Confession Letter ◎ Before Zhu He left Hui Sheng, he took out a piece of A4 paper that had been folded several times from his pocket and placed it on the tea cabinet.

It was very conspicuous and annoying to put it there. After Zhu He left, Du Ningyang moved to the tea cabinet and unfolded it to read. What is it? It is really hard to read, with densely packed words squeezed into one page.

This is Wu You's confession letter.

The first thing she confessed was her name.

Her real name is "Wu You", and it has always been "Wu You". At that time, they were too naive and too easy to trust others. They didn't think much about which high school teacher's family would name their only daughter "You".

In the letter, she said: "I was wary of the online world, so I gave myself a similar pseudonym, but the more I explored it, the more people I met, the more I felt your sincerity. After a long time, I really thought of myself as 'Wu You'. I made up some twisted and bizarre stories for myself, portraying my parents as evil people who don't care about their children at all - just to portray myself as different. People on the Internet are very good, and they will really comfort me and care about me because of those stories full of mistakes and omissions."

"Especially you," she added in the letter: "I often feel guilty about you. The more guilty I feel, the more I like you, and then I can't leave you. From the virtual world to the real world, I make more and more mistakes."

The development of the story was beyond Wu You's imagination. It was not until she really involved the Internet in the real world and met Zhu He again and again, and Zhu He really moved to Shenzhen for her and rented a house to live together, that she began to panic.

She thought, let's keep it a secret for now. She is not completely lying. At least her love for Zhu He is real, at least she is happy when they are together.

It wasn't until the registered letter about her failure and delayed graduation was sent home that she really panicked. Her parents called to ask about it, and they could no longer hide it.

On the phone, they didn't blame her, but asked her to "come back first, we will find a solution together, and there is something else I want to tell you."

So on the day of the hardware upgrade, she took the initiative to take a ride home. Her family lived in a high-end community in the central city of Shenzhen, with subway lines extending in all directions.

She was greeted by a table of carefully cooked dishes, the registered letter was placed on the coffee table, and underneath was the diagnosis report of her father's illness.

Her father said to her, "Dad may not be able to take care of you for a long time. You have to be responsible for your own life in the future. We have looked at the subjects you failed, consulted your counselor, and worked hard to make up for it. You can get your diploma in a year." "

We were too busy with work and neglected you before. Mom and Dad apologize to you," Wu You's mother kept putting food into her bowl, tears welling up in her eyes, "but your dad was sick this year, and we were busy seeing doctors and treating his illness without telling you. It's true that our energy is not as good as before..." "

Why do you bring this up?" Wu You's father interrupted, "Dad has been teaching and educating people all his life, and has sent many children to their dream schools, but Dad still wants to see you wearing a bachelor's gown the most. The computer science department of Shenzhen University is so difficult to get into, but you just went in."

"Youyou, you have always been the pride of mom and dad."

Behind the dining table is a display cabinet. The open compartments are easy to accumulate dust, so her mother always wipes them with that small towel, making each one clean and sparkling. Half of them are trophies and honors that her parents have won as teachers, and the other half are certificates that she has received since she was a child.

"I stared at my father's face and found that he had really lost a lot of weight. The shining honors in the cabinet hurt my eyes. I ate that meal with tears, which was very salty."

Wu You promised her parents that she would quit playing games and return to normal life, but she had not thought about how to break up with Zhu He. Saying goodbye to the bad life in the past is not necessarily the same as breaking up, but she knows herself and Zhu He. As long as they meet, they will reconcile, and reconciliation means continuing to sink into the virtual world.

They did not fall in love in the cruel real world.

They love the infinite scenery.

Her process of quitting the Internet was not smooth. In the bedroom, looking at the wall full of books, she felt very anxious and could not calm down. The experience number of the upgrade was circling in her mind, and her fingers could not help but want to press the keyboard.

When she left, there was still one level left to beat. After defeating this monster, she could upgrade and keep her place on the leaderboard.

My heart itches, as if there are ants crawling in it. I want to scratch it. I want to play one more round, just one more round, fight another beautiful battle, and end it in a cool and elegant way, just as a farewell. How can the arrogant God of Worry not have a brilliant farewell match?

I kept thinking about it until late at night.

Get out of the house! Find an Internet cafe! Finish

this level! Okay! Let's do it

! Go! Go! The last time!

