People come and go in the hospital. There are sad wails and hearty laughter. People are happy or sad about their own health, the health of their loved ones and their friends. Very few people pay attention to the stranger huddled in the corner.
Outside the intensive care unit, I sat on a bench and waited quietly. The doctor said that Sheng Yinuo was seriously injured and a successful operation was only the first step for him to survive. The next three days would be crucial.
His parents have been up all night and are now sitting in the lounge. The word "rest" is something that we cannot do now.
Yu Xia came before the operation was over. After asking Cheng Jiayang about what happened, he stayed with me instead of Cheng Jiayang.
Sheng Yinuo's parents also came with him. They leaned on each other in grief, relying on each other to avoid collapsing.
I also wanted someone to lean on, but every time I turned to look at Yu Xia, his eyes were always flickering. There were even a few times when he stretched out his hand to me, but he pulled it back the moment .
I stood up and looked through the glass at Sheng Yinuo in the intensive care unit, who was plugged full of tubes. I couldn't even tell if he was still breathing. He lay there quietly, without any noise or noise, but it reminded me of the day my father left me.
At that time, Sheng Yinuo was a naughty child who couldn't sit still, but after seeing my sadness, he sat beside me for a whole day and said to me over and over again: "Su Bei, it's okay, don't be so sad, it will be okay."
I can’t remember how many times he said this. By the end, his voice was a little hoarse and he had no sound when he cried.
Sheng Yinuo, please wake up. I want to hear you say "Su Bei, it's okay" to me again, and then give me a smile that is uglier than crying, and let me laugh at you, okay?
Sheng Yinuo, I'm not sad, really, not sad at all. I know you will be fine, right?
"Su Bei..." Yu Xia called my name in a dry voice.
"I'm fine, Sheng Yinuo wouldn't want me to cry." After that year, I tried not to cry in front of Sheng Yinuo, but I couldn't help it. But this time I didn't cry, I knew that when I cried, he would be more sad than me.
"Would you like something to drink?" he asked.
"No, just buy some for your uncle and aunt!"
Yu Xia turned and left. Looking at his back, I remembered that year when he stayed with me like this.
Compared to Sheng Yinuo who kept repeating the same words, he was much quieter. He had always been a person who didn't like to talk much, and that had never changed over the years.
That year, the little me knelt beside the mourning hall, and Sheng Yinuo and Yu Xia knelt beside me.
They stayed with me like this, and when I fell down due to sleepiness, there was always a shoulder for me to lean on.
Later, Yu Xia told me: "We can't completely empathize with each other, but as friends, what we can do is to accompany each other all the time."
Yu Xia, are you feeling the same pain as I am now? Or even more painful than I am?
"Su Bei, Yu Xia, you have been taking care of Nuo Nuo for a long time, go back and have some rest!" Sheng Yinuo's mother was supported by Uncle Sheng and walked out of the lounge. Her hair was a little messy, and her red and swollen eyes formed a sharp contrast with her pale face.
"Auntie, I'm not tired..." I said.
"Listen to your aunt and go back to have a good rest. If Nuonuo wakes up and sees you two fall down, he will be distressed, right? Yu Xia, listen to your aunt and take Su Bei back, okay? You can't let your parents worry anymore."
Listening to my aunt's words, tears almost came out of my eyes.
Yu Xia nodded: "Well, we will come to take over you later, you should also have a good rest. Sheng Yinuo would definitely not want you to be exhausted for him."
"Yeah, okay."
Yu Xia pulled me out of the hospital. The glaring sunlight made it impossible for me to open my eyes, and before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face.
"Go back!" As soon as we went out, Yu Xia let go of my hand and spoke tiredly and indifferently.
"Yu Xia..." I was already very sad because of Sheng Yinuo, and Yu Xia's attitude at this time made me even more heartbroken. I couldn't help but ask, "What's wrong with you?"
I grabbed his sleeve and refused to let go, choking with sobs.
"Su Bei..." Yu Xia turned her head and looked at me with a sad face, almost pleading, "Can you go back?"
