Chapter 368 You Have to Bear Your Own Life
Watching He Shu walking out slowly, Ma Anqi frowned slightly. The development of things seemed to be out of her control.
Although she had correctly guided He Shu to pay attention to the past in a positive direction during the hypnosis process.
But it seems that the effect is not obvious at the moment?
Ma Anqi came to her senses and hurriedly chased after him. She wanted He Shu to help her test the hypnosis technique, but she didn't want to change He Shu's character.
The impact of these things on He Shu might be more serious than she imagined.
I chased him to the bathroom where He Shu was putting his clothes on.
Seeing Ma Anqi chasing after him, he did not panic but dressed slowly and at a leisurely pace.
"He Shu, you said before that you would trust me 100%."
He Shu stared at the mirror: "Who in this world is worthy of 100% trust? Do you trust yourself?"
Ma Anqi looked at He Shu sincerely: "Perhaps this hypnosis brought back many bad memories for you. If you don't want to recall these, I have a way to make you forget them."
He Shu shook his head slightly, put on the last piece of clothing, and tidied himself up a little.
Then he turned to face Ma Anqi who was blocking the door: "Sister Anqi, the hypnosis has been successful this time. I don't think you need my help anymore ."
"He Shu, I chose you not because of our cooperation, but because I think you are a person with strong psychological endurance."
He Shu was silent, and Ma Anqi continued, "Psychology believes that people have a self-protection mechanism that will hide those bad memories in their subconscious."
"But that doesn't mean you've really forgotten it. Those things will be like a hidden disease, hidden in your mind forever, and will burst out when you encounter similar things."
"He Shu, you've read so many books, you should understand that blocking is worse than unblocking. Why don't you take this opportunity to completely resolve your own problems?"
Ma Anqi did not avoid He Shu's gaze, she knew how to regain his trust.
"Do you remember the first time we met? Director Zhou asked me to come because of your self-harming behavior, and we had a pleasant chat that day."
"Afterwards, I said to Director Zhou, He Shu, you are a strong person inside, and your world is full of vitality, so you will not do anything to hurt yourself."
"But today, through hypnosis, you made me understand more. Maybe I didn't really see it clearly in the last psychological profile. He Shu, can I still believe that you won't do anything extreme in the future?"
Ma Anqi said a lot, and He Shu understood it all, but at this moment, he really didn't want to chat.
"Sister Anqi, everyone has their own life and everyone has their own choices."
"In fact, you trust your skills too much. Humans are changeable and emotionally complex animals."
He Shu pointed to his head and said, "This isn't a computer either. Rewriting a few programs will produce different results."
"What you think is good may not be good for me, so our cooperation is over. You don't need to blame yourself, and I don't need treatment, because those memories are originally mine."
"Whether I want to hide or throw away something that belongs to me is my own business."
Looking into He Shu's eyes, Ma Anqi was speechless and silently opened the door.
He Shu walked past her, went to the living room, picked up his coat and cell phone, and left Ma Anqi's house late at night.
On the way back to the city, there weren't many vehicles because it was already late.
The wide road was very quiet, with the occasional flash of light in the distance, moving closer and closer.
The driver on the opposite side did not change the light, and He Shu squinted his eyes, blinded for a moment by the dazzle of the headlights.
If it were someone else, they might have started cursing, but He Shu simply slowed down the car and waited until his vision recovered before stepping on the accelerator.
He couldn't explain how he felt right now. He just controlled himself not to be distracted while driving and controlled himself not to step on the accelerator completely.
I arrived in the city safely. If I went back to my grandfather's house at this time, I would definitely make my aunt quarrel.
The school was on vacation, and He Shu suddenly had nowhere to go.
He parked his car beside the road outside the school and took out his cell phone to flip through it.
Xia Miao sent him a good night message at 9 o'clock in the evening, but he had already gone to bed by then.
He Shu threw his phone onto the passenger seat, leaned back in the seat, and looked out of the car quietly.