Wu You tiptoed to the door, secretly took out her shoes from the shoe cabinet, and turned the doorknob with the lightest movement, but still alarmed the voice-activated lights in the corridor.

The lights came on, and she looked back in horror and found her mother standing in the dark living room, crying at her. She will never forget that moment.

Wu You did not leave that night, and she took the initiative to ask to go to the Internet addiction treatment center. She said, "Just stay there for a while. I'm confident that I can succeed."

Wu You's parents drove her there the next morning. They were silent the entire time during the 40-minute drive, cheering each other up in their hearts.

But they backed off as soon as they arrived at the reception room. When they were led in by the manager, they passed by rows of barbed wire, like prisoners. They sat on the sofa and listened to the manager's introduction of successful cases, and heard the screams of the children sent in.

The manager saw their hesitation and said, "For a very small number of people who are addicted to the Internet, especially boys, some tough measures will be taken, but the parents are aware of this and will sign an informed consent."

The spoiled princess who had been raised in the palm of her hand had never seen such a scene before. Wu You was so scared that her face turned pale. Wu You's father stood up and said seriously, "Let's go back and think about it first."

On the way back, she was finally scared to tears. She cried and guaranteed in the back seat of the car that she would definitely quit playing online games on her own.

She also opened her heart, "But I don't know how to break up with Zhu He, I don't have the courage."

Wu You's mother said they would find a way, she believed Zhu He was a good child and would understand their difficulties. A few days later, they told her that they had explained it to him and that this matter could be completely turned over.

It was not a coincidence that Zhu He and Wu You's cousin met that day, but they saw him waiting at the gate of the community every day at home, always waiting for a whole day, rain or shine. They hoped that he would not come again, so they asked his cousin to persuade him to quit, and lied to him, saying, "Wu You went to the Internet addiction treatment center."

Perhaps fate also wanted them to separate completely. A few days later, the Internet addiction treatment center caught fire, which was the opportunity for "Wu You" to disappear forever.

Wu You finally turned back to Wu You.

Wu You's life really returned to normal. In June of the following year, she passed all the exams and wore a bachelor's gown to attend the graduation ceremony. The June sun in Shenzhen was as hot as fire. Her parents dressed formally and accompanied her around the campus and took many graduation photos.

They also wished her a bright future.

Then she took advantage of the rapid development of the Internet. With her degree from Shenzhen University and the popular major of computer science, she entered the core technology department of a large Internet company and became a software engineer.

Her salary was high, but she didn't dare to spend it carelessly. She saved a small part and used the rest to treat her father's illness so that she could afford the best imported medicine.

She was very busy at work, but fortunately she got three times the overtime pay, transportation allowance, and dinner allowance for overtime work. She had no time to make friends or fall in love, and the days passed by in a flash.

Her company was only four stops away from where Zhu He and Du Ningyang lived, and their social circles even had intertwined tracks. Perhaps there were too many people in Shenzhen, too many Wu You, too many Zhu He, and too many Du Ningyang. They were in a hurry and buried their heads on the road, so they met without knowing each other, or missed each other with a sigh.

Wu You, who was addicted to the virtual world, finally pulled back from the brink, turned back from the wrong path, and plunged into a fulfilling real life.

Her result was good, but it was not glamorous, so she couldn't bear to mention it. This was a good result in the name of abandonment, and the price was the sincere people on the way.

She knew Zhu He because of the prosperity of the Dreamwalking Universe, and she remembered Zhu He because of the decline of the Dreamwalking Universe.

"Mengyou Universe is looking for buyers everywhere. Yesterday, the company held a meeting and asked our department to be responsible for the technical analysis of the mobile game."

"I logged into the game again and found that only your account was still lit in the list. I followed your account to the map, and the other party said that this account had been sold several times and I didn't know the original owner. I think you should have left this circle, but I still owe you an apology. I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being so late."

"Zhu Zhu, are you doing well? You must be doing well."

At the end of the email, Wu You said that if he was still in Shenzhen, if he was willing to see her again, he hoped to have a chance to apologize to him in person. Zhu Zhu

said to Du Ningyang: "Wu You wants to meet me, but I won't go."

"What you want to do has nothing to do with me," Du Ningyang ordered him to leave, his tone was calm, and the broken thoughts that were surging under the tide could not be heard, "You go, go anywhere, it has nothing to do with me."

