Chapter 4: My Farewell Song
I didn't approach you.
The sky woke up with the sound of the temple gong.
Street dust flies under the hooves of the driven cattle, and the gurgling water bottle is tied to the waist. The morning light is fading.
And I didn't approach you.
——Rabindranath Tagore
1
After Cheng Ge left, Qing Nuan listened to Cheng Ge, lived in the sunshine, and began to interact with everyone.
She would take the initiative to show kindness, help and make friends with other classmates. Gradually, she broke away from Cheng Ge's protection and grew up in a sunny way.
She put all her energy into working towards the University in City A.
During math class, even if it was like listening to a foreign language, she would silently use the recording function on her phone to record everything the teacher said. After class and after school, she would listen to it over and over again with headphones.
The first year of high school ended quickly, and by the second year, Qing Nuan's grades had improved from the middle to the upper middle.
During these two years, Qing Nuan became confident, cheerful and lively, as if the inferior and timid little girl from before had been reborn.
The biggest change in Qing Nuan's life is that she no longer has to eat with Luo Weiwei.
Maybe some people are born with incompatible auras. Although Qing Nuan is no longer the country bumpkin she used to be, she still feels that she is different from Luo Weiwei. Even if they are forced to get together, they just have nothing to say and it's awkward.
Qing Nuan's dining partner became Xu Jiarong.
Xu Jiarong is a very good and beautiful girl, Qing Nuan felt so from the beginning.
Thinking back to when she had just entered high school, Xu Jiarong treated her very friendly, took the initiative to say hello, and stood up for her when she was bullied, so it was understandable that the two of them became best friends, and it was a natural development.
It’s just that when Qing Nuan had dinner with Cheng Ge before, Cheng Ge brought a burden with him, Luo Weiwei.
Now, when Qing Nuan and Xu Jiarong were having dinner together, Xu Jiarong also brought a burden, Song Yang.
In fact, Xu Jiarong used to have lunch with Song Yang, and Qing Nuan was the one invited by Xu Jiarong. It was normal to be invited by Xu Jiarong, after all, Qing Nuan had a very good relationship with her. But what surprised Qing Nuan was that Song Yang also agreed with Xu Jiarong and invited her.
It was lunchtime, and Xu Jiarong smiled casually and called Qing Nuan, saying, "Nuan Nuan, let's go have lunch together! After Cheng Ge left, you're left alone to eat, so why don't you hang out with us every day from now on!" As she said that, she held her hand affectionately.
Xu Jiarong is a very contagious girl. Her smile is so sweet that people can't bear to refuse her.
Qing Nuan saw Song Yang standing behind Xu Jiarong and asked, "Why is he here too?"
After hearing this, Song Yang snorted and said with a wicked smile: "Why, you sit at the same desk with me in class, sit at the same table with me after class, and hang out with me all day long, are you afraid of being schemed against by me?"
Qing Nuan still couldn't stand this kind of provocation, and the words came out unconsciously: "Who is afraid of you? How dare you plot against me? Haven't you finished writing the 1,000-word self-criticism the last two times? Besides, it's still uncertain who plots against whom! You'd better be careful in front of me."
Song Yang's evil plan succeeded, and he became even more arrogant: "If you are not afraid, let's go to dinner together, why are you nagging?"
Qing Nuan closed her textbook and moved her chair away: "Eat if you want!"
After Qing Nuan finished speaking, she walked to the front first.
Song Yang was secretly happy and walked behind her with a smile on his face.
Xu Jiarong looked at the backs of the two people in front of her, a bitter smile appeared on the corners of her mouth . She suddenly felt that at this moment, she seemed to be the redundant one.
Because only Xu Jiarong knew that it was Song Yang's idea to invite Qing Nuan to have lunch together.
It’s just that Song Yang was too embarrassed to say it out loud, so he had to take the lead in front of Qing Nuan.
Qing Nuan was indeed the one Song Yang was plotting against.
Xu Jiarong was the one who was used by Song Yang.
Xu Jiarong was very puzzled. She had asked herself what exactly was the difference between her and Qing Nuan. Was it personality? Qing Nuan was originally cowardly and often bullied, while she was straightforward, cheerful, and helpful. Appearance? There was no comparison. Qing Nuan was at most pretty, while Xu Jiarong was a real beauty. She used top-notch skin care products on her face. She was also a famous beauty in her grade.
So in what way is Qing Nuan better than himself, so that Song Yang, who grew up with him, easily fell in love with someone else in the end?
Xu Jiarong could never figure out this answer.
In the past two years, especially after Cheng Ge transferred to another school and left J City, Song Yang became more and more aggressive in provoking and bullying Qing Nuan. Only Xu Jiarong understood that Song Yang's behavior was purely for the sake of seeking a sense of existence.
Once upon a time, Xu Jiarong approached Song Yang step by step in this way.
Not all friends who grew up together can play together forever. From bullying each other in the beginning to protecting each other now, Xu Jiarong has been carefully maintaining this relationship between herself and Song Yang, which is why she has been with him until now and has not parted ways.
Xu Jiarong saw everything Song Yang did to Qing Nuan and understood it all too well.
In fact, Xu Jiarong has always been by Song Yang's side, but she has never been able to get into Song Yang's heart.
It was as if Song Yang actually stayed with Qing Nuan the whole day. As he said, they sat at the same desk in class and at the same dining table after class, but he was never able to get into Qing Nuan's heart.