After a long, long time, I had lost everything I could lose, and then I met the glamorous Yan Anyan. She told me everything with a laugh, and then I realized that at that time I was only immersed in my own sadness and completely ignored Yu Xia beside me.
Yan Anyan said: "Su Bei, my impression of you has never changed. You are too selfish. You always think you are good to everyone and hope that everyone will be good to you. Once something goes wrong, you want to get to the bottom of it, but you never think about whether the other person wants to say it or whether there is something unspeakable."
She told me that after Yu Xia learned about Sheng Yinuo's car accident from Cheng Jiayang, he blamed himself for all . He insisted that if he had not told Sheng Yinuo about Chen Hao's harassment of me, and if he had not fought with Chen Hao, Sheng Yinuo would not have caused trouble for Chen Hao, and Chen Hao would not have pushed Sheng Yinuo into the busy road because of too much resentment he had accumulated.
Then, this accident would not have happened, and Sheng Yinuo would still appear in front of us alive and well.
Yu Xia kept blaming himself all the way, but I was so ignorant that I wanted to grab him like a drowning man, and after he drifted away, I blamed him for his indifference.
Just like Yan Anyan said, I have always been a selfish person.
It was not until I realized my selfishness that I began to feel deeply sad about the cycle of fate. My dearest father was also a selfish person. He gave up his life after a long period of loss because he missed the person he loved most. He was liberated, but my mother lived in darkness forever.
Sadly, my father's selfishness was ingrained into me, and for the first time I began to loathe my own genes.
But I can't change anything.
Yu Xia sent me downstairs and left. Seeing him walk into the corridor, I came out of the shadows and walked in another direction.
Based on the bits of information I had gotten from Lin Momo, I found the Forestry University where Chen Hao was studying. Standing at the school gate, looking at the crowds of people coming and going, I suddenly felt a little confused. I didn't know where to start looking, and I didn't know why I came here, even though we had already called the police.
In fact, I don't know why I am doing this useless work. If I could find Chen Hao in school, the police would have caught him long ago. However, Sheng Yinuo is lying on the hospital bed at this moment. If I do nothing, I will feel extremely uneasy.
So, even if it is useless, it is a great comfort to me at this moment.
After standing at the door for a long time, I finally found a classmate on the side of the road and asked, "Excuse me, do you know Chen Hao from your school?"
"Chen Hao? I don't know him."
After taking the first step, it was much easier to ask people later. Although I received negative answers, I still kept asking.
"Hello, do you know Chen Hao from the Department of Literature? Erdong Chen, Hao means vast."
“No.”
"Hello, do you know Chen Hao?"
"Chen Hao? I don't know him."
I asked many people. Those with good tempers would smile at me and say they didn’t know me. Those with bad tempers would wave their hands irritably and tell me to go away. Those who were just looking for fun would tease me and then say something like leave me your phone number.
Just when I was desperate, a boy stopped me and asked, "Are you looking for Chen Hao? The one who likes to ride a motorcycle."
I trotted over to the man, nodded heavily and said, "Yes, that's him. Do you know where he is?"
"Yes, it's at the indoor volleyball court. Come with me!"
I followed the boy towards the indoor volleyball court without any doubt. There were a lot of people along the way. I never expected that after I arrived at the door of the volleyball court, I would be suddenly pushed in. The door was slammed shut, and no matter how I knocked on the door, no one paid any attention.
I tried to find a window to get out, but I found that the windows here were very high and I couldn't climb in. I wanted to take out my cell phone to call for help, but I was in the hospital all night yesterday and I didn't know when it was turned off.
My heart was filled with despair. I slid down the wall. My mind was filled with Sheng Yinuo's face. He taught me earnestly, "Su Bei, how many times have I told you not to trust others easily? Why don't you learn your lesson?"
Then he said, "Su Bei, how can I bear to leave you when you are like this?"
"Then don't leave!" I yelled into the air, "I won't let you leave me!"
When I came to my senses, I realized that all this was just my imagination. Sheng Yinuo was still lying in the hospital, and I was locked up in a place where I didn't know when I would be discovered.
