Chapter 6: If you are too gentle, it will shake my determination 2
Then, he turned his head and cleverly changed the subject, his voice full of warmth: "Yingning, after these hundred days, don't linger in the human world anymore, because it's very difficult for you to stay in this body now."
Even though I knew that what he was saying now was not what he said just now when he covered my ears, I still felt hurt.
Do I really have no status in his heart?
I put on a smile, but perhaps I was forcing myself too much and tears began to fall.
"Well... I will abide by the agreement between you and me." This feeling of grievance made me feel a little breathless.
Why do I feel so hurt? This was what we agreed upon.
I am still wondering if he will like me?
Perhaps it was because my tears carried too much, my vision became increasingly blurred. The Ferris wheel began to slowly descend, and I mechanically followed An Lengxi out.
He took my hand and brought me to the cafe in the rest area of the amusement park, where we sat down face to face.
"Yingning, you've gone too far. You've caused me to be touched all over." Just then, Shang Yi's voice came from behind us.
I turned around and looked at him with some guilt. Bai Shanshan and Luo Yun, who were walking beside him, had the same look on their faces.
"Aren't you putting women before friendship?" Luo Yun asked with his arms folded across his chest, looking aggressive.
It seems difficult to deal with! I looked at Shang Yi pitifully and said, "I'm sorry, please don't be angry, okay?"
Shang Yi turned his face away and sat down on the seat next to An Lengxi. An Lengxi sneered and said, "Isn't it your usual style to show off your charm?"
"What did you say?" Shang Yi jumped up like a cat whose tail was stepped on, then he thought of something and sat down calmly, "It's better than some cowards who keep a lot of things in their hearts and dare not say them."
"Yes, I'm a coward." An Lengxi did not refute him, but instead looked like he was surrendering.
What is he referring to? Why don't I understand?
"It was a close call. I thought I was going to be squeezed into a meat patty!" Bai Shanshan seemed to have come to her senses, with a look of fear on her face.
"It's my fault, don't be angry." I apologized guiltily.
"We don't mean to blame you. We are so happy to be able to squeeze together with Shang Yi. Just now Shang Yi was pulling us to run together!" Bai Shanshan looked obsessed and intoxicated. It seemed that my worries were unnecessary.
"Where are we going to play next?" Although Shang Yi was a little angry, he still looked the same as usual.
“Haunted houses are more fun.”
"Okay, okay! If I'm scared, you can hug Shang Yi!"
"What a good idea! We decided to go to the haunted house..."
This day was really tiring. On the way home, An Lengxi stayed with me all the time, but when we reached the turning, I let him go back first.
There was only a short distance left and I wanted to walk it alone.
At dusk, the clouds in the sky look particularly gorgeous, like a bride's fiery red wedding dress.
A figure suddenly appeared in my sight. This principal was really elusive. Although he was just standing there quietly, I felt that the surroundings were strangely cold.
"What's wrong?" I asked calmly.
"The sunset is beautiful." His inexplicable words broke my original calmness, and I didn't know how to respond.
"I guess so!" I responded after I calmed down after a while.
"But you can't see these in hell." This sentence should be directed at the topic.
I looked up at the sky and said very seriously, "Maybe!"
"Are you willing to go to hell for An Lengxi?" He looked down at me, the light in his eyes was so sharp that it was impossible to avoid.
I smoothed my hair to hide my other feelings and said, "As long as he wants, I will go with him even to Pluto."
But An Lengxi never liked me, so why would he let me accompany him? Then why was he with me? Maybe it was out of sympathy, after all, I had died once.
Maybe I should do more bad things so that I can see him in hell. Even though he doesn't like me, at least I can see him.
Instantly, a thought flashed through my mind. Why did I think like this? When did I become so persistent? I only wanted to have a relationship before, but when did I start to consider more and more things? The only explanation is that I had deepened my feelings for him without realizing it.
It really is God’s will!
I said I didn't need him to like me, and that I just wanted a memory. It was all lies. I was deceiving myself.
My wandering thoughts were pulled back by the principal's somewhat cold voice: "Bei Yingning, if you want to be with An Lengxi, you must endure many tests and tribulations. In the end, you may regret it!" His words seemed to remind me, but more of a warning.
"Don't worry, I can handle everything myself." Even if it's just self-deception, let's continue like this for the time being.
The next day, as soon as I walked into the classroom, I heard some noise coming from the radio in the corridor, and then a clear and loud voice began to announce a piece of news -
"The following is the announcement from the Student Union. The travel for this semester has been moved forward and the location has also changed. The first grade will go to the Ocean Park, the second grade will go to Queshan Forest Park, and the third grade will go to the museum. All students are requested to gather at the school gate at 7:30 tomorrow morning..."
As soon as the broadcast ended, the classroom suddenly became lively.
