Monday, March 26th, sunny
I heard that people trapped in a swamp cannot struggle easily.
Because the more you struggle, the faster and deeper you will sink.
And I also fell into a swamp,
There is no way to explain or redeem myself.
Because the more you explain and try to save the situation, the deeper you will fall.
I am now almost swallowed by the swamp...

“Ding Ling Ling——”
The crisp ringing of the bell spread throughout the campus. After so long, Cheye still had no intention of forgiving me, and the misunderstandings between us increased. From the misunderstanding when he rescued me by the lake to the misunderstanding during the physical education class, all the misunderstandings seemed to have turned into a swamp, and the more I explained, the deeper I sank.
But I really want to get out of the swamp. Cheye, can you hear the voice deep in my heart?
"Ye Xiya!" A cold and familiar voice sounded behind him.
I turned my head reflexively, and what caught my eye was a dazzling golden color.
"Che, Cheye..." No way, could it be that the voice deep in my heart was really heard by Cheye?
Cheye frowned and looked directly at me: "My exchange diary is with you, right?"
Exchange diaries?
"Yeah." I was stunned for a moment, then nodded slightly.
"Bring me my diary tomorrow!" Cheye's tone was firm, without any hesitation.
A strong sense of uneasiness suddenly surged into my heart. Is Cheye trying to draw a line between us? Is he unwilling to do things with me even as a friend?
I stood there blankly, watching Cheye's figure disappear from my sight.
"Ye Xiya!" As a clear voice sounded beside my ears, I was hit on the head. "Yuan Cheye has already left, and you are still waiting here! It's just an exchange diary. If he wants it, just give it back to him! This is a good way to sever your relationship!"
"But... Chinatsu, I really want to be friends with Cheye. A very good kind of friend." I tried to smile, not wanting to make Chinatsu worry.
"You want to be good friends, but people may not think so! Xiaya, it's not your fault that you like Xu Yi." Qianxia pinched my face, "You are the most sincere and kind girl I have ever met. If it were me, I would never be so heartless to you!"
"Chinatsu..." My eyes suddenly felt sore and I felt indescribably touched in my heart.
"Okay, don't be unhappy . Haha, I'll treat you today." After saying that, Chinatsu dragged me out like a broom.
Many of the stalls at the school gate were crowded with people. After Chinatsu and I finished our sushi, we each held a cup of milk tea and wandered around the small shops on the street.
"Xiao Wei, do you think that if I give this heart-shaped wallet to Yuan Cheye, will he date me?"
Just as Chinatsu and I were wandering around a boutique, I suddenly heard two girls behind me mention Cheye's name.
"Of course not. You want Cheye to date you just by giving him such a small gift? You're dreaming! And don't you think Cheye has become more noble now?"
"Noble? Are you saying he's a lot cooler now than before?"
"Idiot! That's not cool, that's noble!"
…
Their conversation left me silent.
The personality of Cheye who came back this time is really different from before. Is it because of the car accident? Or did something else happen after the car accident?
However, with Cheye's current attitude towards me, he would never tell me, just like before, when he had a terminal illness but had been hiding it from me.
"Xia, Xia!" Chinatsu's voice pulled me out of my thoughts, "That store is so beautiful."
Following the direction that Chinatsu pointed, I saw a huge pink heart hanging outside the store opposite, with the three big words "A Lifetime" written on it in bold black letters.
"Let's go and take a look!"
Chinatsu pulled me to the other side without saying anything.
It turned out to be a store specializing in selling cups, filled with cups of various styles.
Chinatsu walked around and suddenly pointed at the peach heart outside and gave the boss the sweetest smile: "Boss, can you take a picture for us there?"
"Sure, haha, of course!" When the boss saw Chinatsu's extremely lethal smile, he completely ignored the "No Photography" note he had posted at the door.
