Chapter 55 We should go get a room. Silly boy, you've always liked it...

The park is just a few hundred meters downstairs from home, but Li Le was too happy and ran to the farthest point on the diagonal.

So the way home was lucky enough to take longer. The two of them took a walk and walked slowly towards home.

The sun was warm, and the winter wind was blowing on people, but it was not too cold.

Xu Shen held one of them and hugged another.

The younger one was tired from running, and he rested his head on his shoulder, blinking and falling asleep.

The older one leaned on his shoulder, holding him, lowering his head, and I don't know what he was thinking.

Xu Shen: "Everything will pass, Li Su."

Li Su nodded and didn't say anything. The two of them walked back to the alley downstairs in silence.

"Beep--" The familiar sound of locking the car sounded not far away, and Li Su raised his head vigilantly.

Li Yan held the key in one hand and turned his head after confirming that the car door was locked.

When he raised his eyes, he was stunned by the three people who came into his sight.

He saw Li Su holding the arm of a tall man, and Li Le was in the man's arms.

Boyfriend? Why didn't he hear Li Su say that?

Li Yan weighed the key in his left and right hands, and finally put it in his coat pocket and walked forward slowly.

Li Su was very nervous. When Li Yan was almost in front of him, he calmed down and pulled his hand back from Xu Shen's arm in fear.

"Dad." Li Su's voice was thin and buzzing, guilty and afraid.

Li Yan also noticed Li Su's emotional uneasiness. He patted Li Su's arm lightly, half to comfort and half to thank, and replied with an apologetic tone: "Dad is done with work, Li Le is not easy to take care of, right? You've worked hard."

Li Yan always maintained a kind smile. He was not tall, only 1.7 meters tall, so he had to look up to see Xu Shen clearly.

Under the baseball cap, the familiar facial features of the man made Li Yan stunned again.

He had a new understanding of Li Su's nervousness.

After a quick glance at Li Su, Li Yan still had a gentle and peaceful smile on his face, and said politely: "Young man, thank you too, you've worked hard."

Li Yan reached out his hand, took Li Le from Xu Shen's arms, and hugged her to his shoulders.

Li Le was woken up and hummed a few times. Li Yan patted her back and comforted her: "Le Le, it's Daddy."

Li Le recognized that it was Li Yan's voice. She rubbed her eyes and took a look. After confirming, she obediently circled Li Yan's neck and went back to sleep.

Li Su was stiff, not knowing what to do for a while.

Li Yan was also calm. He glanced at the two of them, without any special instructions, and with the same smile, he turned around and naturally carried Li Le home.

After walking a distance, Li Le opened her eyes in a daze. She saw that Li Su was still standing there with Xu Shen. She shouted: "Sister, we're home."

"Ah!" Li Su came to her senses and ran after Li Yan, not daring to look back.

A gust of cold wind blew in the corridor, blowing all over Li Su.

Li Yan walked slowly, and Li Su followed him, moving up step by step.

"Dad——" Li Su finally spoke and called him.

"Yeah." Li Yan responded gently. He looked back at Li Su, as if he was joking with her, and said cheerfully as usual: "Your classmate has grown up, more handsome and taller than before, very good."

Li Su's heart was like a crushed potato chip, making a cracking sound. She was actually somewhat certain in her heart, but she couldn't believe Li Yan's tone. She couldn't help asking: "Do you still remember him?"

"I remember." Li Yan's eyebrows didn't change much. He started to take out the key and prepared to open the door. "Is he still the first place now?"

"Yes." Li Su took the key from Li Yan's hand, his fingertips trembled, and he couldn't grasp the key to the door for a long time.

Li Yan saw everything. He looked at Li Su with heartache and held back his sigh.

"It was a good thing that he came to give you study notes during the winter vacation that year. Dad never blamed him. When you go down to get the notes, remember to greet people and respond gently to others' kindness to you. This is polite, and Dad never thinks you did anything wrong."

"If you must accuse someone of something wrong, then blame this era for not being open-minded enough. Otherwise, you don't have to discriminate against people based on gender. You can invite Xu Shen to your home. He gave you notes, and you asked him to go to your home for a meal. What's the problem?"

Gender discrimination. The teasing between Li Su and Li Yan on the hill that year once again rang in her ears.

Li Su knew that her father was joking with her. Li Su also knew that her father really didn't blame them.

Li Su's tears fell down in an instant. She quickly raised her head to look at the door, sniffed, and tried to hide her strangeness.

Li Yan knew that Li Su was crying. He looked at Li Su's back, and his heart couldn't help but feel sour.

Over the years, no one has ever mentioned the past.

Afraid of asking will restart the hurt, but not asking seems to be able to do it.

Li Yan took a deep breath. As a father and a role model for his children, he must face life, give his attitude, and give the guidance he should.

Li Yan said sincerely: "I thought you would never talk to or meet your classmate again in this life. Li Su, whether you believe it or not, I am happy for you to see you two playing together again."

Dad, it turns out that you still feel sorry for me.

Dad, it turns out that you still support me.

Dad, thank you. Dad.

The question that I didn't dare to ask that year was answered 6 years later.

