanced at Lu Yan, this guy looked cowardly.
"Oh, oh, we are all good friends. We must be there for such a happy day..." After saying that, Lu Yan walked to Lin Chujian and patted his shoulder vigorously.
Xu Yaxin on the side smiled sweetly. She leaned closer to Lin Chujian and handed Lu Yan a gift.
"Congratulations, I hope you and Zhou Yao will be as happy as I was when we first met."
As soon as Xu Yaxin finished speaking, Yi Tian couldn't help but make a vomiting expression.
After the two of them sat down, the noisy atmosphere in the room returned. I leaned on the sofa, not wanting to sing with the microphone, nor did I want to talk loudly with others and drink. I knew that Lin Chujian's eyes were on me, and I also knew that Xu Yaxin was staring at him.
I saw all of this, but I wanted to pretend that I knew nothing.
When the scene reached its most exciting stage, several of Lu Yan's close friends gathered around the screen and began to sing "Love Until Death" heart-wrenchingly. They were responsible for singing and we were responsible for laughing.
To be honest, I have never seen anyone who can sing this song normally, except Xin himself.
After playing all , Lu Yan sat next to me and said, "Hey, are you and Lin Chujian still so awkward?"
I glanced at him. Isn't this a question that you already know the answer to?
"Let me tell you, I really didn't mean to embarrass you two today, but this is an extremely important day for me. It would be unreasonable not to call Lin Chujian, and I didn't expect him to bring Xu Yaxin with him. I don't think he and Xu Yaxin will have a good relationship. I really think they will break up sooner or later. Although I don't know what's crazy about Lin Chujian being with her, I can guarantee that it's definitely not love." Lu Yan said with certainty.
"Come on, nothing they do now has anything to do with me..." I said and couldn't help but take a sip of wine.
Lu Yan looked at me and wanted to say something when he heard a scream from the side.
Xu Yaxin, wearing a white tight skirt, had beer dripping on her head. She screamed and angrily looked at Yi Tian, ​​the culprit.
Yi Tian showed a somewhat innocent expression: "I'm sorry, my hands were shaking accidentally, please forgive me, Miss."
At this time, Lin Chujian, who came in from outside the box with a bottle of mineral water, saw this scene and immediately cast his eyes on me.
Haha, I sneered. Before I even figured out what happened, I was already labeled the culprit.
"Brother Chujian, as soon as you left, Li Ge and the others teamed up to bully me..." Xu Yaxin's tears were dripping, she ran to Lin Chujian, pointing at me and Yi Tian and said.
Yi Tian quickly explained: "I really didn't mean it. I just wanted to pass by, but you wouldn't let me, so I accidentally spilled beer on your head. Besides, everyone has their own responsibility. This was my fault, what does it have to do with Li Ge?"
As she said that, Yi Tian quickly pushed Zhou Yao beside her, signaling her to help speak. I could see that Zhou Yao was very reluctant, but she couldn't resist Yi Tian's instigation, so she had to stand up and said with some embarrassment: "Xu Yaxin, your hair is wet, so go back, stop making trouble!"
"You told me to go back?" Xu Yaxin was so angry that her eyes widened when she saw Zhou Yao ordering them to leave. "Who do you think you are? It was you who teamed up to harm me, but now it's my fault?"
Perhaps Xu Yaxin's words hurt Zhou Yao, Lu Yan could no longer sit still, and immediately stood up and said, "Xu Yaxin, I set up today's game for Zhou Yao, she is my girlfriend, who do you think she is?"
Xu Yaxin didn't expect that just a few words from her would anger so many people, but she was used to being arrogant and could not stand such grievance. She started to make a big fuss and insisted that Lin Chujian vent her anger.
Lin Chujian had an annoyed expression on his face. He pulled Xu Yaxin and prepared to walk out.
But Xu Yaxin was unwilling to accept this and shouted, "I don't want to leave. Don't pull me. Let go. I want Li Ge to apologize..."
Lin Chujian's face became increasingly gloomy. Regardless of whether Xu Yaxin struggled or not, he dragged her out.
The atmosphere in the room became awkward. Yi Tian looked at me and stuck out her tongue. I knew she was trying to vent her anger for me, but after this incident, I felt extremely frustrated.
"Hey, let's continue playing...ignore them!" Lu Yan called on everyone to continue playing. Zhou Yao looked unhappy, but she also followed Lu Yan to play.
The farce seemed to have passed just like that, but I knew that although it was over on the surface, I couldn’t get over it in my heart.
But even if I knew it, I never imagined that we would take such a different path in the future.