Standing in front of the peach heart, Chinatsu suddenly turned her head and looked at me seriously, with a shining light in her eyes that I had never seen before: "Xia, no matter what happens in the future, we will be good friends for life, okay?"
"Huh?" I looked up at Chinatsu. Although I didn't know why Chinatsu said that suddenly, I knew that Chinatsu and I had the same thoughts. "Well... Chinatsu, we will be good friends for life!"
I held Qianxia's hand and smiled at the camera of my phone. I believe that the three big words "a lifetime" behind us have been engraved in our lives, and no matter how time washes away, it will not erase a bit.
I don’t know why, but at this moment I suddenly thought of Weiwei. We used to be such good friends, but now we have become such strangers.
Weiwei and I can never go back to the way we were before, right?
"Xia, let's buy a cup!" Chinatsu's voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Oh, sure!"
Chinatsu and I each picked out our favorite cups.
Hey, this cup is beautiful!
I picked up a cup and looked at it in my hand - there were seven circles of different colors around the cup, like a rainbow, and the inside was pure white. The lid of the cup was also white, with a beautiful flower on it.
"Chinatsu, look..." I raised the cup and turned to shout at Chinatsu.
Chinatsu was holding her cell phone, fiddling with something with her head down, and was so focused that she didn't hear me at all.
I walked over and yelled in her ear: "China! What are you doing?"
"Ah? Ah..." Chinatsu raised her head and looked at me, hurriedly putting her phone into her pocket, "Hehe, no, no, I'm texting my friend!"
"Haha, Chinatsu, are you hiding a secret from me?" I looked at Chinatsu pretending to be serious.
"Xia, I, how could I have a secret." Chinatsu said, nervously picking up a cup from the shelf next to her, "Look, I've chosen it!"
"This..." I looked at Chinatsu's cup, then at the cup in my hand, "These two cups are actually the same!"
"Really?" Chinatsu just noticed the cup in my hand. After taking a look at it, she looked at me with disdain. "It's different. The colors of the rainbow on the two cups are obviously opposite!"
After paying the bill, the boss looked at us with a smile and said, "Did you know that the flower on the cup lid is actually zinnia, and the flower language of zinnia is that friendship lasts forever."
Just as I was about to pick up my cup, Chinatsu suddenly took my cup first, then stuffed her cup in my hand with a playful smile on her face.
"Xia, the homonym of 'cup' is 'lifetime', and this cup has a flower on it which symbolizes long-lasting friendship, so let's exchange cups and let our friendship last a lifetime!"
"Chinatsu..."
I looked down at the cup in my arms and felt that the cup seemed to have temperature. The warmth was transmitted from the cup to the palms of my hands and finally to my heart.
This is the cup we exchanged, representing our lifelong friendship...

Tuesday, March 27th (cloudy)
When all the precious thoughts are abandoned,
The eyes will start to rain heavily.
Can anyone tell me,
Where can I find a time machine?
Can take me back to the past,
So that he wouldn't hate me so much.

At the podium, the teacher was giving a lecture eloquently, the blackboard was covered with white words, and white chalk dust was floating slowly in the air.
While the teacher was writing on the blackboard, I quietly slipped in through the back door of the classroom.
That was a close call!
"Xia, why are you here just now? get out of class is almost over." Qianxia beside me whispered to me, "Hey, are you worried about Yuan Cheye's incident again last night?"
"No, no." I quickly took out the books from my schoolbag. Oh, I should have brought the exchange diary that Cheye asked me to bring.
I reached into my schoolbag and touched Cheye's exchange diary. I suddenly felt relieved. Well! Let the exchange diary return to its owner. No matter what Cheye thinks, I have no reason to keep his exchange diary.
“Ding Ling Ling——”
When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, my body shook slightly.
I clenched the diary in my hand and my fingertips slid across its exquisite cover.
Haven't you thought about it? Ye Xiya, you promised Chen that no matter what happens, you must be firm in your heart, so you can't back down, you can't.
