Chapter 5: First Love 3
In a quiet room.
I stood beside Lagude, who looked at me and smiled at me comfortingly. I smiled back at him, saying "It's okay".
It feels so good to know that no matter what I become, there are people who care about me.
Especially, after being hurt by the person I like.
I looked at Jiusha on the side, wondering how I should face him after today.
Jiusha and Akashi were in opposition. Jiusha was nervous and on guard, while Akashi seemed particularly relaxed. He put his hands in his pockets casually, looked at Jiusha, smiled slightly and said: "You have no right, not to mention..."
He said half of the words, but he made the other person's heart hang high.
"You said I have no rights, what else?" Sure enough, Jiusha couldn't help it, and after waiting for , he urged.
Akashi teacher smiled, a smile that was so confident that he seemed to have the whole world under his control, which made him look even more noble and elegant, and also a bit evil. I shuddered all over, and was glad that I was not standing on the opposite side of Akashi teacher, otherwise, with my level, I would probably be tortured to death by him without knowing how.
"What's more, Qiqi is not a member of the vampire clan. At least for now, she is not a real vampire clan member. You certainly have no right to hunt her." Teacher Akashi smiled and said calmly, word by word, "Unless you want your hunter license to be revoked."
"How is that possible? I clearly saw her--" Jiusha looked at me, then at Teacher Akashi, not knowing whether to believe his own eyes or what Teacher Akashi said.
"Half a year ago, Qiqi received a heart transplant and her body began to mutate little by little. This mutation was involuntary and not completely completed. Who dares to conclude that she is already a vampire? Jiusha, do you dare?"
"How could this happen?" Jiusha looked at me in surprise, "Qiqi, what Mr. Akashi said is true. Did you really start to mutate because of the heart transplant surgery?"
I looked at Jiusha with a complicated expression for a while before nodding: "Yes."
Has the truth finally been revealed? But now, isn't it too late for Jiusha and me?
My heart aches dully.
The more I knew clearly that the relationship between Jiusha and I ended when he swung his sword at me without hesitation, the more my heart ached.
I tried very hard to ignore the dull pain. Even though it was difficult, I think one day this feeling would disappear.
Jiusha, I have finally decided to give up on you.
I looked at Jiusha sadly, and saw a look of guilt gradually appearing on his face, but my heart did not feel any better.
"Then why didn't you tell me earlier? I almost killed you just now." Jiusha said.
"Are you talking about just now?" I looked at him, amused by his words. "As soon as you opened your mouth, you determined all my sins. You didn't even give me a chance to speak, and you didn't believe anything I said. How do you want me to explain?"
"I..." Jiusha was speechless for a moment, looking at me apologetically, "I'm sorry, Qiqi, I didn't know, I... and, hunting the vampires is my responsibility, Qiqi, I-"
"I've told you several times, Qiqi is not a vampire." Lagude interrupted Jiusha angrily, "Even if Qiqi really becomes a vampire one day, you will never have the chance to hunt her, because Qiqi will never hurt humans."
“What do you know? After humans mutated into vampires, due to their lack of abilities, they had to eat blood to survive. At that time, in order to stay alive, Qiqi would slowly... have to..." Although Jiusha did not finish his words, we all understood what he meant .
I saw that Ragude and Akashi-sensei's expressions turned ugly at the same time, and I knew in my heart that what Jiusha said must be true. Although I don't know why Ragude also knows so clearly, but if it is true, then...
I can’t imagine that one day I will become a monster that constantly sucks human blood.
"If that's the case, I would rather die." After a long time, my empty voice rang out in the room.
"If that's the case, I will still kill Qiqi." Unexpectedly, as I spoke, Jiusha also spoke.
The room fell silent again.
Even though I had already said that I would rather die, I still felt extremely sad
Didn’t you know it just now?
As long as I become a vampire, he will definitely kill me.
But such a cold attitude, and the words that I was destined to attack humans, still made my heart ache as if it was being cut by a knife.
"Qiqi won't do that. Damn it, are you deaf? I've told you so many times that Qiqi will never hurt anyone else. She is the kindest girl in the world." Lagood looked at my face which was losing its color little by little, and couldn't help but yell at Jiusha.
