Chapter 39 Is it good for you?

Zhu Jiajia invited Xia Jinxian to drink coffee. On the way back, the two of them were talking about inviting committee members.

Zhu Jiajia said, "Aren't we going to invite digital financial companies this time? The secretary-general took me to the Financial Bureau. I heard that it is difficult to push forward this work now. Several banks are very strict in loan approval for companies in the district. Director Gu of the Financial Bureau came forward to coordinate, but it didn't work. The situation is not good recently."

Xia Jinxian listened silently, thinking, how could this be possible?

Fund stocks are soaring these days, and hot money is pouring in. How can there be no money?

Xia Jinxian's cell phone rang, it was a WeChat voice call.

Zhu Jiajia accidentally glanced at the name on the screen:

Xu Yanqing.

Zhu Jiajia's eyes widened as she saw Xia Jinxian answer the call very calmly.

"District Chief Xu." She stood on the street, the wind blowing her long hair. She squinted her eyes and looked at the signboard in the distance with an expressionless face.

Xu Yanqing must have planned this call for a long time.

It's been so long since I came back, but the two of them have met only a handful of times.

I really want to ask her how she is doing.

When I heard that she was very happy, I didn't feel relieved at all.

I can't imagine how I, who was already over thirty and about to enter my forties, could be so narrow-minded.

But facing her, reason is always in arrears.

Xu Yanqing looked at the agenda of the committee forum in front of her and saved the mobile phone number she left on it. It was no longer the number from back then.

Unlike him, his mobile phone number has not changed over the years.

But he was afraid that she wouldn't answer the unknown call, so he made a voice call.

He asked her, "I would like to ask Chief Xia to give some advice for the forum next week. Is it convenient?"

Xia Jinxian held her mobile phone and stood in the autumn wind, squinting and feeling the coolness of the breeze on her face. She asked , "District Chief Xu, I would like to ask Secretary-General Zhu to come over and report to you, is that okay?"

Xu Yanqing's hand repeatedly twisted the thin agenda sent by the CPPCC and said, "Do you need to trouble the Secretary-General? Chief Xia is specifically responsible. Wouldn't it be clearer?"

Xia Jinxian took a deep breath. The word "Aqing" was already rolling on the tip of her tongue, but there was a lump in her throat that prevented her from spitting it out.

Her hands were trembling slightly. She turned her back to Zhu Jiajia and walked to the side street. "Xu District, I'm afraid I don't understand Chairman Zhou's intention enough. How about I ask the Secretary-General to come over?"

Xu Yanqing listened to her explicit refusal. , the fingers holding the phone clenched tightly, and then relaxed.

Facing the microphone, she was the only one who could hear what he said at this moment.

He said, "Xiaoxian, come sit down and let me see you."

With a snap, Xia Jinxian's tears seemed to be blown away by the wind.

There was silence between heaven and earth except for the sound of wind.

She couldn't speak for a long time, and Xu Yanqing held the phone and waited silently for her answer.

After a long time, even Zhu Jiajia felt strange. Xia Jinxian was finally able to calm down and said to him with a nasal voice that only Xu Yanqing could detect, "Okay Xu District, I'm outside now. What time in the afternoon is convenient for you?"

Xu Yanqing wanted to say. It was convenient anytime in the afternoon, but she was afraid that she would appear frivolous, so she said, "I'll wait for you after I get to work at 1:30."

Xia Jinxian said "ok" and hung up the phone.

Zhu Jiajia came over to look at her. She wiped the corners of her eyes and said, "Some sand got into my eyes just now. Please help me blow it out."

Zhu Jiajia did not doubt that it was there and helped her blow a breath.

This blow made her even cry. Zhu Jiajia asked , "What 's 

wrong with you?" 

Zhu Jiajia nodded and asked, "Did District Chief Xu ask you to talk about the committee forum? Is it too late?" 

Xia Jinxian looked at the time and walked back without rushing. It seems longer. 

I was distracted all the way. 

The previous few reunions had been in a hurry, with others looking around and naturally unable to speak. 

But this time, they were alone. Meeting in his office inevitably made her think about it, speculating over and over again in her mind about the scenario of their reunion. 

I drank the coffee empty and threw it in the trash. 

Zhu Jiajia was such a careless person, but he suddenly asked her, "Are you worried about anything?" 

Xia Jinxian was startled by her sudden question, and thought she had seen something, so she turned to look at her. 

Zhu Jiajia comforted her with concern, "It's okay. I went out with Xu District last time and he was quite easy to get along with. Don't be nervous." 

It turned out that she was nervous about meeting the leader. 

Xia Jinxian couldn't help but laugh, and felt emotional for her. 