I took a deep breath and walked to Cheye's seat holding my diary.
“Cheye…” I called out as naturally as possible.
He frowned, as if he didn't even see me standing in front of him: "If you have something to say, just say it."
I handed the exchange diary to him: "This is the exchange diary you wanted."
I wanted to say something, but after Cheye took the exchange diary and put it in the drawer, he quickly stood up and walked out of the classroom.
Looking at his indifferent back, I felt sad. Could it be that... we really can't even be friends anymore?
Just like Chinatsu said, Cheye doesn’t want to have anything to do with me anymore.
I finally waited until the school bell rang, and I listlessly responded to Chinatsu's suggestion of going for dessert. Suddenly, a shadow fell in my eyes, and when I looked up, I saw Cheye's face.
"Ye Xiya, come out for a moment!" His voice was cold, like the biting cold wind in February.
I followed his steps blankly and noticed that he was holding the exchange diary in his right hand.
What's wrong?
Cheye looked angry.
What exactly happened?
I lowered my head and followed Cheye closely, feeling inexplicably nervous.
Cheye suddenly stopped walking, and I, who was following him with my head down, accidentally bumped into his back.
"Ye Xiya, you really have so many tricks!" Che Ye raised the diary in his hand, a sarcastic smile on his lips, and his eyes fell on me like a strong searchlight.
“Cheye, I, I don’t understand what you mean…” I looked at him in confusion.
"I really underestimated you! You really racked your brains to get my forgiveness!" The disdain on Cheye's face became more obvious.
"Cheye, did I do something wrong?" I had no idea what was going on. But one thing I was sure of was that he was really angry!
"Ye Xiya, have you pretended enough?" Che Ye suddenly raised his voice, "You deliberately brought your diary to me, are you trying to impress me? Do you want me to see how much you have done for me and how much you have sacrificed for me?"
Did you intentionally bring your diary to him?
The scene of rushing out of the house in the morning quickly replayed in my mind!
Last night I took out both exchange diaries. I remember the one on the left side of the table was Cheye's exchange diary, but in the morning I was almost late, so I just picked up one diary and put it in my schoolbag.
Did I take the wrong one?
Of course!
No wonder Cheye was so angry, he must have thought that I deliberately gave him my diary to let him see how much I had given for him.
"Cheye, I..."
I was about to explain when Cheye suddenly stretched out his hand holding the diary over the corridor railing.
"don't want!"
As soon as I finished speaking, I saw Cheye's hand loosen...
The diary that I had always treasured drew an arc in the air and then quickly disappeared from my sight.
Cheye…he…threw away my exchange diary…
I rushed to the guardrail and looked down. There was only dense bushes below, and there was no trace of the diary at all.
"Look, Ye Xiya wants to use the diary exchange trick again!"
"Girls who are so scheming are really scary!"
"She still wants Cheye to reconcile with her. What wishful thinking!"
…
Weiwei and a few other girls were standing not far from me, talking loudly and without reservation.
Cheye's expression became even uglier.
"Cheye, I didn't mean to do that. I was in a hurry to go out this morning, so I took the wrong thing!" I explained anxiously.
"You've even thought of an excuse? Ye Xiya, do you think I'm stupid enough to believe such a poor reason of yours?" Che Ye sneered and left.
I wanted to chase him, but my right hand was suddenly grabbed. I turned around and saw Qianxia's angry and worried face: "Don't chase him, he won't believe anything you say now. Some people are blind, but Yuan Cheye is completely blind!"
Cheye, why don’t you listen to my explanation, why don’t you believe me?
I stood there blankly, watching Cheye's back completely disappear from my sight, leaving only the sound of everyone's laughter constantly entering my ears.
At this moment, I don’t know what to do and my mind is blank.
"Ye Xiya, I told you that you will suffer in the future!" Qianxia said, "Let's go! Don't you want your diary anymore?"
