"Ai Banxia, ​​bring an umbrella with you when you go out. The weather forecast says it will rain today."
When I was leaving, I passed by Aisi's bedroom door. Aisi, who was playing video games in front of the TV, suddenly looked up and spoke to me casually.
I looked at the half-grey, half-dark blue sky and smiled disapprovingly: "Ai Xi, weather forecasts are often inaccurate! It's not nice to bring an umbrella on a date, there's nowhere to put it! If it really rains, come pick me up!"
"Tsk! Women in love are so unpleasant! Just call me when the time comes!"
He turned his head away stubbornly, but I could still see his little mouth pouting in dissatisfaction, and I couldn't help but smile.
He had already agreed, but he still looked like he was saying one thing and thinking another.
My little brother Aisi, who understands how much you cherish me better than me!
"Aixi, sister is leaving! You have to have fun!"
I waved to Aisi in the room, even though I knew he wouldn't look back at me.
I waited for more than ten minutes at the place where Jian Chen and I often met, but there was no sign of him. I called his cell phone, but he hung up after two rings.
There were less than two months left before the graduation exam, and extended class time had become a common occurrence in the third grade. I guessed that he hadn't finished class yet, so I sat down and sent him a text message to tell him that I had arrived, then read a magazine while waiting for his reply.
However, I waited until dark, but Jian Chen did not show up, and there was not even a text message.
It was already dark, and under the dim starlight, the rolling hills in the distance looked like wild beasts hiding in the darkness, waiting for their chance to strike. I suddenly had a bad feeling, and I ran desperately.
When I arrived at the third grade classroom, it was already empty. I paced back and forth in the dark corridor, repeatedly dialing Jian Chen's cell phone, like a restless trapped animal.
I didn't know what happened to him, maybe he ran into those people from the other side of the street like last time. I didn't dare to think about it anymore, so I could only call his cell phone over and over again. However, every time, the call was hung up after one ring.
The alarm bells in my head kept ringing. I knew something must have happened to Jian Chen, otherwise he wouldn't have ignored my call. When I was about to cry, I received a text message from Jian Chen. I opened it and saw three words clearly displayed on the bright screen.
I stared at the screen, reading those three words over and over again, until the phone suddenly went dark in the dark night, I still couldn't believe it was true.
Everything was fine the day before yesterday, how come it suddenly became like this?
He said, let's break up.
He's got to be kidding me, right? He has to be.
He wanted to see me cry shamefully, and then suddenly come out and make fun of me for being a crybaby. That must have been the case.
As I dialed his cell phone, I comforted myself in this way, but my right thumb couldn't help but tremble slightly.
This time, the phone was connected after three rings. During the two seconds of silence, I could even hear the whirring sound of the wind coming from the other end of the phone. He must be hiding in some corner nearby, ready to jump out and scratch my nose at any time.
I tried to smile and said in a scolding tone: "Jian Chen, if you lie to me like this again, I will ignore ."
"I didn't lie to you." Jian Chen's voice on the phone sounded strange and distant.
"I do not believe. "
Jian Chen said stiffly: "Whatever you want."
"Why?" I heard my own trembling voice.
Jian Chen was silent for a while and said, "Do you really need a reason?"
"I know you must be lying to me, stop pretending!" I laughed exaggeratedly, "Your acting is really bad, I saw through it a long time ago. Besides, this joke is not funny at all, okay?"
I held the phone tightly and blinked hard, again and again, hoping that the next second I would open my eyes and find that all this was just a nightmare.
However, in the silent and dark night, I heard him say coldly on the other end of the phone: "Ai Banxia, ​​if you don't understand, I don't mind saying it again..."
I hung up the phone quickly, afraid that he would say those two words to me in person. I stubbornly believed that as long as he didn't say "break up" to me in person, then nothing was true. As long as I went home, covered myself with a blanket and had a good sleep, and waited for the sun to rise, everything would be the same as before.