She smiled and hugged her arm and said, "No problem, I'm a little tired these days. I'm thinking about the arrangement plan for the day after tomorrow." 

Zhu Jiajia then breathed a sigh of relief and said optimistically, "You are so capable, no problem." 

Yes . 
Sometimes innocent people are indeed happier. 

Infected by Zhu Jiajia's innocence, aside from her past experience with Xu Yanqing, she also knew that nothing embarrassing would happen to her during this meeting based on her understanding of Xu Yanqing. 

He is a humble gentleman, and he knows how to be considerate, and he only complains about people close to him. 

After so many years, his character is still something she can trust. 

Xia Jinxian rubbed Zhu Jiajia's hair and said, "I believe you, thank you." 

Zhu Jiajia laughed. 

It's 1:20, still ten minutes before work. 

She went to Xu Yanqing's office as scheduled to report on the basic situation of the committee members' forum. 

Standing on the floor of the district government office with a plan and notebook in hand, I had worked here for more than a year, and that was almost eight years ago. 

Things have changed in the past, and those who made her unhappy at that time basically no longer work on this floor. 

If you stretch out the time dimension, you can probably really see the cause and effect of many things. 

Even if they were together back then, their farewell would eventually come. 

No matter how deep the love is, it can't match the lingering time. 

In fact, I should have thought of it earlier. 

So if you can't let go now, it doesn't necessarily mean you won't be able to let go forever. 

His office is in the third room from the bottom of the corridor. Opposite it is a circle of glass office areas, where the secretarial department and the general department work, separated by a corridor. 

Since Xia Jinxian came with an appointment, she naturally didn't need to say hello to the secretaries. 

She stood at the door of Xu Yanqing's office, stood there for a moment, and looked up at the door number. 

Taking a deep breath, she knocked lightly on the door, and the door opened directly. 

Xia Jinxian was startled at first, and then looked up. This familiar scene made her filled with emotion again.

Xu Yanqing was probably waiting for her, just like when they lived together in the past.

She finished cooking and he was always so tired that he fell asleep on the sofa.

The way he covered the book was just like that afternoon when they first met. It had not changed after so many years.

It was her first day of internship. Xu Yanqing threw an address book at her, and she was worried that Xu Yanqing didn't like her.

At noon, I had a working meal with Guan Ziyue and others.

As a newcomer, although he was a little restrained, Guan Ziyue was easy to get along with, and other colleagues were also very nice. They established friendship through milk tea diplomacy at noon on the first day.

When returning to the office, Xu Yanqing was taking a nap.

There was still time before she went to work. She opened the door and found a quiet room.

The afternoon sun slanted into the room through the window, and Xu Yanqing was sleeping with a book covering his face.

She boldly walked over and looked at the cover of the book. It was in English and was called "Policy paradox: the art of political decision". Just by looking at the cover, she knew that the book was very obscure and difficult to understand. No wonder it was hypnotic.

The two of them were not familiar with each other at that time, and he was taking a nap, so she didn't dare to move around. She sat in the cubicle outside the office, put on her headphones, lay on the table, and fell asleep soon after.

It was summer, and the air conditioning had started to turn on in the office. When Xu Yanqing woke up, she was still covered with a blanket, but she saw her thin clothes at the door.

So he got up and turned off the air conditioner, and the movement woke her up.

Xu Yanqing took a blanket from the bottom of a cabinet and handed it to her, "Take it first."

She took it blankly, and then Xu Yanqing walked to the warehouse and said to her, "Come here."

Then he carried the blanket into the warehouse. This silly look made Xu Yanqing couldn't help laughing. He said, "Don't be nervous. This recliner is for you. Don't lie on the table for naps in the future. It's not good for your heart and brain blood vessels."

I thought he was doing it for himself . A person who only made himself enter all his mobile phone numbers in a show of force turned out to be just for work.

Only then did Xia Jinxian realize that what Guan Ziyue and the others said was true. The atmosphere here was really good, and Xu Yanqing was also a nice person.

She hugged the blanket and smiled at him, "Thank you, Director Xu."

This smile was pure and innocent, which probably made Xu Yanqing a little dazed.

Later, when she asked her about it, he told her truthfully that he had noticed her since the very beginning of her arrival. She was well-behaved, gentle, quiet and gentle.

He gave her many beautiful words that year.

Who knew the ending of the two people would be so hasty.

After so many years, the sight of him lying on the sofa covered with books has been deeply engraved in her memory.

At this moment, the reappearance of yesterday made her eyes warm.

Xia Jinxian stood quietly holding the notebook, as if she couldn't bear to disturb his rest, but also seemed not to want to return to reality.

I want to indulge in memories.

This man in my memories always belongs to me.