There were all kinds of discussions. Some people had smiles on their faces, while others were groaning as if they were itchy somewhere.
"I want to go to Ocean Park too!" said a classmate dissatisfiedly.
Senior Jin Yubin beside me said helplessly: "Queshan? You don't want us to climb the mountain?"
Hearing his words, I couldn't help but feel a little worried. With my physical strength, can I keep up with everyone?
In just ten seconds, Senior Jin Yubin changed his attitude again, and said with a happy expression, "It's better than going to the museum anyway."
I would like to go to a museum, which is quiet and full of literary atmosphere, at least there is nothing to worry about. Or if it rains now, I don’t have to go tomorrow.
Just as I thought of this, in the blink of an eye, the sky was covered with dark clouds, followed by bursts of thunder, and soon it started to rain heavily.
I stood up and looked outside in surprise. It was just a thought, could it really come true?
"What's going on? Why is it raining suddenly?"
"No, I don't have an umbrella."
The complaints of my classmates around me made me feel very sorry, but I didn’t bring an umbrella today, so how could I get back?
I thought the rain would stop after a while, but it didn't stop even after school.
I sat quietly in my seat in a daze. An Lengxi was the same as me, sitting aside, thinking about something. Maybe he was waiting for the rain to stop.
"Yingning, don't you have an umbrella? Do you want to walk with me in the rain holding an umbrella?" The voice was so affectionate that it made me feel uneasy.
I raised my head and looked at Shang Yi who was standing at the door and flirting with me.
"Wow, it's Shang Yi!"
When the girls who had not left yet saw him, they quickly stuck to him like bees seeing flowers.
I lowered my head and pretended not to see it, but at this time, a tall girl walked up to An Lengxi.
Luo Yushuang?
"Um... I brought an umbrella. Do you want to go home with me?" Her tone was a little awkward and timid, and her flushed cheeks were like freshly picked red apples, which was really unpleasant.
"No need." An Lengxi said lightly.
"Then I'll give you my umbrella, I..." Luo Yushuang said with a reluctant tone.
I couldn't stand it anymore, so I picked up my schoolbag and walked to Shang Yi who was standing at the door. I reached out and took the umbrella from his hand, leaned over to his ear and said, "If it's a devil, you won't catch a cold even if it gets caught in the rain, right?" After that, I took the umbrella and left.
However, it shouldn’t matter even if I don’t hold an umbrella.
Walking in the rain alone, listening to the sound of rain, seems to have a different mood, but my heart is a mess. Maybe I should get caught in the rain to sober myself up.
"Yingning!" A familiar voice came from behind. I turned my head and saw An Lengxi running towards me in the rain. His hair was completely wet and his clothes were sticking to his body.
"Why did you come out in the rain?" That's what he said, but I was very happy that he came out to see me.
An Lengxi looked at me without saying anything. I wiped the rain off his face with my sleeve and said, "My parents are not at home today, so you can visit my house."
When we got home, I handed him a towel and said with concern: "Your clothes are all wet, why don't you take a shower and change your clothes?"
"No, it's okay." He replied calmly.
I thought about it and it was true. After all, he was not a human being, so fever and coughing had nothing to do with him.
I turned back to the kitchen and heated a cup of milk for him.
"That's very considerate, but..." An Lengxi looked at the milk in my hand, looking a little hesitant.
But what? Anyway, I knew what he was going to say next would make me uncomfortable.
"It's a bit redundant..."
"Well, I'm so sorry." I looked away and said angrily.
Because of you, I am like this, do you understand? At least only when facing you, my gentleness will bring a sense of happiness.
"That's not what I meant." An Lengxi realized that I was angry and stood up. "It's just that if you are too gentle, it will shake my determination."
"What?" I didn't quite understand. "I don't know what you are thinking, but forget it!" Being angry won't help, and I don't want to be angry with him at all. Who made me like him?
I puffed up my cheeks helplessly, still thinking, when I looked up I saw An Lengxi standing in front of me, reaching out and hugging me tightly.
"Yingning, in my heart, you are the most beautiful."
The words ringing in my ears made me blush and my heart beat fast, but I really didn’t understand why he suddenly said these.
"But you are my fate." I said jokingly.
He pushed me away, put his hands on my shoulders, looked confused, and asked, "What do you mean?"
"What do you think? They say that it only takes a thin layer of gauze for a girl to pursue a boy, but I feel that it takes thousands of mountains and rivers for me to pursue you." I replied.
At this time, An Lengxi's hand left my shoulder, and he said with melancholy: "If only it were thousands of mountains and rivers."
I felt like I said something wrong.
"Don't mind what I said, go to bed early today! I have activities tomorrow, I'm leaving first!" An Lengxi said, and kissed me on the forehead. I didn't feel happy, I always felt that he was trying to hide something.