Maybe I was too tired last night, I actually fell into a deep sleep, and when I opened my eyes again, it was already dark. I stood up, and my joints ached badly.
"Hey, the girl is awake!" A voice came from the darkness.
I tried hard to identify the direction of the sound, and suddenly all the lights were turned on, making it impossible for me to open my eyes.
"You've locked me up for so long, what on earth do you want to do?" After my eyes finally adjusted to the brightness of the light, I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the person in front of me, only to find that it was a man with yellow hair whom I didn't recognize.
"Oh, you're finally awake." The yellow-haired man walked over to me with a wicked smile, pinching my chin with his hand, "Do you know that you look very charming when you are asleep? I almost couldn't help myself."
"Get lost!" I opened his hand and took a step back. I wanted to rush out, but I found two people standing behind me. They blocked my way like two door gods. "I want to go back."
"Go back? Didn't you say you were going to look for Chen Hao? Why are you leaving before you even find him?" He smiled and moved closer to me, "If you give me a kiss, maybe I'll consider telling you where Chen Hao is!"
"Get out of here!" I waved my hand, intending to slap him, but unexpectedly the yellow-haired man grabbed my arm, preventing me from breaking free.
"I don't like little wild cats." The yellow-haired man grabbed my arm and threw me against the wall. I felt a sharp pain in my back. My head buzzed and my body became stiff for a moment.
Then, both of my arms were pressed against the wall at the same time, and people around me started cheering and whistling.
Huang Mao grinned and shouted to the people around him: "Let me try first, then you can try again."
I am not a child anymore. Of course I understand the meaning behind this sentence. My whole body starts to shudder. My strength gradually returns to my body. I struggle desperately: "Let me go! Let me go! Let me go——"
"Be good, I will take good care of you."
Just when the yellow-haired man was about to take further action, a cold but unyielding voice sounded: "Let her go."
A strange man appeared on the volleyball court. The other guys who were originally arrogant immediately fell silent and shouted respectfully, "Brother Xu."
"I'm taking this girl away. If Chen Hao has any objections, let him come to me."
I was dragged out of the volleyball room like a chick by a sudden stranger. It was not until we reached the crowded boulevard that I breathed a sigh of relief and felt grateful to this man.
"Thank you for saving me."
"After you exit the school gate, turn right and the third shop is a coffee shop. The person who asked me to save you is there." After the man said that, he turned and left. I didn't even see what he looked like. I just remember that those people called him Brother Xu.
The third shop on the right after you go out is a coffee shop called "my coffee". When I pushed the door open, a warm current hit my face, which made me shiver after experiencing the bone-chilling cold. I finally felt a little breath of life.
"Welcome!" The clerk in a maid outfit walked up to me with a smile, "Excuse me, are you alone?"
"I...I'm looking for someone..."
"Su Bei, this way."
In the coffee shop, Yan Anyan sat in a corner and waved to me.
Yan Anyan in front of me was much gentler than when she accused me of harming her. When we sat face to face, I couldn't tell what I felt in my heart. I couldn't believe that she had found someone to save me.
Although only one night , a dramatic change had taken place between us, as if we had gone through a thousand mountains and rivers.
I held the hot water brought by the waiter in both hands, absorbing a little warmth. I looked up at her several times, opened my mouth many times, but still did not ask the questions in my heart.
"Thank...thank you..." I heard myself saying thank you to the person in front of me, my voice a little hoarse.
This was something I had never imagined before, that I would actually say thank you to Yan Anyan.
"I just don't want to make Yu Xia sad." She half leaned on the sofa, and when she changed her posture, her brows slightly frowned. It seemed that the injury on her foot was still painful.
"Yu Xia..."
"Su Bei, I really hate you!" She looked up with tears in her eyes. "You know what? My friend at the Forestry University told me that when you were looking for Chen Hao everywhere, I really wanted Chen Hao to beat you up and let you know that the world is far from as simple as you think. But when I knew you disappeared suddenly, I was scared. I wasn't afraid that something would happen to you, but I was afraid that Yu Xia would be sad and heartbroken because of you."