He didn't blame Ma Anqi, because these memories were not given to him by Ma Anqi, but were already there for him.
I just don't know when I forgot everything.
I don’t know if Ma Anqi’s guidance during hypnosis worked?
At this moment, He Shu recalled the past, those terrible and helpless moments, but they did not make him very excited.
Everything is over. Now he has someone he loves and someone who loves him, so everything in the past is not so important anymore.
In fact, after he was ten years old, his mother never thought about suicide again, and they lived a warm and dependent life for another three or four years.
He Shu closed his eyes. He was no longer concerned about whether his mother loved him or not.
The grace of giving birth is greater than that of man, and the grace of raising a child is greater than that of heaven.
No matter what his childhood was like, it was his mother who gave birth to him, raised him, and gave him a home.
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At six o'clock in the morning, He Shu returned to the compound.
Grandpa had already woken up. When he saw He Shu coming back, he called him over to have some soy milk.
Zhu Yu came down from upstairs and glanced at He Shu: "Xiao Shu, did you not sleep well outside yesterday?"
"Yeah, a little bit."
"Then have breakfast and go upstairs to sleep for a while."
Zhu Yu scooped a spoonful of sugar into He Shu's soy milk: "Is everything done? I heard from your uncle that the psychologist is quite good."
"Yeah." He Shu smiled and said, "It's really amazing."
After drinking two sips of soy milk, He Shu saw that only his grandfather and aunt were at home, so he asked where his uncle was.
"He went back to the army to arrange some things so that he can have time to accompany you to Nanzhan."
"Oh, he should be back in a few days."
Zhu Yu looked at He Shu with some concern: "Just ask your aunt to help him fulfill his wish, why do you have to go by yourself?"
"Don't worry, auntie, there's no danger."
Grandpa soon felt full, put down his spoon, and wiped his mouth with a handkerchief.
"When do we leave?"
"Wait for uncle to come back, and we'll discuss it as soon as possible. The sooner we go, the sooner we can return."
"Hehe, you little brat, you're still thoughtful." Grandpa stood up with a smile, and walked out with his hands behind his back.
"I'll go to the Cultural and Sports Center to see who's there and play chess with someone."
Upon hearing this, Zhu Yu hurried over, helped the old man dress warmly, and then called Xiao Ding to come over to keep him company.
After grandpa left the house, Zhu Yu returned to the restaurant and sighed.
"Ever since Mr. Dong passed away, your grandpa has no one to play with."
"Aunt, don't think too much. My grandpa has seen many deaths and lives. He's fine."
Zhu Yu looked at He Shu in surprise. Seeing that he was eating breakfast with his head down, it seemed as if what he just said was unintentional.
But after so many days, Zhu Yu has gotten to know He Shu quite well.
Under normal circumstances, he would definitely be worried about his grandfather's mood just like himself.
"Xiao Shu, you were at Ma Anqi's place last night. Nothing happened, right?"
"No? I was doing an experiment for Sister Anqi. If she didn't live in such a remote place, I would have returned last night."
Seeing that He Shu was really fine, Zhu Yu felt relieved.
"Eat more. The fried fruit tastes better when it's freshly fried. It won't be crispy when it gets cold."
"I'm full, aunt, I still want to catch up on some sleep. When my uncle comes back, ask him to call me."
Zhu Yu smiled and nodded: "Okay, then go to sleep."
He Shu wiped his mouth, got up and went upstairs. Zhu Yu watched him enter the room.
I always feel like something is wrong, but I can't tell what it is.
She shook her head and felt that she was starting to have wild thoughts again. It must be because she was too worried about He Shu going out.
Especially since it’s the place where the accident happened last time, I feel uneasy.
Zhu Yu let out another long sigh. Perhaps, she should also ask Ma Anqi for help?
I heard that she has provided psychological treatment to many people in the military. So, can her own anxiety be cured as well?
