Chapter 5 The Only Faith in the Wasteful Youth 03
Shen Chuxue went to class very early on Monday because she knew Lin Jianluo would come early.
As a result, when she entered the school, she found that many people were walking around her. Shen Chuxue frowned, feeling a little puzzled.
"Hatsuyuki, your little one is really amazing!"
Then Shen Chuxue found out that Lin Jianluo had said during the fight that whoever dared to cause trouble for Shen Chuxue would be causing trouble for him. Lin Jianluo was dressed in famous brands and had a prominent status, which most people in the school could not compare to, so no one dared to mess with Shen Chuxue anymore.
Even Shen Chuxue was surprised.
"It's really different. The words of people with status are effective." Shen Chuxue muttered.
Lin Jianluo came in just as the bell rang, and it looked like he had just finished his self-study class. There were not many classes in their animation department, and since he was only a freshman, there was nothing much to do in school. He did not join any clubs, so he just followed Shen Chuxue around, and all his interests and hobbies were Shen Chuxue.
"Why did you find such a job? That place is so messy!" Shen Chuxue asked in a low voice.
Originally, Shen Chuxue sat in the front during class, but now Lin Jianluo always came. Shen Chuxue wanted to talk to Lin Jianluo, and sitting in the front was too conspicuous, so she could only sit in the back. She simply didn't listen to the less important classes, and just asked An Yannan if she didn't understand something - it would be a waste to have such a nerd around.
Lin Jianluo felt a little sleepy and yawned. He held Shen Chuxue's fingertips tightly with his fair hands and said, "It's okay. I'm just a waiter and no one will bother me. This job is so good. I work at night and I can accompany you during the day. It won't delay you at all."
In fact, Shen Chuxue was very touched. Everything Lin Jianluo did was for her, even his work schedule had to suit her.
Seeing that Lin Jianluo was in high spirits, Shen Chuxue stopped trying to stop him.
"Then I'll go with you tonight. Can't I take a look at where you live ? I won't go to the bar." Having warmed up, Shen Chuxue withdrew her hand.
Lin Jianluo's eyes flickered, and he said awkwardly: "What's so good about that broken place... By the way, Chuxue, I want to go see grandma."
The desolate cemetery, in the middle of the afternoon in this winter, was almost deserted. Especially the area where Shen Chuxue's grandmother lived, it was particularly desolate, with only a few tombstones standing. Shen Chuxue and Lin Jianluo walked to the grandmother's tombstone with ease, put down the flowers in their hands, sighed, and squatted down.
"Grandma, someone is here to see you."
In fact, in her last days, grandma always talked about Lin Jianluo. This young man was very likable and always made grandma Shen laugh. Lin Jianluo was probably the only person in the Lin family who treated grandma Shen sincerely, except for grandpa Lin.
Lin Jianluo was wearing a black shirt with a windbreaker of the same color on the outside. He looked at the photo on the tombstone in silence for a long time.
Even Shen Chuxue didn't know that Lin Jianluo remembered so many things, about himself and his grandmother, every detail was in his mind.
"Grandma, you always remember that Grandpa likes sour food, and he always puts a lot of vinegar in the dishes he cooks. But Chuxue doesn't like it, and she doesn't talk much, so she always eats with a frown on her face! Grandma, do you know that Grandpa didn't like to laugh before? He would frown and criticize Mom and Dad for something they did wrong. After you came, I really saw Grandpa laugh! Grandpa would laugh as soon as he saw you, Grandma!"
Lin Jianluo was still young at that time and didn't understand what love was. He just thought that the only person who could make his grandfather laugh was Grandma Shen.
Smile only at one person, smile only because of one person...
In Lin Jianluo's memory, love comes from a smile.
Therefore, even though he was so far away from Shen Chuxue later, he still remembered Shen Chuxue's smile, which was deeply engraved in his mind.
Shen Chuxue leaned against the railing and watched Lin Jianluo talking to his grandmother about the events of those years not far away.
Deep in her memory, everything about the Lin family was unbearable and difficult to endure. All the memories were painful and made her hate them. But in Lin Jianluo's heart, it was so warm that even her every move was remembered. For a moment, the light and shadow in her sight seemed a little confused. Shen Chuxue seemed to see herself in a red dress, standing in the room of the Lin family. Lin Jianluo suddenly grabbed her hand and called her sister.
On the other side of the railing was a vast expanse of wasteland, with the sound of crows. Shen Chuxue turned around and no longer looked at Lin Jianluo, but only watched those annoying birds flying up and down.
In a trance, she heard Lin Jianluo calling her name.
"What are you thinking about? You're just staring at the empty space and you're in a daze?" Lin Jianluo smiled and held Shen Chuxue's hand.
Shen Chuxue found that Lin Jianluo liked to hold her hand. Holding hands was meaningful to Lin Jianluo, even more meaningful than hugging and kissing. Her hands were not as pretty as Lin Jianluo's, nor as slender and warm as his, but he was willing to hold them and took her through many intersections.
"No, I'm watching the crows. There are a lot of crows here." Shen Chuxue said.
"Come, come here." Lin Jianluo took Shen Chuxue to Grandma Shen's tombstone, and they both squatted down.
It was quite difficult for two people to squat together in such a small space. Fortunately, Shen Chuxue and Lin Jianluo were both very thin.
Lin Jianluo looked at the photo of Grandma Shen and said gently, "Grandma, from now on I will take good care of Chuxue. I know you are worried about her, and I am worried about her too." He paused, turned his head to stare into Shen Chuxue 's eyes, and said word by word, "I am worried that she will be bullied and that she will not be able to save herself. I blame myself for not being able to stay by her side for so many years... But from now on, I will definitely hold her hand and never let go no matter when and where. Grandma, I want to be with Chuxue."
In a daze, Shen Chuxue felt like her heart was about to stop beating.
The crows' calls are more obvious.
"Hatsuyuki, I want to be with you."
Every time he confessed, it was so formal that Shen Chuxue could not escape. And this time, she squatted here, right next to Lin Jianluo, with her grandmother's smiling face beside her, and Shen Chuxue could not escape at this time. In fact, she wanted to say: Lin Jianluo, don't be so nice to me. If you knew that I was taking revenge on you and your parents, what would you do? What would you do?
Helpless, she could only smile as a response.
On the way out of the cemetery, Lin Jianluo and Shen Chuxue had nothing to say. Shen Chuxue looked at her high heels, her thoughts a little distracted.
Lin Jianluo sent Shen Chuxue to the door of her house and asked Shen Chuxue to go in quickly.
"Are you going to work now?"
Lin Jianluo nodded: "Yes, I just got to work and I can't be late. You go in quickly!"
The warmth in the room didn't warm Shen Chuxue's blood. She stood in front of her door for a long time, holding the water cup, and didn't even think of opening the door to go in. She liked to daydream more and more.
"Are you facing the wall and thinking about your mistakes?" An Yannan's voice sounded, and a hand reached out to open the door on the side of Shen Chuxue. She was pushed in, and her feet stood on the carpet. She realized that they were a little numb, so she sat down quickly, put down the water cup and rubbed her legs with a sad face.
An Yannan did not come in, but stood at the door, looking at Shen Chuxue's body curled up on the carpet.
"Shen Chuxue, what do you want?"
How could there be such a conflicted person? Wanting to hurt someone, yet feeling so sorry for that person... Shen Chuxue was like this. Every time she wanted to stab Lin Jianluo with the knife in her hand, she was afraid that he would be sad to see blood, so she turned the knife tip around and stabbed herself.
This is how to do?
