Things are happening according to the trajectory that God has already set.
We don’t have the ability to predict.
I don’t know what will happen next.

Ji Suting and Hua Siyu's romance shocked the campus before the New Year's Eve party, and the hosts of the party in the evening were replaced by the two of them.
All the girls around me started to turn into Sherlock Holmes, saying one after another that they had already discovered that there was something wrong with these two people, and then began to analyze the little ambiguity and sweetness between the two from every angle and every detail.
The boys were beating their chests and stamping their feet, wishing they could immediately become Ji Suting who was holding hands with the goddess. They wrote Ji Suting's name on the paper countless times and poked it with the tip of the pen behind their backs.
I lay on the table and watched them talking. After crying last night, I returned to the dormitory. I didn't tell anyone what happened in the auditorium, and I didn't have the face to tell them.
I couldn't tell them that when I was about to confess my love to him, his real girlfriend slapped me in the face, and then he didn't say a word for me and just watched me leave without saying a word.
Whether you are a mistress or being the one being cheated on, it is not a glorious thing.
I just didn't expect them to announce their relationship right away. What was all the ambiguity before that? Was it just a spice in their love life?
Yan Wenbo said that although they had known each other for many years, he only found out about Ji Suting and Hua Siyu's relationship recently. They had been together not long after entering college, and they had been secretly in love, disguising it very well, so he didn't notice it at all. As for why they were still secretly in love after being together for so long, he didn't know and didn't want to know.
He said that he just felt sad that my sincerity was wasted like that.
I did it willingly, so I deserve to be abused!
After class, I saw Yan Wenbo as soon as I walked out of the classroom. He was leaning against the window, one hand in his pocket, playing with his mobile phone with the other hand, and looking up from time to time to see what was happening in the classroom.
"Someone is waiting for you. I'll leave first. See you in the dormitory after the show!" Shi Shuxia looked at Yan Wenbo with a smile, winked at me and ran away.
The news of Ji Suting's love affair spread to every corner of the campus. Under Shi Shuxia's questioning, I told her everything that happened last night.
After listening to me, she patted my shoulder and comforted me, "Don't be sad, there is always a right person waiting for you. It's not that you are not good enough, it's that he is not the right person."
After hearing this, Xu Meng'er said coldly: "Aren't you curious about why Hua Siyu happened to appear in that place?"
"Girls are particularly sensitive about their boyfriends' affairs, and Hua Siyu is no exception! After such a long time, how is it possible that there are no clues at all?" Shi Shuxia replied.
Come to think of it, it's unlikely that I didn't know anything about it for such a long time. I was just so immersed in my obsession with him that I didn't notice that he had a girlfriend.
After all, I was too stupid.
I walked up to Yan Wenbo, he looked up at me and grinned.
"What's wrong? Did you have a fight with someone?" I asked, looking at the bruise on the corner of his mouth.
"I got out of bed to drink water in the middle of the night and bumped into the railing." He touched the corner of his mouth with his thumb. It was obviously painful, but he pretended to be indifferent and said, "Come on, I'll take you out to play."
"Where are you going?" I asked, looking up.
"Anywhere is fine, just not in school."
"Yan Wenbo." I lowered my head and stepped on his shadow. "I know you are doing this for my own good , but these things can't be solved by running away."
The hosts of tonight's party are Ji Suting and Hua Siyu. I went there and couldn't help feeling sad seeing them. I think that's why he came to see me.
When I saw Ji Suting outside the auditorium, I realized that Yan Wenbo did not hit the railing, but had a fight with Ji Suting.
He and Hua Siyu stood together. She held his arm with a smile on her face. The only trace of what happened yesterday was when she saw me, and it was gone in a flash.
Surrounding us were students coming and going in the auditorium. The four of us stood facing each other. Time stood still and there was inevitable awkwardness in our glances.
After I went back, I practiced many times how to act as if nothing had happened after seeing him, but all my psychological preparations collapsed the moment I saw him.
How ridiculous, I still feel sad when I see a boy who made me a mistress with a scar on his face. I feel sad when I see a boy who didn't dare to step forward when I was beaten, and he lowers his head.
I don’t know how long I stood there, and I don’t know how long I forced myself not to look at him.
Yan Wenbo pushed me and said, "He's gone."
I came to my senses and, like an out-of-service robot, mechanically turned my head to look for the direction he had left.
