Chapter 367 Dust-covered Memories
Humans have selective memory, but they don't really forget.
These things we don’t want to think about are buried deep in our hearts, which is our subconscious mind.
Many times people do not realize that many of their behaviors in adulthood are actually influenced by these subconscious thoughts.
Age regression technology is the hypnosis technique that Ma Anqi is currently studying.
Hypnosis can help people recall things that happened a long time ago. It is easier to recall things as far back as 7 or 8 years old, and some people can even remember fragments of memories between the ages of 1 and 3.
For those who have suffered psychological trauma in childhood, doing so is equivalent to reopening the scars that have already healed on the surface, exposing the rotten flesh and bones underneath.
However, a qualified psychotherapist treats physical illnesses just like a doctor.
Finding the cause of the disease is not the key; the key is to cure these hidden diseases.
Ma Anqi constantly communicated with He Shu, asked him to recall those bad past events, and then carefully guided him to help him rebuild or correct his views on these things.
Guide him to develop a correct and positive attitude to face it, instead of hiding it.
As He Shu narrated his stories one by one, Ma Anqi realized that what He Shu feared most in his heart was actually death.
This fear came from his mother in his childhood. He Shu witnessed her committing suicidal acts more than once.
Ma Anqi even learned that He Shu's mother had burned charcoal in the house, hoping to die with He Shu .
He also took He Shu to the rooftop and wanted to jump down together, but in the end, perhaps he couldn't bear it, so he stopped doing it.
However, these behaviors left serious psychological trauma on the young He Shu. He could not stand strange smells in the house and was afraid of heights, all of which were affected by hidden memories.
If this hypnosis had not led to his most direct question, he might have looked normal at the moment.
But maybe something in the future will stimulate him to suddenly remember it, and then lead to some unpredictable consequences.
If it weren't for He Shu's strong heart, if it weren't for the good people who guided him when he hadn't yet fully formed his own values.
If we give him a lot of emotions to make up for his deficiencies, he might develop into another extreme personality.
Especially Teacher Li, Zhao Qishui, Xia Miao and his aunt, they became his spiritual support and could be said to have saved him.
That's why after he went to jail and other things, he didn't go down the wrong path.
In fact, He Shu’s childhood not only lacked fatherly love, but also lacked normal maternal love.
Judging from the information He Shu provided, He Shu's mother Qi Yue was a person who looked very weak but was very extreme inside.
The failed marriage dealt a heavy blow to her. In Ma Anqi's opinion, she would occasionally develop a world-weary mentality and want to hurt her children, but she would realize her mistake in time.
There is also a mixture of love and hate between her and He Shu's father.
The stimulation and fear that Qi Yue's abnormal behavior brought to He Shu were hidden in He Shu's subconscious mind by his own self-protection reaction, and even he himself forgot about it.
So in his heart, he imagined that his mother loved him very much and that they had a very good relationship.
This is both a means of self-protection for humans and a form of self-hypnosis.
He Shu did this simply because he had no one to rely on except his mother when he was young.
Many children who grow up in single-parent families actually tend to have more inner pressure than those who grow up in ordinary families, and they also mature earlier than children of the same age.
But if he has more interactions with other relatives and friends on a daily basis, so that his focus is not entirely on one person, then it will not have any impact on his psychology.
Or if his mother Qi Yue was someone who could let go and take care of her son wholeheartedly, He Shu would not be affected too much.
It was precisely because of Qi Yue's extreme personality that He Shu stopped hurting herself and her children even after he grew up.
But it also made her depressed and sickly. At that time, He Shu became the only person who could take care of her.
A child like He Shu, who has no one to rely on except his mother, will instinctively develop a sense of shared destiny, even if he did not understand what it meant at the time.
So after his mother Qi Yue passed away, He Shu began to condemn himself, thinking that he was unable to save his mother.
If Ma Anqi hadn't learned many facts through hypnosis, He Shu would probably have been deceiving himself all his life.
Now that she had opened He Shuchen's sealed box, she could only let him face these things calmly.
Guide him to think and face things from a rational adult's perspective, and the emotions he generates will not be as profound as when he was a child.
Then he will be able to face the true feelings between himself and his mother, and even if he has some regrets, his personality will not be affected by his subconscious mind.
Xia Miao has been paying attention to him since middle school. When he was bullied, she told the teacher to protect him and found reasons to give him delicious food.
These seemingly small things actually make up to a large extent for the care that He Shu lacks that he should have received from his mother's love.
He Shu himself probably didn't realize that the reason why he initially rejected everyone except Xia Miao's approach to him was actually because of maternal love.
His girlfriend Xia Miao, and Teacher Li whom he mentioned, both appeared very timely.
It promptly filled the emotional gap that He Shu needed during the panic period when he lost his only support and gave him a helping hand.
It can be said that He Shu is unfortunate, but he is also lucky...
After checking the time, Ma Anqi knew it was almost time, so she said softly to He Shu, "He Shu, you are very sleepy now. It's time to go to bed."
The emotionally excited He Shu gradually calmed down and fell into a real sleep.
Ma Anqi took a thin blanket and gently placed it over his chest and abdomen, then stood beside He Shu and looked at him for a long time.
This deep hypnosis was very successful, but Ma Anqi didn't know what the consequences would be, or whether her guided treatment would be effective.
Because she didn't expect that He Shu had hidden so many things in his childhood memories.
The time of hypnosis must also be strictly controlled, as there will be no time to do anything else.
But He Shu cannot be hypnotized continuously, because in order to achieve deep hypnosis, some auxiliary drugs are needed.
The glass of milk that He Shu drank before contained a small amount of diazepam, and excessive use would cause side effects.
Ma Anqi rubbed her forehead, calculated the time, and waited for He Shu to sleep for almost half an hour before waking him up.
He Shu opened his eyes. The bright white light made his vision blurry and his head began to ache.
He Shu was helped to sit up by Ma Anqi, and he covered his head with his hands, looking somewhat painful.
"How do you feel? The headache is due to the sudden recovery of memory. It will get better in a while."
He Shu didn't say anything, closed his eyes again, and sat on the edge of the recliner, covering his forehead.
His mind was in a state of confusion, with all those forgotten memories from the past flooding back.
An extreme sadness that he had never felt even when his mother died suddenly welled up in his heart.
Ma Anqi did not seal up He Shu's hidden painful memories again, nor did she let him choose to forget.
Because memory is something that, once you've seen it and experienced it, it will never completely disappear.
It's just hidden in the deepest part, and one day when you are in a similar situation, it will jump out to remind you that you have experienced it.
Ma Anqi was prepared for He Shu's reaction.
"Did you remember a lot of things?"
He Shu still didn't say anything. He opened his eyes and let the tears fall quietly, but his expression was very serious.
“Can you tell me how it feels to look back on those events now?”
He Shu finally responded and looked at Ma Anqi: "Isn't the hypnosis over?"
"Yes, it's over."
"Can I go now?"
"It's late, why don't you sleep here? I've prepared a guest room for you, and I want to talk to you again tomorrow."
He Shu stood up and pulled his loose bathrobe to cover the scar on his chest: "No, I have something else to do tomorrow."