I spent the whole night in a daze. When it was almost dawn, I was awakened by a nightmare and could no longer fall asleep. I simply sat up, hugged the quilt, and looked at the faint white sky outside the floor-to-ceiling window.
That year, I left him.
The sky was the same color the morning I left the orphanage. He kept chasing after the Ai family's car, chasing and chasing. How cruel I was at that time! Even when I saw him fall on the side of the road in the rearview mirror, I just cried silently and had no intention of staying to accompany him.
After all, I was the one who abandoned him first, so this time, I will just give it back to him.
After getting even, starting over again is actually fair, right?
In the morning, I went to school with Aisi as usual, and even made Aisi, who had a very high sense of humor, laugh out loud with two jokes. Therefore, even Aisi did not notice anything unusual.
Just before getting off the car, Ai Xi suddenly frowned and asked me, "Ai Banxia, ​​did you have insomnia last night? I could hear you tossing and turning in my room."
My bedroom is connected to Aisi's.
I pretended to be fine and laughed at him: "Yeah, it seems so! I probably slept too much during the day, so I couldn't fall asleep at night! If you had made me another cup of milk yesterday, maybe I would have slept well."
Ai Xi slapped my hand away and said with a serious expression: "Ai Banxia! You look so ugly when you smile now! Did something happen yesterday? You had an ugly expression when you came back! Did you get dumped by someone?"
Aixi's eyes were fixed on me.
He forced me to the point where I felt it was very difficult to conceal my feelings and I was a little overwhelmed.
"Aixi, please stop asking, okay? If there is really something wrong, I will tell you! I just want to be alone." I couldn't laugh anymore and prayed to Aixi sadly.
The expression on Ai Xi's face softened, and she sighed like an old man, then sat back in her seat: "Sister, when you cry, don't cry alone. If you want to cry, cry in front of me! I won't laugh at you!"
I nodded vigorously at him.
Aisi, don't look at me like that! I will really cry!
Then, I said goodbye to Aisi almost as if I was escaping, got off the car and went to the classroom.
Pretending nothing had happened, I sent a good morning text message to Jian Chen before the first class as usual, listened to the class quietly, did the exercises seriously, and ate lunch slowly...
Pretend that all the buzz was just my hallucination.
As long as I keep pretending like this, nothing will be different, except that I haven't received his reply text message with only the word "morning".
After dinner, I returned to the classroom. Long Xuan sat in her seat and stared at me intently. Several times, she seemed to want to say something to me but stopped herself. I knew what she was going to say, so I simply turned my head away and didn't look at her.
But she couldn't help herself in the end, and turned my body around and said, "Ai Banxia, ​​you don't really know nothing, do you?"
"Know what?" I lowered my head and whispered softly. I really wanted to cover my ears and not hear anything.
Long Xuan glanced at me, suddenly threw the book in his hand onto the table and said, "What on earth is Jian Chen doing!"
I didn't say anything, I just pinched my right index finger hard, and kept applying pressure, but I didn't feel any pain.
Then, I heard Long Xuan say indignantly: "I was wrong. It turns out that Jian Chen is also a fickle person. It would be fine if he was fickle, but he insisted on being with Xu Xiye. Isn't this deliberately disgusting?"
Later, Long Xuan said something else, but I didn't hear it clearly. I instinctively forced myself not to listen, because I was afraid that if I continued to listen, I would die from the severe pain in my heart.
I only remember standing up and walking out of the classroom, smiling at Long Xuan and saying, "He's just joking with me."
I instinctively wanted to escape, but the fallen chair hit my foot, and it only hurt a little.
"Banxia!" Long Xuan came forward and hugged me, "Don't scare me."
I patted her back gently and said, "It's okay, it's okay, I just want to be alone for a while."
I wandered aimlessly around the campus and unknowingly came to the Moon Lake. It seemed that overnight, the lotus flowers in the pond had grown tall and majestic, and the breeze rustled the flowers, as if someone was crying softly.
I was stunned by what I saw.
Someone came over from a distance and said coquettishly: "When the lotus flowers here bloom, remember to pick them for me, and it must be the first one."
