The result of this bidding will not be announced until three days later, but almost everyone thinks that Lin Chujian has already won.
On the way back to the company, I said to Lin Chuyu: "Manager Lin, I have tried my best. I am sorry for failing your trust!"
Although Lin Chuyu's attitude towards me has always been strange, hot and cold, and confusing, I am still very grateful for his help in my work and the trust he gives me.
He had insisted on letting me handle this case at the meeting, and if I didn't get it this time, he would definitely be blamed by the big boss! I couldn't help but look at him with some worry.
Lin Chuyu smiled in an ambiguous way, then tilted his head and said to me, "The results haven't come out yet, why are you so anxious to admit defeat? Since I asked you to handle this case, I won't let it fail in your hands."
"What do you mean?"
I was surprised by Lin Chuyu's confidence. Judging from the situation on the scene today, there is almost no suspense that Lin Chujian's proposal will eventually stand out.
"It's nothing. Just wait patiently." Lin Chuyu looked determined.
My mind was full of questions, but seeing that Lin Chuyu didn't want to say more, I didn't dare to ask any more.
The situation at the proposal briefing was quickly spread throughout the company by gossipers. When I approached the company, many people looked at me with an expression that they were waiting to see me get into trouble. Even Sister Linda told me to fend for myself.
From everyone's reactions and thinking about Lin Chuyu's determination to win, my mind was in a mess. I didn't know what ability Lin Chuyu had to help me turn defeat into victory despite such an obvious disadvantage.
I spent three days in anxiety. When the Jialin bidding results came out, I arrived at the office early, hoping to know the results first.
When Sister Linda said that my proposal had passed the review of Jialin Company, I was so shocked that my mouth opened wide, and I rushed into Lin Chuyu's office without thinking.
"What did you do?" I knew clearly that my proposal was not as good as Lin Chujian's, but in the end, I was chosen. I could only ask Lin Chuyu who was not worried at all from beginning to end.
"Don't you need to knock when you come in?" Lin Chuyu did not answer my question.
"I'm sorry, Manager Lin, I was too impulsive. Just now, Sister Linda told me that my proposal was selected by Jialin. How is this possible..." I didn't care whether Lin Chuyu would be angry or not. I just wanted to ask all the questions in my heart.
"In the business world, everything is possible." Lin Chuyu sneered, "Li Ge, you are indeed very capable at work, and I admire you very much. But you are still too simplistic in doing business. To make a deal, it's not enough to just make something better than others."
"you mean……"
Just when I was about to continue asking questions, a dark shadow suddenly rushed in front of me.
With a snap, my left cheek began to hurt.
"Li Ge, you are so insidious! Chu Jian's proposal was obviously the best, but you secretly used tricks to make them choose your case!" A sharp and piercing voice sounded in front of me.
I was dizzy from the heavy slap just now. I stopped when I heard the harsh yet familiar voice. I looked carefully and found that it was indeed that bitch Xu Yaxin.
Standing next to her was Lin Chujian, who had a complicated expression on his face. He grabbed Xu Yaxin and stopped her from continuing to attack me.
"Xu Yaxin, what nonsense are you talking about!" I cared more about Xu Yaxin's words than the pain on my face. "You'd better tell me clearly, what tricks did I use?"
"Oh, you're really good at pretending!" Xu Yaxin shook off Lin Chujian's hand that was holding her, and said sarcastically, "I thought you were such an upright and principled person, but it turns out that you're just like that when it comes to interests. You don't have to pretend anymore, I've already found out everything. Jialin was originally going to choose Chujian's case, but you used dirty tricks to make them choose you!"
Lin Chuyu's office door was not closed, and the people working outside couldn't help but be curious and looked over at us. I didn't want to make a scene in the company, so I tried to suppress my emotions and said to Lin Chujian who was holding Xu Yaxin, "Lin Chujian, please pull Xu Yaxin back, don't bite people just because you can't afford to lose."
"Oh, I'm just biting people?" Xu Yaxin struggled and tried to rush towards me again. "When I called the person who knew the situation, Chu Jian also heard it. The other party insisted that you had a relationship with the other party's boss and that you had already been selected. The bidding was just a show!"
Hearing Xu Yaxin say this, I looked at Lin Chuyu in shock.
It must be him. No wonder he always looks so confident.
