Chapter 44: Forty-four It

seemed like a century had passed before Chen Yun quietly opened her eyes.

She didn't know whether Song Fenglin was asleep or not, she could only judge by feeling. After thinking about it, she didn't dare to move too much, so she closed her eyes and said nothing.

But just because one appears calm on the outside doesn't mean that one's heart is calm as well.

After all, what happened in just 24 hours was really alarming.

Chen Yun felt that the light in the interrogation room was shining on her head, and the truth would be revealed at any time.

She didn't know what mood to use to face it. She felt as if she had fallen into an ice cave in the summer, shivering for no reason.

As soon as he moved, Song Fenglin noticed it.

He has always had a light sleep, a habit he developed from his student days when he went to bed at three in the morning and got up at five in the morning.

Therefore, when the two children were just born, he was the most restless, waking up a hundred or eighty times a night.

So the new habit I've developed is to subconsciously reach out and pat things when there's any sign of trouble.

His palms are broad and generous, which really makes people feel at ease and comforted.

This kind of skin-to-skin warmth does not have a trace of romance, at least for Chen Yun.

There is a saying that goes, a marriage without sex will end sooner or later.

If she doesn't want to take this step, she has to make changes.

How to change it? There is obviously only one answer.

But if this was something that could be easily overcome, Chen Yun would have done it long ago.

She sighed slightly in her heart, and countless images flashed through her mind, finally stopping on the day her daughter was born.

Chen Yun's water broke in the middle of the night.

Her due date was approaching, and the whole family was prepared at all times. As soon as they were called, everyone rushed to the hospital.

The doctor found that she was still a long way from survival and told her to lie down in the ward and wait.

To this day, Chen Yun still remembers the lamp on the ceiling. The light was deathly white and the air around it was colder than a morgue.

It was only at the critical moment that she finally realized that giving birth was a test of life, and she could only curse at the people around her and get angry.

The first to be affected was naturally Song Fenglin.

Who said the child was for two people, but only one was lying in bed suffering?

Chen Yun has been very strong since she became pregnant and has laughed off any adverse reactions.

At that moment, I suddenly let out all my emotions and burst into tears.

Song Fenglin was not good at talking and could not be coaxed, so he could only go along with what he said.

"Yes, God is unfair."

"Okay, I'll give birth next time."

"Okay, no second baby."

...

Nice words can't comfort anyone, and Chen Yun felt upset: "You're taking advantage of her!"

After she said this, she was pushed into the delivery room and faced the change in her identity alone.

When she comes out again, she will be the one who gets the advantage—Chen Xingyue, the daughter who has her mother's surname.

So many relatives and friends congratulated her parents, and it seemed that everyone could really see the incense burning in the void for the Chen family.

Chen Yun didn't think much of it at first, but everyone took it as irresistible proof that she was loved.

Even people who know nothing about her marriage life would sigh, "This is true love" after learning that her husband took the initiative to give the child the mother's surname.

Is it love? There is no doubt about Song Fenglin's intention.

However, Chen Yun always felt uncomfortable.

She couldn't tell what was strange. She was swept up in the lively atmosphere and was so excited that she was in a daze and gave birth to her second child.

Before the anesthetic wore off, Chen Yun heard her parents talking.

Chen Yongzhong: "We have a boy in our family too."

Liu Yingxia: "I have done my best to repay your family from now on."

Deserve? Then who is the one who needs to be apologized?

The first half of my life seemed like a joke, but I couldn't really hate it.

Chen Yun wanted to convince herself with just two sentences, and what she had gained over the years was the most real.

Unfortunately, people all over the world are reminding her that her husband has become her invisible brother, a belated competitor in her life.

Better grades than her and more money than her.

His name was clearly written on the Chen family's genealogy, but she became a by-product.

How absurd, how ridiculous.

Of course, Chen Yun doesn't care about things like family tree. She knows that it is right to fight against the world.

But she is also an ordinary person.

Soft-heartedness, cowardice and covering one's ears to the bell.

Confused, angry and overwhelmed.

All the emotions were finally unraveled, and it all came down to this surname, which became a needle that pierced Song Fenglin.

Although Chen Yun knew that he was innocent, she really needed an outlet to resolve her original intention of choosing this marriage.

It's quite ridiculous.

Even though she had witnessed many infatuated men and women and firmly believed that love was the most unreliable thing in the world, all of Chen Yun's fantasies about marriage were based on mutual liking.

When she got married, she put this need on the back burner, and it can be said that she considered her parents' future as the first step.

Those bubbly and beautiful days as a family of three were what she wanted most to continue in her life.

As a result, she thought she could continue this happy new life, but now she can only live in the dream she has woven.

Loved by parents, with both sons and daughters, and harmonious relationship between husband and wife.

From anyone's perspective, Chen Yun is the most satisfied person in the world.

But she was not satisfied.

She was immersed in distress every day, but didn't know what she could do to escape from the suffering.

Talk to your parents? She had no recourse.

Talk to Song Fenglin? She was afraid of upsetting the status quo.

If we have to make a detailed comparison, Chen Yun is actually more afraid of the latter.

Judging from her own experience, she felt that Song Fenglin probably could not accept that she was the compromised choice in the marriage, nor could she understand how everything she did to make her happy turned out to be wrong.

What's more, she didn't even have the courage to say such shameless words.

And what will happen after it is said?

She does nothing and her life is peaceful.

She acted rashly, and her life was instantly disrupted.

It is human instinct to seek benefits and avoid harm, and Chen Yun is no exception.

However, those honest voices always come back to life in the spring breeze and pop up in every quiet corner.

Every time you are suppressed, a crack is left. You can deceive others but not yourself.

Chen Yun could feel that her heart was broken, but she refused to admit this fact.

She even asked herself: What do you want?

It is a wake-up call, but all that remains is silence.

It’s like a married life where they can sleep in each other’s arms but can’t go further.

If she had to say it, Chen Yun felt that she was being pretentious.

She had no more appropriate words to describe her current situation, nor could she find the right expression.

The emotions hidden in the occasional hesitation to speak out are another kind of at a loss for words.

She couldn't accurately analyze her own psychology, so she could only continue to hide in the corner darkly, continuing to fantasize about a possibility: If only I hadn't married Song Fenglin.

This assumption is not to glorify the road that has not been taken, but is based on the fact that Chen Yun clearly knows the benefits of marrying Song Fenglin.

But no one has ever said that the person who loves her the most will also bring her the most pain.

Thinking of this, Chen Yun clenched his teeth and shuddered subconsciously.

As soon as he moved, Song Fenglin reached out and touched the back of her neck.

After touching it, I thought it was a problem with the air conditioner, so I freed my other hand to touch the remote control.

Chen Yun moved closer to him, the thought of keeping silent prevailed.

She selfishly wanted to enjoy this great deal of love, and prayed silently in her heart: I am guilty and will go to the eighteenth level of hell in the future, but Song Fenglin is a very good man, God please do not bully him again.