It’s Xu Xiye.
And there is Jian Chen.
She came over with her arm around him and gave me her most smug smile.
And he never looked at me from beginning to end.
How did things turn out like this?
I could hardly believe my eyes. The person who once held my hand and told me that tomorrow would only be better than today, is the person in front of me who treats me like air?
I stared at Jian Chen without blinking, watching him slowly approach and about to pass by me. I just stared at him with my eyes and asked softly, "Why?"
He stopped, but didn't look at me, and said, "No reason."
"There has to be a reason for sentencing someone to death, right?" I bit my lip, unyielding.
"Do you really want a reason?" Jian Chen suddenly turned his head to look at me, and his eyes seemed to be filled with disgust.
"Yes." I nodded.
He said coldly, word by word: "The reason is that I am tired of playing."
"I don't believe it." As if to comfort myself, I kept muttering, "I don't believe it... I know you are not that kind of person."
"So..." He looked at me, his face expressionless, without anger or smile, his narrow eyes were so cold that they seemed to be frozen, "What do I need to do to make you believe it?"
I stopped asking questions and turned around to stagger away. I knew that no matter how much I didn't want to believe it, it was all true. When he looked at me with those cold eyes without any warmth, I knew that it was all true.
Although I don't know what exactly caused this result, the result has been settled.
I said to myself, Ai Banxia, ​​you can't cry, you must not cry. It's just starting over, nothing can stop Ai Banxia, ​​and nothing can stop Ai Banxia and Xiao Shitou from being together.
There was a muffled sound of thunder in the distance, and then raindrops began to fall. The cool raindrops fell on my face like tears. I hid in the shadow of the tall bushes in the forest, hugged my knees tightly, curled up, bit my lips, and tried to open my eyes wide to prevent my tears from falling.
There were subtle sounds of footsteps, I lowered my head and ignored them, but the feet stopped within my sight, and then a plaid handkerchief was handed to me.
I slowly raised my head, and what appeared in my field of vision was that familiar face, narrow and long phoenix eyes, a high nose bridge, and a sharp chin. I shuddered slightly, and then I found that the pair of dark eyes looking at me were full of tenderness.
He is not Jian Chen, but Gu Xi.
"I didn't mean to eavesdrop on you crying." He pointed to the path outside the woods, indicating to me that he just happened to pass by.
"I'm not crying." I grabbed the handkerchief and wiped it across my face. "I'm not crying. This is all rain water. Yes, it's rain water ."
But for some reason, the "rain" falling on my face seemed to never be wiped away, and soon soaked the entire handkerchief.
Gu Xi didn't say a word, but just sat down next to me silently.
After a long pause, he looked at the sky and said, "Do you know why it always rains?"
I shook my head.
He reached out his hand to catch the rain, and the corners of his mouth slowly rose: "It's because the angels are crying."
Those fine spirits fell into his palm and turned into crystal clear water droplets. He held the water droplets in front of me and said, "It is said that if you make a wish to the tears of an angel, your wish will come true."
Only a three-year-old would believe such a thing. I said gloomily, "Have all your wishes come true? "
He was stunned for a moment, then looked at me and smiled, as if there was a spring breeze blowing across his brows: "Yes. My wishes have now come true."
"real?"
"Really." He looked at me and nodded.
I closed my eyes and prayed to myself. When I opened my eyes, I saw Gu Xi quietly changing her sitting position.
I thought of his legs and said apologetically, "Isn't it uncomfortable for you to sit like this?"
He immediately said, "It's okay." After a pause, he added, "Don't you want to talk about something other than my legs? For example, why is your face covered with 'angel tears'?"
He was facing me, and his face that looked so much like Jian Chen almost made me want to rush over and burst into tears. However, I knew he was not Jian Chen.
So, in the end, I just shook my head at his soft eyes.
Later, he walked a long way away, then turned around and walked back.
I thought he had something else to say, but he just said, "Angels will protect you."
I think there must be an angel protecting me.
