Chapter 5 The Only Faith in the Wasteful Youth 1
She thought that one day she would be a fallen leaf like this, just like the changing of seasons, forgotten in the torrent of the world. But how much did she want to be remembered?
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Shen Chuxue has become quite famous in school recently. The most important reason is Lin Jianluo's high-profile love display, and An Yannan still accompanies her day after day. Every day, the two of them leave school together. In the eyes of others, who would not be suspicious! The main reason is that the parties involved have not explained, which makes many girls feel unhappy!
You, Shen Chuxue, are such a cold person, but you are surrounded by two handsome boys in the school. These girls feel that society is unfair.
"Shen Chuxue? Is she the one from our department? Now there are many people blocking the door of the classroom all day long, just to take a look at her . Many boys have taken a fancy to her. It's really weird."
Shen Chuxue, who was at the center of the storm, did not react at all. She just did what she was supposed to do every day. However, Lin Jianluo came to her class more often.
"If you have time, just listen to more classes. Why do you always waste time here? You are studying animation design, but this is not the case. It's totally irrelevant. How can you understand?" Shen Chuxue watched helplessly as the book in her hand was snatched away by Lin Jianluo.
Every time Lin Jianluo showed such an expression, Shen Chuxue was always helpless. It seemed that every time she clearly wanted to hate the Lin family, it would be diluted by Lin Jianluo's smile. Shen Chuxue also knew Lin Jianluo's unspoken thoughts. He came to her class every day, and she rarely let outsiders get close except An Yannan. Suddenly there was an extra Lin Jianluo, and anyone with a discerning eye knew what it meant.
Looking out of the window, the trees on campus looked pitifully dry. From this angle, Shen Chuxue saw a scene of complete devastation.
She glanced sideways at Lin Jianluo who was talking to someone else.
This person is now familiar with Fan Qi. According to Lin Jianluo, if he wants to conquer Shen Chuxue, he must first conquer her close friends, although Fan Qi is not really a close friend. But Shen Chuxue thought that she had said more to Fan Qi than to An Cenxi in these years, so they could be considered good friends...
The professor was lecturing, but Shen Chuxue hardly heard a word he said. Most of the time, Shen Chuxue was in a daze, her eyes fixed on Lin Jianluo's profile and his hands.
At first glance, he is a pampered boy. Such a beautiful pair of hands is totally different from hers...
"Chu Xue, what are all these people outside doing?" As soon as the bell rang for the end of get out of class, Lin Jianluo looked back and saw a sea of people outside. He was immediately frightened.
Fan Qi and Shen Chuxue looked at each other and smiled.
Shen Chuxue tidied up the things on the table and said, "They all came to see you, Gossip Center."
The winter in S City is not very cold. The wind blew down many leaves, some yellow and withered, and they flew past Shen Chuxue's eyes one by one.
She squatted down and picked it up. She thought, one day she would be a fallen leaf like this, just like the changing of seasons, forgotten in the torrent of the world. But how much did she want to be remembered?
The unexpected disasters those people brought to Shen Chuxue were like a naked person standing in a pouring rain, with no escape.
After squatting on the ground for a long time, her feet were a little numb. She stood up shakily with the help of a tree trunk. When she looked up, she saw groups of people coming. Shen Chuxue squinted her eyes, hugged the book in her arms, and prepared to pass by those who were not a threat.
"Shen Chuxue? You are Shen Chuxue? You are An Cenxi's sister, right? Is that what you look like?" The girl's accent was sharp from the north, sounding like Beijing dialect.
Shen Chuxue's feet were so numb that she couldn't walk and could only stand there.
She stamped her feet, and the snow that had not melted on the trees a few days ago actually fell before her eyes and landed on the books in her arms.
"What's up?"
She rarely quarreled with others. Since entering S University, many people disliked Shen Chuxue, and with An Yannan and Lin Jianluo approaching, Shen Chuxue was a thorn in the eyes of almost 50% of the girls.
"We just want to tell you to stay away from Linjianluo! What can you compare with Anzensi?"
What can I compare myself with An Cenxi? This is a good question. Even Shen Chuxue didn't know why everyone compared herself with An Cenxi, just because they were from the same family?
"Whether I can compete with An Cenxi is none of your business, but now that you are standing here and saying these things to me, you have nothing to compete with me. Please move aside." After her feet finally stopped numb, she pushed aside the person in front of her and walked towards the school gate.
Along the way, An Yannan noticed that Shen Chuxue didn't talk much and her expression was a little gloomy. He wanted to ask what was wrong, but when crossing the road, he saw Lin Jianluo waving at Shen Chuxue. An Yannan paused, his steps were a little slow, but he still pushed Shen Chuxue, pointed over there and said, "Waiting for you."
Lin Jianluo imagined Shen Chuxue's smile to him countless times, each of which seemed a bit dreamy and unreal. In fact, Lin Jianluo knew that Shen Chuxue would think of her grandmother's departure that year when she saw him, but he would not allow Shen Chuxue to leave him like this. He firmly believed that he would become Shen Chuxue's salvation. Even if he had to give up everything, he would save her.