My brain started working again. Hmm! I have to find my exchange diary right away.
Chinatsu and I searched for a long time in the bushes of the flower bed downstairs before we found my diary. I carefully wiped the diary clean with a tissue and put it in my schoolbag.
No matter whether Cheye is still the person I like now, for me, the diary contains very important and beautiful memories.
"Ye Xiya, are you still going to do your duty?" Weiwei appeared at the door of the classroom with a dissatisfied look on her face and yelled at me.
Then I remembered that it was my turn to be on duty in the public corridor today.
"Why are you so fierce? It's none of your business whether I do my duty or not!" Qianxia said to her unhappily, then followed me out of the classroom with a broom in her hand...
After finishing my duty, I returned home in a daze.
Sitting at the table, I was still thinking about the scene where the diary was thrown downstairs by Cheye. Every time I thought about it, my heart ached...
The sky outside the window has been covered with a black curtain. The night sky is pitch black, without a single star. Such darkness makes people involuntarily think of the other side of the earth...
Xu Yi, are you okay?
Can your eyes see?
Do you know that the diary that I value more than my own life was thrown away by Cheye?
Why are there more and more conflicts between us?
I just want to be friends with him, why is it so hard?
On the table, Cheye's exchange diary lay there quietly. Under the warm yellow light, the angel on the cover seemed to have a hint of sadness on her face.
Tomorrow, I must return Cheye’s exchange diary to him.
This time, I must not take the wrong one!
I opened my schoolbag and put Cheye's exchange diary in it. When I was about to take out my own diary, I found that there was no trace of the diary in the schoolbag at all!
How is that possible?
I clearly remember wiping the diary clean and putting it in my schoolbag.
I poured everything in my schoolbag onto the bed and searched the bag inside and out several times, but still couldn't find it!
Did I put it in the drawer and forget to bring it back?
But it’s so late now, the school must be closed, and we can only wait until tomorrow morning!
I lay in front of the window and looked at the dark night sky outside. I always felt uneasy. Was it because the sky was too dark and there were no stars? There was no light, so I felt a strong sense of uneasiness in my heart.

Wednesday, March 28th, cloudy to mostly cloudy
Xu Yi has been gone for forty-two days.
Every day filled with longing,
They all became extremely long.
Do you know?
It turns out that being misunderstood and abused is painful.
None can compare to,
When I think of you, my heart is filled with
Sweet and sad.

In my dream, the sky was very dark, the dark grey sky stretched forward, with layers of dark clouds covering it. It seemed that a strong wind had blown, and the budding roses were tilted here and there, with traces of dust on the tiny pink buds.
I walked over to pick them up, but my hand was pricked by the sharp thorns.
There was a faint scent of roses floating in the air, Cheye's face flashed through my mind, and all the images went blank in an instant!
"ah……"
I sat up suddenly from the bed. This was the third dream I had that night, but it was still pitch black outside the window. I lay in bed with my eyes open until dawn, then hurried to school to find my diary.
But... the diary disappeared without a trace.
Strange, where did the diary go?
"Xia, your dark circles are a bit scary!" Qianxia leaned in close to stare at my face, "It must be because of Yuan Cheye's incident again, right?"
"No!" I shook my head hastily, "Chinatsu, I can't find my diary!"
"Ah? No way... Think about it carefully and see if you put it somewhere." Chinatsu said as she took out a box of chocolates from her schoolbag and threw it to me. "My friend sent it back from abroad. Here you go!"
I took the chocolate from Chinatsu, but I still couldn't muster up the energy.
"Don't worry, the diary won't be lost. Maybe it will run out by itself later." Chinatsu pinched my face, "It's delicious, hehe, be happy!"
Although I was still feeling uneasy, I still unwrapped a piece of chocolate in order not to worry Chinatsu.