Li Su raised her sleeves and wiped her tears over and over again. She choked, cried helplessly, and laughed bitterly.

Her father's understanding and support made Li Su feel like she was back in her childhood.

She couldn't help but confide in her father again: "For a long time, I made this decision. It was Xu Shen who scolded me, which made me slowly wake up and realize that I shouldn't have trapped myself in hell for the rest of my life."

"Dad, I have to escape from that accident and live a good life. I'm sorry."

Li Su broke down and cried out. She raised her sleeves to cover her face, trying to cover her voice with the soil of time.

She thought of Li Ying's face again. She remembered that Li Ying loved to smile at her, hug her, and kiss her cheek.

Sister. I'm sorry, sister has to move on.

Sister, I'm sorry. Sister wants to be a happy person.

"You did the right thing, Li Su," Li Yan's tone was calm and firm. He gently approved: "Reconciling with Xu Shen is the process of forgiving yourself. You did it, which is good."

Li Su pursed her lips in grievance, as if facing the wall to reflect on her mistakes. She didn't dare to look back at the pair of eyes that loved her, and could only stare at the cat's eye on the door.

"I have fought against myself countless times, but always failed. But Xu Shen has always been very determined, and I can't push him away no matter how hard I try."

"I am not good to Xu Shen either. I don't want him to follow me. Sometimes, I want to die with him. Sometimes, I hope he can be happy. Dad, I seem to like him very much."

The childish words only brought back some of the former innocence and sunshine.

A smile appeared on the corner of Li Yan's mouth. He raised his hand, touched Li Su's hair, and told her: "Silly girl, you have always liked him."

Li Su couldn't help laughing when she heard this.

After venting and confessing, Li Su became calm and composed again.

It turns out that speaking out is more comfortable than hiding.

Li Su raised her hand to wipe away her tears and stopped crying.

She lowered her head again, quickly found the right key, and crackled the door open.

Pushing the door open, the draft hit her face. It was as if the dust was blown away, revealing a warm heart like jade underneath.

That was the Li Su of the past.

Li Yan hugged Li Le and walked in first.

He stood in the doorway and turned to look at his eldest daughter with a red face.

For many years, he had never faced or dealt with the wounds in his daughter's heart.

Li Yan couldn't help asking himself: What would happen to them if there was no today?

Over the years, he didn't mention it or ask, because he knew that the only way out was to forgive himself.

He was trying hard to do this, but he didn't do it well. The same went for his wife Liang Jing.

His home was gloomy, with a festering and untouchable past, and was no longer suitable for his daughter.

He thought it would be better if Li Su didn't come in.

"Li Su." Li Yan looked relieved. He looked at Li Su and said with certainty: "Dad is really happy to hear what you said today. It's a good thing that you have grown up and learned to go your own way."

"Mom said she hopes you come back and that our family will be together forever. You don't have to care too much about these words. - I don't deny our selfish wishes, but our first wish is still: I hope you are healthy and happy. This will never change."

"Susu, you should leave Nansu, leave Nansu as soon as possible. Go and pursue your dreams, live your own life. You are your parents' daughter, but first of all you belong to yourself."

Li Su hadn't heard those blessings for a long time.

She held back her tears and looked at her father seriously.

It had been 6 years, and she didn't dare to look.

Only then did she realize that her father's hair was already white. He was 56 years old, but the young son in his arms was so young.

Is it evil? It must be evil.

Li Su held back her tears and reached out to touch Li Le's hair. She smiled at her father and returned to her usual stubborn, tough look like weeds.

"Go." Li Yan nodded to her, encouraged her, and affirmed: "Go find Xu Shen. Go and enjoy your life."

Li Su held back her tears and saw Li Yan smile and reach out his hand, slowly closing the door.

She was outside the door, biting her lip, and was silent for a while before turning her head and looking down the stairs again.

The light from the window in the stairwell extended to her feet.

It was sunny today.

Li Su walked downstairs. Her steps gradually became faster and faster, and she ran.

She ran into the alley, turned her head, and saw Xu Shen still standing under the pine tree beside the flower bed.

That night, at this moment, the same position.

He is always waiting, no matter what happens, no matter how much force pushes him away.

Li Su rushed over without hesitation and hugged Xu Shen tightly.

"What's wrong?" Xu Shen frowned and hugged her tightly, trying to touch her face.

Li Su didn't answer him, but just stood on tiptoes, raised her head and kissed him, and pried his lips open skillfully.

The faint bitterness was coffee. She kissed him, lingered on him, arrogant and stubborn.

Emotions collided with each other, as if it was inappropriate.

It was Xu Shen who turned his head away first, wiped Li Su's face, and buried himself in her scarf.

Xu Shen also guessed it a little.

Being able to teach a child like Li Su, Uncle Li Yan is stronger, brighter, and wiser than they imagined.

Xu Shen was suddenly filled with surprise, relief, guilt, and mixed feelings.

But no matter what his thoughts were, no matter how morality and public opinion defined him, he still did not change his attitude and insisted on the only answer in his life.

He hugged Li Su, his whole world.

After a long pause, Xu Shen whispered in her ear, jokingly and ambiguously: "Li Su, we should go get a room."

"Get lost!" Li Su slapped him without hesitation.