Chapter 35 Chapter 35

The air became quiet.

The only sound left in the car was the girl's constant sobbing.

Xu Yiyi squeezed the Barbie doll in her arms tightly with her fingertips. Her pair of deer eyes, which should always be filled with smiles and filled with bright stars, were filled with tears at this moment. Her lips were trembling as she cried, and she couldn't say a complete sentence for a long time.

"B-But why...you want to give me a gift? Si Qingyu, why are you doing this?"

First give her a gift and then break up with her. How could he do this to her?

Xu Yiyi seemed to have been greatly wronged.

From her perspective, she was very confused. She didn't know what she had done to make Si Qingyu say such things?

Doesn't he like her?

But why do you still carry her if you don't like her? Want to hold her in the hospital bed? If you don't like her, why would you put her favorite candies in the office?

He treats her well, but wants to separate from her?

Why?

Xu Yiyi didn't understand, but the fact that Si Qingyu wanted to separate from her was enough to make her sad.

She asked him not to say anything, but he still wanted to say it...

Did he start to hate her?

"Is it because I talk a lot and am noisy?"

"Or is it because I hurt you last week?"

"Did I quarrel with you on the balcony last time?"

"Si Qingyu." The tears in his eyes were once again due to being too full. Overflowing, tears rolled down her face like broken pearls. Xu Yiyi spoke incoherently, "Did I go to you today and make you unhappy? That must be the case. You don't like me asking you. You must be unhappy when I go to see you. I still don’t listen to you and the trash is all over the sofa... Is that why you start to hate me? Or do you like that lawyer now? Sister?" She nodded, her mental state obviously not very stable, and began to mutter to herself, "She must be. She is so beautiful, mature and stable, but she is not like me, she will only make you trouble... It must be this—"

"Xu Yiyi!" Si Qingyu held her shoulders as if he couldn't bear it. The phoenix eyes under the lenses were covered with red bloodshot eyes from a sleepless night.

Xu Yiyi's words turned into countless knives, pricking him with bloody holes all over his body.

It was clearly Xu Yiyi who was crying, but he looked even more embarrassed and painful than her.

Xu Yiyi looked at him blankly with eyes red from crying, and asked him word for word: "Si Qingyu, are you annoying me so much now?"

One night in Los Angeles, Si Qingyu also asked Said the same thing.

Xu Yiyi was asleep at the time and did not hear, let alone answer.

Now, the same question was thrown to him.

Si Qingyu suddenly realized that he had no way to answer...

He could let their relationship end here, but words like "bored" couldn't be said with full love, even if it was against one's will. arrive.

Because you will see the people you love hurt over and over again by your unintentional words.

Because she will be sad and sad.

Therefore, your love will make you so cautious that you dare not hurt her again...

The fingers holding her shoulders tightened little by little, and Si Qingyu finally said weakly: "Yiyi, don't do this. ..."

Xu Yiyi felt very uncomfortable now, and her brain was confused. She couldn't listen to what he said, and she insisted, "You just hate me!"

The veins on Si Qingyu's forehead kept twitching, and he clenched his buttocks. Ya, trying to calm her down, shouted at her: "Xu Yiyi!"

Xu Yiyi burst into tears suddenly, "You are still mean to me, you just hate me."

Si Qingyu: "... ."

Si Qingyu now really knows what it means to suffer for one's own fault.

He took out a piece of paper to wipe her tears. As a result, Xu Yiyi cried more and more fiercely. The paper in the car was piled up like water. She couldn't shed her tears no matter how hard she cried.

Si Qingyu was confused by her, and even his cold face gradually relaxed, and his tone became much gentler when he spoke.

He coaxed in a low voice: "I'm not hurting you, stop crying."

He just didn't want to see her like this.

The tip of Xu Yiyi's nose was red from crying and she was sobbing, "Si, Si Qingyu, you can't, you can't do this to me."

How could he be nice to her and push her away at the same time.

Still pushing her away when she liked him the most.

He wanted to break up with her while they were watching the sunrise, but the sunrise was obviously their beginning, so how could he say goodbye to her at the sunrise when they were in love.

Xu Yiyi started to cry incontinently again.

The man who had always been steady became at a loss because of her.

One moment he wiped her tears, and the next moment he was hesitant to speak but tried to think of ways to comfort her.

But no matter what was said, Xu Yiyi didn't like to hear it.

So he could only get a more aggrieved cat.

Si Qing had no choice but to lift her chin and continued to wipe away her tears despite her headache.

He patiently said, "Yiyi, don't be like this in the future."

Before she wanted to yell at him for being cruel to her again, he taught her earnestly: "Yiyi, before you like others, you should cherish yourself more. Don't despise yourself casually. Those words just now, no matter what It's about me..." After a pause, he continued: "Don't say anything to the people you will like in the future, remember?"