I looked at him, seeing him glaring at Jiusha angrily, and my heart warmed up little by little.
At least there is this guy who believes in me.
"Why are you so confident? No one, when facing life, can sacrifice himself for others." Jiusha said affirmatively.
"Who said that? Qiqi definitely won't do that." Facing Jiusha's confidence, Lagude said more decisively, "Besides, even if Qiqi becomes a vampire, and she really needs to suck blood, don't she still have me?"
"I volunteer to be Qiqi's blood supplier. As long as she is hungry, I welcome her to suck my blood at any time." Lagude said loudly. The words were like thunder, booming in the small room and making my whole head buzz.
"Are you crazy? Do you know what you are talking about?" After a while, Jiusha screamed in disbelief, "You said you want to provide your blood for the vampire? She will suck all your blood and make you die of bleeding."
"Even so, I did it voluntarily." Lagude said. As he said this, he looked up with a bit of pride, as if it was a wonderful thing for me to suck his blood and he had been looking forward to it for a long time.
"I..." Even if Lagood is willing, I absolutely don't want to hurt him again.
"Qiqi, don't say anything, unless you are as unconfident in yourself as that annoying guy." Seeing me speak, Lagu pulled my hand and said.
"But it's also true that I've hurt you twice."
If I were facing other boys at this moment, I think I might still have the confidence to maintain self-control. But Lagude - facing him, I really don't have much confidence. It's just that every time I get close to him, as soon as I smell his scent, my body will surge with strong desires from the bottom of my heart that I can't control at all. In that case, what's the use of just having confidence?
"No, you won't really hurt me. Otherwise, why is it that you sucked my blood twice, and each time you felt you couldn't control yourself, but not once did you put me in real danger, right? You know, my body is very weak, and if you go a little too far, I might die immediately." Lagood winked at me and comforted me.
Uh - I looked at him hesitantly: This sounds like it makes sense, but can the truth really be explained this way?
"Okay, don't think about it. No matter what, I will always believe in you, so you are not allowed to doubt yourself, let alone give up on yourself. Do you hear me?" Lagude held my hand tightly until it hurt, and then he slowly loosened his grip. "Don't show that desperate expression just now, and don't act like you are going to give up on yourself."
"Ai Qiqi, you are very good. You don't need to deny yourself just because of anyone else's denial." Lagude said, and then turned around to glare at Jiusha.
My heart trembled violently because of his words: He saw it, Lagude saw it, when Jiusha swung his sword at me, he saw all my despair and sorrow at that moment!
I don't know how to describe my mood at this moment. Besides the feeling of warmth, it also feels like I'm not alone. It turns out that I'm not as bad as I thought. It turns out that there are people who understand me and are willing to accompany me.
Don't deny yourself.
Don't give up on yourself.
Because I still have him...
I lowered my head and looked at Lagood holding my hand. Slowly, courage returned to my heart bit by bit.
"Jiusha, no matter what you think of me, I will prove to you that all your thoughts and guesses must be wrong. Don't say that I am not a vampire yet. If one day I really become a vampire, I will definitely not harm humans and give you the opportunity to kill me."
"I, Ai Qiqi, will not prolong my life by hurting others as you think. I disdain and will never do that."
I raised my head and looked at Jiusha with a hint of pride and confidence.
"Yes, that's right, that's exactly the kind of momentum we need." Lagude shouted excitedly, "Listen, Nine, based on what you just did, you are not worthy of Qiqi at all. And I have made up my mind today that I will never, ever, ever hand Qiqi over to a scumbag like you."
"Humph, whether you intend to like Kiki, hate Kiki, or want to hurt Kiki, I will not give you that chance." After Lagood said this loudly, he blew a whistle, and the dogs on the leashes appeared again, biting the ropes on his wheelchair and walked out.
"Let's go." He took my hand and said.
"Okay." I followed his example, raised my head, and left in a very cool manner.
Just as the two of us walked out of Jiusha's house, the hand that was holding mine suddenly went limp, as if all the strength had been drained away.
I lowered my head and realized that Lagude had fainted again.