He and she smiled at each other in the sunshine, a handsome man and a beautiful woman. I was like a funny clown performing a farce, not even noticing that my red nose had fallen off.
"Do you want to go see it again?" he asked.
"Go." I answered mechanically.
"If you don't want to watch it anymore, just tell me and I'll take you out," said Yan Wenbo.
"Okay." I nodded and followed him into the auditorium.
This place contains too many memories of Ji Suting and I, including selecting programs, supervising stage decorations, adjusting lights... His shadow seems to be visible in every corner.
From the moment he fell silent, I told myself to completely forget him. I told myself that there is no one in this world whose memory will not be taken away by time, and no matter how much you loved someone, you cannot escape the fate of disappearing in the long river of memory.
I am looking forward to that day, although I don’t know how long I will have to wait.
As soon as we sat down, Yan Wenbo took out a bag of lollipops for me like magic. He actually knew that I like sweet things.
I don't remember when I started to love sweets. I always felt that life was bitter enough, so it was always right to eat more sweets. But I was short of money, so I never had any fancy desserts. I would just occasionally take out one or two candies from my pocket and put them in my mouth when I was sad.
After entering university, I gradually got rid of this habit, although I would still subconsciously touch my pocket when I felt sad.
I tilted my head to look at him. When I looked at his face, I raised my hand and gently touched the corner of his mouth, and asked softly, "Does it hurt?"
He seemed to be frightened by me. He was stunned for a long time before shaking his head and saying, "It's okay."
"Don't do this again, I'm fine, really fine."
The curtain on the stage opened, and Ji Suting and Hua Siyu stood under the spotlight. The light was so bright that it was impossible to see the bruise on his cheekbone.
They look so good together, people like the combination of handsome men and beautiful women, and think it is a match made in heaven. If I stood there, I would be ridiculed and asked if the female host had any connections to become a host.
"If we feel uncomfortable, let's leave." Yan Wenbo reminded me again.
I put the lollipop into my mouth, and the sweet orange flavor filled my entire mouth, it was so bitter.
There is always bitterness in this world that even candy cannot cover up.
Ji Suting on the stage didn't look abnormal at all. He was still so handsome that made girls jealous. His eyes were clear and bright. He made a witty remark or two from time to time, or showed some dog food with Hua Siyu, which made the audience scream.
A few minutes ago I decided to forget him, but now I realize that I was too naive. It is not that easy to forget someone.
I tugged at Yan Wenbo's sleeve, motioning him to go out with me.
The auditorium was so crowded and the air was so thin that I could hardly breathe.
We found a bench and sat down. I sat there quietly, looking up at the moon emerging from the clouds in a crescent shape. The quietness was only on the surface, as my heart was already surging.
He raised his hand and touched the face that was hit by Hua Siyu last night. It seemed to be still burning and would not go away for a long time.
"You're not wrong." Yan Wenbo said without thinking.
It took me a while to realize that he was talking about me being cheated on by a mistress. I grinned and said, "Of course I'm not wrong."
I am glad that things did not develop like they did a year ago. I don’t need everyone to judge whether I was right or wrong. Instead, only a few people know about it, and these few people understand that I am the victim in this matter.
"Cun Zhiwei, I like you." Yan Wenbo said.
"Yeah, I know." I nodded.
I'm not a fool. If he didn't like me, he wouldn't stay by my side like this. If he didn't like me, he wouldn't fight with my good brother because of me.
But right now, I can't promise him anything.
"I know now is not the time to talk about this. It seems like I'm taking advantage of someone's misfortune. I just want to tell you that you are not wrong. It's not that no one likes you. It's just that you met Ji Suting at the wrong time." Yan Wenbo explained in a panic, scratching his head, trying to think of some words that could comfort me.
He is usually carefree, but he can say so much. He must have done his homework before.
"Don't worry, I'm fine!" I gave him a bright smile, "How can I be defeated so easily? There are still many handsome men in the world waiting for my favor!"
"Sir, can you let me take a seat in advance? If you are in the mood, please pamper me first?"
"Pfft—" I burst out laughing, "Okay, when I'm in the mood, I'll favor you first."
We didn't speak again until Xu Meng'er ran over breathlessly and shouted at me, "Zhiwei, I finally found you. Shi Shuxia is missing!"
"What?"
When I was feeling sad and depressed, Shi Shuxia disappeared. Xu Meng'er called her many times but her phone was always turned off. She looked for her everywhere but there was no trace of her. Finally, she found me and asked me to help look for her.