"Thank you! Chinatsu, your friends are really nice to you." Recently I always receive gifts from Chinatsu, sometimes they are food, sometimes they are toys, and there will be new things every few days.
"Don't thank me..." A strange look flashed across Qianxia's face. "What's the use of being a nice person? You can only do stupid things that others don't know about. By the way, I still have to go to the teacher's office to get my homework book. Wait for me, let's go to the computer class together." After Qianxia finished speaking, she walked out of the classroom with an expression on her face that I couldn't understand.
I was the only one left in the empty classroom, and all the other students had gone to the computer classroom. Suddenly, with a "pop", the classroom door was pushed open forcefully.
I turned my head and saw Cheye walking to his seat against the light. His whole face was hidden in the shadows, so I couldn't see his expression clearly, but his golden hair shone brighter than usual.
By the way, Cheye’s exchange diary is still in my schoolbag.
A breeze blew gently in the empty classroom, and it was so quiet that even the heartbeat seemed to be heard clearly.
I took out Cheye's exchange diary from my schoolbag, and then walked gently to his seat: "Cheye, this is for you!" I handed the diary to him.
He frowned as he took the diary, turned two pages, and raised a mocking smile at the corner of his mouth: "Ye Xiya, there won't be any new tricks this time, right?"
My heart trembled uncontrollably.
"Cheye, I really took the wrong thing by accident yesterday. I never thought of using this method to gain your forgiveness. Believe me, okay?" My mouth became bitter, but I still tried to explain.
"Why should I believe you? Are you worthy of my trust? Ye Xiya, you are the most scheming girl I have ever met. You are so scary!" Che Ye lowered his head and approached me condescendingly. Every word that came out of his mouth turned into sharp needles, piercing into my body.
"Yuan Cheye, I don't allow you to say that about Xiaya!" Qianxia suddenly rushed over, stood in front of me, raised her head and looked at Cheye with a cold face.
There were crackling sounds in the air and sparks flying!
"What? Isn't what I said true?" Cheye's indifferent tone seemed like he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him at all.
"The fact is that you are so blind that you can't even see the truth!" Qianxia straightened her back, her hands clenched into fists, and the light blue veins were clearly visible.
"What did she do wrong that she needs your forgiveness? Is it because she fell in love with Xu Yi?" Qianxia's tone was mixed with anger and tenderness. "Have you ever thought about how sad Xiya was when she knew you were dead? If it weren't for Xu Yi, could she have walked out of the pain and darkness? Do you really want her to live in pain forever? Yuan Cheye, you are the most selfish person! Xiya just fell in love with someone who really treated her well, what did she do wrong?"
Cheye pursed his lips tightly and said nothing.
"Chiharu, stop talking!" I gently pulled Chiharu's sleeve, but she pushed it away.
"Let me finish, I've been holding these words in for a long time!" Qianxia continued emotionally, "Only a fool like Ye Xiya would unconditionally give for you after you come back, just to get your forgiveness!"
Chinatsu's words struck my heart, and tears fell silently...
"Xia, tell him now that a boy like him is not worth you doing anything for him!" Qianxia held my hand tightly and glared at Cheye fiercely.
Through tearful eyes, the expression on Cheye's face seemed to ease a little. I opened my mouth, but finally closed it weakly.
Even if he continues to hurt me, I will still remember him who once made my world colorful.
I still really want his forgiveness!
Cheye looked at me with a complicated expression, then turned around and left silently.
The expectation in Qianxia's eyes was slowly replaced by disappointment: "Ye Xiya, can you please have some ambition? I've said so much for you in vain!" After Qianxia said that, she angrily walked quickly towards the computer classroom.
I trotted after Chinatsu into the classroom and sat down in the seat next to her.
Qianxia glanced at me coldly, turned on the computer, and kept clicking the mouse with her right hand, making a continuous "ding ding ding" sound.
Chinatsu's brows were tightly furrowed, and there seemed to be a big "Don't mess with me" written on her forehead. After a while, I carefully put a note with the three words "I'm sorry" on it on her desk.