Lin Chuyu didn't seem to care that we made such a mess in his office. Instead, he sat in a chair and watched us like a spectator with a playful smile on his lips.
I don't know why Lin Chuyu insisted that I take the blame, but since it involves competition between companies, I can't explain much to Xu Yaxin and Lin Chujian. I can only look at Lin Chuyu for help, hoping that he can give some explanation.
But Lin Chuyu avoided my pleading gaze and remained silent.
"Hmph, you have nothing to say!" Xu Ya said smugly.
I looked at Lin Chujian beside her, holding a glimmer of hope in my heart, believing that he would not doubt me. You know, I have always hated the unfairness of the competition system and hated people who played tricks behind the scenes.
I thought that Lin Chujian, who had been with me for so long and had fought side by side with me in so many debate competitions, would understand me and believe in me.
However, Lin Chujian's next words shattered all my imaginations.
He said, "Li Ge, I really want to believe you, but the results speak for themselves."
"The result speaks for itself? Ha." I felt like my chest was stuffed with cotton and I couldn't breathe. I pinched my thigh with my hands to keep myself calm. I didn't want to cry in front of Xu Yaxin, so I turned around and left. Before I left, I said to Lin Chujian, "Lin Chujian, for the first time, I feel that our breakup is not a bad thing."
What I love you, what I believe in you, what I will never leave you, the vows made when we are in love are like sand sculptures in the face of reality, and cannot withstand the invasion and test of wind and rain.
After ending this farce, I forced myself to finish Jialin's plan.
While working on Jialin's planning proposal, I found an opportunity to ask Lin Chuyu what was going on.
Lin Chuyu said that in the business world, as long as the result is what you want, the process is not important at all. He also said that he didn't expect that the seemingly unbreakable relationship between Lin Chujian and me is just like this, and asked me if I would consider being with him.
I thought it was ridiculous and firmly rejected Lin Chuyu: "I don't know what happened between you brothers, but don't joke with my feelings."
Lin Chuyu gave me a very strange feeling. On the one hand, I admired him for his vigorous and decisive work. Although it was very hard to work with him, it was very helpful for my personal career growth. On the other hand, he was always hot and cold towards me. He often looked cold, but from time to time he would do something ambiguous and say something ambiguous. To be honest, I didn't hate him, but once I got close to him, I always felt very uneasy.
Under the double pressure of work and life, I fell seriously ill.
When I was in the hospital, I was groggy and had a very long dream. In the dream, I was wearing a white dress and running on the grass with Lin Chujian. I was always following behind him. Every time I was about to get close to him, I reached out to pull the corner of his clothes, wanting him to slow down and wait for me, because I could not run anymore.
He was so close, but even though I stretched my arms until they hurt, I still couldn't catch him.
When I woke up, it was evening.
When I just opened my eyes, I felt dizzy for a moment, and vaguely saw a person sitting in front of my bed. The setting sun was pouring in from the window, and the person in front of the bed was bathed in the setting sun, with a soft light emanating from his whole body.
"Lin..." I opened my mouth.
"Sister, are you awake?"
My voice and Li Qiuyang's voice rang out at the same time. I woke up instantly and swallowed the name that I hadn't said yet.
"Why are you here?" I remember Yi Tian was with me before I fell asleep.
"Yi Tian asked me to come over. She went to buy dinner and will be back soon." Li Qiuyang paused and said hesitantly, "Dad and mom also came to see you. When they saw that you were sleeping, they went back first and asked me to take good care of you and tell them anytime if there was anything."
"Oh." I don't know since when, whenever my family is mentioned, I become speechless.
Irresistible love and inescapable hatred, these two extreme emotions intertwined in my body, tightly encircling me. I could not break free and could only escape.
"How are you and Yi Tian doing recently? I heard from her that you are very busy and don't have much time to accompany her?" I didn't want to talk about family matters with Li Qiuyang, so I changed the subject.
Li Qiuyang smiled carefreely and said, "We are doing fine. We are a little busy recently because we are rehearsing a new song. Yi Tian is quite independent and doesn't like to cling to people, so you don't have to worry about us!"
Seeing Li Qiuyang's indifferent expression, I couldn't help but warn him, "Hey, don't take Yi Tian's tolerance for granted! Which girlfriend doesn't want her boyfriend to spend more time with her? I warn you, you must keep Yi Tian at the top of your heart. If you make her sad, I will not forgive you."
