Chapter 32

There was no one in the supermarket, because no one would come to buy new year's goods at this time - except the two of them.

Although there were lanterns and festoons and "Good Luck" was playing, and there was a joyful atmosphere everywhere, Xu Zhi still felt lonely and desolate. The red ribbons were like the blush applied on the face of a matchmaker in the countryside.

Funny and inappropriate.

"Want corn?" Fei Nanzhou looked away from the shelves, stopped the cart in his hand, and turned to ask her.

Xu Zhi went over and looked at the price: "Don't want it... I remember it was cheaper the last time I came here. It said a discount, but the price was deliberately raised! It's so dark!"

"The mall is always like this. It’s a routine. But it’s come and gone, and you still have to be slaughtered.” He said with a smile.

Xu Zhi said: "We can switch to another one."

He was a little funny, and asked her: "No need to pay for gas?"

Xu Zhi choked for a moment, and then whispered: "We can walk there."

She thought he would not pay attention to her . However, who knew that he said in a soft voice: "Okay, let's find another one."

She was shocked in her heart and said hurriedly: "I'm kidding you, no, we can buy things that haven't increased in price, and we don't have to ask for corn." Yeah."

He smiled slightly and nodded.

Every time Xu Zhi goes to the supermarket, she feels that there is nothing to buy, but when she actually steps into the supermarket, the cart will soon be full of things.

Without exception, every time.

"I don't know either. I'm sorry for causing you to push such a heavy car." She said apologetically.

"What nonsense are you talking about? You're so foreign to me?" He originally wanted to touch her head again subconsciously, but he raised his hand and put it down again.

Xu Zhi looked at him puzzled.

He laughed self-deprecatingly: "You're used to it, you can't change it."

She pursed her lips, and after a while she took the initiative to move her head towards her: "If you really want to take a photo, just do it."

"Forget it!" He couldn't laugh or cry.

When checking out, Xu Zhi secretly took a pack of chewing gum from the shelf and threw it in.

"You don't usually eat this." Fei Nanzhou glanced at him and said in surprise.

"I've never seen this flavor before, and I want to try it."

Fei Nanzhou didn't say anything else. She just wanted to buy everything she saw.

After returning to her residence, Xu Zhi dug out the hot pot dish that had been used for a long time and said happily: "I found it!"

Fei Nanzhou knelt down next to her and looked at it for a while: "You should be here ——Eat hot pot?"

He pointed to the room.

Only then did Xu Zhi realize that she couldn't live in the house if she was in it.

Her face fell, and she was very disappointed: "I bought so many ingredients..."

"Silly, we can go to the terrace to cook it."

She was only happy for two seconds, and then became worried: "...Will the property management call me? ..."

Fei Nanzhou laughed: "No, it smells so bad when cooked in the house, how can it be so smelly outside?"

Hotpot is only fun when there are many people. Fei Nanzhou called Xie Chengan and Zhou Yiyang again. , and Zhou Yiyang’s wife.

"I didn't even eat the New Year's Eve dinner, so I came to stay with you. Are we good brothers?!" Xie Chengan kicked off his shoes as soon as he entered the door and threw his coat on the entrance table.

"This is Zhizhi's house, not mine. Can you please stop acting like a Japanese invader entering the village?" Fei Nanzhou poured tea for them and each of them shared a cup.

Xie Chengan hurriedly said to Xu Zhi: "Sorry, sorry, I'm used to it."

Zhou Yiyang and his wife are both intellectuals, and they speak in a civilized manner, unlike Xie Chengan.

Of course, maybe it was because he wasn't familiar with her.

After sitting around in the living room for a while, they went to the balcony to cook pot. Zhou Yiyang accidentally asked Fei Nanzhou about his work plan.

He thought for a moment and said, "We'll wait until the transfer order comes down. It's still unknown how many shares I will hold after the reorganization. Some of them will have to be taken over."

"Are those old antiques willing?" Zhou Yiyang stopped using his chopsticks, frowned, and asked from one side of the princes If you become a minority shareholder and your rights are divided into two or one into many, who will do it? Although the territory has expanded, it is still unclear whether it can control one-third of the land in its hands, and it may even be completely defeated by new competitors.

He is a person who seeks stability, and he did not agree with Fei Nanzhou's risky decision at the beginning.

But this man had his own way and had his own plans, and there was nothing he could do about it. As a friend, apart from caring and helping, there is nothing that can help him share his worries.

