Recently I always feel that Jingyan is distancing herself from me intentionally . After the incident with Gu Feng, the relationship between us seems to be changing quietly.
Li Ye said, isn't Jingyan your best friend? Why didn't she come to see your father once when he was sick? You asked her to help on , but did she come? Yi Pingan, some people are not as good as you think.
The seats in the class were changed every month, but no matter how they were changed, Jingyan would always ask the teacher to sit at the same table with me. We went to class together, ate together, went to the bathroom together, and even after school, Jingyan wanted to follow me home.
My classmates didn't understand why such an outstanding person like Song Jingyan could be friends with someone as insignificant as me. They said that Jingyan and I were conjoined twins, and that wherever Yi Ping'an was, there would definitely be Song Jingyan.
However, now, there is still an inconspicuous girl beside Song Jingyan, but it is not me.
When the seats were arranged at the end of the month, she did not ask the teacher for anything. She and I were separated by the entire distance of the classroom, both sitting next to the windows, with her on the south and me on the north.
During the break, Song Jingyan was surrounded by a group of female classmates. I walked over and wanted to talk to her, but before I could get close to them, Jingyan waved her hand and everyone dispersed.
I felt like she was pulling the whole class together to isolate me.
"Yanyan, what's wrong with us? Why are like this?"
Song Jingyan looked at me holding her hand and said jokingly, "Yi Ping'an, are you pretending to be pitiful? "
"Why am I pretending to be pitiful? Song Jingyan, please explain yourself clearly!"
Jingyan knocked my hand away, the smile on her face was so dazzling: "Yi Ping'an, do I have to be grateful to you just because you saved me once? I hate you now, I hate you very much! Why am I not as good as you? He actually rejected me..."
I didn't understand what she said. I suddenly felt powerless and as if I was abandoned by the world.
I was a little distracted during the study session, so I didn't even notice my phone vibrating. It was my new desk-mate who reminded me.
"Hello, is this Yi Shaohua's family member? Please come to the hospital as soon as possible, the patient's condition is worsening and he is almost dying!" Every word of the voice on the other end of the phone shook my eardrums.
No, no…
These three words kept repeating in my ears, and I suddenly felt like my breathing was about to stop. My chest felt stuffy and suffocated!
I ran out of the classroom in a daze. I heard the teacher calling my name, as well as He Xubei and Li Ye.
Dad was lying on the cold hospital bed with a peaceful face, as if he was asleep.
I looked at my father quietly. I didn't cry out loud because I was afraid that crying loudly would disturb my father.
The doctor told me that cancer patients look very painful when they are dying, but my father didn’t feel that way. It seemed that he was just very tired and wanted to lie down and rest for a while.
But how long will he rest? I have no relatives left.
My distant uncles and aunts came to help me deal with my father's funeral. I don't have many relatives, so my father's colleagues and poker friends also came to see him off. The teacher sent He Xubei and a few classmates to help greet them, and in the afternoon, Li Ye and Ling Shanshan also came to pay their respects.
I didn't see Jingyan throughout the entire funeral.
At night, while I was keeping vigil, I heard Li Ye calling Jingyan outside. Li Ye said, Song Jingyan, your good friend's father has passed away, shouldn't you come over? At least you should comfort him and let him know he's safe?
Jingyan's voice came over the loud music, "Mr. Li, why are you meddling in other people's business? I'm dancing in the bar and don't have time to go!"
After the phone call ended, Li Ye saw me and looked a little helpless. I told him I heard it.
"Ping An, don't be sad. If she doesn't want to come, then she won't come. A friend like her is not worth making friends with!"
I know Li Ye is trying to comfort me, but how can I not be sad when my former friend is so indifferent?
There was so much rain this summer , and so many things happened this summer. The sunshine left, my father left, and even my best friend was moving away from me.
He Xubei said, Yi Ping'an, if you are sad, just cry, no one will laugh at you.
But He Xubei, I no longer have any tears to cry.