I looked at her, my mind went blank. Just like she said, I really oversimplified this matter and the world.
"Su Bei, I really hate you." Yan Anyan's tone softened, "But I also know that you are really important to Yu Xia."
"I'm not saying this to make you misunderstand that Yu Xia likes you." She raised her hand and pretended to rub her eyes to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes. "Yu Xia is a gentle person. He can't bear to see anyone around him get hurt."
"I know."
"Now that you know this, I hope you can face up to your feelings for him and Sheng Yinuo, and don't let him get hurt or sad again."
At this time, the man who saved me came in. He walked straight to our side and stood there without saying a word. Yan Anyan looked up at him and said to me, "Saving you doesn't mean I give up Yu Xia."
The man helped Yan Anyan stand up, and the two of them took a few steps with difficulty. Yan Anyan suddenly turned around and said to me: "If you want to know the whereabouts of Chen Hao, you should ask Lin Momo instead of wandering around in Linye like a headless fly. Also, I have found out about the essential oil incident. It was Lin Momo who did it."
How is it possible...
I sat dejectedly on the sofa, not daring to believe what Yan Anyan said. I convinced myself over and over again that all this was not true, and that Yan Anyan had deliberately said it to alienate Lin Momo and me, and she had no evidence.
This is not true…
The water in my hands has turned cold, and the remaining warmth in my fingertips has been swallowed up.
The music and noise around me were blocked out by my body, and my mind was blank. I didn’t know what to think or what to do.
After leaving Forestry University last night, I still went to the hospital. In the end, it was Uncle Sheng who called my mother and asked her to intervene before I left the hospital. They also told me to go to school the next day, otherwise who would make up for the missed lessons after Sheng Yinuo woke up?
Because Lin Momo didn't answer the phone when I called her the day before, I called Xu Shihan. Xu Shihan didn't know about Lin Momo either and just comforted me by saying that everything would be fine.
Will it be okay? I don't know.
I just knew that if I couldn't get in touch with Lin Momo and figure out everything, I would definitely not be okay.
The next day at school, I wanted to find Lin Momo to ask her about Chen Hao in person, but she didn't come to class at all, and her cell phone was still unreachable. She was nowhere to be seen until lunch time.
In the noisy cafeteria, Xu Shihan and I sat face to face, and suddenly I missed the days when five of us sat together.
"Su Bei, are you okay?" Xu Shihan sensitively noticed my emotional changes and asked with concern.
"Ah? No...it's okay, I'm just worried about Sheng Yinuo." I didn't know how to talk about Lin Momo, so I didn't mention her.
Xu Shihan lowered her head and fiddled with the rice in the bowl with the chopsticks in her hand. She had no intention of eating. She sighed and said, "You are distracted by Sheng Yinuo's affairs. I don't know why Momo is often missing recently. She also comes back to the dormitory very late at night, and sometimes she smells of cigarettes and alcohol."
I am a day student. Although Lin Momo is also from this city, she said she doesn't like being questioned by her parents whenever she goes out for a meal, so she chose to live on campus and shares a dormitory with Xu Shihan.
Normally, although she said that college is about being rebellious and crazy, she was still well-behaved at heart. If she hadn't been hanging out with Chen Hao, she wouldn't have smelled of cigarettes and alcohol, which were the two smells she hated the most.
Yan Anyan’s words yesterday echoed in my mind, and I felt strangely anxious.
It seems that the Lin Momo I know and the Lin Momo in reality are two different people.
If Sheng Yinuo's matter is really related to her...
I didn't dare to think any further, so I grabbed Xu Shihan's hand and asked excitedly, "Besides that? Does Momo have any other strange behaviors?"
"Huh?" Xu Shihan seemed startled by the rise in my tone. After calming herself down, she recalled, "Besides that... after she came back, she would often hold her phone and keep sending messages, and sometimes she would even smile foolishly. Sometimes she would bring flowers back, and she always said they were given by her former classmates, but how could any classmates always give red roses? I think Momo must be in love."
Are you in love?
"If you want to know the whereabouts of Chen Hao, you should ask Lin Momo."