"How is that possible? It's making a lot of noise." Fei Nanzhou smiled sarcastically, "But it can't make any waves."

"Yes, it's the general trend." Zhou Yiyang said.

"Stop talking about this, get rid of the meat, and you won't get old if you don't eat it again." Zhou Yiyang's wife Liang Xi greeted them with a smile.

She is a senior translator who works in a translation-related state-owned enterprise in China and is an upper-middle-level leader. Recently, the company acquired an external translation subsidiary and was busy recruiting staff and making business adjustments. She was very busy and rarely came out.

Liang Xi is easy to get along with, gentle and talkative, and takes great care of Xu Zhi.

I heard that she wanted to change jobs and introduced her to their company. They said that due to business adjustments, new positions were available and they could recommend her.

It wasn't that Xu Zhi couldn't find a job, but he was still waiting and thinking about joining the job on the basis of merit, so he declined politely.

But in fact, she had already made a decision in her heart at this time.

Liang Xi didn't force it, and smiled and turned to talk about things in school.

"Are you from A University? It's amazing, you are a top student." She was quite surprised, "You have better grades than Yi Yang." She

glanced at Xie Chengan, pursed her lips, smiled, and said, "Cheng'an... don't mention it. That's fine."

"Hey, hey, if you don't do this, you'll expose me, right? You're just a top student and I'm a bad student, right?"

There was a burst of laughter at the dinner table.

Later, they asked to go skiing, but Xu Zhi refused: "It's rare to celebrate the New Year, so I want to rest at home for two days."

"What you said is novel. Don't normal people like to go out during the New Year?" Xie Chengan opened her desk .

Xu Zhi rolled her eyes at him: "I'm happy to."

Xie Chengan shrugged.

"You go ahead, we won't go." Fei Nanzhou declined politely and sent them outside.

It was already dark when they came back, and the two of them stood at the stairs waiting for the elevator.

The red numbers jumped up one by one, the emergency sensor lights were turned off, and the field of vision suddenly became dark.

Xu Zhi hurriedly went to press the button, but Fei Nanzhou was one step ahead of her: "I'll do it."

The dim light briefly turned on again.

But everyone knows that it will soon go out again.

Both of them stood there in silence, not speaking.

After a while, the elevator finally arrived, but no one got in.

Xu Zhi hesitated for a moment, then looked back at him: "Why don't you go out for a walk? I ate a lot just now."

She subconsciously stretched out her hand to rub her belly.

Fei Nanzhou smiled fondly: "Okay."

At dusk, they walked slowly along the road in the community under the shadow of the trees. Occasionally, the wind blew by, causing the rustling of the branches and leaves.

The sky was gray, as if covered with a layer of mist, and there were no stars, not even the moon.

It was obviously still a familiar path, yet it felt extremely strange.

Unknowingly, Xu Zhi walked back downstairs, stopped and looked up blankly.

The lights in the room upstairs were on, and she realized that she had forgotten to turn off the lights before they went out.

"Next time I should pretend to close it on time." Fei Nanzhou joked with her.

Xu Zhi also smiled, but her heart felt empty.

In fact, she has been thinking about when to leave and where to go in the past two days.

But just yesterday, she got an offer from HU in France.

Maybe this is the answer fate gave her, at this unbroken moment.

I just never dared to tell him.

His thoughts were in a mess, and he went back to the scene when he saw him and Shang Xia on a blind date. That was the possible other half of his life in the future.

That's reality.

There was no escape for her, no avoidance.

In fact, I wanted to ask him after I got back that day, but I quickly swallowed the words that came to my mouth.

In fact, it doesn't matter who that person is, she is not a person, but a vague symbol. But it was all blurry before, and that day, it suddenly materialized in front of her.

No matter who that person was, it couldn't be her.

One day, she will watch him marry and have children, and she will become a person again, like the one who was abandoned countless times in the past.

Shen Cong gave up on her for revenge. Duan Hong liked her but not to the point where he had to be with her. Zhou Chunfang cared about her but she would never be the most important one in her heart...she would never be firmly chosen. that one.

It was like a curse that could not be escaped for many years.

Expected again and again and disappointed again and again.

Of course, this relationship also had another result, which was that he broke up with his family, fell out with his parents, and was accused by many people of being disgraced and became a street rat...

That was what she didn't want to see and was afraid of seeing.

Especially when the future of his career is uncertain.

He abandoned Hua Rui at all costs, and it is still unclear what will happen in the future.

