Chapter 41: Banquet (1)
It's very simple to fall in love with someone.
It's very difficult to fall in love with someone who has been abandoned.
By the time you discover it, is it too late?
"Promise me, no matter whether you remember the past or not, please don't leave me. I am willing to apologize to you for everything I did in the past and ask for your forgiveness. No matter what I did to you in the past, you must believe that I really love you now--"
Zhou Cheng’s words were too hard to understand for Yin Yin, who had no memory of the past. The current Zhou Cheng said he loved her, so what was it like in the past?
"It doesn't matter if you remember it or not, just remember that my current vitality can only accommodate you. No matter what you choose in the future, this will never change—"
Judging from Zhou Cheng's slightly bitter and sad expression, even though Yin Yin had never doubted him, his expression at this moment made her feel inexplicably sad?
What happened in the past? Why did Zhou Cheng look so bitter? Did she really love this man? Yin Yin clearly felt Zhou Cheng's sincerity towards her, but why did she feel bitter in her heart when facing his confession? As if she was suffocated?
Yinyin herself didn't know how she spent the day, her mind was filled with Zhou Cheng's words...
——The next day——
Yinyin, who had just woken up from a dream, kept thinking about what Zhou Cheng said yesterday. She sat in front of the dressing table and looked at Lei'er behind her in the mirror, combing her hair carefully ...
"Lei'er——"
"What is it, miss?"
"You said you have been with me since you were a child. When did it start?"
"I have been with the young lady since I was adopted by the lady at the age of six. It should have been twelve years now, right?"
"It's been a long time, so you should be very clear about my affairs, right?"
"What did the young lady say?"
"The Emperor and I—"
Hearing Yin Yin's words, Lei'er stopped what she was doing, and her face, which was full of joy just a moment ago, now froze.
"What's wrong? "
"No, nothing, Miss, please tell me——"
Yinyin noticed Lei'er's strange behavior and asked, and Lei'er quickly adjusted her mood and returned to her normal self.
"Huh? I want to know, did I really love him before?"
After hearing Yinyin's words, Lei'er was stunned again. Did they really love each other? Lei'er clearly remembered that Yinyin had liked Zhou Cheng very much since she followed him. She often said in front of her that she would marry him when she grew up, and the topic of their conversation never left Zhou Cheng. She knew very well how much Yinyin loved Zhou Cheng, but Zhou Cheng hurt Yinyin completely and completely. Now he shamelessly kept Yinyin by his side. Lei'er was already unhappy, and he even had the nerve to bring up the past?
"Did the Emperor say anything to the young lady?"
"Well, he told me everything I forgot—"
"And did he also say that you loved him?"
"Yeah, that's why I want to know if it's true ."
Lei'er put down the wooden comb in her hand with a very heavy expression.
"What's wrong?"
Yinyin turned around and looked at Lei'er. Lei'er also looked at Yinyin. Lei'er couldn't help but wonder if Yinyin in the past would be so calm? The Yinyin who would bury all her sorrows in her heart...
"What he said is true—"
Even if Lei'er doesn't want to admit it, it is a fact that Yinyin loved Zhou Cheng, even if the result was not satisfactory.
"The young lady has loved the emperor since she was a child. Especially after she made an engagement with the emperor, the young lady often worked very hard to win the favor of the emperor, who was still the crown prince at the time . She even danced for him at his 18th birthday banquet. Because of that dance, the young lady's dancing skills were recognized by everyone, and she became a dancer as famous as the four concubines in the world at that time. This is also the reason why the original four concubines became the five concubines—"
"A dance?"
Since she could dance in front of everyone, it was obvious that she must have loved Zhou Cheng deeply at that time. Yin Yin thought that what Zhou Cheng said was true. In fact, Zhou Cheng told her about the past that she had forgotten, and she believed it. Only this matter could not be easily believed. She did not expect it to be confirmed. Did she really love Zhou Cheng before? Why did she not feel any affection for Zhou Cheng deep in her heart? She admitted that since she woke up and forgot the past, she had wavered in Zhou Cheng many times, but she clearly felt that these were not love, not the feeling of wanting to be with him forever and become his person. The remaining feeling in her heart told her that the person she loved was not Zhou Cheng.
"I thought Miss could become the Crown Princess as she wished, but I didn't expect that he would cancel the engagement a year before the wedding and choose Miss Jiang as the Crown Princess—"
"What?"
Yinyin, who was still struggling in her heart, was shocked by Lei'er's next words. "The young lady was sad for a long time because of this. Later, she went to see him alone. After she came back, the young lady looked very strange. Later, the young lady wanted to see him again but was stopped by the master. The young lady wanted to see him so much that she took a desperate risk and even wanted to climb the wall. As a result, she slipped and fell from the wall. Because her head hit the ground first, even the imperial doctor thought that the young lady was hopeless. But the young lady woke up miraculously. When she woke up, she forgot everything in the past just like now. Even so, the young lady slipped and fell and almost lost her life, but he never came to see her again."
After listening to Lei'er's narration of the past, Yinyin was shocked. Compared with Zhou Cheng's words that he loved her, the truth was not so. Moreover, the past was more complicated than Yinyin imagined. According to Lei'er's words, she should have lost her memory once? In other words, she lost her memory again? What happened From Zhou Cheng, she only knew her name, identity, and the reason why she fell ill. What about the rest? Yinyin had promised that unless Zhou Cheng took the initiative to tell him, she would not ask any more questions. Yinyin had always fulfilled her promise. However, after listening to Lei'er's words, Yinyin was full of doubts about the past.