"Okay, sister, I get it!" Li Qiuyang answered coquettishly.
Whenever I see Li Qiuyang acting like a little boy in front of me, acting like a spoiled child, or being childishly impulsive, I can't help but sigh at the wonder of blood ties. In front of outsiders, even in Yi Tian's eyes, he is a cool, individual, cynical rock youth, but when he is in front of me, he seems to take off that layer of self-protection armor, revealing his soft spot that he doesn't show to others easily.
Li Qiuyang, like a kid asking for candy, talked to me about some interesting things that happened during his performance. Although I didn't say much, I was attracted by his vivid description.
Li Qiuyang and I didn't notice Yi Tian who had already bought dinner and came back.
It wasn't until the nurse came in to give me the injection that I realized Yi Tian had returned. I couldn't help but ask, "Yitian, when did you come back? Why didn't you say anything?"
Yi Tian smiled and said angrily, "It's not that I didn't say anything, it's that one of you was so engrossed in talking and the other was so engrossed in listening that you couldn't hear my voice."
As she spoke, she walked in, put the lunch box on the cabinet next to me, and said to Li Qiuyang jokingly: "Li Qiuyang, we have been together for such a long time, and I didn't realize that you are so talkative!"
Although Yi Tian's tone was relaxed, I could clearly see the loneliness in her eyes.
Seeing Yi Tian's lonely eyes, I felt distressed. Ever since my family changed and I broke up with Lin Chujian, I have been immersed in my own painful emotions, and never realized that Yi Tian, ​​who has been by my side from beginning to end, is not as happy as I thought.
As for her relationship with Li Qiuyang, I have always just listened to Yi Tian's unilateral expression of her love, her happiness, and her recklessness, but I never seemed to be sure of Li Qiuyang's feelings for her.
I decided to have a good talk with Li Qiuyang after I was discharged from the hospital.
But Lin Chuyu didn't give me time to deal with my personal affairs. As soon as I walked out of the hospital, his car had already stopped at the hospital gate and waved to me: "You have rested for so many days, and you seem to be in good spirits. Let's go to work now!"
I wanted to refuse, but Lin Chuyu didn't give me any time to say no. He got out of the car, pulled me up and stuffed me into the passenger seat, then got back in and drove away. Yi Tian and Li Qiuyang, who stayed to pick me up, stood at the hospital entrance and looked at each other.
Damn Zhou Paopi! I cursed in my heart.
"The other company is in a hurry to get the project you were following up on. I asked Zhou Yao to handle it."
Lin Chuyu's first words surprised me. Didn't he always look down on Zhou Yao? Why did he let Zhou Yao take over my job?
Perhaps the puzzled expression on my face was too obvious, Lin Chuyu glanced at me and answered directly: "Don't you believe in your friend's ability? She is much better than you outside of work!"
I couldn't bear to hear Lin Chuyu's sarcasm about Zhou Yao: "It's you who don't trust your subordinates' abilities, not me. Also, you can question your subordinates' work abilities, but you have no right to comment on her abilities outside of work, right?"
"Haha, Li Ge, you're really interesting when you're serious. I'm becoming more and more interested in you." Lin Chuyu had a smile on his face, and his tone was uncharacteristically frivolous.
But before I could get angry, he immediately put on a businesslike expression and said, "Go to the company and find Linda directly. She has an urgent project on hand and needs your assistance."
"Oh." I didn't want to vent my anger and didn't want to say more.
Lin Chuyu didn't care about my attitude, and continued: "This emergency project is actually related to your previous planning of the college debate. The program received a good response, so Linda and her team made another debate program. You have a lot of experience in debate competitions in your resume, so Linda asked me to transfer you over to help. But..."
When I heard Lin Chuyu's drawn out words, my heart skipped a beat.
Sure enough, Lin Chuyu's next words confirmed my guess: "Because the last show cooperation was very successful, this time this show is cooperating with Xu Yaxin's company. Lin Chujian will participate in the production, and the host of the show is Xu Yaxin."
Are there only two companies in the media industry, Orange Media and Xu Yaxin's? Why do I always run into them? I couldn't help but sigh, did I destroy the Milky Way in my previous life, so God always plays tricks on me in this life ?
But no matter how unwilling I was, as soon as I arrived at the company, Sister Linda enthusiastically pulled me over and didn't give me any chance to struggle and refuse.