Si Qingyu has never felt so conflicted.

Deep down in his bones, he wanted to take her as his own and control her.

But he didn't like seeing her lowering her posture.

Xu Yiyi cried less, and her confused look looked even more confused than before, "But, I don't, I don't despise myself. I just like you very much."

She likes him, so she doesn't want him to hate her. .

Is there anything wrong with this?

Si Qingyu stiffened in wiping her tears, and his light-colored pupils trembled slightly.

While his heart softened, those knives pierced in densely again, completely turning his heart into a pool of blood...

He avoided her loving eyes, did not answer her words, but returned to his seat and took off his glasses. He pinched the bridge of his nose and said, exhausted both physically and mentally: "Calm down first, and we'll talk when you calm down."

He also needed to keep himself awake.

In just a few minutes, he had been shaken by her hundreds of times, and almost every second he wanted to impulsively pull her into his arms, and just rub her into his body.

After a long time, Xu Yiyi said: "Okay."

She held the Barbie doll and stared blankly at the bright sky outside the car window.

None of them spoke.

Xu Yiyi thought she would think a lot, for example, what accident happened to them these days that made Si Qingyu make such a decision...

But in fact, she didn't think about anything, she was just waiting. When I stopped crying, I asked him the same question again.

"Why did you give me a gift?"

The person in the driver's seat moved his eyelids without opening his eyes, and said in a dumb voice, "Apologizing requires sincerity."

Xu Yiyi's lips couldn't stop trembling twice.

An apology needs to be sincere.

This is what she said...

One day, she was playing a small game on Si Qingyu's computer and accidentally spilled milk tea into his computer.

The moment the computer screen went black, her brain also shut down.

Si Qingyu hadn't come back at that time, but it wasn't far before he returned to the hotel.

Xu Yiyi instantly picked up the computer and ran outside, trying to restore the computer to its original state before Si Qingyu came back.

As a result, before she had even put on her clothes, Si Qingyu called. He said that he was already downstairs in the hotel and asked her to go downstairs now and he would take her to dinner.

Xu Yiyi: "..."

She started to hesitate and make excuses, "Well... Sisi, aren't you going to have dinner with your clients today?"

Si Qingyu: "Yeah. Let's eat with you."

Xu Yiyi: "But now I probably -"

Si Qingyu interrupted her: "Xu Yiyi, what did you do again?"

Xu Yiyi immediately said: "Nothing! I'll go downstairs right away!"

After that, He put the computer in his backpack and planned to find an excuse to fix it for him after dinner.

Xu Yiyi's plan was perfect, but it was a bit difficult to implement it.

Because there is no computer repair place near where they eat.

At this time, Xu Yiyi, who was dragging Si Qingyu shopping after dinner, but actually wanted to repair her computer, saw a jewelry store in front of her.

With a flash of inspiration, Xu Yiyi took Si Qingyu to the jewelry store to buy gifts.

When choosing a gift, Xu Yiyi started to lay the groundwork -

she said: "Um, Sisi..."

Si Qingyu glanced over indifferently.

Xu Yiyi always felt that she hadn't said anything yet. Why did she feel like Si Qingyu knew everything?

She shook her head, pushed away the unrealistic speculation, and continued with a bright smile: "Actually, it's nothing, it's just that I have a friend who asked me for help today, saying that his computer was broken and the information in it was missing. Do it again. Hey, why don't you know how to make a backup? If he had a backup, he would still have to stay up all night and insist on holding me back."

Xu Yiyi said seriously . Bian shook his head dissatisfiedly, and after finishing speaking, he pretended to be casual and asked Si Qingyu, "Sisi, do you always have backups of the data in your computer? Let me tell you, backups are really important. If one day -"

Before she finished speaking, Si Qingyu said calmly: "You broke my computer."

He didn't even ask a question.

Xu Yiyi: "..."

Xu Yiyi was shocked, and then she smiled panickedly, "How is that possible, of course not-" Halfway through her words, she saw Si Qingyu looking at her quietly.

Xu Yiyi immediately snatched the newly selected and packaged couple's rings from the shopping guide and stuffed them into his hands. She knelt down in a second and said, "I was wrong, Sisi, I didn't mean to do it! It was the milk tea that made the move first." ! This is my sincerity in apologizing. Don't be angry if you accept it."

After saying this, Si Qing Yuyuan hurriedly took out a card and gave it to the shopping guide, saying in fluent English: "Please swipe your card. Just give it to my husband." After saying that, he rubbed the soles of his feet and ran away.

Si Qingyu was left alone, laughing silently.

When Si Qingyu came out of the jewelry store, Xu Yiyi saw the man standing in the night and looking around, as if he was looking for something.

Looking down, she saw the man's left hand hanging by his side, with a gold plain ring on his slender white ring finger.

It was the apology gift she just gave him!

Xu Yiyi's eyes lit up.

