Chapter 3 Contradictions 05
Li Wei is right. People often get into trouble because of their own fault. This is true for Mo Beibei and me.
The meal was like chewing wax. Li Wei kept cursing at me and my hands kept playing with my phone, back and forth. I didn't even know what I was thinking about.
"Weiwei, let's go see Mo Beibei!" When we came out of the restaurant, it was already dark. I looked up at the starry sky, took a breath, and said to Li Wei.
I was not joking. I sincerely told Li Wei an idea that I had been thinking about for a long time.
"Ye Zi! Is your brain nerve twitching again ? Why did you go to see Mo Beibei? Are you looking for a beating?" Li Wei glanced at me with her charming almond-shaped eyes and accused me without any surprise.
I reached out and smoothed the missing button on her chest, took out an elastic band from my pocket, passed it through the buttonhole, gently tied a bow, and talked to her.
"Weiwei, the past is not the past just because you say it's the past. Lin Feng and I broke up, but Mo Beibei's illness and heavy bleeding were more or less related to me. If Lin Feng hadn't wanted to find me, Mo Beibei wouldn't have ended up like this. I went to see Mo Beibei not to blame her or apologize, but simply to visit her as an old classmate. I hope to have a good and peaceful chat with her so that the matter can be resolved."
I explained to Li Wei patiently.
Li Wei's anger faded, and her voice was a little stifled: "Do you think Mo Beibei would be willing to see you? Would she be willing to have a peaceful chat? Would the woman who helped her just now be willing? Ye Zi, we have already withdrawn from this, so let's not get involved anymore. Let them dwell on the past!"
"Weiwei, don't you understand? We haven't completely withdrawn. Even if we have changed the environment, come to this strange city, and start a new life, the past is still chasing us. There will still be people who know that I, Ai Ye, am a bastard. There will still be people who think that I harmed Mo Beibei and that I wanted to steal Lin Feng. The past is not so easy to get over."
Li Wei finally agreed to accompany me to the hospital to see Mo Beibei.
But she had always had a deep prejudice against Mo Beibei, so she only agreed to accompany me to the downstairs of the hospital and let me go to see Mo Beibei alone. Then she went into a nearby Internet cafe and waited for me to come out and call her.
I walked into the elevator alone, carrying the fruit basket I bought at the door. Looking at my reflection in the elevator wall, a sigh escaped from the corner of my mouth.
Is it because he is old? Why did the once high-spirited Ai Ye disappear?
When I walked out of the elevator, a lot of people swarmed in and I was squeezed out of the door. I was actually a little amused and helpless.
Mo Beibei's ward was contacted by her class monitor.
We were all in the Foreign Languages Department, with only two classes in total, and we took many classes together. Both classes had the contact information of the class leaders. How could the class monitor not know that something had happened to a classmate? Moreover, Mo Beibei was sent to the hospital by her classmates - it seemed that her family was not notified, and it was Mo Beibei who did not allow them to be notified.
But that's not the point. The point is that Mo Beibei's squad leader was very straightforward. When he heard that I wanted to see her, he immediately told me which hospital, which ward, and which bed.
I figured she probably hadn't heard the rumors about the discord between Mo Beibei and I, otherwise she wouldn't be so frank.
When Mo Beibei was found, she was lying on the hospital bed reading a book, with no one else around her.
This is a small double ward. The patient in the adjacent bed is probably out and is not in bed. There are only Mo Beibei and I in the whole room.
When she saw me, Mo Beibei was obviously surprised, but she quickly calmed down, smiled at me, pointed to a chair beside her, and asked me to sit down without any hesitation.
Not only did Mo Beibei not yell at me, she also smiled at me, which surprised me.
I put the fruit basket in front of the bed, sat on the chair, and looked at Mo Beibei who was rummaging through something on the bed. I didn't know what to say.
"Haha! I didn't know anyone was coming, so it's a bit messy here. By the way, Ai Ye, do you want some chocolate? I remember you used to eat chocolate every day. I happen to have a box Do you want some?" Mo Beibei suddenly broke the dull atmosphere, handed me a box of chocolate and said to me.
I looked at the sincere smile on her face, and my nose suddenly felt sore, but my hand caught it out of habit. Then, as if I had thought of something, I blurted out, "In fact, all those chocolates were given to me by Li Wei. She doesn't like sweets, but many people gave her a lot of high-end chocolates to please her father. As a result, just like the papayas her mother bought, they all filled my stomach. Do you remember that you compared your breasts with me every day? My breasts became bigger by eating those papayas..."
As I was talking, I suddenly stopped.
In this situation, it seems stupid to say these things.
I sat awkwardly in the chair, touching the box of chocolates, and once again didn't know what to say.