When Linda was discussing the program planning and process with me, Zhou Yao walked by us several times. I wanted to stop her and ask about her recent situation, but she simply told me that she was too busy recently and had no time to visit me in the hospital, and then she went back to work. Later, Linda told me that the company was saying that Zhou Yao had a boyfriend with a very powerful family background, and she helped Zhou Yao with all kinds of resources, so Zhou Yao got a lot of good projects during this period, many of which were directly pointed out by the top, and Lin Chuyu couldn't object to it. It seems that she also submitted an application for regularization, and it will be successfully regularized if nothing unexpected happens.
I know that the boyfriend Sister Linda was talking about is Lu Yan. Although I don't agree with Lu Yan's irrational behavior of being overwhelmed by emotions, I am still very happy for Zhou Yao when I see her becoming confident and capable.
It's not always the case that emotions overwhelm reason. There are always times when reason needs to prevail, such as now, Lin Chujian and I are sitting in the same space, discussing work matters. Neither of us has slacked off because of past emotional entanglements, and there has not been any communication outside of work.
All the reluctance between us seemed to have disappeared on the day Xu Yaxin slapped me.
This is good, because we can devote ourselves to work without distractions , and the efficiency will be much higher. There are many things to discuss for the program. It took two days for both parties to finally finalize the specific operations of each link. On the last day, when discussing the live music and warm-up band, Lin Chujian suggested to decide by selection, which was just the right opportunity to promote the program.
I had no objection, and at the end I remembered that Yi Tian had mentioned to me before that Li Qiuyang's band was actually pretty good, but it just lacked a bigger exposure platform. So I called Yi Tian and asked her to notify Li Qiuyang to sign up for our audition.
I don't know why, even though I have accepted Li Qiuyang in my heart, I am still not used to contacting him directly. Usually, when there is something about him, the first person I think of is Yi Tian. Once, Li Qiuyang asked me if I didn't save his number, and he even called me in person to check if his name was on the caller ID.
When Yi Tian saw Li Qiuyang's serious look, she complained that if she didn't know the true relationship between Li Qiuyang and me, she would definitely misunderstand. It seemed that Li Qiuyang's sister complex was too serious.
At that time, I just regarded Yi Tian's words as a joke. It was not until a long time later that I recalled what had happened before. Yi Tian was really a little disappointed about Li Qiuyang's attitude.
On the day of the auditions, there were many young fans outside the recording venue, each holding cheering peripherals in their hands, shouting slogans in unison and loudly, until they were hoarse.
In addition to Li Qiuyang, there are three other members in the Crow band that Li Qiuyang belongs to, namely the keyboardist, the drummer and the bassist. Without exception, these three people all have shoulder-length hair, tall and thin figures, and pretty looks. If you don't pay close attention, you might think they are three pretty girls.
As an underground band, The Crows are still somewhat famous in the circle, and most of the fans outside come for them.
Before going on stage, Li Qiuyang found me.
I reminded him to behave well and not miss the opportunity, and also not to mention my relationship with him to others. I didn't want to give others an excuse to accuse me of abusing my power for personal gain, nor did I want his grades to be affected because of me.
"Don't worry!" Li Qiuyang winked at me, "I absolutely support your career and I guarantee that nothing will go wrong."
I showed a satisfied expression: "It's better, otherwise you will suffer."
"Yes, sir!" Li Qiuyang shook the guitar in his hand with a smile on his face, like a child eager to show off in front of adults.
I didn't have time to say hello to him. I turned around and prepared to leave. He grabbed me and asked, "Where are you going?"
"I'm busy!"
"No matter how busy you are, please give me some face and listen to me finish singing the song for the competition!" said Li Qiuyang.
Thinking about Yi Tian saying that she couldn't come to cheer for Li Qiuyang today because of something important at home, and asked me to cheer for Li Qiuyang on her behalf. In order to fulfill my mission, I nodded and signaled Li Qiuyang to hurry up and prepare for the competition.
Li Qiuyang happily took the band members to the shooting area to adjust the instruments. Looking at his serious look under the lights, I had a feeling I had never had before.
The fact that he is my brother doesn't seem as annoying as before.
Li Qiuyang and his team were indeed very talented and they made it to the end of the selection round. Everyone liked their songs and stage performance very much.
Seeing Li Qiuyang's excellent performance, I actually felt a little proud. I don't know when it started, but I have already recognized Li Qiuyang as my younger brother.