Coincidentally, Si Qingyu also saw her hiding behind the tree.

Under the moonlight, he silently raised his left hand, palm down, moved his knuckles, and waved to her.

Xu Yiyi immediately ran over, hugged his left hand that had a couple ring on it, and said hey, "You are wearing a ring, don't be angry with me."

Si Qingyu raised his hand. She tapped lightly on her forehead, curled up the corner of her mouth, and whispered: "It's such a big detour, do you want to apologize, or do you have selfish motives?"

Xu Yiyi stretched out her hand, her eyes curled into crescents. , "Since you have seen through it, I admit that I was just afraid that you would be angry with me, so I wanted to buy a gift to coax you in advance. Then we happened to pass by this store again, and there happened to be a beautiful matching ring, so I bought it Isn't it the icing on the cake as an apology gift?"

Si Qingyu took out another one and put it on her. He took her hand and said with a hint of endearment, "That's nonsense."

The two walked hand in hand.

Xu Yiyi disagreed: "How can it be nonsense? An apology must be sincere. Of course I can forgive you if you say you're sorry, but if you can buy me a gift to coax me, I will Even happier."

Si Qingyu glanced at her: "Are you telling me?"

Xu Yiyi: "Did you find out again?"

She jumped back and forth, "So, what if we quarrel in the future? , you are going to coax me like this, you know?"

Si Qingyu looked at the road ahead and protected her. Hearing the sound, a smile appeared in his eyes, and he said, "I'll give it a try."

Xu Yiyi was satisfied, "Then let's do it. Where are you going now?"

A passerby came over, and Si Qingyu pulled her into his arms, raised his hand and rubbed her head punishingly, "Fix the computer."

Xu Yiyi scratched her cheek and grinned at him.

Si Qingyu held her hand and the two blended into the crowd...

so he remembered everything.

Even if it was just such a small thing, he didn't forget it.

So how could he say "that's it"?

Can he really end it like this?

Xu Yiyi turned to look at the man in the driver's seat.

The man leaned his head back on the seat, his eyebrows furrowed and his eyes closed tightly.

His always sharp face was extremely pale.

Those memories like strawberry ice cream in the past have all turned into thorns, which cannot be pulled out and will only cause pain to those who are trapped in the memories.

Xu Yiyi became more and more confused.

"Why?" Her crying voice became hoarse, "You bought me gifts to coax me into apologizing, but you still break up with me..."

"Si Qingyu, why?" She wanted a positive answer. .

He'd better convince her with this answer, otherwise she wouldn't let him go so easily.

The person in the driver's seat slowly opened his eyelids and said quietly: "Age, personality, likes and dislikes -"

He tilted his head, his eyes darkened, "Do you need me to say more?"

Xu Yiyi's heart was stung, but She still bravely asked him, "But if these are the questions, why did you date me at that time?"

Si Qingyu said calmly: "It's just because I tried it and found that it was not suitable."

Xu Yiyi's guard was broken by the word "inappropriate", "Not...appropriate? Si Qingyu, what on earth do you want to say..."

Probably because he was really tired, Si Qingyu sighed: "Yiyi, I will be thirty soon..."

Xu Yiyi heard the meaning of his words, and her voice began to tremble, "So, you want to get married, right?"

Si Qingyu didn't speak again, so it was default.

Xu Yiyi froze on the spot, her expression blank.

There is a voice in the brain saying: Tell him that you can marry him too! Since he wants to get married, since he cares about you, and since you like him so much, why can't the person he marries be you?

But the phrase "I can marry you" kept lingering on her lips, but she couldn't say it out...

This was Xu Yiyi's first exposure to the topic of "marriage".

She had never thought about what it would be like to get married and what it would be like after marriage.

She always felt that this problem was still far away from her. At the moment, she was thinking more about: Where should I go on a date with the person I like today? I must go to that restaurant with him tomorrow. Why didn't he reply to my WeChat message today? I have to go find him quickly after school today...

it's all today.

She always only thought about the present, and never thought about the distant future about them.

So, when Si Qingyu suddenly mentioned that he was already thirty, Xu Yiyi suddenly realized that, yes, Si Qingyu was much older than her. Although age had never been an issue in her eyes, she didn't Being concerned doesn't mean that Si Qingyu doesn't care.

Thirty years old...

It seems to be a common thing at this age to be urged to get married by parents.

Even Brother Zheng, who is the same age as Si Qingyu, has already had his second child this year...

Marriage may not be worth mentioning to some people.

But for more adults, this is their future life and their responsibility.

Just like Si Qingyu...

he said he was thirty.

He said he also wanted to have a family...

He didn't think she could give him those things, so he said: Let's do this.

All problems seemed to be explained at this moment.

But for some reason, Xu Yiyi was even sadder and aggrieved than before.