Xu Yanqing seemed to feel her gaze and suddenly woke up. He took off the book and saw her standing at the door. He smiled instinctively and said, "Xiaoxian."

This smile was so gentle that it made Xia Jinxian's throat tighten.

She blinked her eyes, trying hard to hold back the tears in her eyes, but she couldn't make any other expression on her face and looked extremely stiff.

Xu Yanqing saw her unnatural expression and returned to reality. He sat up straight, stood up, and put down the book in his hand.

He thought they were still in love, after all, seeing her was like sunshine and made him happy.

Neither of them knew what to say for a moment.

After putting down the book for a moment, he calmed down his expression, turned around and walked to the tea cabinet.

With his back to her, his voice became natural. He said, "Come in. Don't stand at the door. Do you want some coffee?"

Xia Jinxian hummed, opened the door straight, walked into his office, and smelled a familiar smell. .

It was his smell, and it still smelled so good after so many years.

It was like the bookish air on his body. The smell made her lips and teeth tremble, and she was instinctively attracted to him.

She stood in front of his large desk, not knowing where to sit.

He just stood there awkwardly, looking down at the things on his table.

A familiar lamb was placed on the left side of his desk, only a few centimeters away from her.

She looked at it again and again, confirming that it was the one she had given him back then.

He looked at Xu Yanqing with some surprise, he was still boiling water.

Only then did Xia Jinxian realize that she was wrong.

However, since they are lovers who have broken up, what does it mean that he still puts the glazed lamb she gave her as a decoration on the table?

She thought about it again and again, but she still held back and didn't ask anything.

Xu Yanqing took milk from the refrigerator and poured it into her cup, while she made a cup of Americano. Xia Jinxian looked at his beautiful hands, holding a small can of instant coffee and poured one cup after another. After putting it into the cup, she couldn't help but ask, "Why do you... drink such bitter coffee?"

Xu Yanqing handed her the milk coffee, holding his own cup of Americano and said, "Because reality is more bitter than coffee." He said this As he spoke, he seemed very melancholy.

Xu Yanqing was holding his own bitter coffee. It was still difficult for the two of them to say anything to each other through the hot steam from the cups.

He walked over and closed the door, returned to his large office chair, stretched out his hand to her again and said, "Sit down."

Xia Jinxian held the cup, nodded, pulled her skirt, and sat down opposite him.

The two people looked at each other close at hand and found that the other party was stained by the vicissitudes of time.

No more youthful days.

Xu Yanqing wanted to use the CPPCC members' forum to ask her if she was doing well.

I just want to see her and talk to her.

But when the person actually sat in front of him, still looking as elegant as before, he couldn't say anything.

Bowl.

Since ancient times, there has been no regrets.

In front of Xia Jinxian, Xu Yanqing finally couldn't stand up as a leader anymore, and instead wanted to release the emotions that had been suppressed for so many years.

He asked, "Don't you want to see me?"

Xia Jinxian looked at him doubtfully, and it took a few seconds to understand that she was talking about returning the car keys last time.

While I was still thinking about what excuse to come up with, I heard Xu Yanqing mockingly say, "Isn't it because you don't want to see me if you ask your colleague from the core to return the key? So if I want you to go to Russia together, you will also find excuses to shirk it." , right?"

Xia Jinxian felt sad.

It was because he took Zhu Jiajia to Russia that she felt even more awkward. This feeling was just like the awkwardness when she was petty with him when they were in love.

She thought, what should she say to him?

Do you want to say calmly, it's all over?

But in my heart, have I really let go of the past?

Or should I bless him and grow old with the woman who broke them up?

She asked herself as if she was not so generous.

The two men faced each other in silence.

Xia Jinxian suddenly asked, "Is she good to you?"

Xu Yanqing looked at her, smiled and asked, "What do you think?"

Xia Jinxian's heart twitched.

She wanted to reach out and touch his curly hair, she wanted to comfort him a few words, she even wanted to cry in front of him, so that he could see her vulnerability, and hope that he would show his distress like before.

But in the adult world, people are accustomed to using a straight face to cover up their inner turmoil.

So he just twitched his lips in silent relief.

After all, if he and Han Yun had a bad life, she would be the culprit.

It was she who pushed him to Han Yun with her own hands.

She is the culprit for the indifference between the two of them now, so who has the right to ask him if he is doing well?

What does it have to do with her whether she is living well or not?

Xia Jingxian felt disgusted with herself at this moment.

Xu Yanqing asked, "So, is he good to you?"

Xia Jinxian was stunned, and then she realized that he didn't know that she had been divorced long ago.

She took a deep breath and hummed.

Xu Yanqing said after a long time, "That's good."

Xia Jinxian said nothing, lowered her head and looked at her hands, thinking: I'm not good at all, and I don't want you to be good to her.