I originally thought that it was a sure thing that the Crow Band would be the live soundtrack and warm-up band, but who knew that Xu Yaxin got in the way when the contract was signed.
Anyway, as long as it’s related to me, Xu Yaxin wouldn’t be herself unless she made some noise.
"Although the Crows band sings well, I suspect that some of the staff members are abusing their power for personal gain, which is unfair to other bands. So I suggest that the Crows band be disqualified and the next substitute be signed."
What a far-fetched reason, but Xu Yaxin could say it out with confidence, and although she didn't mention anyone by name, her eyes were already staring at me.
"Xu Yaxin, can you please not involve work in our grievances? Besides, you are just the host of this show, and it seems that you don't have the right to decide which band we use." I retorted to her with a sullen face.
"I'm sorry, I'm not only the host but also an investor, so I'm certainly qualified to give suggestions." She glanced at the person in charge this time and said, "Also, Li Ge, why are you so excited? Did I name you as the person who abused his power for personal gain? It seems that there are indeed some circumstances here that we don't know about."
The person in charge immediately stepped forward and agreed, "Yes, yes, we absolutely do not allow abuse of power for personal gain."
These days, whoever has money really is the boss.
"I didn't use my position for personal gain. The lead singer of the Crow band is someone I know, but I just told him that there was such a competition and asked him to participate if he was interested." I didn't plan to argue with Xu Yaxin. Instead, I looked at the person in charge and argued with him, "Their strength is obvious to all, and their fan base is not bad. They meet our requirements."
"I just don't understand, Li Ge, who is this Li Qiuyang to you that you need to protect him so much? Don't forget, he is your best friend's boyfriend. You two are so close, does Yi Tian know? Or are you two so close that you can share a boyfriend?" Xu Yaxin smiled ambiguously, looking extremely proud.
Li Qiuyang, who had come to sign the contract happily, had never expected such a situation to happen. He had long been unable to suppress his temper, and finally couldn't help but burst out when he heard this: "What nonsense are you talking about!"
Xu Yaxin was used to being arrogant, and was not afraid. She stiffened her neck and cursed at Li Qiuyang: "What can you do to me if I talk nonsense? What's more, I haven't said anything nonsense. What are you doing? Are you going to hit me? Come on! I'll make you pay for it!"
As she spoke, Xu Yaxin threw the script in her hand fiercely at Li Qiuyang.
Li Qiuyang was completely enraged. He pulled me behind him to protect me and rushed towards Xu Yaxin.
"What are you doing?" Lin Chujian, who had just arrived, stood in front of Xu Yaxin and stopped Li Qiuyang in time, "Li Qiuyang, don't forget that you are Yi Tian's boyfriend! Every time you get involved with Li Ge like this, you cause trouble for many people!"
"So what if I'm Yi Tian's boyfriend? Li Ge and I..." Our relationship was about to be revealed by Li Qiuyang.
"Enough!" I shouted at Li Qiuyang to stop him from telling me our true relationship.
Since Lin Chujian no longer believes me, why should I tell everyone about my family affairs and make it a topic of conversation for everyone, giving Xu Yaxin more material to ridicule me?
I held onto Li Qiuyang, walked forward, and asked in a voice that only Lin Chujian and I could hear: "In your eyes, am I so unbearable that I would get entangled with my best friend's boyfriend?"
Lin Chujian didn't say anything.
We once made a promise to each other, but now we are heartbroken. Perhaps this is the only way I can learn to give up. Sometimes I really feel like a loser. Every time I say I have given up completely, there is always a glimmer of fantasy in my heart, waiting to be ruthlessly broken next time.
In my relationship with Lin Chujian, I never seem to learn from my mistakes.
This relationship is like a game of chess between Lin Chujian and me, and Xu Yaxin is the third party who is watching and talking. He believed the third party and took this step. I have no right to criticize whether he made the right move or not, because I have also taken another step.
I lost again and again, but I didn't know how long I could keep going. Or would I have to become like a crazy gambler and cripple my hands before I could quit?
I pulled Li Qiuyang away under Lin Chujian's sad and troubled gaze. I didn't know what he was thinking, and I didn't want to know.
After walking out of the door, the other band members left one by one, only Li Qiuyang followed behind me, without saying a word, just following me.