At first Yan Wenbo was looking for it with us, but then he received a phone call and seemed to have something urgent, so he left in a hurry. Xu Meng'er and I were left wandering around the campus like headless flies.
Apart from Ren Xiaoqi, I have never made any real friends. People's hearts are not something that can be formed just by meeting each other. Shi Shuxia is a rare person. Although Xu Meng'er made me feel disgusted when we first met, after getting along with each other, I found that she really cared about us. Otherwise, she would not be so nervous because of Shi Shuxia's temporary loss of contact. However, I still cannot get too close to Xu Meng'er. Perhaps the first impression is too important.
Only Shi Shuxia really came closer to my heart little by little. It was she who gave me the first warmth in this school besides Ji Suting. It was also she who taught me what gentleness is imperceptibly and made me no longer indifferent to the people around me.
When I was little, I often complained to my mother, "Other people have brothers and sisters, why don't I have one? I hope there is someone who can tolerate my shortcomings and give me warmth." My mother always laughed at me and said that I was the only one who could be a sister to others, and it was impossible for me to have a sister. It was not until I met Shi Shuxia that I gradually had that feeling.
To me, she is a special person.
"Zhiwei, I get it, come quickly!" Xu Meng'er called me and sent me a location on WeChat, and I quickly rushed over.
When I arrived, Shi Shuxia was standing in the corner leaning against a tree. In the shadow, I could only make out this person and couldn't see anything else.
I approached slowly. Her appearance was heartbreaking. Her hair was messy and had some grass stuck in it. There was a clear slap mark on her right cheek with bloodstains, which looked like she was scratched by long nails. The collar of was torn open and two buttons were broken. She was clutching her chest tightly. When she saw me and Xu Meng'er, tears flowed down her face. She threw herself into my arms tremblingly, calling my name over and over again.
"Zhiwei... Zhiwei..."
I patted her back and comforted her, but I didn't dare ask what happened for fear of irritating her.
"What's going on? Didn't we agree to meet at the entrance of the auditorium? Why are you here?" Xu Meng'er took a step back in disgust. Seeing her shoes stained with mud, she frowned unhappily. "Do you know that we have been looking for you everywhere? What happened?"
"Cun Zhiwei, you really don't even have me in your eyes!"
I turned around and saw Ren Xiaoqi standing not far away looking at me. From her position, I should have seen her as soon as I came over, but my eyes were on Shi Shuxia and I didn't notice her presence at all.
"Did you do this?" This question does not require an answer, the question itself is the answer.
"It seems like you already know the answer." Ren Xiaoqi smiled, looking uglier than crying, "Why don't you ask me why I did this?"
"I know that without asking." Of course I know, because we used to be such close friends.
She was a person who clearly distinguished between love and hate. In her world, there were only two words: her own people and outsiders. Along with the word "my own people", there was another word, which was "lifetime". Perhaps because of her family, she had a strong possessiveness. She would never allow her friends to have other friends besides her, not even lovers. This possessiveness lasted for two years on me and led to a huge tragedy.
It's not like we haven't talked about this before, but every conversation ends with her screaming like crazy.
From childhood to adulthood, no one has ever told her that this is wrong. She herself is paranoid and believes that this is how things should be, that friends should be together for life, and that friends are just two people, and there should be no third person involved .
I can't blame her for being like this, but I can't agree with her either.
She leaned against the tree and lowered her head to light a cigarette for herself. We both used to hate smoking. Whenever she smelled the smoke, she would think of her irresponsible father. I didn't touch it because my grandmother didn't like it.
I felt very sad and wanted to stop it, but I was afraid that what I said would be harsh and mean.
At this moment, I finally realized that we could never go back, not even as just friends.
She took a big puff, and a thin cigarette quickly burned out. The cigarette butt was thrown on the ground and crushed with her feet. She looked up at me, covering her sadness with anger. She asked me: "You know? What do you know ? If you knew everything, you wouldn't disappear from my world without leaving me any contact information. If you knew everything, you wouldn't have been here for so long without even thinking of me. Cun Zhiwei, tell me, what do you know?"
"Ren Xiaoqi, what exactly do you want?" I asked her back with a new question.
"What do I want?" She laughed wildly. "Don't you know what I want? I want to destroy her. If I destroy her, will you come back to me and continue to be my good friend?"
"Xiaoqi, don't go crazy anymore. People can't live in the past forever. You and I should start over. Didn't that incident teach you a lesson?"
