Chapter 4 Whatever wish you have, I will definitely help you find it by myself 4
After eating and drinking, I returned to the classroom.
Maybe because I got up too early, I felt a little sleepy and lazily lay on the table.
During lunch break, almost no one was in the classroom, with only a few people scattered around.
Ye Jing sat sideways at the table in front of me, looking very happy. He looked at me with a slight smile on his face.
"Sleepy?"
"Yeah." I responded almost in a nasal tone, half-squinting my eyes and looking out the window at the white cloud slowly floating by in the sky.
"Who told you to get up so early? Last night you insisted on watching TV and refused to go to bed early."
I yawned and whispered to him, "You have to watch it. Last night was the finale. How could you not watch it?"
"Idiot." The smile on Ye Jing's face became more and more obvious.
I could feel his eyes on my face, but he didn't say anything for a long moment.
"Why are you looking at me again?"
After persisting for a few minutes, I couldn't help but glance at him: "I can't sleep for my nap if you stare at me like this."
Facing the sunshine, he suddenly turned around, raised his hands and laid on my desk. His big eyes looked at me so closely, without the usual teasing and distance, and were so warm that they made me yearn for it.
I had gradually gotten used to him suddenly coming over to me, and I was still lying lazily, looking at the boy who was also lying on the table not far away with half-opened eyes.
"Luo Huayin..." There was a faint smile on that delicate face, and his big black crystal eyes looked at me without blinking, as if he was redrawing my facial features. His voice was very soft, as if he didn't want to disturb my lunch break. Although he was talking, his voice made me gradually relax and I became more and more sleepy. "You don't actually have to do so much... Why do you have to do all this? Huh?"
The last "hmm" was pronounced with a nasal sound, lazy and pleasant, as if it was coaxing me to sleep.
I was half asleep and half awake with my eyes slightly open. At such a close distance, I could even see myself clearly in his clear black eyes.
Why do this?
I have no answer to this question at all.
Because, no matter how I think about it, there is no reason not to do these things .
I didn't answer, but just looked at him with half-opened eyes, looking at the beautiful boy in front of me who was bathed in sunshine and surprisingly exquisite - this person was really too wonderful, but such a terrible accident happened to him... If there was a chance, would anyone be unwilling to do something for him?
Sadly, there is little I can do.
"Fool."
Seeing that I just looked at him without answering, after a while, he suddenly smiled as if he understood my thoughts. A complex emotion that was difficult to understand flashed across his eyes, and it passed so quickly that people could not see clearly what it was.
I lazily half-opened my eyes to get sleepy, and Ye Jing was lying on my desk facing me like me.
Suddenly, he stretched out his translucent hand and touched my short hair.
I'm a little speechless.
What is this guy touching? He can't touch anything, so what is there to touch?
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"Look, I told you that Luo Huayin was a weirdo... She was actually talking to herself. Did you hear what she was saying?"
"No, I can't hear clearly... Oh my God, this is so scary, is she a mentally ill lunatic?"
"Could it be that she has become crazy because she is too withdrawn and has no friends for a long time? I heard from the class next door that she has been claiming to be Ye Jing's friend recently..."
"It's really crazy. How could Ye Jing have such a friend? Why didn't she say that she was Ye Jing's girlfriend? Anyway, Ye Jing is lying in the hospital now and can't hear her crazy talk."
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The classroom was so quiet that a few whispers could be heard clearly, breaking the rare peace here.
I didn't expect that during lunch break, someone would actually notice me lying in this corner by the window. In the past , even if I was cleaning the blackboard at noon, no one would look at me... In the final analysis, it was because I had recently become involved with Ye Jing.
This person who no longer exists in their world is still mentioned by name repeatedly because I defend him, and it also makes someone like me who is ignored become extremely noticeable - this is really a crazy and morbid influence.
A luminous figure like that has become a hot topic among everyone and the focus of the entire school.
Anyone who was associated with him would be in the spotlight, even though he no longer appeared in their lives.
"Don't these people have anything to do every day?"
Ye Jing sat up and his face turned ugly.
But I, contrary to my usual behavior, did not react at all. I was still half asleep and half lying on the desk, facing the window, as if I didn't hear the discussions around me.
Maybe because I was too sleepy, I didn’t even bother to pay attention to what those people said, and I didn’t feel nervous at all.
She was still chatting casually with Ye Jing in a low voice that they couldn't hear clearly.
But this time, I was the one who comforted him.
"Oh, it doesn't matter. Let them say whatever they want. They have mouths on their bodies. You can't sew them shut." I yawned again, like a sleepy cat, squinting my eyes and looking at the white clouds in the sky. "They are them, and I am me. I won't really become a lunatic just because of a few words from these people."
After a while, I thought about it, opened my eyes and looked at him.
"But, having said that, sometimes even I wonder if there is something wrong with my mind. How can I blame others? I heard that all mentally ill people don't think that they are hallucinations after they have hallucinations... Ye Jing, do you really exist? In that mirror of mine? Could it be that you are really my hallucination and don't actually exist?"
As soon as he finished speaking, Ye Jing, who was sitting at the table in front of me, was also stunned.
He looked at me intently and I looked at him.
I do not know how long it has been.
Suddenly, his eyes became firm and he nodded lightly.
"Don't worry, Luo Huayin, I do exist." But the tone still sounded so lazy, as if he was talking about something that was perfectly normal. "Unless you want to pretend that you can't see me, then you're really going crazy."
After saying that, he smiled, revealing his extremely beautiful dimples.
There was no trace of confusion in his eyes, only a reassuring firmness.
The sky outside the window is like a beautiful blue painting, so bright and warm that it makes people want to live forever.
The figure of the young man sitting at the table in front of me is still translucent, beautiful like a dream, yet real.
I lay on the table and looked at him. He sat in front of me, looking at me with lowered eyebrows and a faint smile... The sharp discussions around me seemed to disappear. I just felt that I had never been so courageous and happier than I am now.