That night, I unexpectedly received a reply from Xia Li.
She asked me in a private message: "Banxia, ​​have you ever asked yourself, do you like Xiao Shitou or Jian Chen?"
I thought about it and felt that her question was very strange. Isn't Xiao Shitou the current Jian Chen? Isn't Jian Chen the former Xiao Shitou?
So I answered: "Of course I like Jian Chen."
Soon, I received Xia Li's reply: "Even if he is no longer the little stone in your memory?"
"Yes, yes, I like him, and I don't care if he is still the same person I remember." I answered without hesitation.
Because I know that the reason why Xiao Shitou has become the Jian Chen we are today is all because he lost that part of his memory.
"Xia Li, I don't know what to do. He said he wanted to break up with me. I know he must be very angry with me to say that, but I don't know why he was angry with me. Xia Li, can you help me?"
My fingers danced on the keyboard non-stop, and I told Xia Li all my grievances.
It was a long time later, so long that I thought Xia Li was no longer on the other end of the network, before she replied.
She said, "I will help you. So, let's meet."
Eh? Isn't she in Italy?
Could it be that...
I excitedly typed on the keyboard: "You're back home? In City C?"
This time she responded quickly, with just one word: "Yes."
The meeting place agreed with Xia Li was the Starbucks opposite Baisha College, during lunch break.
Xia Li didn't tell me what she looked like, but just said mysteriously: "You will recognize me at the first sight."
When I arrived, there weren't many customers in the store. There were only about ten or so people, in groups of three or four. Looking at them one by one, none of them fit the image of Xia Li in my mind. Finally, I saw Gu Xi sitting alone in the corner.
He should have seen me a long time ago. When I looked over, he was smiling at me from afar.
I walked over and said, "I'm waiting for my friend, but it looks like she's not here yet."
"He should be here soon." He pointed to the seat opposite him and smiled, "Maybe he'll be here as soon as you sit down."
I sat down and found that he ordered two cups of coffee for himself.
He pushed one of the cups in front of me and said, "Your favorite matcha latte, if I remember correctly."
"How do you know I like matcha latte?"
In a flash, something flashed through my mind. I was shocked by my own thoughts and looked at Gu Xi with wide eyes in disbelief.
He nodded: "Yes. I am Xia Li."
"How is that possible?" I said, "Xia Li is obviously a girl."
"I don't think I've ever said I'm a girl." He looked at me with a smile.
"But..." I still refused to believe it. "But isn't Xia Li a writer of youth campus novels? Aren't youth campus novels generally written by girls?"
Only then did I realize that I had made the mistake of stereotyping from the very beginning.
Gu Xi looked at me and said in frustration, "Well, I can only say that I am an outlier."
"No." I waved my hands quickly and said, "I just think Xia Li should be a girl."
After thinking about it, I felt that what I said was even worse, but I didn't know how to explain it, and I was anxious and at a loss.
Fortunately, Gu Xi chuckled and said, "I was just kidding. In fact, what does it matter whether Xia Li is a boy or a girl? You won't stop being friends with him just because he is a boy."
He looked at me intently, with a hint of expectation in his eyes.
Without even thinking, I said, “Of course not.”
He smiled as if relieved: "That's it."
But I suddenly remembered something: "Isn't it a coincidence that you returned to China and transferred to Baisha College?"
"Of course not." He laughed, "This is not a novel, there are not so many coincidences."
"Then why don't you just tell me who you are from the beginning?" I thought back to the first time I met him on campus.
His expression froze for a moment, then he smiled: "Because I want to give you a big surprise at the right time."
"Well?"
"'Half of half, summer of summer' classmate." He smiled, "Don't try to question me, I have already thought of the answer."
"Okay." I raised my eyebrows and joked, imitating his tone last time, "'Angels will protect you', you're not saying you are an angel, are you?"
"You can pretend that I am." As he said this, the sunlight was shining on his face through the large floor-to-ceiling windows, making his smile look clean, bright and spotless, as if it could illuminate every corner of people's hearts.