"Well, are you feeling better? I came here today just to see you. Don't get me wrong, I'm not here to laugh at you. I admit that I did hate you in the past, and I blamed you for what happened between you and Lin Feng, but I really didn't mean to make you sick. Lin Feng and I broke up a long time ago, and even if he still won't give up , I've completely broken up with him in this regard. I originally thought that you would be much better than me, and that you would definitely be happy and sarcastic to me every day in the future. I didn't expect you to become like this. Your attitude suddenly became less sharp and arrogant, and I'm really not used to it. Haha, I even seem to feel a little guilty." I was silent for too long, and I wanted to explain why I came here, but as I spoke, I didn't even know what I was saying.
Mo Beibei smiled and said, "Actually, I am the one who should feel guilty, Ai Ye. I know that during those three years in high school, you must have thought that I was very stupid, very big-breasted and brainless, and I argued with you all day long about all kinds of things. I don't know why I was so stupid at the time, thinking that you, Ai Ye, were here to defeat me. You are smart, good at studying and having fun, more confident than anyone else, and your face seems to glow, always attracting the attention of people around you. As long as you are there, all the boys are looking at you. Even if my face is prettier than yours, I can never compare to you. Everyone will look at you with admiration, but I am unpopular like a mediocre powder. In fact, I was really stupid at that time. I didn't know that everyone admired you because of your personality and your intelligence, and it had nothing to do with whether you looked good or not. I was blindly jealous and wanted to compete with you for everything. Lin Feng's family and my family are old friends. I often come into contact with Lin Feng. Seeing you dating him, I also want to snatch him."
She paused and continued, "Li Wei saw Lin Feng and I kissing that day, but Lin Feng didn't want to at all. I forced him to kiss me. At that time, he never took the initiative to touch me and was very cold to me. I got him drunk once and lay on his bed all night and lied to him that we had sex. In fact, we didn't do anything. Lin Feng is easy to deceive. He thought he really did something wrong and he felt he owed me, so he agreed to whatever I asked. At that time, he was still dating you, but I was always ordering him around secretly. Later, I saw that he still couldn't let you go, so I forced him to confront you again. I was very happy to use Lin Feng to hit you. I really thought I won at that time, but I didn't know that things would turn out like this. I didn't know Leng Yuting would beat you like that. When I heard that you were beaten, Lin Feng was like crazy, and I was not jealous, but just a little scared. When you were in the hospital, I secretly went to see you, and when I heard what the doctor said to you, I was so scared that I never dared to see you again. Ai Ye, I really didn't mean it. I didn't want to hurt you like that. I should be the one to say sorry."
Mo Beibei became more and more excited as she spoke.
Watching her wiping her tears and looking full of regret, I sat in the chair in a daze, as if someone had suddenly slapped me hard in the face, unable to react.
"So...it was actually you who was eavesdropping outside the door that day?" I asked Mo Beibei in a difficult voice, my hand holding the chocolate trembling a little.
"It's me! Ai Ye, I didn't know it would turn out like this. I was so scared when I heard it and I didn't dare to face you. I have consulted many doctors, and they all said the same thing as the old doctor. Your brain has been severely damaged and you have an unknown neurological disease. Your brain nerves will most likely continue to break as time goes by. You will slowly lose your five senses, become paralyzed, lose the ability to take care of yourself, and die at a very young age. I really didn't know it would turn out like this, Ai Ye, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to kill you." Mo Beibei got out of bed, holding my hand and crying.
"You are the only one who knows about this, right? That's enough, Mo Beibei, if you feel sorry for me, then please help me keep this secret, okay? Especially Li Wei, don't let her know. She doesn't know that my nerves are still breaking indefinitely, and she doesn't know that I won't live long. Don't think too much, many things are destined, there is no need to blame yourself so much. I'm leaving, you have a good rest. Let's forget about the past!" After helping Mo Beibei wipe away her tears, I helped her sit back on the bed, and said with a faint smile.
After closing the door of the ward and leaning against the wall of the corridor, I could still hear Mo Beibei's low, crying voice echoing in my ears.
"How could I forget! Ai Ye, I still remember that you liked to wear plaid clothes in high school, I still remember that you were always in the top three in the school in every exam, I still remember that you never ate lettuce when eating hamburgers, and I still remember the 38th parallel I drew on our table. In fact, I really want to be friends with you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
The corners of my eyes ached so much that tears fell uncontrollably. I took a deep breath, wiped my tears, and left with a smile.
I think Mo Beibei will forget it. We all will forget the past.
I don’t know how much time I have left, and I don’t know when the string of memories in my head will break.
Let it be, okay?