"I have checked the matter of the essential oil. It was Lin Momo who did it."
Yan Anyan's words echoed in my ears. I looked up, tears filling my eyes: "Shihan, do you know where Momo is now?"
"I don't know, except that she's been eating at 'SA' a lot lately."
"Shihan, I have something to do and I'm leaving now. Please ask for leave for my afternoon class."
After getting the address information where Lin Momo might be found from Xu Shihan, I immediately ran out like crazy, hailed a taxi on the side of the road and headed straight for "SA".
Standing next to the huge animal sculpture at the entrance of "SA", my mind went blank. My eyes were fixed on the two people sitting opposite each other in the glass window. Even if I didn't want to admit it, I had to face everything in front of me.
At this moment, Lin Momo's face was slightly flushed, and she had a sweet smile on her lips. Chen Hao, who was sitting opposite her, looked indifferent and impatient. Lin Momo was like a clingy little girl, constantly putting food from her plate into Chen Hao's plate, while Chen Hao held his phone and ignored her.
I could have immediately called the police to report Chen Hao's location, but I didn't. Instead, I pushed the door and entered the restaurant.
Because I want to get everything clear before the police catch Chen Hao.
"Welcome."
The waiter smiled at me politely, and the expression on my face seemed a little cold.
After entering the restaurant, I walked straight to the dining table, picked up a cup of warm coffee, and poured it directly over Chen Hao's head.
Pouring out along with the coffee is also my friendship with Lin Momo and the warmth she once brought me.
"Su Bei, are you crazy?" Chen Hao shouted sharply. When he saw it was me, he was stunned.
"Hello sir, is there anything I can help you with?" The waiter came over quickly and asked cautiously when he saw the scene.
Lin Momo, who was standing by, was a little surprised when she saw me, and then she became a little nervous, "Su Bei, why are you here?"
"Why am I here? I see you don't want to see me at all?" I glared at her coldly.
Lin Momo, who was choked by my words and kept silent, looked at Chen Hao who was sitting next to her for help.
Chen Hao glared at me for a while, then said to the waiter beside him: "Please help us change to another private room!"
Soon, the food in the hall was moved to the private room, and I followed Lin and Chen into the room.
After arriving at the private room, Lin Momo glanced at me, then fell to her knees in front of me with a plop, crying: "Su Bei, I know why you came here today. I beg you, please let Chen Hao go."
"What are you doing? Lin Momo, get up!" Before I could react, Chen Hao got angry.
Originally, looking at Lin Momo kneeling humbly in front of me, my heart was filled with sadness, but this sadness was completely shattered by Chen Hao's words.
"Lin Momo..." I looked at her feeling extremely hurt and angry.
This girl, who had brought me warmth time and time again and was my cherished friend, did not comfort or greet me after knowing what I had been through. Instead, she knelt in front of me for the boy who had hurt me and Sheng Yinuo.
Her kneeling confirmed all the doubts in my heart.
"Su Bei, I beg you, please let Chen Hao go."
"Lin Momo...do you know what you are doing?" I asked her.
"I know, I know, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" Lin Momo grabbed my legs and cried and apologized, "Su Bei, I'm sorry, I lied to you. I like Chen Hao, but he's a little rascal, so I didn't dare tell you because I was afraid you would laugh at me. I really like him very much."
"You like him?" I knelt on the ground like her, looking at her tearful eyes, tears also streaming down my face. "Do you know what he did? Do you know what he did to Sheng Yinuo and to me?"
"Su Bei..."
"He! The boy you like, he found someone to insult me ​​yesterday. If I hadn't been rescued, you might not have seen me. Do you know that?"
She looked at me in surprise, apparently not knowing these things.
"It seems that he didn't tell you everything, right? He certainly didn't tell you that he deliberately pushed Sheng Yinuo onto the street and caused Sheng Yinuo to have a car accident. Momo, what is there in a boy like this that is worthy of your love? Why are you still so stubborn?"