Zhu Zhu knew that she loved to say the opposite, and knew that she pretended not to care on the surface, but it was raining heavily in her heart.

But he also knew that she was the same as him, and she would not change her decision.

The long-term common life and experience made them too similar. They were too nostalgic and too soft-hearted to cut off the connection with the past. This made them painful. At the same time, they cherished each other and made them close, but also gave rise to rifts. But what to do? Time waits for no one. Beautiful memories are like a grass trap covering a swamp, which makes people unable to help but step forward and then sink deeper and deeper.

She has decided not to love him anymore, but she is not Wu You who only escaped when she was young. She will say goodbye openly and cut off the relationship cleanly, but she needs more time to recover.

And all he can do is stop disturbing him.

Zhu He had a painful expression and made his final farewell and confession to Du Ningyang.

If possible, I hope it didn't rain that day, I didn't go out, you didn't see me and didn't chase me out, so that you would have a very good life.

This is his belated confession letter.

-Why

are the trees taller and thinner the further south you go, sticking on the top of the mountain like sticks, but the branches and leaves are so lush, dark green and light green interlaced, like unevenly dyed green afro.

When she first took the train to Shenzhen, she had asked Jin Zhenqi this question in a text message. Later, she traveled back and forth between Shenzhen and Huaicheng many times, but she no longer had the same vigorous heart as before to appreciate the scenery during the journey.

She rarely had these irrelevant romantic questions.

The headphones were filled with Cantonese songs that had been downloaded in advance. These songs were magical, more affectionate than English songs, and they seemed to understand and not understand, with some melancholy.

"Wandering between bitterness and sweetness, I can't see through these ambiguous eyes..."

He carefully searched the Internet for information, edited the text message and sent it to her: Southern trees will compete for sunlight and soil, so they will grow upwards.

So that's how it is, she sighed. There was a sentence in her ear, "Love or affection is borrowed to fill one night, and it must be returned in the end. There is no point in being greedy..."

She didn't understand, but felt very sad. She leaned on the dining table and squinted for a while. People around her were going to Shenzhen, mixed with various local dialects, and there was no so-called beautiful Cantonese.

She raised her head again in confusion, and it was pitch black outside the car window.

The high-speed train stopped at Zhuzhou for eight minutes, enough time to smoke a cigarette. Du Ningyang patted Wen Xu on the shoulder, "Let me go, I'm going out for a while."

The closer we got to Shenzhen, the more intense the early summer heat became. Even in the early morning, the breeze was mixed with damp heat. She casually pulled her hair up and lit a cigarette in front of the trash can.

Wen Xu followed him out and asked, "You left in such a hurry, and you didn't even say which friend you were going to meet."

She didn't seem to expect him to follow her out, so she took a big puff of cigarette and coughed a few times. He patted her back and helped her breathe, "Okay, if you don't want to say it, don't say it."

She choked and her face turned red.

In the evening, when he got home from work, he saw her packing her luggage, picking up a few light clothes from the closet and throwing them into the suitcase, very sloppily.

She said, "I'm going to Shenzhen. I'll be back in two days?... Three days at most."

"What are you going there for?" Wen Xu asked, "Why are you in such a hurry? Have you bought the ticket?"

"I bought it, for the night train, and I'm going to the high-speed train station now," she continued to throw in small items such as cosmetics and sunscreen.

For no reason, he asked, "I want to go with you and see the place where you have lived for the past few years."

She actually agreed for the first time.

"Meet some old friends, and then pack up all the tools for the studio," she finally calmed down, put out the cigarette, and the mist dissipated in the air.

The whistle urging them to get on the train sounded, and she pulled Wen Xu's sleeve and walked inside, "Those tools are very heavy, you have to be prepared to do hard labor."

"You mean how can you take me with you," Wen Xu smiled helplessly, "I say, this is our first trip."

She didn't mock him for wishful thinking, "It depends on your performance. If things are done quickly, we can go around."

The high-speed train started in the dark, accelerated, and merged into the night. He couldn't help asking, "Why are you in such a hurry? You can obviously set off tomorrow morning, get up and have a hot breakfast, and leave slowly."

"I want to make a break with the past as soon as possible," she said bluntly, "break up with Shenzhen, and never come again."