Chapter 4 The Man on the Tombstone 01
Rumors spread.
As soon as Leng Yuting spread the news that day, all kinds of versions of the story between Mo Beibei and me started to appear.
Some people say that I was the one who harmed Mo Beibei, while others say that Mo Beibei was the one who harmed me. There are even more bored people who specifically investigated our experiences in high school and described the situation in an exaggerated way.
However, "rumors stop at the wise". When Mo Beibei was discharged from the hospital, we met and smiled at each other tacitly.
"A smile can erase all grudges" and all rumors will be refuted.
After all, we were all freshmen, and there was nothing between Mo Beibei and me that was worth long-term gossip, so soon our affairs faded away on campus.
But the three roommates in the dormitory are no longer as friendly as they were when I first met them.
A university is a small society, full of various forms of open and covert struggles.
Many people want to stand out in their first year of school, so everyone is hostile to people who seem threatening.
My college entrance exam score ranked first in the entire college, and coupled with the rumor incident, someone dug up my brilliant academic past, so naturally I attracted a lot of hostile looks.
An Jia said: "What's so great about having good grades? You are not even in the same class with us now."
Cai Miao said: "An Jia, don't always target Ai Ye, it's not good."
Chen Yishan said, "Cai Miao, don't pretend to be a good person. Didn't you tell your friends last time about how bad Ai Ye's behavior was?"
Who is the good guy, who is the bad guy, and who is the friend?
It doesn't matter.
For someone who doesn't know how long he can live, the most practical thing to do is to try to live every remaining day happily and fully.
Fighting is not suitable for Ai Ye today.
What I care about is how many customers the restaurant where I work part-time will have on the day I work, how much tips I can get, and how long it can support my living expenses.
What I care about is whether my mother, who is an alcoholic due to emotional trauma, has recovered from her decadent state, when she will take the initiative to call me again, and whether she will be sad if I pass away one day.
What I care about is whether my best friend and the one I love most, Vivi, is happy every day.
What I care about is what I should do to let the world remember that I have been here...
If you only have a very short time left to live, and if you already know that every day of life is a alms to you, you will find that in addition to intrigue and the pursuit of fame and fortune, there are many other things in this world that are worth doing.
For example, live a meaningful life.
Sometimes I ask myself, since I’m going to die anyway, why should I try so hard and survive in such a tiny way?
Then I answered, because I am not dead yet. As long as I am alive, I have the obligation to be responsible for every day of my existence and choose to live a good life.
Death is inevitable. Everyone knows that they will eventually die when they are born. In fact, all normal people are the same. We all know that our final destination is death, and we are not sure when we will die, but don’t we still live every day as usual?
I don't know if this idea is naive.
I feel that whether it is me who suffers from an unknown neurological disease and may die at any time, or those who are diagnosed with an incurable disease and are doomed to die, we should not give up on ourselves after learning the verdict of fate.
Even if we are told that life will suddenly end one day, we have no way of knowing when that day will be. We cannot estimate the day of death. Those who are healthy and pain-free cannot predict when death will take their lives. So we are all the same.
Instead of waiting to die in self-pity, it is better to live as usual. No, it is better to live harder than usual.
I turned off the computer and took out my account book to calculate the part-time income I had earned this month. The tiny but significant numbers on it made me smile.
Look how well I have been living this month.
Not long after, Chen Yisan, who had just finished taking a shower, walked towards me and handed me some promotional papers .
"Ai Ye, there will be a celebrity meet-and-greet event at school tomorrow afternoon. Our art department is looking for some new volunteers. Do you want to go? There will be celebrities to see!"
This is the dormitory. Although everyone has conflicts, they will not quarrel
Ugly words are said behind people's backs, no one talks about them every day.
The volunteers said they could watch the stars for free, but they were actually doing hard labor. If it was really that good, why didn't Cai Miao and An Jia go?
But I am a magnanimous person and I won't bother with them. Anyway, I don't have a part-time job or other activities tomorrow, so I might as well do some hard labor to earn a smile from them.
"Okay! Where and what time exactly? Which star? Is she famous? Should I bring a pen to ask for her autograph?" I took the promotional paper with a smile, glanced through it, and asked casually.
"Gather at the entrance of the University Student Activity Center at 4:30 tomorrow afternoon. I heard that this is a new performing arts star. What's his name, Wang? Let me think..."
"Wang Meiwen! She's the one who's going to play the leading female role in The New Legend of the Condor Heroes. I heard she was born in the 1990s and is the same age as us." Cai Miao, who was sorting her clothes at the side, interrupted.
My hands shook violently, and I lowered my head to look carefully at the promotional papers. Looking at the girls with heavy makeup on them, I couldn't keep smiling anymore.
Wang Meiwen ...
Is it a mosquito?