Thinking of Lin Chujian's distrustful eyes, my heart felt like it was being stabbed by needles . The pain was unbearable. Finally, I didn't have the strength to go on, so I sat down by a lake.
The lake was calm and the surface was shimmering. There was a family of three and a couple rowing paid swan boats. Their laughter was loud and when it reached my ears, I felt even more desolate.
Tears fell one by one, sliding across my face and sinking into the grass. Lin Chujian once said that life is short, and what he tried to do was to prevent me from being sad and crying, and to give me happiness.
Happiness is a simple word, yet it is so difficult to achieve.
I love Lin Chujian so much. I have said thousands of decisive words in my heart and built thousands of barriers, but when I see him, I always collapse.
Thinking of this, my tears welled up.
Li Qiuyang accompanied me silently without saying a word. We were very close to each other and I could hear the buzzing sound of his cell phone in his pocket.
I said, "If you are busy, go ahead!"
He took out his phone and turned it off: "I'm not busy. No one is more important than you."
I really wanted to say thank you to him again, but I felt that there was no need for such pretentiousness between family members, so I swallowed the words back silently.
After I went back that day, I realized that it was Yi Tian who had been calling Li Qiuyang by the lake. When Yi Tian knew that Li Qiuyang had been with me, she couldn't hide her disappointment on her face.
I apologized to Yi Tian and said that I always affected her date with Li Qiuyang.
Yi Tian smiled and said that she was very happy that I had a brother who cared about me, and she was not unhappy because of this. What made her unhappy was that she and Li Qiuyang seemed to have been giving one-sidedly all along, and she had no idea whether Li Qiuyang really loved her.
I hugged Yi Tian and said confidently, "Although Li Qiuyang and I haven't been together for a long time, I am sure that if Li Qiuyang doesn't love that person, he will definitely not be with that person. He is a person who takes relationships very seriously."
My words comforted Yi Tian a little, but I knew that to make her truly happy and at ease, she still had to rely on Li Qiuyang.
Yi Tian's emotions are fickle, and mine are also scarred.
Because I was doing a debate show this time, I dug out all the debate scripts from previous competitions, hoping to find something useful as material for the show. Who knew that when I opened those debate scripts, I found that they were full of key points that Lin Chujian and I had highlighted for each other, as well as some cute illustrations of mutual encouragement.
These words and paintings brought my thoughts back to the past.
The first time I participated in a debate, Lin Chujian was my opponent, and we were at loggerheads. I even thought that if he wasn't a boy, he might have started a fight with me.
On our first date, he and I walked one after the other. Finally, I stood next to him, put my arm around his, looked up at a 45-degree angle, and took a photo with my phone.
The first time I was upset because of Xu Ya, he gave me a big bouquet of flowers and asked for reconciliation.
first ……
There were too many firsts between us, and many of them became the last times.
I still remember the party where Lu Yan confessed his love to Zhou Yao not long ago.
During the break of the party, Lu Yan told me that since the first year of freshman year when he saw Lin Chujian and I noisily falling in love, he had determined that we would be together for life. At that time, only my phone call could make Lin Chujian rush to me regardless of anything else.
He also said that the whole dormitory knew that Lin Chujian's phone always had my photo as the screen saver, and when he mentioned me to others, it was as if stars were in his eyes. Everyone laughed at him for being a girlfriend dog, but he didn't care, saying that as long as he could be with Li Ge, he would be willing to do anything.
Recalling Lu Yan’s words and thinking of Lin Chujian’s face, my heart ached.
Everyone has had moments in their youth when they were willing to do anything for love, but how many of these crazy loves eventually came to fruition?
When I first met Lin, I could probably say that what is lost is the most beautiful.
Many years later, when I think of today again, I might smile, laughing at my former naivety and my former self-righteousness.
There is no such thing as a feeling that you cannot let go of. The reason you haven't let go is simply because you haven't met the person who is capable of letting you let go.
Maybe by that time I would have met the person who could let me let go and live a happy life, and when I thought of Lin Chujian again, it would be nothing more than a first love that was terminally ill.
But now I can’t remain calm and indifferent.
What I didn’t know was that at this moment in Lin Chujian’s room , Lin Chujian was also holding a pile of debate manuscripts like mine and missing me.
It was much later that I realized that he had always wanted to protect my smile, but I didn't know why we were drifting further and further apart.
So far away that we can no longer remember why we were separated...