She wanted to ask Si Qingyu, since he broke up with her because he wanted to get married, what did their previous relationship mean?

trial?

I tried it and found that she was not suitable, so I no longer wanted to play with her. Do you want to get married?

Xu Yiyi is not a person who can hide her worries, nor is she a person who lets her anger stay overnight. When she is angry, she will get angry on the spot. If she doesn't understand something, she will just open her mouth and ask.

She asked Si Qingyu, "So, you think I'm naive and ignorant now, so you don't want to play with me, right?"

How ridiculous, just like those irresponsible people on the Internet who after talking to beautiful girls, finally found a The most honest married scumbag.

Si Qingyu wanted to say something, but in the end he said nothing.

Xu Yiyi patiently gave him once, twice, and three times... She gave him many minutes of opportunities.

As a result, Si Qingyu said: "I will send you back."

Xu Yiyi was about to cry in anger.

But maybe she shed too many tears just now, and now she can't cry.

She wanted to throw the baby in her arms at Si Qingyu's face and tell him to get away.

But she still didn't do it.

What she was thinking was: South China was too far away and she couldn't take a taxi home. The doll is too expensive and not worth it if it breaks.

In fact, she still didn't want to believe that Si Qingyu could be this kind of person.

She is not a fool. She can feel whether Si Qingyu likes her or not and how he treats her.

But she was still very angry, angry that he would separate from her even if he said something against his will.

So, what is the real reason?

Maybe he really wanted to get married, and he also knew that she was still young and not old enough to consider this.

Or maybe it was because of their previous quarrels over personality issues. Not only Si Qingyu, but even she occasionally felt that they might really not be suitable for each other.

Probably...

it probably just wasn't appropriate...

Xu Yiyi also felt tired.

She didn't want to talk. She closed her eyes and sat quietly in the passenger seat. She stopped making noise and made no noise. She just wanted to go home.

There was silence all the way.

At nearly nine o'clock, Si Qingyu parked the car in front of Xu Yiyi's house.

Xu Yiyi fell asleep.

Si Qingyu looked at her quietly for a while, then unbuckled his seat belt and got out of the car, walking around to Xu Yiyi's side.

The moment the car door was opened, the early morning wind came in and shocked Xu Yiyi.

She suddenly woke up from her nightmare, and when she opened her eyes, she saw Si Qingyu bending over to unbuckle her seat belt.

She immediately stepped back, avoiding him, and said in a cold tone: "No, thank you."

Si Qingyu was stunned for a moment, and the hand he extended stagnated in the air for two breaths before slowly clenching it and taking it back.

He said in a very soft voice: "Okay."

Xu Yiyi unbuckled her seat belt, put the Barbie doll back into the box, and jumped out of the car with the doll in her arms.

When Si Qingyu saw her making such a dangerous move, his body reaction was too fast and he reached out to hold her arm. His brows were knotted and he said in a deep voice: "Worried."

As soon as he finished speaking, Xu Yiyi followed her. As if something was wrapped around him, he quickly pulled his hand away, so hard that the back of his hand accidentally hit Si Qingyu's chin.

Si Qingyu was stunned.

Xu Yiyi was also stunned.

The air was quiet for two seconds. Xu Yiyi jumped back on one foot, holding on to the car, avoiding his eyes, and whispered: "I didn't mean it, you had to help me..."

Si Qing Yu's face turned a little pale again. When he spoke, his voice was cold, but his chest resonated with his voice and trembled a little. "It's okay. Go in," he said.

Xu Yiyi said coldly, turned and left.

Halfway through, she seemed to have remembered something, and turned back to Si Qingyu and said, "You're right, we may not be suitable for each other." She bent her eyes and smiled, but her words were louder than she had been in hours. The former Si Qingyu was even more ruthless.

She smiled and said, "Don't worry, I will listen to you and I won't like you anymore."

After saying that, she jumped and turned around, but the moment she turned around, tears burst into her eyes.

He doesn't want her anymore, so what else does she like about him?

She doesn't like him anymore. From today on, she doesn't like him anymore.

The cold iron door opens and closes automatically.

Completely cutting off all sight of Si Qingyu.

He suddenly laughed.

His shoulders were shaking as he lowered his head and laughed, as if he was venting something crazily.

The wind blows.

The man with the crazy smile suddenly started coughing nonstop again, as if he wanted to cough out all his internal organs before he would stop.

Si Qingyu's blood-red eyes stared at the hand that Xu Yiyi had just waved away.

In the palm of the hand, the area scratched by the lens not long ago has not yet healed. It seems that the owner has not taken good care of it, and it looks like it has just scabbed.

Back in the car, Si Qingyu leaned on the back of his seat and closed his eyes.

The left hand hanging by his side was gathered up little by little, and the gaps between the neatly manicured nails were instantly filled with blood. He thought to himself: Si Qingyu, you really deserve it...