Chapter 4 He is a thorn in my heart 04
"let?"
Shen Chuxue came out of the bathroom, her hair still dripping with water. She stood barefoot on the carpet, and her gaze towards Li Qiuhe made her feel a little nervous. But Li Qiuhe still said patiently, "This is the first time Xixi has liked someone, and it doesn't mean they will be together. Just let..."
The more she said this, the more ridiculous Shen Chuxue found it. Li Qiuhe had indeed been around a businessman for a long time, and her thoughts were different from hers. What did she mean by the unfinished words? Let An Cenxi come first? Wait until An Cenxi doesn't like her anymore before she comes?
"You really are my real mother."
Shen Chuxue brushed past Li Qiuhuo and walked to the chair, picked up a towel to wipe her hair, stared at the darkness outside, and stopped talking.
"Chuxue...Xixi is younger than you and has never asked for anything from her family."
"That's because she has everything!" Shen Chuxue roared.
The sound attracted the attention of An Yannan in the corridor. He just wanted to go downstairs to get a glass of water, but he heard Li Qiuhe and Shen Chuxue quarreling in the room. This was the first time Shen Chuxue spoke to Li Qiuhe so loudly. An Yannan didn't know what was going on. He wanted to go downstairs, but he didn't move.
He must be curious about Shen Chuxue...
Shen Chuxue felt a little regretful after she yelled. It was not because she was afraid that Li Qiuhuo would kick her out. A girl of her age would not starve to death wherever she went. She just felt that there was no need to be angry with Li Qiuhuo.
This person, who has enjoyed all the glory and wealth, must have different ideas from mine...
Shen Chuxue took a deep breath, and the movement of brushing her hair was a little stiff. She opened her mouth and said after a while: "What do you think Lin Jianluo is? Can he give in just because I say so? You want me to go and tell Lin Jianluo tomorrow that you don't like me anymore, but like my sister first? Wait until my sister doesn't like you anymore, and then like me?"
Li Qiuhuo just casually gave way to each other, did she think this was a game?
"Xixi is your sister, can you help her?" Li Qiuhuo's voice softened.
Shen Chuxue sneered, and stopped wiping her hair. She turned around, leaned her waist against the desk, shrugged her shoulders and said, "Sister? Oh, so you know that I am also your daughter! Then can I trouble you to consider me a little? You left me when I just learned to call you mom, and this word is very unfamiliar to me. Do you know how difficult it was for me to call you mom when I first came to the An family? Well, even if these are not important, have you ever thought about what kind of life I lived before? When your family of three was happy, I was driven out because I was living under someone else's roof. Mom, do you know?"
If you have never considered me, please don't say so much to me under the banner of family affection.
An Yannan watched Li Qiuhe leave crying.
It seemed that most of the time when Li Qiuhe left Shen Chuxue's place, she was in tears. Usually it was because of heartache, but now? Guilt? He couldn't tell.
"Come in, what are you standing at the door for? I'm getting dressed!" Shen Chuxue's tone was somewhat relaxed.
He pushed open the door, and the warm light hit the floor. Shen Chuxue was sitting on the floor, and the water in her hair had soaked the clothes on her shoulders. An Yannan took a towel from the table and put it on Shen Chuxue's neck.
"Thanks."
Before An Yannan and Shen Chuxue could say anything, An Cenxi suddenly pushed the door open and came in, followed by Li Qiuhuo. It seemed that the two had just had an argument.
Seeing An Yannan in Shen Chuxue's room, An Cenxi became even angrier: "Shen Chuxue, why do you have to compete with me? What gives you the right to compete with me for Lin Jianluo? You are a bastard from outside. Do you really think you are a member of the An family just by living in my house? Can you compare with my cousin? Shen Chuxue, are you shameless? Get out now! Why should our An family support you!" An Cenxi said, and was about to come over to grab Shen Chuxue, but was stopped by An Yannan.
"Cousin!"
Shen Chuxue looked coldly at Li Qiuhe who was standing behind An Cenxi. She couldn't stop her daughter, so she let her embarrass her in front of her other daughter.
She is such a good mother...
Shen Chuxue stood up shakily and was about to speak when An Yannan spoke first: "An Cenxi, you and she are both my aunt's daughters, and you have the same blood. If she is a bastard, what are you?"
"You! Cousin! Your surname is An, and you and I are a family. How dare you speak for a bastard?" An Cenxi had an unbelievable look on his face, pointing at Shen Chuxue and shouting loudly at An Yannan .
Seeing that An Yannan had no intention of helping her, An Cenxi became so angry that she started crying and turned around and ran away.
Li Qiuhuo shouted "Xixi" and quickly followed him out.
"You don't have to do this. It won't do you any good to fall out with An Cenxi." Shen Chuxue said.
She walked over and closed the door, ignoring the crying sounds outside, wanting some peace and quiet, but wondering whether she should just leave the An family.
If you find a job, you will definitely get food and accommodation, but tuition fees are a bit expensive...
"Have you ever blamed your aunt?" An Yannan asked.
Shen Chuxue's hand was still on the door handle. She was stunned for a moment, then turned around and looked at An Yannan with burning eyes. She wanted to laugh, but she held it back. She turned her head away, looked at the large darkness outside the window, walked over, drew the curtains, and closed her eyes.
Even though she usually likes darkness, she will get tired of it. In such darkness, she can't see anything but shadows cast from the room...but in the end, she finds that she is alone.
"Resentment? When you really experience that kind of life, you can no longer mention the word resentment, because you have experienced everything, and those things begin to become insignificant, and even resentment feels easy. I also thought about it when I was young and dreamed, why doesn't she want me? Why did she leave? Why didn't she take me with her? But those were just thoughts before falling asleep. After a nightmare, I couldn't even remember her face. Do you know? If she hadn't appeared at my grandmother's funeral that year, I would never even remember that there was such a person."