"Su Bei, no, no, he didn't mean it, he didn't mean it. What happened to Sheng Yinuo was just an accident, just an accident, Su Bei, you have to believe me, it was just an accident, Chen Hao didn't mean it, he really didn't mean it." Lin Momo grabbed me and explained in a panic, "Su Bei, he really didn't mean it, I beg you, please, let Chen Hao go, okay? I really can't live without him, please let him go."
Lin Momo in front of me made me feel chilled. From the moment she entered the door till now, she just kept helping Chen Hao to get away with it. She never asked, "What's the matter with me?" She also never asked if Sheng Yinuo was okay.
Is this what they call friendship?
"Lin Momo, Sheng Yinuo is lying in the hospital now, and her life or death is uncertain. We are still friends all, but you never asked a single question." I suddenly wanted to laugh. Before I came here, I thought of many excuses to excuse her. When I really saw her, every word she said was a slap in my face. "Have you really considered me and Sheng Yinuo as friends?"
"Su Bei, Su Bei, I'm sorry! I'm sorry! You are really my good friend, I just... I just..."
"You're just worried that I'll report Chen Hao, and that the boy you love will go to jail, so you're upset, right? You just want to tell me that in front of your love, neither my safety nor Sheng Yinuo's life is important, right?" I stood up, wiped the tears from my face, and pressed on one sentence after another, "Nothing can compare to your love, so you show your support for me while sprinkling essential oils on the basketball court floor?"
"Su Bei..." Lin Momo raised her head and looked at me in astonishment, "How did you know?"
Not a denial, not an apology, but...how did you know.
Lin Momo admitted . I felt that it was ridiculous for me to keep making excuses for her. It was extremely ridiculous.
"Why?" Even at this moment, I still want to hear an answer, even though I know that this answer will stab me in the heart again.
"Because... because of Chen Hao..." She said the word Chen Hao very softly, but I still heard it.
"Chen Hao?"
The answer is ridiculous...
"Chen Hao said that he likes girls like you, right?"
This was all so ridiculous that I stood there in a daze, with an extremely ugly smile on the corner of my mouth.
It was just because of Chen Hao's wishful thinking that I became hated and was framed once, and this frame-up directly led to the tragedy that followed.
I really want to know, did Lin Momo feel a little guilty when she stood by my side and comforted me when I was misunderstood?
I looked at Lin Momo in front of me, raised my hand, and just wanted to give her a hard slap, so that she could wake up a little and stop being stupid...
But as soon as he raised his hand, he was stopped by a powerful force.
"That's enough!" Chen Hao shook off my hand and pulled up Lin Momo who was kneeling on the ground. "Su Bei, if you have any anger, just come to me. Don't make things difficult for Momo."
"You two have become so in love and protective of each other now? It's really touching!" I looked at Chen Hao with a mocking expression, my eyes full of hatred, "Chen Hao, do you know that because of you, Sheng Yinuo is now in the hospital with his life or death in danger! You..."
Before I could finish my words, my cell phone suddenly rang. After I answered the call, it was as if something in my heart collapsed.
Yu Xia said: "Su Bei, come to the hospital quickly, Sheng Yinuo is dying."
Having experienced a life-and-death situation, I certainly understood what the three words “no more” meant. I ran out like crazy, with Lin Momo’s cries behind me.
But it doesn’t matter anymore. It doesn’t matter anymore.
Sheng Yinuo, I just want you to be well, wait for me to go to the hospital, survive well, and continue to be crazy and play with me. As long as you are here, everything else is not important.
Many past scenes appeared before my eyes.
With the sun shining on his head, he patted the back seat of the bicycle with a bright expression and said to me, Su Bei, come, let's go to school together.
And every time he shot, he would habitually look at me with a boastful expression and smile.
He is the one who always gives me the warmest and gentlest comfort when I am unhappy.
The one who pretended to put the breakfast prepared by Jingxin into my schoolbag as if it was something he bought casually.
The one who was surrounded by screams from many girls, but always kept insisting that he would love me and take care of me for the rest of his life.
After my father passed away, I thought I had lost the ability to be happy.
If it weren't for him and Yu Xia, my world would not have any color.
I have prayed countless times in my heart, praying to God not to take away the most important color in my life.