Chapter 5 I would rather time be so cruel 04
I had a very long dream.
In the dream, I was naked, lying in thick milky white fog, a pair of rough hands stroked my body, hot palms rubbing my cold skin. I couldn't move, a hypnotic nocturne echoed in my brain, and a voice in the nocturne said "I love you" vaguely.
The red mandala flowers fell from the sky and burned into fire on me. The scorching heat and burning pain made me cry unconsciously. I watched myself soaking in the sea of tears, burning my body and soul with the petals, burning into ashes of despair...
When I woke up, my whole body was in pain and I opened my eyes to find myself in an unfamiliar hotel room.
The clothes I wore last night were placed on the bedside table. Although they were folded, they were not folded neatly. I sat up, lifted the quilt, and found that I was naked under the quilt.
There was a vague feeling of discomfort and pain between my legs. I subconsciously thought of something and hurriedly pushed the quilt aside. I saw a small blood-red flower blooming on the snow-white messy sheets under me, which looked very much like the red mandala in my dream.
So sad, so desperate.
I forced myself to calm down. It was impossible, impossible . There must be some misunderstanding here.
I turned over the pillows, quilts, drawers, and finally the pile of folded clothes, and finally I found my phone.
Several MMS messages came in, and I opened them with shaking hands. When I saw the pictures, I screamed and threw the phone onto the bed. Clenching my fists, I mustered up the courage to pick up the phone again and carefully flipped through the photos.
There were five or six photos on the screen. The heroine in the photos was me, with my eyes closed, fast asleep, my naked body held in the arms of a man. The man looked very affectionate, and cleverly used the angle to block the camera, so I couldn't see his face clearly, but the profile of one of the photos looked a lot like... Xue Ye!
I found the sender, dialed the number, held my breath and dared not make a sound.
After a long and difficult wait, someone answered the phone.
"Hello, Brother Ye is not..."
I hung up the phone in a hurry, tears welling up in my eyes. The hand in my dream, the mandala in my dream, the fire in my dream, were all real.
Xue Ye? Xue Ye! It's him, that bastard!
——I tell you, I will definitely get her.
I held my head and shook my head desperately. The previous words and reality were torturing me. The air was filled with the smell of sin, and I felt like I was about to die in this dirty room.
I don't know what happened, but I know that I was plotted against and harmed.
With shaking hands, I searched for the address book. Because of the shaking hands, I dialed the number several times before I could get it through.
"Little August, what do you want from your sister?"
July’s voice is still so beautiful. When I hear her voice, I just want to cry.
"July, July... July..." I heard myself sobbing. I wanted to tell her what happened to me, I wanted to tell her that I was in pain, I wanted her to tell me what to do.
I kept shaking, my muscles seemed stiff, and only hot tears flooded my eyes.
"What's wrong? Don't cry yet. Okay, you don't have to tell me what happened yet. If you don't want to talk, send me the address."
"By the way, if you don't know the address, please send me the location via WeChat. I added you on WeChat last week when I was in the hospital. That July is me..."
I listened to her calm tone and calmed down a little. Through my tearful eyes, I obediently opened WeChat and sent her my location. After sending it, I rushed into the bathroom and scrubbed myself hard from inside to outside many times. Finally, I put on clothes haphazardly to cover up the ugliness on my body and collapsed on the bed.
I tried hard to calm myself down, but the tears kept flowing.
The temperature in the room was bone-chillingly cold. I felt like this room was a coffin, burying all my strength and regrets. I regretted why I followed Zhong Man'er and why I agreed to go to Fang Xuyu's birthday party.
I hugged myself tightly, my head started to hurt again, my body and mind were so tired that I couldn't bear it. In my gradually blurred consciousness, I heard July's cry and saw her rushing in with a shocked face.
I felt like I was being held up by someone, my body was as light as a feather, and my soul was as heavy as Mount Tai. Objects on both sides receded in my slightly closed eyes and became bright white dots of light.
