Chapter 40 The Courage to Love (6)
"So this is the last decision you've made in a long time?"
"Well, you could say that although I want to try to accept you, even after so long, I still can't do it. I can't deceive myself into accepting you."
"Then why can she——"
Yin Yin tried her best to endure the grief in her heart, gritting her teeth and remaining calm.
"Ru Ting is different from you. At least she won't use her family's power to become the Crown Princess—"
Zhou Cheng's words startled Yin Yin. It turned out that this was what Zhou Cheng really thought. He still hated that he had used his father, who was the prime minister, to become the candidate for the crown princess. Of course, it was also related to the queen's strong approval at that time. Even if she had not used the power of her father, who was the prime minister, the queen would have most likely chosen her as the future crown princess. It was just because of her eagerness that her father proposed it in the court meeting, and it was easily accepted. This is why she became the candidate for the future crown princess. She never thought that she would be ignored by Zhou Cheng for a long time just because of this. If she hadn't loved Zhou Cheng deeply, how could she be so anxious? She was just afraid that she would regret it after missing it, but she didn't expect that her impatience would make her regret it even more. Now, regret is useless...
"If this is the reason why you have been cold to me for so long, I apologize--"
"There's no need to apologize. It's all in the past. We've already called off our engagement, and I already have someone I like. I hope Miss Zhang can understand. And I hope to get your blessing when Ru Ting and I get married. I'd be even happier if you could dance for us—"
If she hadn't wanted to win Zhou Cheng's favor, Yin Yin would never have thought of dancing in front of people. For a prime minister's daughter of a high status, she could put aside her status in front of people for love. All of this was for Zhou Cheng, but now he used this to humiliate her again...
“Hmph, hehe——”
Yinyin laughed bitterly. What was she doing for? What did she get out of everything she did? It was not enough that she broke off the marriage before the wedding, and now she was insulted in public. Was everything she did really meaningless?
Love requires courage. In order to get Zhou Cheng's love, Yin Yin did everything she could, even dancing for him. What about now?
"Okay, okay, you prince. I, Zhang Yinyin, believe that I have feelings for you. I gave you everything, but you treat me like this-"
A shrill, grief-stricken voice. At this moment, Yinyin put down all her dignity and ignored the fact that Ruting was also present. She recounted the rewards she had received for her efforts...
Even in the face of Yin Yin's self-narration, Zhou Cheng did not respond, but suddenly pulled Ru Ting into his arms: "Miss Zhang, are you done? If you are, please leave. I still want to continue to appreciate the flowers with Ru Ting--"
"Are you daring me to leave? Okay, I'll go, I'll go——"
Yin Yin was furious and glared at the two people in front of her...
"No, I won't..."
Zhou Cheng's cold words completely broke Yin Yin's heart.
"Remember this, even if you get married, I will do whatever it takes to break you up—"
After saying these harsh words, Yin Yin turned around and ran away quickly...
——Back to the end——
Until now, Zhou Cheng still remembered the expression on Yin Yin's almost distorted face at that time. This was also the reason why he cared more about her after hearing that Yin Yin was in trouble. Thinking of this, Zhou Cheng couldn't help but feel cold in his heart. He laughed at himself in his heart. It turned out that he was so cruel at the beginning, but now he has forgotten all that and even hoped that Yin Yin could stay by his side and hide all this...
"What’s wrong with you?"
Seeing that Zhou Cheng's face was a little green, Yin Yin couldn't help but ask.
"Oh, no, nothing—"
This was the first time Zhou Cheng looked so uneasy and flustered in front of Yin Yin. His once forgotten memory was awakened, and there was a clear contrast with the present. At first, it was Yin Yin who came to ask him for help, but now? He wanted to pray for Yin Yin to stay by his side all the time? Is this the so-called karma?
Yinyin can be calm and honest with him. Even if she has lost her memory, she has never cheated on him. Zhou Cheng even forgot that Yinyin was lively and innocent in front of him since childhood. Although he gradually got tired of Yinyin's clinging to him as he grew older, he was inexplicably angry when he saw her being intimate with others. She might occasionally say something harsh, but in the end she would always use methods that hurt herself to attract his attention. Zhou Cheng was a little numb to Yinyin's extreme behavior, especially when he learned that he had made an engagement with Yinyin, he became inexplicably hostile to Yinyin. But wasn't she trying to attract his attention no matter what she did? Why didn't he notice it all the time? Yinyin was always the one who got hurt, but he vented all his unhappiness on her. He turned a blind eye to the pain Yinyin suffered, and became even more indifferent to her. In the end, he even threatened to kill himself to cancel their engagement. Now that he thought about it, it was really made up. How ridiculous what he had done was...
"Are you really okay?"
Zhou Cheng not only smiled bitterly and showed an embarrassed expression from time to time, but Yin Yin was still a little worried.
Hearing Yin Yin's caring words and gentle voice, Zhou Cheng looked at her with affectionate eyes and bitter face: "When did you become so gentle and considerate?"
Of course Zhou Cheng’s words made Yin Yin feel confused. Was he saying that she was not gentle and considerate in the past?
Seeing Yin Yin's slightly embarrassed expression, Zhou Cheng sighed again, just thinking of some things in the past made him remember everything. She was always so gentle and kind, and sometimes she would be willful, but he had never seen her look sad in front of others, except for that time when Yin Yin came to see him after the cancellation of the engagement. She looked so heartbreaking and grief-stricken. He originally wanted to be indifferent to her, but since Yin Yin left that day, seeing the painful expression Yin Yin showed in front of him before she left, his heart began to stir , and he planned to wait until he saw her in a while to say goodbye to her. He wanted to apologize, but as he waited, things started to change around Yin Yin. There was news that she was injured and had been in a coma. When he saw her again, she was obviously not the Yin Yin he knew, and she had completely forgotten about him. Perhaps it was from then on that Zhou Cheng became unwilling to accept that the woman who used to always pester him suddenly treated him like a stranger, and even when Ru Ting died tragically, he still pushed all the responsibility onto her, without any room for her explanation, and even pushed her off a cliff. Looking back, there were so many doubts in the case, how could he be so convicted?
"I love you--"
Zhou Cheng looked at Yin Yin with a bitter smile and couldn't help but speak. His words made Yin Yin startled. Although Zhou Cheng always hoped that Yin Yin could stay with him, he never said that he loved her...
The words Zhou Cheng said contained the truth in his heart. Yinyin loved him regardless of everything. She had put in so much effort and courage. Compared with her, Zhou Cheng did not even have the courage to admit it, and he did not even have the courage to try to love her. When he found out, was it too late? Facing Yinyin at this moment, Zhou Cheng always had a fleeting feeling. Why was it like this? Was it God's punishment for him not having the courage to try to love her?