She couldn't bear any outcome. She could only be a homing pigeon flying to a distant place.

Perhaps, that is the best result.

However, she seemed to have misjudged her position in his heart.

Only when Xu Zhi raised her head did she realize that he had been looking at her, his eyes dark and heavy, like the night above that could not be turned away.

It was also at that moment that Xu Zhi understood.

In fact, he had always noticed her changes these days, but he just didn't expose it.

"Decided?" After a while, Fei Nanzhou spoke.

It was too dark and the shadows of the trees were dancing, so she couldn't see his expression clearly.

At that moment he seemed indifferent, but also seemed lonely.

She didn't know and didn't dare to take a closer look. For a moment she was speechless and felt despicable, but then she still spoke: "Well, I plan to go abroad."

He didn't seem surprised, The tone was the same as usual: "What kind of job do you do?"

"Same as usual, but most likely it's a management position, and the boss is an old classmate of mine. Although it's a new company, it's very powerful." After saying that, she stopped talking, like It's the child who made a mistake and is waiting for his sentence. There is a wooden stake like a pestle over there.

He looked at her intently, his brows and eyes too dark to detect. After a while, he suddenly smiled: "Your friends are all over the world."

Xu Zhi couldn't laugh, "I will take good care of myself when I get there."

"Have you applied for the visa?"

"Already applied, still waiting." Her voice became smaller and smaller.

Fei Nanzhou didn't speak again, his face seemed as calm as numbness. He stood there without moving for a long time, until someone walked by, and he pulled her aside to let others pass first.

Two figures passed them by, and after a brief commotion, the surrounding area became quiet again.

The sound of the wind seemed to fade in my ears, turning into a distant and empty echo.

Only then did Fei Nanzhou say, "So - you just came to inform me?"

Xu Zhi was speechless, and her throat seemed to be blocked at that moment.

She lowered her head in silence, staring at the two entangled shadows at her feet, feeling helpless and anxious.

What was even more difficult for her to accept was what he said next -

he said: "What if I keep you?" Will you stay for me?

The hand she placed on her side trembled slightly and she clenched it tightly, not daring to look into his eyes at all.

After waiting for a long time for her response, he smiled sarcastically and said, "I'm the one who made things difficult for others."

"I'm sorry." Her voice was hoarse, but she seemed unable to say anything else except this sentence at the moment.

The voice was still as weak and delicate as usual, crisp and sweet, but it was extremely harsh in his ears. He took a deep breath: "Is it because my future is uncertain now? I won't lose."

"I know." She shook her head, paused for a while and said softly, "It's not because of this."

With his ability With courage, he can do well wherever he goes, it's just a matter of changing places.

Even if he had to start over again, he was never afraid.

He has the determination to keep making progress and the courage to fear nothing.

"What's the reason?" he asked again. In the past thirty-two years, he had never wanted an answer so stubbornly.

Perhaps, what he wanted was not the answer, he just hoped to awaken her reluctance, intolerance, entanglement and emotions through countless questioning.

But he was disappointed after all.

"Do you have to dig into the details like this?" Xu Zhi smiled.

However, this smile is uglier than crying.

He smiled: "I've never been like this before."

Xu Zhi was suddenly speechless and his lips moved. He coldly interrupted him before he could say anything: "Stop saying sorry. In this world, the cheapest thing is 'I'm sorry' 'These three words."

Xu Zhi's throat was sore and she had no way to refute.

After a while, she said softly: "Maybe we should all think calmly about whether this relationship is worth it. In fact, you deserve better, whether it is for your future development or life planning. And I...actually I often think about it. , am I too pathologically dependent on you? You have been good to me since I was a child. I am used to it. I am unwilling to let go and afraid of losing. We have been close since childhood... But in fact, this is not a healthy relationship. I just mistook this feeling for love."

He didn't answer, his face was cold and calm.

The two of them stood like this for a long time under the starless and moonless street lights, until their legs and feet became a little numb. The fallen leaves were picked up by the wind and blew against her calves, and she raised her head as if awakened from a dream.

But she saw him smiling lightly again and said, "Since you are destined to leave, why did you provoke me in the first place?"

Xu Zhi had no way to speak.

In the dim night, he raised his head and stood there silently, very calmly, even looking at her with a smile, with tears in his eyes: "You are an emotional liar."

Xu Zhi's body shook unconsciously After a few moments, I tried not to cry.