"Leave me all the surveillance footage of your hotel from last night to noon today."
"I'm in charge of your boss and the rules!"
"There's no surveillance. I'll call someone to smash your store. Believe it or not! Stop talking nonsense!"
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The furious voice roared out from my ears again and again. I heard the hoarseness in July's shouting and a few cold tears dripped down her cheeks.
"It's okay, it's okay. Sister will take you to the hospital right away." She hugged me and comforted me like a child.
"Don't tell my family, I'm fine, don't cry..."
I heard my own voice as weak as a thread.
I wanted to raise my hand to wipe her tears, but before my hand could reach her face, my head sank and I fell into darkness.
When I opened my eyes, July's face came closer to me. She was still anxious to confirm whether I was awake, and waved her hand in front of my eyes several times.
"I'm awake..." I moved my throat, and there seemed to be a taste of blood in my dry throat.
"Don't worry, your family doesn't know. I told you to stay here for two days before going back." July 5th got up and tucked the quilt for me, as if he knew what I was thinking.
The next second, she looked at me seriously, with a fierce light flashing in her eyes: "Who did it? Who dares to do this to you?"
I thought of how she dealt with Jin Li before, and kept silent.
I don't want July to get into trouble because of me, not at all.
Both Zhong Man'er and Xue Ye are not easy to deal with. Although July is capable of standing up for me, I don't want to see her in danger.
"I would have found out even if you didn't tell me. Wei Yang, don't be silly. In this world, some things have to be solved by an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. You are kind and patient, and you think you are great, but others treat you like a soft persimmon that is easy to bully. Do you understand?"
After saying that, she picked up the fruit knife next to her, lowered her head and peeled the apple, one cut at a time, quickly and fiercely.
"I know."
"You know shit! Did you know that you would be lying here with a fever today? I saw it on the bed sheet this morning. If I knew who did it, I would castrate him!" She quickly turned the half-peeled apple in her hand and spoke harshly and urgently.
"Wei Yang." Seeing that I didn't say anything, she stared at me and softened her tone, "You really don't plan to tell me?"
I closed my eyes and said, "Qiyue, I know you care about me, but I don't want to care about this matter now. Can we talk about it later? My mother is about to give birth to a baby, and I want to go and accompany her."
She hadn't finished peeling the apple yet, so she took a big bite out of it as if to vent her anger.
"Promise me, okay? Let's put this matter aside for now and pretend it never happened." I reached out my hand from under the quilt and tried to beg her.
July raised her apple to hit me, then slowly moved it to her mouth and took a bite.
"Promise me?"
She kept silent and seemed angry.
"July?"
"I promise you, I won't cause any trouble during this period. If I find out who did it..."
"What will happen to you?" I felt uneasy.
"Didn't I tell you that the men were castrated and the women were raped?"
She spoke obscenely, but none of her words sounded like a joke.
I sighed in my heart.
I am actually the kind of person who cannot accept something when it happens, but will try to accept it after it passes. However, I underestimated the severity of the incident and its impact on me, and overestimated my ability to bear it.
I had nightmares all night, the touch of my hand and the nausea kept replaying in my dreams. I woke up in the middle of the night, the impenetrable darkness in the void of light and shadow stimulated my nerves, and I suddenly felt that I was in hell.
I asked Yang Liu to help me apply for leave of absence from school, citing illness as the reason.
Fang Xuyu called me once and asked about my situation.
He didn't know what happened to me that night, but if it weren't for him, I wouldn't have ended up like this.
So, I was very cold to Fang Xuyou. He thought I was in a bad mood because of my mother's matter and didn't care.
The next day, I was discharged from the hospital, returned home, took a long bath, turned off the lights, let the hot water flow over my skin, I covered my face, tears flowed between my invisible fingers.
I have a deep understanding that people become sensitive and mean after being hurt.
My body is dirty.