Without even looking at it, she crumpled up the note and threw it into a nearby trash can.
The whole day, Chinatsu ignored me. No matter how I talked to her, she always treated me as invisible. After school was over, Chinatsu picked up her schoolbag and left the classroom quickly.
The students left one after another, and the whole classroom was empty. Only the sound of the wind blowing could be heard.
I lay on the table, staring straight ahead with unfocused eyes. Tiny dust particles were dancing tirelessly in the air, and the blackboard was full of notes from the math teacher.
I stood up and walked slowly to the podium, holding a blackboard brush and began to vigorously erase the blackboard. The flying chalk dust entered my nostrils and my mouth, trying to fill my throat.
The blackboard brush in my hand rubbed against the blackboard, making a squeaking sound, as if as long as I brushed hard, I could brush away all the bad things.
Before I could come to my senses, the sound of hurried footsteps interrupted my thoughts: "Xia, follow me!" At the door of the classroom, Chinatsu looked at me anxiously.
"Chixia...I..." Before I could finish my words, Chixia grabbed me and hurried downstairs.
"Xia, no matter what happens, I'm here, understand?" There was no anger in Chinatsu's tone, but more worry and nervousness.
Did something happen again?
Chinatsu led me all the way to the open space in front of the teaching building before we stopped. I followed Chinatsu's gaze and saw that the bulletin board not far away was crowded with people.
"Look everyone, the owner of the diary is here!" Weiwei walked out of the crowd with a malicious smile on her face.
Everyone in front of the bulletin board turned their heads and scanned me up and down with their gazes like countless searchlights.
I seemed to realize something and walked towards the notice board in panic. The crowd automatically made way for me, and everyone observed the expression on my face.
It took me a very long time to walk these short dozen steps.
My diary was torn out page by page and posted on the bulletin board.
In just one second, my body began to tremble completely uncontrollably. At that moment, I felt like a clown who had been stripped naked and thrown into a cage for people to watch.
How could this happen! What on earth is going on!
A hint of blood seeped out of my lips that were tightly bitten.
Those warm moments between Chen and me, my first crush on Cheye, how I was ostracized in class, and everything about me was exposed in front of everyone.
"Don't... don't look! Please don't look anymore..." I suddenly turned around like crazy, blocking those prying eyes.
"Go away! Go away! Don't look!" It was the first time I screamed so hysterically and wildly. My voice became hoarse in an instant and my throat hurt as if it had been scalded by boiling water.
"What? Isn't it posted for people to see?"
"You and Cheye really hugged and kissed? Are you kidding me? You must have imagined it!"
…
“Don’t look… don’t look… don’t look… don’t look…” My body went limp, as if all my strength had been drained away. I whispered these three words mechanically, and my tears were like surging waves that swept me into the silent deep sea.
“Shut your stinky mouths!” Qianxia cursed at the crowd with a cold face, then turned around and hugged me who was leaning against the bulletin board, “Xia, I’m here, don’t be afraid, don’t be afraid!”
Even though my body was held tightly by Chinatsu, my hands were still shaking uncontrollably. The oxygen in my chest was getting less and less. Even though I was breathing deeply, every cell was slowly dying from lack of oxygen.
Why, why is this happening?
I closed my eyes tightly, trying to escape from everything in front of me, but I still felt that every gaze was like a sharp blade cutting deeply into my heart, causing blood to flow.
"Who did it? Come out if you dare!" Qianxia glanced at the crowd coldly, "I will never let this matter go! Whoever did it, I will make him pay the price!"
The noisy crowd suddenly quieted down.
In a trance, I saw a slender figure slowly walking towards this side.
His dazzling golden hair danced freely in the warm breeze of dusk, and there was a faint warm halo around him... He looked like a beautiful boy who had walked out of a comic book.