Shen Chuxue said: "If you want to save me, you should also ask me if I am willing to be saved by you."
She was beside An Yannan, looking calm, wearing a pure white coat with the collar turned outward, one hand in her pocket, the other holding a thick stack of books, looking up at something, her eyes fixed on the distant sky. An Yannan was pushing the cart, whispering something to Shen Chuxue. The two of them looked like a couple, even their clothes were the same color, dazzling Lin Jianluo's eyes.
After hearing An Yannan's words, Shen Chuxue realized.
Lin Jianluo held two cups of milk tea in his hands, stood quietly by the wall, and grinned at himself.
This is a young man with red lips and white teeth! How beautiful!
"An Yannan, you said..."
But what did she hope An Yannan would answer? Shen Chuxue didn't continue talking. She put the book in An Yannan's basket and walked towards Lin Jianluo.
Every step she took towards Lin Jianluo was a step away from An Yannan, they got closer and further away step by step.
The station is full of people. Tomorrow is Saturday, and there are a lot of people leaving school to go home. It's very busy.
Shen Chuxue walked to Lin Jianluo's side, reached out and took Lin Jianluo's hand to warm herself - this little action was actually a habit Shen Chuxue had since she was very young, and she developed it after she met Lin Jianluo.
When the two were in elementary school, Shen Chuxue had the problem of cold hands and feet. When sitting in the car waiting for the school gate to open, Shen Chuxue always kept blowing on her hands to warm them. Lin Jianluo would naturally pull Shen Chuxue's hand to warm it. Over time, Shen Chuxue developed this habit and would pull Lin Jianluo's hand whenever she saw him.
When we are young, who understands the meaning of holding hands and hugging?
"Isn't this Shen Chuxue? She was showing affection to our An Da chairman just now at school, why is she holding hands with someone else now? Tsk tsk tsk tsk, this person is so beautiful! Just a pinky hand will attract a lot of people, right?"
Hearing these sour words, Shen Chuxue didn't have the energy to refute. She just turned around to see who it was.
The boy from the next class.
I heard that his sister liked Lin Jianluo. At first, when Lin Jianluo didn’t come, she liked An Yannan. After Lin Jianluo came, she liked Lin Jianluo. Such a girl...
"Yes, this is a society where looks matter. Let alone hooking my fingers, even if I smile there will be many people working hard for me. And I have to choose people to smile at. For someone like you, let alone smile, I won't even cry in front of you." Shen Chuxue said these words lightly.
"You!" The man became anxious when he heard it. If it weren't for the people around him holding him back, he would have rushed in front of Shen Chuxue.
She stopped, turned around, smiled at the man, nodded slightly, and walked away taking Lin Jianluo with her.
"Why are so many people bothering you?" Lin Jianluo watched Shen Chuxue sipping milk tea in small sips, and his heart softened all of a sudden. He was very happy that only he could see Shen Chuxue like this.
Usually, Shen Chuxue always wrapped herself in thorns and wore thick armor in front of outsiders. In fact, Shen Chuxue was very docile when she was quiet. She would just follow what others said. She was a little slow to react, and it always took her a long time to react to what others said.
Shen Chuxue lowered her head and spat out pearls, saying, "It's nothing, if you can't eat the grapes, you will say they are sour."
Today's boots had high heels. Shen Chuxue's feet hurt as she walked home with Lin Jianluo. She sat on a small chair in the garden outside, pouted, took off her boots and rubbed her feet. Lin Jianluo was amused when he saw it. He was standing outside, but he walked in, squatted in front of Shen Chuxue, stretched out his hands to rub Shen Chuxue's feet, and said as he rubbed: "Look at you, why do you wear such high heels when you have so many shoes?"
"How else can I reach you?" Shen Chuxue followed up.
There is always a distance between you and me, no matter in age or state of mind, it is not a short distance...
"Tell me, why are those people causing trouble for you...is it because of me?" Lin Jianluo's voice was very steady, and he looked at Shen Chuxue seriously, finally acting like a man.
Shen Chuxue was immediately immersed in such a gaze. She suddenly smiled, pinched Lin Jianluo's face and said, "Why are you so narcissistic!"
Perhaps from the moment Lin Jianluo realized that he liked Shen Chuxue, he began to care about everything around Shen Chuxue, fearing that Shen Chuxue would be wronged while being loved by him.
As she laughed, Shen Chuxue realized that Lin Jianluo was serious and couldn't help but sigh: "Aluo, do you know how many people like you? I can't stop them! It doesn't matter, let them like you!"
As the sky gradually darkened and became colder, Lin Jianluo stood up and pulled Shen Chuxue up. She had just put on her boots and was a little unsteady on her feet, so her side face bumped hard into Lin Jianluo's chest.
It turned out that the little boy who was only as tall as her chest that year could hug her like this...
She could hear Lin Jianluo's strong heartbeat, one by one, very clear.
Shen Chuxue, did you hear that?