This person, whom she couldn't even remember when she was in the most difficult time, must not have caused the slightest ripple in Shen Chuxue's heart.
She was swaying back and forth in the room in her light grey pajamas, making An Yannan feel a little dizzy.
"If you have experienced those things, nothing now can stir your heart, Brother An Yannan..." She did not continue speaking, but just smiled with her head down.
The room was quiet for a while. When Shen Chuxue came back to her senses, she was so angry that she vomited blood. How could this person still be checking his homework at this time? Shen Chuxue really didn't know what was in An Yannan's mind!
Should I think about it now? What if An Wei comes back to help An Cenxi vent his anger? To be honest, An Wei has a bad temper. Shen Chuxue is a little afraid of this person and usually doesn't talk to An Wei. But if An Cenxi complains and his beloved daughter is wronged, he will definitely come forward. What should I do then?
"Come here. Didn't I explain this question to you before? How come you got it wrong again? Come and see for yourself!"
Well, she didn't want to think about it anymore. She walked to An Yannan's side and glanced at him casually. He seemed a little familiar. Shen Chuxue was helpless and said with a tangled expression: "President An, aren't you in the student union now? You're not in school either! Do you have to be so strict? If you don't want to change it, we'll talk about it tomorrow! Doing homework late at night is not good for your eyes!"
"Just forget about it tomorrow during the day," said An Yannan.
Why is this person like this!
Being pulled to sit down by An Yannan, Shen Chuxue could only sit in the place where An Yannan had just sat and start looking at the exercises. An Yannan pulled another chair and sat next to Shen Chuxue.
The backs of two people are leaning on each other.
"You quarreled with your aunt over Lin Jianluo. He must be very important to you?" An Yannan suddenly asked.
Shen Chuxue moved the pen to her left hand and began to turn it. She supported her chin with her right hand, thought for a while, and said, "It's important, I guess." Whenever Lin Jianluo appeared in front of her, he always reminded her what she should hate and what she should not forget. It was like an alarm bell that rang every time she saw him.
Unable to change it any more, Shen Chuxue started to play tricks on An Yannan. After finally closing the notebook under An Yannan's gaze, Shen Chuxue yawned. An Yannan thought she was sleepy and was about to leave when she gently pulled her sleeve.
"Come on, delivery boy, don't go heat up the milk yet, I want to chat with you for a while."
"What can we talk about?"
Shen Chuxue didn't know who said she was cold. In comparison, An Yannan's words always left her speechless.
Pretending to be angry, Shen Chuxue sneered: "Okay, okay, we have nothing to say. You don't have to come to our class to find me in the future, and don't bring me food or buy me milk tea. Just leave!"
After saying this, An Yannan sat down instead.
In fact, An Yannan just wanted to tease Shen Chuxue because she was in a bad mood. Although Shen Chuxue's smile was a little forced at this time, at least her face was not so pale anymore.
"You want to know about me and Lin Jianluo? Then let me tell you. Well, when should I start? That year, my grandma and grandpa Lin brought me to the Lin family. I was wearing a red skirt. It was similar to the one I wore a few days ago, but it was red! I don't know why everyone thought I liked red when I was little. Now that I think about it, many clothes were red at that time..." Now Shen Chuxue's clothes are all in cool colors.
Shen Chuxue avoided the sad things and simply talked about herself and Lin Jianluo. She was so happy that she danced with joy, especially when she talked about the year when she watched Lin Jianluo compete.
Because he matured relatively late, Lin Jianluo was actually the shortest boy in the class. He was skinny and small, so everyone thought he was easy to bully. But who knew that he had been learning Sanda since he was young!
When Shen Chuxue was happy, she would laugh out loud, but An Yannan was inadvertently attracted by her hand.
Her hands were not as pretty as An Cenxi's, but surprisingly nice, thin and long, but with a lot of calluses, and quite suitable for playing the piano. But Shen Chuxue didn't like any music except Kunqu Opera, and she didn't understand rhythm, so she couldn't learn any musical instrument at all.
"You have a pretty good memory. Why didn't you have such a good memory when I was explaining the problem to you?"
"You're not interesting anymore."
He lowered his head, his hair on his forehead fell a little, and he suddenly smiled.
Shen Chuxue suddenly said, "An Yannan, if you smile more, more people in school will like you. Do you know that before Lin Jianluo came, everyone thought I was your girlfriend?"
"Know."
Shen Chuxue curled her lips and said, "At that time, Fan Qi asked me, we are both very taciturn, what on earth can we talk about!"
Thinking about it now, Shen Chuxue realized that An Yannan really spoke very little to outsiders. As for herself, she almost never spoke except to An Yannan and Fan Qi. She would only say a few arrogant words if they made her angry. It turned out that outsiders were prejudiced against her because of her.
"What about you? Why don't you like to talk? Where is your sharp tongue when dealing with me on weekdays?" An Yannan asked.
She stood , sat on the edge of the bed and put her right leg on top of her left leg. She raised the corners of her lips towards An Yannan, smiled wickedly, tossed her hair and said, "That's because I found a sense of belonging in you. We are all the same kind of people! What do you think?"
A kind of person? Is it lack of warmth, or can't find a way forward in this world? She has her confusion, and An Yannan has his own emotions.
Late at night, her smile was imprinted in An Yannan's eyes.
"Yeah, yes." They really are the same kind of people.
It seems to be the case. Otherwise, why is Shen Chuxue closer to An Yannan in the An family, and would rather hang out in the library with An Yannan than stare at Li Qiuhuo at home?
Blood relationship is destined, but the connection of souls is belonging.
"An Yannan, will you continue like this?"
"you hope to?"
"Yes, I hope."