My mind went blank. Cheye would definitely be furious...
He would definitely say harshly: "Ye Xiya! Please stay away from me, I really hate you!"
"Yuan Cheye is here, look, look!"
"It's going to be a good show."
The originally quiet crowd became active again and began to whisper.
Cheye's lips were tightly pursed, emitting a dangerous aura. He walked coldly to the end of the bulletin board, tore the diary off with a "whoosh", crumpled it into a ball, and threw it at the crowd.
Cheye, I'm sorry! Cheye...
The glimmer of hope buried deep in my heart burst like a soap bubble. No matter how Cheye planned to humiliate me, I would not have any complaints. If it weren't for me, there wouldn't be so much trouble.
I stood there blankly, waiting for the coming storm.
However, after Cheye glanced at the notice board calmly, he didn't get angry at me. Instead, he turned around and looked coldly at the crowd: "Do you... think it looks good?"
The crowd fell silent again, as if they were at a loss as to what to do with Cheye's attitude.
"Do you want me to post all the love letters I've ever received here for you to see?" There was an irresistible force in Cheye's voice.
After a long silence, Cheye looked at me with a complicated expression: "Finally, I warn you again, if anyone does such a shameless thing again, I will never let him go!"
"Let's go, it's just a diary, what's so interesting about it!"
"Yeah, there's really nothing interesting about the diary." The onlookers gradually dispersed while looking for stairs to go down.
Is he helping me now?
No, no!
Another voice in my heart immediately denied it.
Now, the image of me in his mind cannot be any worse!
The last ray of sunset in the sky fell on his golden hair, so dazzling. He was like a god, but a god so cold that people dared not look directly at him!
"What? It turns out you are still protecting Ye Xiya!" A girl glared at me fiercely as she walked past me, but her words got into my ears.
I glanced at Cheye who had his back to me, waiting for the coming storm.
In front of the bulletin board that was crowded with people just now, suddenly there were only three of us left: me, Chinatsu, and Cheye.
Looking at Cheye's figure so close to me, my heart was filled with bitterness.
"Cheye..." I mustered up my courage and looked at Cheye, "I'm sorry..." Before I could even utter the word "I'm sorry", I was interrupted by Cheye.
"Ye Xiya, what else can you do besides causing trouble?" Che Ye's eyes swept across my face, "Save your apology for later, and deal with your diary first." An unnatural look flashed across Che Ye's face.
His face was still cold, but there was a hint of warmth in his voice.
He didn't lose his temper?
I looked at him in disbelief.
He stopped looking at me, tore off the pages of the diary that were flying in the wind, quickly crumpled them into a ball, and wanted to throw them into the trash can.
"Cheye, don't!" I rushed to him nervously and grabbed his raised hand.
His hand stopped in mid-air, and in the backlight, I couldn't see the expression .
His disgusted expression towards me flashed through my mind, and I shrank my hand back as if I had been electrocuted. He must not like me touching him!
Unexpectedly, Cheye did not continue to throw the paper ball. His hand paused in the air for two seconds, then dropped it and stuffed the paper ball into my palm: "Hurry up and deal with these diaries."
The sky gradually darkened, and the clouds seemed to be coated with a golden edge.
Cheye's departing figure slowly turned into a blurry black shadow, and only the ball of paper in my hand seemed to still retain his warmth.
His attitude today seems different from before!
I stared blankly at Cheye's back as it completely disappeared into the spreading darkness, then I came to my senses and tore up the diary on the bulletin board with Chinatsu.
There was no light in the gradually darkening sky. It must be early morning on the other side of the earth right now, right? Xu Yi, are you sleeping now?
Why do so many sad things keep happening after you leave?
Is it because without your protection, I can no longer be happy?
Xu Yi... I miss you! I really miss you so much...
I looked up at the sky in the distance. The dark sky was like the sea in the middle of the night, as if it could swallow up everything, leaving only endless darkness.