"Lesson? What lesson? Was I expelled from school? Or was my father, who didn't care whether I lived or died, took me home and beat me up, saying that I was a disgrace? Then he spent money to send me to a remote school so that I wouldn't be an eyesore in front of him."
"I...I didn't know what happened to you, but everything between us has nothing to do with Shi Shuxia. Why did you bring her here and bully her like this?"
"Nothing to do with it? Cun Zhiwei, don't think I don't know. You've been with her every day, eating together and attending classes together. Did you know that? I was so mad when I saw you two like this in the corner! It should have been me standing next to you! It should have been me!"
Then I remembered that Shi Shuxia had told me before that she felt like she was being watched. Now it seemed that it was Ren Xiaoqi who had been secretly observing all this.
Her possessiveness is also one of the reasons why I want to abandon the past, a reason I don't want to mention in my life. I stopped having that dream after I met Ji Suting. Before, I always woke up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night and couldn't fall asleep again.
"Are you crazy? No one is supposed to be with anyone for a lifetime. Not others, not you and me. We will always have our own families and our own lives." No one will depend on anyone for a lifetime. Whether it's me or her, we are ultimately two independent individuals and will take different paths.
"I don't care, Cun Zhiwei, you can't avoid me, I must have you stay by my side! Absolutely!" Ren Xiaoqi yelled regardless, just like when I talked to her that year.
"You're crazy!" Seeing her like this, I felt heartbroken and scared.
She is a person who will do anything when she goes crazy. I don't know what she will say or do next.
Maybe my mood has changed. When I first met her, I thought she was good this way. I could say whatever I wanted to say, without any intrigue, and I didn't have to worry about her stabbing me in the back. But now, she scares me like this, and I can't help but want to retreat and don't want to look back on the past.
Maybe I was already afraid when that incident happened, but I was more afraid of loneliness than of her.
The two of us snuggled together like two poor little animals, absorbing the warmth and telling ourselves that we are not alone, we just have few friends.
I thought Ren Xiaoqi would continue to go crazy, but she suddenly became quiet and lit another cigarette for herself. In the flickering light, I saw the determination on her face, which made me even more terrified.
"Cun Zhiwei, do you still remember Wang Zijia?" She looked up and suddenly asked me.
Prince A.
The name made me feel like I was struck by lightning. I stood there stiffly, my whole body cold.
Shi Shuxia shook me several times before I came to my senses. I hurriedly reached into my pocket for a lollipop that Yan Wenbo had given me. My hands were shaking, and I tried several times to open the package but failed.
"Zhiwei, are you okay?" Shi Shuxia was more worried about me than herself. She took the candy from my hand, opened it, and put it in my mouth.
The sweet taste brought me back to reality and my body warmed up a little. Looking at the worried faces of Shi Shuxia and Xu Meng'er, I was touched and finally not so scared anymore.
"Inch knows little."
A man standing behind Xu Meng'er greeted me, and then I realized that Li Chongyang was also here.
"Long time no see, you've changed a lot." He smiled and pointed at his hair. Before I could ask, he had already answered my question, "I was dragged here by Ren Xiaoqi. I'm sorry, I just wanted to see you, but I didn't expect to become her accomplice."
He was my high school classmate. At that time, neither of us was an excellent student. We sat in the front and back seats and would occasionally chat, but we wouldn't say much. After all, Ren Xiaoqi and I were two different kinds of people.
Li Chongyang was a relatively thin boy, or, to put it nicely, handsome. In many people's eyes, he didn't look like a man, and was often bullied because of this. At that time, Ren Xiaoqi and I were the two female bullies in the class. I really couldn't stand seeing someone being bullied because of his appearance, so I stood up and shouted to a group of people: "I'm telling you, Li Chongyang is under my protection. If you bully him again, you're going against me."
The whole class looked at me with strange eyes and there was silence.
From that day on, no one dared to bully him, at least not in front of me. Li Chongyang would often bring food and drinks to me and Ren Xiaoqi, just like a gangster paying a visit to his boss. His "whatever the boss says goes" attitude made Ren Xiaoqi laugh many times.
Li Chongyang said that he had been looking for my contact information after graduating from high school. If Ren Xiaoqi hadn't suddenly contacted him, he might have been working in vain for a long time.
While saying these words, Li Chongyang's eyes were always on Xu Meng'er.
I understand exactly what that look means, because that's how I once looked at Ji Suting.